Disclaimer: I own nothing Power rangers, wish I did but that's life. I don't own this song either, it's "Colorblind "by the counting Crows.
"Colorblind"
I am colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
Ryan listened as the blonde gave him the run down on the medical bay's procedures. She looked at home here, totally the opposite of how he felt. He didn't feel at home here. He really didn't feel anything but a tolerance for this place. It was nothing more than steel and people, nothing special. True they were a formidable fighting force but he'd been able to handle them. But that was mostly the fighting skills of the rangers. Most of the people were in lab gear, looking so bla…
Looking now at the female who was his sister, he wondered what she was thinking, was she feeling as out of place here as he was. Not in this place but with him. After all she hadn't even known he was still alive, so it had to have been a shock. He wondered how he'd have handled it on the other side of the coin. Would he have been able to except her?
He thought back to the time he'd lived with the demons and knew that she wouldn't have been able to survive that. Not that he didn't think her strong enough but they'd been down right brutal at times. He could remember how it had been and new he couldn't ever go back to that, he just couldn't. It would truly kill him.
"Look, I know this has to be a lot to take in," Dana said catching his arm. Ryan tried not to flinch at the feel of her touch; he still wasn't used to that, the feel of uninjuring flesh on his. Still he knew, knew that he'd upset her if he flinched away from her. Then she was speaking again and he found himself feeling really weird.
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am
"Ryan, I'm sorry I haven't been around more to help you out." She sounded agitated; he could even see it in her eyes. Why? Was it because of the demons or because of him? Man, he just didn't know anything anymore. Then it hit him that he might be the one causing the feeling. If so he could fix it. At least he hoped he hoped he could. Now to just find the words.
Taffy stuck, tongue tied
Stuttered shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am...fine
"Dana its ok, we have a job to do." In truth Ryan didn't know what to say or do around her. He could cope with the others, they were just people, all working towards the same goal but she was his little sister, she was the reason he'd come back. When he'd met Katie and Jimmy he'd felt so odd, like he was seeing them, the way they should have been, not just when they were little but all the way up. Now though he just felt so discomfited whenever they were alone together.
He cursed the demons for doing this, for making him so unsure, for screwing everything up. Still, Ryan knew he couldn't go around hiding from her, she was his little sister. He was her brother, he just had to try. He had to find out just what that meant, what he felt for her. There had to be more than this odd wariness. After all Katie and Jimmy had been so like how they'd been… could he ever feel the way he'd felt at the memories, about this girl?
"Listen, why don't we go grab something to eat.'
I am covered in skin
No one gets to come in
Pull me out from inside
I am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding
I am
Colorblind
"I," he could see she was a little surprised by the suggestion and that was good. The uncomfortable feeling had slightly dissipated. Good, now he just had to try and think what to do next. He hoped he was ready for this.
However, Ryan Mitchell always finished what he started and he'd started this. He was now going to try and get to know his sister. Maybe in that he'd find a little part of his own future.
"Come on." He said taking her arm. The touch still felt odd, but since he'd been the one to initiate it he didn't mind.
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am...fine
I am.... fine
I am fine