Special disclaimer; the song used in this chapter is "On My Own" from the musical 'Les Miserables'.
"On My Own"
The house was still as Katherine sat there on the couch. She was the only one there, her parents having gone o a diner party. Gees, Katherine thought, they'd only been in AG for a few months and her parents were already on the list of the upper class.
Getting to her feet she moved into the kitchen and opened the refrigerator. It was odd, not that she didn't have to keep her weight down for diving she wasn't all that hungry. Not that she liked to eat all that much bet still.
Turning away from the refrigerator she thought of her new friends. Katherine knew she could call Aisha or Billy but why? They were all busy. Besides although they'd forgiven her for what she did to Kim there was still a lot between them. Sure she was the pink ranger but she was an outcast.
Then there was Tommy. He was the first guy she'd been interested in in a long time but also he was the one guy she couldn't have. He and Kim were still trying to make it work. She'd heard that long distant relationships didn't work and she had sort of hoped that was true. Not really in a mean way but Dang, the boy was fine…
Katherine closed her eyes and tried to imagine him there with her. Maybe he'd be sitting on the sofa, watching television while she got him a healthy snack…
And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to
Without a home without a friend
Without a face to say hello to
And now the night is near
I can make believe he's here
"Tommy did you want Soda or juice? I think we have some grapefruit or tomato."
"Tomato's fine."
Filling the glass she headed not the living room, moving to set the trey she'd prepared on the coffee table before him.
"Thanks Katherine you're the best."
Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head
Ok, enough day dreaming, she mused and then it hit her some fresh air might help clear her head and her thoughts. Quickly she ran upstairs, grabbed her jacket and pulling it on snatched up her keys. As an after thought he double checked her power coin, she'd have to be careful, Rita and Zed were bound to be after her blood with all that had happened.
Moving out into the twilight Katherine took a deep breath, the air was warm enough it being November and all but still Katherine was glad for his arm about her shoulder. She smiled up at Tommy who smiled back down at her. Together they made their way down the sidewalk, until they reached the park.
On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me
It was only then that the first soft drops of rain began to fall. Katherine smiled; it gave the area such a surreal appearance. And as she and Tommy walked and talked she felt at peace, just taking in the deserted playground, the slide devoid of kids trying to walk up the wrong side, the swings swaying lonely in the gentle breeze.
With out word they moved over and he beckoned for her to sit and then he was moving up behind her, pushing her.
Katherine lifted her face to the sky loving the feel of the gentle drizzle on her skin. It felt good, clean and right.
'Having fun?" Tommy asked catching the chains of the swing as it swung backwards at him. The sound of his voice was low and husky the feel of his breath on her ear making her shiver.
"Um hmm.
"I'm glad." He breathed and let the swing go once more, sending her flying into the air.
In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness,
The trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me
Forever and forever
Katherine sighed, why couldn't it be real/ Why couldn't Leo be there with her and not pining over Kimberly/ But she knew of their history, she knew that they had had a rocky start and could even understand that. It was one of thee reason's she'd helped Kim out with her fears. No, it hadn't just been to get the tiny brunette out of the picture. She had lots of respect for Kim. The gymnast had talent, as she did. The difference was because of all she'd given up she'd missed out on so much. Now, that would Katherine's lot in life. Not that she had much of one left. She'd bombed out at the pan global trials.
The ting was she needed tommy as much as Kim. He was good and had been in her shoes. She needed someone to talk other than Zordon when she woke from a nightmare in the middle of the night. Sure she could call the others but that would just be pathetic. Tommy would think she was a total wash out.
And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us
Jumping from the swing Katherine moved to walk along the path. She kept her eyes open for any possible threats even as her mind raced.
She could ask Adam out but why? she didn't have any feelings like that for the froggie ranger. Not tat she disliked him but he was not her type. She really didn't like the shy silent type. Besides she had a big thing for guys with long dark hair. Even as she thought this she reached the lake. There she stood, gazing out at the weather, its surface rippling softly with every drop.
It was only then that she saw the figure reflected in the water. She didn't try and look up half afraid she'd not see Tommy in the end. No, she'd much rather imagine he was there to meet her.
"Face it," Katherine told herself, 'you have a thing for the white ranger."
I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers
There was the brief sound of scuffling, she looked up and then she saw a couple of lovers sneaking out of a bush. As if their sight broke the spell she'd found herself in the rain really began to come down. It was no longer soft, now harsh and unforgiving.
Sighing Katherine turned and headed for home. She didn't even notice when she took a different path, taking her to the Oliver house. She only realized it when she found herself staring up at the house, lights on in almost all of the windows. It looked so warm, so inviting and only then did she truly feel the cold, he was in there. Warm and pining for another woman…
I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world would go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known
Turning, cold and miserable Katherine once more headed home, this time hurrying. She was cold and tired. I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own…
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There another little ficlet. I think I was a bit depressed when I wrote this but it suits the story. Hey, if you have chance can you review and let me know what you thought of it?