How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb without a soul
My spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
Wake me up
Wake me up
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become
(Taken from 'Bring me to Life' by Evanescence off the album 'Fallen'.)
The Plea
James was walking down the corridor to meet Jake, because he ahd just become the new Quidditch Captain for Gryffindor now that Michael had left; Sirius, Remus and Peter were with him because they only thought it was only going to take a couple of minutes what ever Jake wanted him for.
"Hey Potter, James!" Jake shouted making his way through a group of second girls giggling and smiling at him.
"Hi well done on captain." James said.
"Yeah, you'll do a much better job then Michael ever did." Sirius told him.
"Well his team did win the cup for the past four years." Remus remembered him.
"He isn't the only person on the team." Sirius said.
"Well that's what I want to talk to you about, the team." Jake interrupted them. "Well we have a position opening, I was wondering what you would think if I asked Nissa back on the team?"
"That's great, she was great." James said brightly. "What about the rest of the team what have they said?"
"Their not that bothered, as long as we win with her." Jake told him and then turned to Sirius. "Can you ask her?"
"I thought you wanted her on the team?" James teased.
"Maybe you should ask her yourself." Remus suggested.
"What's that suppose to mean, we get along... well I can ask her... well if she's talking to me that is." Sirius said.
Jake looked at them all a little confused. "Wait a minute, your not going out with her?"
"No, why who said that I was?" Sirius asked brightly. "That'll piss Snape off."
James and Remus laughed at him.
"Well the two of you kind of come across that way sometimes." Jake explained. "And anyway, I might say something stupid. Have you seen her, wow I'll just say that again WOW!"
Sirius glowed slightly he knew what she looked like, but no one else was suppose to be looking at her like that.
"What have we got after dinner?" Lily asked walking up the corridor towards them.
James looks over at the sound of her voice, they were all there coming towards them.
"Now's your chance mate, be nice." James told him and pushed him forward.
Sirius stumbled forward and righted himself quietly as Nissa, Lily and their friends stopped in front of him.
"Hi." Polly said and then giggled, with Ella smiling at him beside her.
"Hi, er... can I ask you something?" Sirius asked Nissa.
Nissa eyes him suspiciously as if wondering if he was up to something, she wasn't really in the mood for him to have another go at her.
"Well, its about the Quiddicth team." Sirius told her, taking her silence as a good sign though he didn't know why.
"Then why are you asking me?" Nissa said and then spotted Jake stood with James, Remus and Peter.
"Well Jake and the team were wondering if..." Sirius started but Nissa wasn't listening and she was walking away from him, Sirius followed after her. "I was talking."
"I know that, I heard you, you were stood right in front of me after all." Nissa told him.
"They want you back." Sirius said quickly, and then stopped her; she turned round to face him. "I wh..."
"So will you?" Jake interrupted.
Nissa was still looking at Sirius, but he wasn't saying anything she slowly turned round to Jake. "I'm surprised that you would want me on the team."
"What? Wow you gorgeous, I mean great, I mean you were a great player, flyer. I'm just going to shut up now." Jake said and then hung his red head going bright red.
Nissa couldn't help but laugh with the rest of them. "Thanks, if you want me that much, then yes."
"You're great, I mean that's great." Jake said smiling brightly to match his bright red face. "I'm going to go now, and hopefully I'll be able to speak properly next time."
Jake quickly left, leaving Nissa with the four lads and her friends waiting for her. Nissa laughed to herself as she tried to get past Sirius but he wouldn't let her.
"You know you need to stop moving then I can get past you." Nissa told him.
"I don't want..." Sirius started.
"Come on Nis!" Lily shouted over.
"See ya later." Nissa told them managing to get past Sirius.
"We've got double Potions." Natalie informed her.
Nissa almost fell over at this news.
"Are you alright?" Lily asked her.
"Yes, yes I'm fine." Nissa said standing up straight and then walked as calmly as she could back over to them.
"Have you noticed that she's been on edge all week in Potions?" Remus asked them, making them all stare at him.
"How do you know that?" Sirius asked him.
"I pick up on things better then you lot sometimes." Remus told him.
"Well I haven't really noticed, because I'm not sure really." Sirius admitted. "But I'll check it out today."
They were all in Potions, everything seemed normal; well as normal as it got. Sirius thought that it wasn't normal for Nissa to be friends with Snape, which he has told her a couple of times and it hadn't really gotten him anywhere.
"So what are we looking for?" James asked.
"Everything about her is odd at the moment, a sexy kind of odd though." Sirius answered.
"Why don't you tell her that and see what she says?" James suggested.
"Miss Tiania, you haven't put enough effect into your potions lately." Jevidah told her standing very close to her.
Nissa stood next to him with her hands on the rim of her hot caldron, he reached out to touch her and all the fire's ignited making everyone jump; giving Nissa the chance to move away from him.
"No need to panic." Jevidah shouted over the class.
"Does that count as odd?" Sirius asked.
"I think that one counts as odd for both of them." Remus told him.
***
"You do know that there is a pattern here." James told them as they walked down the tunnel into Hogsmende.
It was their first time into Hogsmende of the term, well not with the school that wouldn't be until Halloween, and they didn't really want to wait. And they also wanted Remus to have a little fun before he would change the following night, because they themselves still hadn't figured out how to change.
"There's a pattern?" Peter asked.
"Of course there is idiot; every time she goes back to that place he does something to her." Sirius told him. "He...he beats and sometimes he even...well it looks as though...like torture."
They all fell silent he had told them about the dream he had had after Christmas, they believed him; but the way she is you can never tell.
"She shouldn't have gone, if she knew what was happening, what was going to happen." James said.
"I go home, even though I know what's going to happen; no they don't beat but..." Sirius tried to explain.
"You come to us." James told him.
"Right, where does she have to go?" Sirius asked. "Well there is Snape, but..."
"Its better then what happens at her own house." Remus told him.
Sirius looked moodier at the ground, he knew they were right but there was something else.
"Why don't you ask her to say with you?" peter suggested.
"That's stupid we... that isn't such a bad idea." Sirius said smiling at him friends.
"Have you gone mad?" James asked him. "You don't stay there as it is, because you can't stand them."
"So, at less she'll be fine and... I'll have some company." Sirius told him.
"You're forgetting one important thing." Remus told him.
"No I'm not." Sirius said.
"The two of you don't well get along, well you can't help but put your foot in it." Remus explained.
"I don't always. Well I try not to." Sirius said.
*** They were all sat eating breakfast in the great hall, the morning post had just arrived a few people reading the Daily Prophet and other's reading letter's from home.
"There's been another attack." Polly gasped. "People have died."
They all looked up at this news, Polly put the paper down unable to read on, but James took it off of her to find out more.
"It doesn't say who was killed, but there's a picture." James told them. "There saying that this mark or sign represents the dark group of wizards performing these arts, they call themselves 'Death Eaters.'"
"I don't like the sound of that name." Ella said.
"You're not suppose to; it's the whole point about having a name like that to drive fear into people." Nissa told her. "Does it say who their leader is?"
"No, they haven't found that out yet, well they might have but it isn't in here." James answered.
Remus had been a little distracted all the way through the conversation, he couldn't help it he was thinking about tonight, and he was kind of looking forward to it; hoping that he would run into Nissa and this time he didn't want to fight the monster in him, or did he? He still wasn't completely sure, only about one thing and that was he needed to know what she really was.
Later that day, Nissa went for a walk which Remus left soon after her saying that he wanted to leave early; they let him of course without any questions asked. He made his way down the corridor quickly looking for her, which normally she came to him; but she wasn't tonight.
"Why not?" Remus asked aloud.
"Why not what?" Nissa asked as she walked out of the bath behind him.
Remus spun around surprised to see her there, this was it; then the second thoughts started. Did he really like her, or was it what she did to him on the full moon just before he changed? Now that he was here in front of her he didn't know anymore.
Nissa was still looking at him waiting for an answer, Remus took a deep breathe then stepped forward.
"Nissa I..." Remus started but was cut short because he heard someone running towards them.
"Remus!" Sirius shouted as he rounded the corner, he slowed down when he saw his friend and also Nissa stood there. "I'm glad that I caught you before you left, for your mother."
"Oh right yeah, did I forget something?" Remus asked him.
"Yeah this stupid." Sirius said smiling handing him a package, Remus smiled slightly as he took it off him and quickly put it in his pocket. "I'll see you in a couple of days then."
"Yeah see ya." Remus said, as Sirius smiled at him and then at Nissa who aloud herself to be led away by him.
Remus was a little annoyed and grateful for his friends interruption, but there was nothing he could do about it now so he carried on to his other life.
Sirius stop's Nissa so that he can talk to her, she slowly turn's round to hear what he has to say.
"Right don't say anything until I've finished." Sirius told her firmly. "Its hard to say, and well you're a little hard to understand."
"So are you." Nissa said.
"I said don't say anything." Sirius told her, and then added a little softer. "I am, why?
"Well one minute you're acting all nice to me and everything, and then the next you're having a go." Nissa told him. "Its confusing the hell out of me, I already have a lot to deal with I don't need..."
"Me." Sirius finished for her disappointedly.
Nissa smiled at him and shock her head, he smiled back at her and then reached out wanting to touch her face; she tilted her head and moved to meet his touch. Sirius smiled to himself finally he had gotten somewhere, he stepped forward but she took hold of his hand in her and held it over his chest.
"I can't, you can't...help me." Nissa told him not looking him in the face, and then she let go of him and turned to leave.
"Why won't you let me in?" Sirius asked her not wanting her to leave without fighting for her first. "I won't hurt you, I won't let anyone hurt you ever again."
"I might hurt you, and I would ask or want you to protect me." Nissa told him not turning around but she had also stopped.
Sirius quickly stepped around her and then slowly touched her face which she let him do; as she closed her eyes socking up the feeling before she would have to walk away and give it up forever.
"Please stay here with me." Sirius pleaded. "When I look at you now, I feel if I let you leave that I'll lose you again and the cold darkness will swallow you whole."
Nissa opened her eyes as he finished and looked up into his eyes.
"Can you save me?" She asked him.
Sirius finally stepped forward and took her in his safe warm arms, she tightly wrapped her own arm around him as if she didn't she would fall into cold darkness that had haunted her for so long.
"Save me from the dark." Nissa whispered. "Save me from the nothing I'm becoming."
Sirius hugged her tightly and then kissed her forehead, his lips didn't touch ice cold skin instead it was warm and sweat.
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb without a soul
My spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
Wake me up
Wake me up
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become
(Taken from 'Bring me to Life' by Evanescence off the album 'Fallen'.)
The Plea
James was walking down the corridor to meet Jake, because he ahd just become the new Quidditch Captain for Gryffindor now that Michael had left; Sirius, Remus and Peter were with him because they only thought it was only going to take a couple of minutes what ever Jake wanted him for.
"Hey Potter, James!" Jake shouted making his way through a group of second girls giggling and smiling at him.
"Hi well done on captain." James said.
"Yeah, you'll do a much better job then Michael ever did." Sirius told him.
"Well his team did win the cup for the past four years." Remus remembered him.
"He isn't the only person on the team." Sirius said.
"Well that's what I want to talk to you about, the team." Jake interrupted them. "Well we have a position opening, I was wondering what you would think if I asked Nissa back on the team?"
"That's great, she was great." James said brightly. "What about the rest of the team what have they said?"
"Their not that bothered, as long as we win with her." Jake told him and then turned to Sirius. "Can you ask her?"
"I thought you wanted her on the team?" James teased.
"Maybe you should ask her yourself." Remus suggested.
"What's that suppose to mean, we get along... well I can ask her... well if she's talking to me that is." Sirius said.
Jake looked at them all a little confused. "Wait a minute, your not going out with her?"
"No, why who said that I was?" Sirius asked brightly. "That'll piss Snape off."
James and Remus laughed at him.
"Well the two of you kind of come across that way sometimes." Jake explained. "And anyway, I might say something stupid. Have you seen her, wow I'll just say that again WOW!"
Sirius glowed slightly he knew what she looked like, but no one else was suppose to be looking at her like that.
"What have we got after dinner?" Lily asked walking up the corridor towards them.
James looks over at the sound of her voice, they were all there coming towards them.
"Now's your chance mate, be nice." James told him and pushed him forward.
Sirius stumbled forward and righted himself quietly as Nissa, Lily and their friends stopped in front of him.
"Hi." Polly said and then giggled, with Ella smiling at him beside her.
"Hi, er... can I ask you something?" Sirius asked Nissa.
Nissa eyes him suspiciously as if wondering if he was up to something, she wasn't really in the mood for him to have another go at her.
"Well, its about the Quiddicth team." Sirius told her, taking her silence as a good sign though he didn't know why.
"Then why are you asking me?" Nissa said and then spotted Jake stood with James, Remus and Peter.
"Well Jake and the team were wondering if..." Sirius started but Nissa wasn't listening and she was walking away from him, Sirius followed after her. "I was talking."
"I know that, I heard you, you were stood right in front of me after all." Nissa told him.
"They want you back." Sirius said quickly, and then stopped her; she turned round to face him. "I wh..."
"So will you?" Jake interrupted.
Nissa was still looking at Sirius, but he wasn't saying anything she slowly turned round to Jake. "I'm surprised that you would want me on the team."
"What? Wow you gorgeous, I mean great, I mean you were a great player, flyer. I'm just going to shut up now." Jake said and then hung his red head going bright red.
Nissa couldn't help but laugh with the rest of them. "Thanks, if you want me that much, then yes."
"You're great, I mean that's great." Jake said smiling brightly to match his bright red face. "I'm going to go now, and hopefully I'll be able to speak properly next time."
Jake quickly left, leaving Nissa with the four lads and her friends waiting for her. Nissa laughed to herself as she tried to get past Sirius but he wouldn't let her.
"You know you need to stop moving then I can get past you." Nissa told him.
"I don't want..." Sirius started.
"Come on Nis!" Lily shouted over.
"See ya later." Nissa told them managing to get past Sirius.
"We've got double Potions." Natalie informed her.
Nissa almost fell over at this news.
"Are you alright?" Lily asked her.
"Yes, yes I'm fine." Nissa said standing up straight and then walked as calmly as she could back over to them.
"Have you noticed that she's been on edge all week in Potions?" Remus asked them, making them all stare at him.
"How do you know that?" Sirius asked him.
"I pick up on things better then you lot sometimes." Remus told him.
"Well I haven't really noticed, because I'm not sure really." Sirius admitted. "But I'll check it out today."
They were all in Potions, everything seemed normal; well as normal as it got. Sirius thought that it wasn't normal for Nissa to be friends with Snape, which he has told her a couple of times and it hadn't really gotten him anywhere.
"So what are we looking for?" James asked.
"Everything about her is odd at the moment, a sexy kind of odd though." Sirius answered.
"Why don't you tell her that and see what she says?" James suggested.
"Miss Tiania, you haven't put enough effect into your potions lately." Jevidah told her standing very close to her.
Nissa stood next to him with her hands on the rim of her hot caldron, he reached out to touch her and all the fire's ignited making everyone jump; giving Nissa the chance to move away from him.
"No need to panic." Jevidah shouted over the class.
"Does that count as odd?" Sirius asked.
"I think that one counts as odd for both of them." Remus told him.
***
"You do know that there is a pattern here." James told them as they walked down the tunnel into Hogsmende.
It was their first time into Hogsmende of the term, well not with the school that wouldn't be until Halloween, and they didn't really want to wait. And they also wanted Remus to have a little fun before he would change the following night, because they themselves still hadn't figured out how to change.
"There's a pattern?" Peter asked.
"Of course there is idiot; every time she goes back to that place he does something to her." Sirius told him. "He...he beats and sometimes he even...well it looks as though...like torture."
They all fell silent he had told them about the dream he had had after Christmas, they believed him; but the way she is you can never tell.
"She shouldn't have gone, if she knew what was happening, what was going to happen." James said.
"I go home, even though I know what's going to happen; no they don't beat but..." Sirius tried to explain.
"You come to us." James told him.
"Right, where does she have to go?" Sirius asked. "Well there is Snape, but..."
"Its better then what happens at her own house." Remus told him.
Sirius looked moodier at the ground, he knew they were right but there was something else.
"Why don't you ask her to say with you?" peter suggested.
"That's stupid we... that isn't such a bad idea." Sirius said smiling at him friends.
"Have you gone mad?" James asked him. "You don't stay there as it is, because you can't stand them."
"So, at less she'll be fine and... I'll have some company." Sirius told him.
"You're forgetting one important thing." Remus told him.
"No I'm not." Sirius said.
"The two of you don't well get along, well you can't help but put your foot in it." Remus explained.
"I don't always. Well I try not to." Sirius said.
*** They were all sat eating breakfast in the great hall, the morning post had just arrived a few people reading the Daily Prophet and other's reading letter's from home.
"There's been another attack." Polly gasped. "People have died."
They all looked up at this news, Polly put the paper down unable to read on, but James took it off of her to find out more.
"It doesn't say who was killed, but there's a picture." James told them. "There saying that this mark or sign represents the dark group of wizards performing these arts, they call themselves 'Death Eaters.'"
"I don't like the sound of that name." Ella said.
"You're not suppose to; it's the whole point about having a name like that to drive fear into people." Nissa told her. "Does it say who their leader is?"
"No, they haven't found that out yet, well they might have but it isn't in here." James answered.
Remus had been a little distracted all the way through the conversation, he couldn't help it he was thinking about tonight, and he was kind of looking forward to it; hoping that he would run into Nissa and this time he didn't want to fight the monster in him, or did he? He still wasn't completely sure, only about one thing and that was he needed to know what she really was.
Later that day, Nissa went for a walk which Remus left soon after her saying that he wanted to leave early; they let him of course without any questions asked. He made his way down the corridor quickly looking for her, which normally she came to him; but she wasn't tonight.
"Why not?" Remus asked aloud.
"Why not what?" Nissa asked as she walked out of the bath behind him.
Remus spun around surprised to see her there, this was it; then the second thoughts started. Did he really like her, or was it what she did to him on the full moon just before he changed? Now that he was here in front of her he didn't know anymore.
Nissa was still looking at him waiting for an answer, Remus took a deep breathe then stepped forward.
"Nissa I..." Remus started but was cut short because he heard someone running towards them.
"Remus!" Sirius shouted as he rounded the corner, he slowed down when he saw his friend and also Nissa stood there. "I'm glad that I caught you before you left, for your mother."
"Oh right yeah, did I forget something?" Remus asked him.
"Yeah this stupid." Sirius said smiling handing him a package, Remus smiled slightly as he took it off him and quickly put it in his pocket. "I'll see you in a couple of days then."
"Yeah see ya." Remus said, as Sirius smiled at him and then at Nissa who aloud herself to be led away by him.
Remus was a little annoyed and grateful for his friends interruption, but there was nothing he could do about it now so he carried on to his other life.
Sirius stop's Nissa so that he can talk to her, she slowly turn's round to hear what he has to say.
"Right don't say anything until I've finished." Sirius told her firmly. "Its hard to say, and well you're a little hard to understand."
"So are you." Nissa said.
"I said don't say anything." Sirius told her, and then added a little softer. "I am, why?
"Well one minute you're acting all nice to me and everything, and then the next you're having a go." Nissa told him. "Its confusing the hell out of me, I already have a lot to deal with I don't need..."
"Me." Sirius finished for her disappointedly.
Nissa smiled at him and shock her head, he smiled back at her and then reached out wanting to touch her face; she tilted her head and moved to meet his touch. Sirius smiled to himself finally he had gotten somewhere, he stepped forward but she took hold of his hand in her and held it over his chest.
"I can't, you can't...help me." Nissa told him not looking him in the face, and then she let go of him and turned to leave.
"Why won't you let me in?" Sirius asked her not wanting her to leave without fighting for her first. "I won't hurt you, I won't let anyone hurt you ever again."
"I might hurt you, and I would ask or want you to protect me." Nissa told him not turning around but she had also stopped.
Sirius quickly stepped around her and then slowly touched her face which she let him do; as she closed her eyes socking up the feeling before she would have to walk away and give it up forever.
"Please stay here with me." Sirius pleaded. "When I look at you now, I feel if I let you leave that I'll lose you again and the cold darkness will swallow you whole."
Nissa opened her eyes as he finished and looked up into his eyes.
"Can you save me?" She asked him.
Sirius finally stepped forward and took her in his safe warm arms, she tightly wrapped her own arm around him as if she didn't she would fall into cold darkness that had haunted her for so long.
"Save me from the dark." Nissa whispered. "Save me from the nothing I'm becoming."
Sirius hugged her tightly and then kissed her forehead, his lips didn't touch ice cold skin instead it was warm and sweat.