Going under
Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming deceiving and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reach the bottom
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under
('Going Under' by Evanescence off the album 'Fallen'.)
The Portkey and the Nightbus
It was the week before Christmas, everyone was deciding weather or not they were going to stay; but of course James, Sirius, Remus and Peter were all staying as normal.
They were in potions not really getting on with their work because it was coming up to Christmas and they couldn't really keep their minds off the fact that in just a week they would have no more lesson's for two full weeks.
"I'm going home for Christmas." Lily told them. "Though I don't think my sister is going too pleased about it, oh well it's my home as well."
"Not to keen on the magical world then." Nissa said. "You can't expect everyone to accept us, no matter how much the world grows."
"This is a Potion's lesson Miss Tiania, not a chance for you to gossip with your friends." Jevidah told her. "Detention."
"What?" Nissa asked sounding a little alarmed.
"Hey don't worry about it, there not that bad." Sirius reassured her as they were walking up from the dungeons.
"Your not bored by them, because you two have them almost every over day." Lily told him.
"Wait a minute how did I get dragged into this?" James asked her.
"I'm not bored about the detention in that way..." Nissa told them.
"I've got an idea, that'll make it a lot easier on you." Sirius told her smiling.
"Oh yeah this is great, you won't have to be alone." James told her also smiling.
"What you two are going to get detention as well?" Lily asked him.
"No, we're not even going to get into trouble." James reassured her still smiling.
***
Professor McGonagall brought the sheet around for those who were staying, Nissa signed the sheet.
"Great, you're staying with us." Sirius told her smiling as he over heard her telling her friends. "We'll have a great time."
"Can't wait." Nissa said smiling.
In their last Potion's lesson of the year, Jevidah told Nissa that she would be doing her detention tomorrow morning cleaning the whole classroom without using magic.
So the following morning, Saturday morning after everyone had gone home for Christmas and they had their breakfast; Sirius, James, Remus and Peter walked down to the dungeons with Nissa. James gave her his mirror while Sirius explained how it worked.
She still didn't want to be left alone with him, but felt a little better knowing that they weren't far away. They left her at the top of the stairs leading down to the dungeons, and from there she went on alone while they went back to Gryffindor tower or a classroom so they could get in some time of their own as well.
Nissa knocked on the door.
"Enter." Jevidah said clearly.
She pushed open the door and walked in, he smiled at her in an odd sort of way that made her skin cruel.
"I've left you what you would need on that table." Jevidah told her. "I have a little business to take care of, but I'll be back shortly so don't go anywhere."
Jevidah smiled at her again seeing the look of relief on her face as he watched her as he left the room. Nissa was extremely relived, she got started not wanting to stay any longer then she had to and also got the mirror out.
"Sirius." Nissa said.
"Hey there." Sirius said smiling at her through the mirror.
"He's gone, but he said that he'll be back in a bit." Nissa told them, they talked to her for a while as she cleaned the classroom.
About twenty minutes later Jevidah finally returned carry something hided in a robe, which he placed on a table. They saw him enter but he never saw the mirror she had hided under her own robes.
"Miss Tiania, haven't you been hard at work." Jevidah told her as he made his way over to her. She backed into the desk as he came even closer. "Do you remember, that I told Infidus that I would look after you?"
Nissa didn't answer him she just stood, he blocked her way with his hands on either side of the desk; he smiled at her as he pressed up against her.
"I'm quit hard myself." Jevidah told her.
At hearing this Sirius was on his feet, closely followed by James, Remus and even Peter, they ran out of the library; Sirius still had the mirror in his hand. They ran as fast as they could down the corridor, but was shortly stopped by none other than Professor McGonagall.
"And where do you think your going in such a hurry?" McGonagall asked.
"Sorry, but we have to go." Remus told her, as carried on running.
"You have all lost five points for running." McGonagall shouted after them, but they didn't care.
They finally made it to the dungeon, without running into anymore teachers; they charged through the classroom door. But there was only Jevidah there, trying not to look so studded by them charging into his classroom.
"Can I help the three of you?" Jevidah asked.
"Where is she, where's Nissa?" Sirius demanded near enough shouting at him.
"She left." Jevidah answered calmly.
"Then why is her robe still here?" James asked as he walked over to collect it along with the mirror she had left behind.
"She must have forgotten it." Jevidah answered.
"We better go find her then." James said pulling at Sirius' robes but he didn't want to leave, it took both Remus and James to pull him out of the class and up the corridor.
"Why the hell did we leave?" Sirius demanded.
"She isn't there, and you know it as well." James told him.
"We'll go look for her, she couldn't have gotten far." Remus said, reluctantly Sirius agreed.
It was dinner and they still hadn't found her, and no one else had seen her either since breakfast when she left with them for her detention; and now Jevidah had also disappeared.
"She has to be here somewhere; you can't just apperate or disapperate out of the grounds." Remus told them. "And anyway she can't do that, she isn't old enough."
"Then where is she, what if he had taken her?" Sirius asked. "Could he have gotten her out?"
"The only way out of here using magic, is either by a Portkey or Floo Powder." James told them.
"Right let's say that's how he got her." Sirius said. "We have to go get her back. Who's with me?"
"Of course we are mate." James told him, Remus nodded, Peter looked at them all nervously and then nodded slowly himself.
Now that they had decided what they were going to do, they left the hall and went back up to the tower, to get James' cloak and Sirius' mirror's just encase they needed them; then they came back down to their secret passage into Hogsmende.
When they reached the village Sirius signalled for the Nightbus, it arrived in a matter of moments and then they were on their way to the manner.
Nissa was sat up against the cold hard basement floor under the manner, she was burses, cut and bleeding with her clothes torn in parts. She sat there with her eyes closed, in the dark waiting for him to return wondering what he would do to her next; and wondering if he was going to finally let Jevidah down.
She heard the door open, and looked up she could just make out the out line it was Infidus and he was carrying something. The only light in the room came from the door he had just come from and the new toy he was carrying, which looked like a whip made of ice. He smiled at her as he magical made he stand, and then he stroke her, making her scream out in pain, he did this again and again each time making her scream even louder then the last.
The Nightbus pulled up outside of the manner, they near enough ran off the bus. They walked slowly up the path, and then they heard a piecing scream that sent shelved through your very soul. Sirius ran at the door, trying to kick it in, but couldn't Remus moved him aside and kicked it in in one.
They all walked in, Sirius had been here before well in his dreams almost a year ago this week. Just then Jevidah came out of the living to find out what all the noise was and this time he couldn't hid his surprise at seeing four students's stood in front of him. But he never got the chance to say anything, because Sirius took up the first object that came in reach and swung as hard as he could over his head; he stood there was a moment before he fell to the ground unconscious.
They all looked at him, but then there was another scream and closely followed by another one, but the second was different. They ran as fast as they could to where they heard the screams come from; they stopped at the open door to the basement.
"You don't have to follow me." Sirius told them pulling out his wand.
James and Remus pulled out their own wands answer to his question; Peter was stood right at the back of them but reluctantly pulled out his own wand though nothing was coming to mind what he could do with it.
Sirius went first he hadn't stepped down the first step when someone came flying through the air and hit the wall at the bottom of the stair with a heavy thud; James grabbed hold of his shoulder as he looked over as did Remus on the other side, Peter still keeping out of the way.
He started to move it was Infidus, he slowly got to his feet and short a ball of ice across the room, they heard it hit the wall blowing a hole in it. They slowly walked down a little farer, as Infidus carried on throwing as many balls of ice he could, they could see now. Nissa dodged them all somehow.
"Stupid brat!" Infidus shouted at her, Nissa smiled at him making him stumble backwards.
She suddenly grabbed hold of the whip he had dropped on the floor, she swung it around her head, she twisted her wrist and the ropes flew out and wrapped themselves around Infidus' body then she throw the end she had hold of up in the ceiling; where he hung there swing back and fore trying the struggle free.
Sirius stepped out of the shadow of the bottom stairs, and she saw them all for the first time.
"I guess you didn't need us." Sirius said slowly still trying to take in what he had seen.
Nissa smiled weakly at him and then fell to the floor. "I think I just need to sit for a little while."
Sirius went to her while James and Remus stayed at the bottom, while Peter was still at the top of the stairs. Sirius helped her to her feet, she was ice cold again.
"Thanks." Nissa said as they walked over to the stairs.
"What for?" Sirius asked her.
"You came, you didn't have too, but you still came." Nissa said.
"Of course we came." Sirius told her. "Come on, we better be getting back to school."
"So are we leaving him up there?" Remus asked looking up at Infidus.
Nissa didn't even look back at him. "Yeah, he can get himself down."
"We wouldn't have let him down anyway." James said as he followed them up the stairs, and into the light of the hall.
"If you don't mind me asking but how did you know I was here? And how did you get here?" Nissa asked them as they walked down the hall; they all stopped over the unconscious Jevidah.
"We heard what that bastard said, and then when we got to his class you were gone." Sirius explained. "We knew you couldn't have just walked out because we would have seen you."
"And you wouldn't have left your robe or the mirror either." Remus said.
"We came up with only two options of who he could have gotten you out." James went on.
"Portkey." Nissa told them.
"I knew it." James said.
"I still can't get over Jevidah." Sirius said. "I know he's a Slytherin and all, but..."
"What are we going to do about him?" Remus asked.
"Leave him as well." Nissa said. "He won't say anything, because he would have too much explaining on his own part to do. And Infidus will see that he doesn't say anything as well."
"Come on then." Sirius said, he lead her outside with his arm around her supporting her as she walked because she was still weak, and he didn't want to let her go.
"You forgot something." James told her, and then handed her her wand.
She smiled at him and took. "Thank you."
Remus signalled for the Nightbus this time, the conductor seemed a little annoyed and surprised to see them again, and with a girl as well. They didn't answer any of his questions as they made their way back to Hogsmende, they arrived under the starry night and went up to the tree and made their way back up to the school.
"Are you sure you'll be alright on your own?" Sirius asked her at the bottom of the girl's stairs. "You could stay with us, Matt isn't here."
Nissa smiled at him. "I'm sure I'll be fine, I'll call you if I need anything."
"You better had." Sirius told her.
"Why the hell didn't we listen to her?" Sirius demanded as he pulled back his sheets. "She didn't want to go to the detention."
"Maybe she didn't know what was going to happen." James offered.
"She knew about Jevidah though." Remus said quietly.
"What do you mean?" Sirius asked.
"I told you, she had been dead jumping around him since we came back." Remus told him.
Sirius punched the post of his bed; he didn't care how much it hurt because he was hurting more inside for not noticing himself.
"It's not your fault; we didn't know what was going to happen." Remus told him. "You can't beat yourself up about it, she's safe now."
"But what if...if that bastard..." Sirius couldn't bring himself to say the words.
"You saw her tonight, he wouldn't have gotten near." James reassured him, even though he was completely sure himself; but for now he wanted to believe it as much as he knew Sirius did.
None of them slept that night, Sirius wanted Nissa to call him but she never did, and he couldn't contact her.
"Why aren't you listening to me?" Sirius shouted out.
"Because you didn't say anything." James answered in the next bed, he turned over. "Are you alright?"
"She won't answer me." Sirius said irritated.
(So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under)
Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming deceiving and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reach the bottom
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under
('Going Under' by Evanescence off the album 'Fallen'.)
The Portkey and the Nightbus
It was the week before Christmas, everyone was deciding weather or not they were going to stay; but of course James, Sirius, Remus and Peter were all staying as normal.
They were in potions not really getting on with their work because it was coming up to Christmas and they couldn't really keep their minds off the fact that in just a week they would have no more lesson's for two full weeks.
"I'm going home for Christmas." Lily told them. "Though I don't think my sister is going too pleased about it, oh well it's my home as well."
"Not to keen on the magical world then." Nissa said. "You can't expect everyone to accept us, no matter how much the world grows."
"This is a Potion's lesson Miss Tiania, not a chance for you to gossip with your friends." Jevidah told her. "Detention."
"What?" Nissa asked sounding a little alarmed.
"Hey don't worry about it, there not that bad." Sirius reassured her as they were walking up from the dungeons.
"Your not bored by them, because you two have them almost every over day." Lily told him.
"Wait a minute how did I get dragged into this?" James asked her.
"I'm not bored about the detention in that way..." Nissa told them.
"I've got an idea, that'll make it a lot easier on you." Sirius told her smiling.
"Oh yeah this is great, you won't have to be alone." James told her also smiling.
"What you two are going to get detention as well?" Lily asked him.
"No, we're not even going to get into trouble." James reassured her still smiling.
***
Professor McGonagall brought the sheet around for those who were staying, Nissa signed the sheet.
"Great, you're staying with us." Sirius told her smiling as he over heard her telling her friends. "We'll have a great time."
"Can't wait." Nissa said smiling.
In their last Potion's lesson of the year, Jevidah told Nissa that she would be doing her detention tomorrow morning cleaning the whole classroom without using magic.
So the following morning, Saturday morning after everyone had gone home for Christmas and they had their breakfast; Sirius, James, Remus and Peter walked down to the dungeons with Nissa. James gave her his mirror while Sirius explained how it worked.
She still didn't want to be left alone with him, but felt a little better knowing that they weren't far away. They left her at the top of the stairs leading down to the dungeons, and from there she went on alone while they went back to Gryffindor tower or a classroom so they could get in some time of their own as well.
Nissa knocked on the door.
"Enter." Jevidah said clearly.
She pushed open the door and walked in, he smiled at her in an odd sort of way that made her skin cruel.
"I've left you what you would need on that table." Jevidah told her. "I have a little business to take care of, but I'll be back shortly so don't go anywhere."
Jevidah smiled at her again seeing the look of relief on her face as he watched her as he left the room. Nissa was extremely relived, she got started not wanting to stay any longer then she had to and also got the mirror out.
"Sirius." Nissa said.
"Hey there." Sirius said smiling at her through the mirror.
"He's gone, but he said that he'll be back in a bit." Nissa told them, they talked to her for a while as she cleaned the classroom.
About twenty minutes later Jevidah finally returned carry something hided in a robe, which he placed on a table. They saw him enter but he never saw the mirror she had hided under her own robes.
"Miss Tiania, haven't you been hard at work." Jevidah told her as he made his way over to her. She backed into the desk as he came even closer. "Do you remember, that I told Infidus that I would look after you?"
Nissa didn't answer him she just stood, he blocked her way with his hands on either side of the desk; he smiled at her as he pressed up against her.
"I'm quit hard myself." Jevidah told her.
At hearing this Sirius was on his feet, closely followed by James, Remus and even Peter, they ran out of the library; Sirius still had the mirror in his hand. They ran as fast as they could down the corridor, but was shortly stopped by none other than Professor McGonagall.
"And where do you think your going in such a hurry?" McGonagall asked.
"Sorry, but we have to go." Remus told her, as carried on running.
"You have all lost five points for running." McGonagall shouted after them, but they didn't care.
They finally made it to the dungeon, without running into anymore teachers; they charged through the classroom door. But there was only Jevidah there, trying not to look so studded by them charging into his classroom.
"Can I help the three of you?" Jevidah asked.
"Where is she, where's Nissa?" Sirius demanded near enough shouting at him.
"She left." Jevidah answered calmly.
"Then why is her robe still here?" James asked as he walked over to collect it along with the mirror she had left behind.
"She must have forgotten it." Jevidah answered.
"We better go find her then." James said pulling at Sirius' robes but he didn't want to leave, it took both Remus and James to pull him out of the class and up the corridor.
"Why the hell did we leave?" Sirius demanded.
"She isn't there, and you know it as well." James told him.
"We'll go look for her, she couldn't have gotten far." Remus said, reluctantly Sirius agreed.
It was dinner and they still hadn't found her, and no one else had seen her either since breakfast when she left with them for her detention; and now Jevidah had also disappeared.
"She has to be here somewhere; you can't just apperate or disapperate out of the grounds." Remus told them. "And anyway she can't do that, she isn't old enough."
"Then where is she, what if he had taken her?" Sirius asked. "Could he have gotten her out?"
"The only way out of here using magic, is either by a Portkey or Floo Powder." James told them.
"Right let's say that's how he got her." Sirius said. "We have to go get her back. Who's with me?"
"Of course we are mate." James told him, Remus nodded, Peter looked at them all nervously and then nodded slowly himself.
Now that they had decided what they were going to do, they left the hall and went back up to the tower, to get James' cloak and Sirius' mirror's just encase they needed them; then they came back down to their secret passage into Hogsmende.
When they reached the village Sirius signalled for the Nightbus, it arrived in a matter of moments and then they were on their way to the manner.
Nissa was sat up against the cold hard basement floor under the manner, she was burses, cut and bleeding with her clothes torn in parts. She sat there with her eyes closed, in the dark waiting for him to return wondering what he would do to her next; and wondering if he was going to finally let Jevidah down.
She heard the door open, and looked up she could just make out the out line it was Infidus and he was carrying something. The only light in the room came from the door he had just come from and the new toy he was carrying, which looked like a whip made of ice. He smiled at her as he magical made he stand, and then he stroke her, making her scream out in pain, he did this again and again each time making her scream even louder then the last.
The Nightbus pulled up outside of the manner, they near enough ran off the bus. They walked slowly up the path, and then they heard a piecing scream that sent shelved through your very soul. Sirius ran at the door, trying to kick it in, but couldn't Remus moved him aside and kicked it in in one.
They all walked in, Sirius had been here before well in his dreams almost a year ago this week. Just then Jevidah came out of the living to find out what all the noise was and this time he couldn't hid his surprise at seeing four students's stood in front of him. But he never got the chance to say anything, because Sirius took up the first object that came in reach and swung as hard as he could over his head; he stood there was a moment before he fell to the ground unconscious.
They all looked at him, but then there was another scream and closely followed by another one, but the second was different. They ran as fast as they could to where they heard the screams come from; they stopped at the open door to the basement.
"You don't have to follow me." Sirius told them pulling out his wand.
James and Remus pulled out their own wands answer to his question; Peter was stood right at the back of them but reluctantly pulled out his own wand though nothing was coming to mind what he could do with it.
Sirius went first he hadn't stepped down the first step when someone came flying through the air and hit the wall at the bottom of the stair with a heavy thud; James grabbed hold of his shoulder as he looked over as did Remus on the other side, Peter still keeping out of the way.
He started to move it was Infidus, he slowly got to his feet and short a ball of ice across the room, they heard it hit the wall blowing a hole in it. They slowly walked down a little farer, as Infidus carried on throwing as many balls of ice he could, they could see now. Nissa dodged them all somehow.
"Stupid brat!" Infidus shouted at her, Nissa smiled at him making him stumble backwards.
She suddenly grabbed hold of the whip he had dropped on the floor, she swung it around her head, she twisted her wrist and the ropes flew out and wrapped themselves around Infidus' body then she throw the end she had hold of up in the ceiling; where he hung there swing back and fore trying the struggle free.
Sirius stepped out of the shadow of the bottom stairs, and she saw them all for the first time.
"I guess you didn't need us." Sirius said slowly still trying to take in what he had seen.
Nissa smiled weakly at him and then fell to the floor. "I think I just need to sit for a little while."
Sirius went to her while James and Remus stayed at the bottom, while Peter was still at the top of the stairs. Sirius helped her to her feet, she was ice cold again.
"Thanks." Nissa said as they walked over to the stairs.
"What for?" Sirius asked her.
"You came, you didn't have too, but you still came." Nissa said.
"Of course we came." Sirius told her. "Come on, we better be getting back to school."
"So are we leaving him up there?" Remus asked looking up at Infidus.
Nissa didn't even look back at him. "Yeah, he can get himself down."
"We wouldn't have let him down anyway." James said as he followed them up the stairs, and into the light of the hall.
"If you don't mind me asking but how did you know I was here? And how did you get here?" Nissa asked them as they walked down the hall; they all stopped over the unconscious Jevidah.
"We heard what that bastard said, and then when we got to his class you were gone." Sirius explained. "We knew you couldn't have just walked out because we would have seen you."
"And you wouldn't have left your robe or the mirror either." Remus said.
"We came up with only two options of who he could have gotten you out." James went on.
"Portkey." Nissa told them.
"I knew it." James said.
"I still can't get over Jevidah." Sirius said. "I know he's a Slytherin and all, but..."
"What are we going to do about him?" Remus asked.
"Leave him as well." Nissa said. "He won't say anything, because he would have too much explaining on his own part to do. And Infidus will see that he doesn't say anything as well."
"Come on then." Sirius said, he lead her outside with his arm around her supporting her as she walked because she was still weak, and he didn't want to let her go.
"You forgot something." James told her, and then handed her her wand.
She smiled at him and took. "Thank you."
Remus signalled for the Nightbus this time, the conductor seemed a little annoyed and surprised to see them again, and with a girl as well. They didn't answer any of his questions as they made their way back to Hogsmende, they arrived under the starry night and went up to the tree and made their way back up to the school.
"Are you sure you'll be alright on your own?" Sirius asked her at the bottom of the girl's stairs. "You could stay with us, Matt isn't here."
Nissa smiled at him. "I'm sure I'll be fine, I'll call you if I need anything."
"You better had." Sirius told her.
"Why the hell didn't we listen to her?" Sirius demanded as he pulled back his sheets. "She didn't want to go to the detention."
"Maybe she didn't know what was going to happen." James offered.
"She knew about Jevidah though." Remus said quietly.
"What do you mean?" Sirius asked.
"I told you, she had been dead jumping around him since we came back." Remus told him.
Sirius punched the post of his bed; he didn't care how much it hurt because he was hurting more inside for not noticing himself.
"It's not your fault; we didn't know what was going to happen." Remus told him. "You can't beat yourself up about it, she's safe now."
"But what if...if that bastard..." Sirius couldn't bring himself to say the words.
"You saw her tonight, he wouldn't have gotten near." James reassured him, even though he was completely sure himself; but for now he wanted to believe it as much as he knew Sirius did.
None of them slept that night, Sirius wanted Nissa to call him but she never did, and he couldn't contact her.
"Why aren't you listening to me?" Sirius shouted out.
"Because you didn't say anything." James answered in the next bed, he turned over. "Are you alright?"
"She won't answer me." Sirius said irritated.
(So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under)