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Simon and Eva and....the plot.
I just wish I could own Jess and Dave but who wouldn't right?
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Hold me don't let go, cos I'm revelling in insecurity
It's so unlike me, yes I know.
But what am I to do with how I feel.
So please don't leave me here. I'll be lost without you.
Don't make me stay. Cos I'll only be in the way.
-Nothing By Des'Ree
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Chapter 6:

"Where is she?"
"Jess..."
"WHERE IS SHE!"
"Jess listen to me, she's in really bad shape"
"I don't care"

And I really don't, there's no way Luke's gonna stop me from getting into
her room.
It seems like an hour ago since I picked up the phone in Seatlle and I
heard his voice telling me she's in the hospital.
Dean did this I know for sure, she told him about me and her and they got
into a fight.

"Luke I need to see her"
"Please Jess, don't do this, don't go in there, Dean's there and..."
"Dean! Is Dean in there?"
"Jess he was her fiancee"
"No, no he did this to her, he's the reason why she's here"
"What! No, they had a fight and she drove a way, probably to you, and she
got in a car accident"

I can't be the one who caused this, it's Dean's fault.
She was upset because of him...right?
What if Luke's right what if she really was upset because of me, because I
didn't tell her I need her too, because I couldn't tell her I love her.
I tried, I tried so hard to tell her how I really feel, how I always felt,
since the day I walked into her room and I saw her sitting behind her
computer, but I just couldn't because I knew she would leave anyway and go
back to Dean.

"I need to get out"
"Look Jess..."
"Stop saying my name like that!"
"Look she's in really bad shape and the doctors aren't sure she's gonna
make it"

I feel tears form in the corner of my eyes and I find myself running out of
the hospital right to the bridge.
On my way out I hear Luke yelling my name but I don't turn around.
When I get there I call Simon and it takes him about half a day to get here
but it looks like a lifetime.

"Hey mate, everything alright? Eva told me you two broke up"
"Yeah a couple of days ago"
"So that's why you're here? Sitting at an old bridge, you ought to be
careful cause this thing might split"
"She's in the hospital"
"Who?"
"Rory"
"Oh the nice girl who called my store amazing"
"Yeah her"
"How's she doing"
"The doctors don't think she's gonna make it"
"What did you tell her, I mean you did visit her right?"
"No I can't, I can't see her laying there when I know it's my fault"
"Look I don't know all the details of your relationship with er but I know
you love her and maybe the doctors are wrong, maybe she won't pass away and
then you two can live happily ever after. But there's also a chance she
won't survive and then you'll have to live with the fact you never got the
chance to tell her how you feel"

I know he makes sense once again and so I rise and walk to the hospital
without saying a word.

"In Ireland we say 'thanks'after some good advice mate!"

I know he's joking and that he's just trying to make me feel better but the
only one who can make me feel better is a doctor with some really good
advice.
As I enter the hospital I see Luke, Lane, Dave, Emily, Richard and even
Paris sitting in the waiting room.

"I want to see her, now"

As I enter her room I see Lorelai and Dean sitting beside her bed watching
over her while she sleeps.

"Can I be alone with her for a second, please?"
"How DARE you coming here!!!"
"Dean come on, we're getting some coffee"
"No I will not leave her alone with him"
"Dean come on"

And then she pulls him out of the room, his comments didn't touch me or
bother me at all.
All I could see was her and the way she looks, full of bruises and a cut on
her left cheek
Then she slowly opens her eyes.

"Hey"
"What are you doing here?"
"Well I heard Dean might be crying and so I came to laugh at him"
"Funny"
"So how are you feeling?"
"Like I'm hit by a car"

The tears that formed in the corner of my eyes when I walked into the room
are streaming down my face, but I will not let her see me cry like this.

"You're crying"
"No I'm not"
"Guess Dean's the one who's laughing now"
"Just don't leave me okay"
"I'll never leave you, what we have is forever"

Something inside of me is telling me she won't be here for much longer and
I guess she knows too.
So I slowly bent down and kiss her one last time.
I see her eyes weaken and I don't want her to leave already, I can't lose
her not like this not now.

"Rory no! Rory listen to me, don't go, don't leave me. I...I love you"

A slight smile appeares on her face and she simply says:

"I love you too Jess, only you, always"

And then I here this long and endless beep coming from the heart monitor,
my world starts to spin and I stand up causing the chair that stands behind
me to fall on the floor.
I run out her room with tears streaming down my face not caring if anybody
sees them.

"Jess"

I don't want to answer, I don't want to tell her I killed her daughter, I
can't tell her I killed her daughter.

"JESS!"
"What!"
"Tell me"
"She's gone, okay, she's gone"

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