Bring Me To Life
How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb without a soul
My spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become
Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life
Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life
Frozen inside without your touch without your love
Darling only you are the life among the dead
All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought without a voice without soul
Don't let me die here there must be something more
Bring me to life
('Bring me to life' by Evanescence off the album 'Fallen')
Lily sat next to Natalie eating breakfast as normal the post had arrived and james was reading the new story of the Death Eaters; Nissa walked up between the tables and sat down next to her. They all looked up at her, quit surprised to see that her hair was a different colour; red.
"So where's Sirius?" James asked. "Is he coming?" And stood up to see if his friend was coming.
"No, I don't think he will do." Nissa said.
"I'm glad that you've gone back to red, it suits you a lot better." Remus told her.
"Thanks." Nissa said, normally she would have smiled at him but she wasn't in the mood for smiling.
"So why have you gone back to red?" Lily asked.
Nissa looked at her wondering how to answer her. "Well, let's just say that my core has been melted after being frozen for so long."
"I don't get it." Lily admitted, Nissa smiled slightly.
"So you're not going to tell us then, you could have just said that instead of that cryptic message." Ella told her.
"Come on lets find Sirius." James said, and he, Remus and Peter left to find him.
They went to their first lesson thinking that he might have gone ahead, but he wasn't there and he never turned up for either lesson. At break they quickly went up to Gryffindor tower, to see if he was there; he was sat in a fire by the fire just staring into it. They sat down beside him, he looked up at them.
"So, how did it go?" James asked, and then added with a smile. "At lest she has red hair now."
Sirius looked at him, as Remus looked at Sirius and then hot up and sat right next to him; making Sirius look at him strangely and move slightly away from him.
"What?" Sirius asked him.
"I've smelt her on you before, but this is different." Remus told him.
"You smell me?" Sirius said moving even farer away.
"No, not like that. I just pick up smells off people, mainly round the full moon." Remus explained.
"Oh right, so why is it different?" Sirius asked, not really wanting to know the answer.
Remus looked at him and then at James, Sirius was getting a little annoyed that he wouldn't answer him.
"It's stronger then normal, and different in away." Remus said slowly, the bell rang. "We should go."
"Wait a minute; I thought you were going to tell us." James asked as Remus and Sirius quickly got to their feet.
"I'll tell you later." Sirius told him, as he quickly made to leave and they followed.
Sirius avoided the subject all day and even Remus didn't seem to want to bring it up, James though wanted to talk about it and wanted to find out what the big secret was. Remus went to the library by himself hoping to catch Nissa there alone so it wouldn't seem odd that he was talking to her, but now that he wanted her alone it seemed that she was always surrounded by her friends; at lest they weren't Slytherin's.
***
It was the night before the full moon, the last one of the term; they had taken their last exam and had a whole week free before they would get the results.
Sirius was still complaining about a sore back, though he hadn't been to see Madam Pomfery about it; it hurt every time he thought of her and what he had done to her. He pulled off his robe so that he didn't have so many layers upon it.
"Is that blood?" Jake asked at the table behind him.
They all turned round wondering who he was talking too, then James saw it too.
"Hey Sirius what the hell happened to your back?" James asked him.
"What are you talking about?" Sirius asked, trying to look over his shoulder but couldn't twist very far because it hurt so much.
"Let's have a look then." Jake said getting up.
Sirius wouldn't lift the back of his top as Jake pulled at it, but finally he gave in and pulled it up far enough for them all to see. On either side of his lower back were claw marks as though an animal had clung onto him.
"What the hell?" Jake said.
"It's nothing." Sirius said and quickly pulled his top down, while Remus was staring at him as though he knew what it was without even seeing the marks.
"Of course it's something, I bet they hurt." James said. "Why didn't you say anything?"
Remus looked over at the portrait hole, Nissa was leaving and leaving on her own; he quickly got up and followed her out while everyone else was questioning Sirius.
By the time he had gotten out she was no where to be seen, he let his werewolf senses find her; he quickly followed her sent. She was walking fast where ever she was going, Remus started to run so that he could catch her; he rounded the next corner and then the next and there she was.
"Nissa! Wait!" Remus shouted, but she didn't stop well not at first; she stopped and then slowly turned round to face him. "He doesn't know does he?"
Nissa didn't answer him, which he took as a yes.
"Please tell me that the two of you didn't." Remus said.
"What, that we didn't what?" Nissa shouted at him. "What does it matter?"
"Of course it matter's." Remus told her.
Nissa walked over to him only a foot away, knowing what she did to him so close to the full moon. "Does it matter to you, does it bother you?"
Remus stepped back away from her, he looked down at the floor and then back at her.
"Of course it does." Remus shot at her, and then said a lot calmer. "Because what it will do to you."
Nissa smiled at him. "It won't do much, nothing I can't handle. But thank you for caring. And Remus, I'm glad you liked your present."
She didn't say anything else just walked off leaving him there.
It was the last night of the full moon, and Nissa was getting very restless; she needed to do something anything. She walked round the castle for ages wanting to go outside but not daring too, she heard someone coming towards her; it was him.
She quickly turned the corner, and grabbed hold of him and pushed him up against the wall.
Sirius was scared half to death by being thrown against the wall without any warning, and then relaxed when he saw who it was; he smiled at her slightly.
"What are you doing?" Sirius asked her.
Nissa wanted to hit him to kiss him or do both, but instead her head fell onto his shoulder as she held onto his robes.
"Why? Why did you take me, and then leave me like this?" Nissa whispered with all the strength she could find.
Sirius didn't completely understand what she meant. "I'm sorry; I should never have asked you to come with me. And I shouldn't have done..."
"If you shouldn't have done what you did, then I should never have let you take me." Nissa told him. "But, I was so afraid; you... every time you touched me or kissed me. Do you know what you did to me?" She looked up at him.
"I know, and I know it was wrong." Sirius told her, his pain was in agony he could barley stand she was the only thing keep him on his feet.
She could see the pain in his face and let go of him and slid down to the floor with him. She pulled him close and lifted his top, her hands rested on his back over the crawl marks; he could feel her warm touch and the pain started to lessen and then it was gone.
She pulled back away from him. "It should be alright now, you should be alright now."
"I should?" Sirius asked. "How did you... what about you?"
She touched his face wanting even more for him to touch her. "I'm different."
"I know that, I just don't know how." Sirius said.
This was it, this was the time to tell him; she rested her head on his shoulder for a moment before she looked at him.
"I'm a werewolf." Nissa told him.
He just looked at her and then laughed; she wasn't pleased by his reaction. "Don't be stupid if you were a werewolf, you would have changed it's the full moon tonight."
"Yes the last of this month." Nissa said. "I'm different I told you."
"You can't be a wolf; I've always imaged you turning into some sort of cat like McGonagall." Sirius told her.
"You don't have to believe me, just think about it talk to Remus tomorrow." Nissa told him.
Sirius looked at her and then got to his feet. "Wait a minute, you know about...?"
"Of course I do, I've known ever since I stepped onto the platform; when I felt him when I felt there was another werewolf near by." Nissa told him getting to her pushing him back against the wall.
Sirius was in shock, he couldn't take it all in. He knew that she knew a lot about them that she picked up on a lot of things that happened, but he never thought she knew about this; and that she was one herself.
He hadn't realised that Nissa had gotten even closer to him; she was pressed against his body holding his shoulders and purring softly into his ear.
"Sirius." Nissa whispered. "I'm only sorry, that you gave me back my power; but left me even colder inside."
Sirius closed his eyes pained by her words; they rested their heads against one another.
"You brought me back to life, and now, I'm frozen without your touch without your love." Nissa whispered. "I don't need everything, just a sign; just a small sign that there is a part of you that cares for me no matter how small."
Sirius touched her face, and then kissed her; it was like being warmed slowly by a fire after coming in from the snow outside. He just held her in his arms as she crawled at his robes purring softly.
Next morning thing's were quit different, Sirius had stopped avoided Nissa which everyone noticed straight away; because as soon as she had sat down next to him he had kissed her, all the lads round cheering as he did so.
Nissa smiled embarrassedly as everyone looked at her.
"So we don't need to ask do we." James said, Remus walked in and sat down beside them. "You just missed it."
"Missed what?" Remus asked, but Sirius was getting to his feet and pulling at Remus' robes for him to do the same thing.
They followed him outside; he looked round making sure that there was no one around.
"Is it true?" Sirius asked him.
"Is what true, what are you talking about?" Remus asked.
"Have I missed something?" James asked.
"Nissa, is it true what she said?" Sirius asked him. "Is she?"
"What? Is Nissa what?" James asked getting annoyed that they weren't answering his questions.
"So she told you?" Remus said finally.
"So it is true, how long have you known?" Sirius asked him.
"A while, since second year." Remus answered. "But I was never sure, because she has never changed, well not what I know of. And you have always seen her, so I didn't really know; well somewhat."
"She can't be though, because I was with her last night and she never changed." Sirius told him.
"Change into what?" James asked.
"A werewolf." Remus and Sirius answered together.
Both James and Peter laughed the same reaction which Sirius had had.
"I laughed as well, but it makes sense in away and doesn't in others." Sirius said. "Though I guess we won't really know until the next full moon."
"You still shouldn't have done what you did." Remus told him. "I told her the same thing."
Sirius didn't say anything; he didn't need someone else to tell him that.
How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb without a soul
My spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become
Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life
Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life
Frozen inside without your touch without your love
Darling only you are the life among the dead
All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought without a voice without soul
Don't let me die here there must be something more
Bring me to life
('Bring me to life' by Evanescence off the album 'Fallen')
Lily sat next to Natalie eating breakfast as normal the post had arrived and james was reading the new story of the Death Eaters; Nissa walked up between the tables and sat down next to her. They all looked up at her, quit surprised to see that her hair was a different colour; red.
"So where's Sirius?" James asked. "Is he coming?" And stood up to see if his friend was coming.
"No, I don't think he will do." Nissa said.
"I'm glad that you've gone back to red, it suits you a lot better." Remus told her.
"Thanks." Nissa said, normally she would have smiled at him but she wasn't in the mood for smiling.
"So why have you gone back to red?" Lily asked.
Nissa looked at her wondering how to answer her. "Well, let's just say that my core has been melted after being frozen for so long."
"I don't get it." Lily admitted, Nissa smiled slightly.
"So you're not going to tell us then, you could have just said that instead of that cryptic message." Ella told her.
"Come on lets find Sirius." James said, and he, Remus and Peter left to find him.
They went to their first lesson thinking that he might have gone ahead, but he wasn't there and he never turned up for either lesson. At break they quickly went up to Gryffindor tower, to see if he was there; he was sat in a fire by the fire just staring into it. They sat down beside him, he looked up at them.
"So, how did it go?" James asked, and then added with a smile. "At lest she has red hair now."
Sirius looked at him, as Remus looked at Sirius and then hot up and sat right next to him; making Sirius look at him strangely and move slightly away from him.
"What?" Sirius asked him.
"I've smelt her on you before, but this is different." Remus told him.
"You smell me?" Sirius said moving even farer away.
"No, not like that. I just pick up smells off people, mainly round the full moon." Remus explained.
"Oh right, so why is it different?" Sirius asked, not really wanting to know the answer.
Remus looked at him and then at James, Sirius was getting a little annoyed that he wouldn't answer him.
"It's stronger then normal, and different in away." Remus said slowly, the bell rang. "We should go."
"Wait a minute; I thought you were going to tell us." James asked as Remus and Sirius quickly got to their feet.
"I'll tell you later." Sirius told him, as he quickly made to leave and they followed.
Sirius avoided the subject all day and even Remus didn't seem to want to bring it up, James though wanted to talk about it and wanted to find out what the big secret was. Remus went to the library by himself hoping to catch Nissa there alone so it wouldn't seem odd that he was talking to her, but now that he wanted her alone it seemed that she was always surrounded by her friends; at lest they weren't Slytherin's.
***
It was the night before the full moon, the last one of the term; they had taken their last exam and had a whole week free before they would get the results.
Sirius was still complaining about a sore back, though he hadn't been to see Madam Pomfery about it; it hurt every time he thought of her and what he had done to her. He pulled off his robe so that he didn't have so many layers upon it.
"Is that blood?" Jake asked at the table behind him.
They all turned round wondering who he was talking too, then James saw it too.
"Hey Sirius what the hell happened to your back?" James asked him.
"What are you talking about?" Sirius asked, trying to look over his shoulder but couldn't twist very far because it hurt so much.
"Let's have a look then." Jake said getting up.
Sirius wouldn't lift the back of his top as Jake pulled at it, but finally he gave in and pulled it up far enough for them all to see. On either side of his lower back were claw marks as though an animal had clung onto him.
"What the hell?" Jake said.
"It's nothing." Sirius said and quickly pulled his top down, while Remus was staring at him as though he knew what it was without even seeing the marks.
"Of course it's something, I bet they hurt." James said. "Why didn't you say anything?"
Remus looked over at the portrait hole, Nissa was leaving and leaving on her own; he quickly got up and followed her out while everyone else was questioning Sirius.
By the time he had gotten out she was no where to be seen, he let his werewolf senses find her; he quickly followed her sent. She was walking fast where ever she was going, Remus started to run so that he could catch her; he rounded the next corner and then the next and there she was.
"Nissa! Wait!" Remus shouted, but she didn't stop well not at first; she stopped and then slowly turned round to face him. "He doesn't know does he?"
Nissa didn't answer him, which he took as a yes.
"Please tell me that the two of you didn't." Remus said.
"What, that we didn't what?" Nissa shouted at him. "What does it matter?"
"Of course it matter's." Remus told her.
Nissa walked over to him only a foot away, knowing what she did to him so close to the full moon. "Does it matter to you, does it bother you?"
Remus stepped back away from her, he looked down at the floor and then back at her.
"Of course it does." Remus shot at her, and then said a lot calmer. "Because what it will do to you."
Nissa smiled at him. "It won't do much, nothing I can't handle. But thank you for caring. And Remus, I'm glad you liked your present."
She didn't say anything else just walked off leaving him there.
It was the last night of the full moon, and Nissa was getting very restless; she needed to do something anything. She walked round the castle for ages wanting to go outside but not daring too, she heard someone coming towards her; it was him.
She quickly turned the corner, and grabbed hold of him and pushed him up against the wall.
Sirius was scared half to death by being thrown against the wall without any warning, and then relaxed when he saw who it was; he smiled at her slightly.
"What are you doing?" Sirius asked her.
Nissa wanted to hit him to kiss him or do both, but instead her head fell onto his shoulder as she held onto his robes.
"Why? Why did you take me, and then leave me like this?" Nissa whispered with all the strength she could find.
Sirius didn't completely understand what she meant. "I'm sorry; I should never have asked you to come with me. And I shouldn't have done..."
"If you shouldn't have done what you did, then I should never have let you take me." Nissa told him. "But, I was so afraid; you... every time you touched me or kissed me. Do you know what you did to me?" She looked up at him.
"I know, and I know it was wrong." Sirius told her, his pain was in agony he could barley stand she was the only thing keep him on his feet.
She could see the pain in his face and let go of him and slid down to the floor with him. She pulled him close and lifted his top, her hands rested on his back over the crawl marks; he could feel her warm touch and the pain started to lessen and then it was gone.
She pulled back away from him. "It should be alright now, you should be alright now."
"I should?" Sirius asked. "How did you... what about you?"
She touched his face wanting even more for him to touch her. "I'm different."
"I know that, I just don't know how." Sirius said.
This was it, this was the time to tell him; she rested her head on his shoulder for a moment before she looked at him.
"I'm a werewolf." Nissa told him.
He just looked at her and then laughed; she wasn't pleased by his reaction. "Don't be stupid if you were a werewolf, you would have changed it's the full moon tonight."
"Yes the last of this month." Nissa said. "I'm different I told you."
"You can't be a wolf; I've always imaged you turning into some sort of cat like McGonagall." Sirius told her.
"You don't have to believe me, just think about it talk to Remus tomorrow." Nissa told him.
Sirius looked at her and then got to his feet. "Wait a minute, you know about...?"
"Of course I do, I've known ever since I stepped onto the platform; when I felt him when I felt there was another werewolf near by." Nissa told him getting to her pushing him back against the wall.
Sirius was in shock, he couldn't take it all in. He knew that she knew a lot about them that she picked up on a lot of things that happened, but he never thought she knew about this; and that she was one herself.
He hadn't realised that Nissa had gotten even closer to him; she was pressed against his body holding his shoulders and purring softly into his ear.
"Sirius." Nissa whispered. "I'm only sorry, that you gave me back my power; but left me even colder inside."
Sirius closed his eyes pained by her words; they rested their heads against one another.
"You brought me back to life, and now, I'm frozen without your touch without your love." Nissa whispered. "I don't need everything, just a sign; just a small sign that there is a part of you that cares for me no matter how small."
Sirius touched her face, and then kissed her; it was like being warmed slowly by a fire after coming in from the snow outside. He just held her in his arms as she crawled at his robes purring softly.
Next morning thing's were quit different, Sirius had stopped avoided Nissa which everyone noticed straight away; because as soon as she had sat down next to him he had kissed her, all the lads round cheering as he did so.
Nissa smiled embarrassedly as everyone looked at her.
"So we don't need to ask do we." James said, Remus walked in and sat down beside them. "You just missed it."
"Missed what?" Remus asked, but Sirius was getting to his feet and pulling at Remus' robes for him to do the same thing.
They followed him outside; he looked round making sure that there was no one around.
"Is it true?" Sirius asked him.
"Is what true, what are you talking about?" Remus asked.
"Have I missed something?" James asked.
"Nissa, is it true what she said?" Sirius asked him. "Is she?"
"What? Is Nissa what?" James asked getting annoyed that they weren't answering his questions.
"So she told you?" Remus said finally.
"So it is true, how long have you known?" Sirius asked him.
"A while, since second year." Remus answered. "But I was never sure, because she has never changed, well not what I know of. And you have always seen her, so I didn't really know; well somewhat."
"She can't be though, because I was with her last night and she never changed." Sirius told him.
"Change into what?" James asked.
"A werewolf." Remus and Sirius answered together.
Both James and Peter laughed the same reaction which Sirius had had.
"I laughed as well, but it makes sense in away and doesn't in others." Sirius said. "Though I guess we won't really know until the next full moon."
"You still shouldn't have done what you did." Remus told him. "I told her the same thing."
Sirius didn't say anything; he didn't need someone else to tell him that.