A/N: Hi everybody, this is the final chapter and I have to tell you, it's
kind of dramatic and not really my style of writing but still I'm satisfied
about it...maybe because it's something different for a change.
Well enjoy and hopefully you find some time to review :-D
Feedback: justsomebodycalledme@yahoo.com
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You are still a whisper on my lips
A feeling at my fingertips
That's pulling at my skin
You leave me when I'm at my worst
Feeling as if I've been cursed
Bitter cold within
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
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Chapter 7:
The days that followed were killing for everybody.
Dean was avoiding Jess and all Lorelai could do was cry in Luke's arms.
There was also some guy I've never seen before, Simon, I guess he's one of
Jess' friends from Seattle.
When Jess screamed at Lorelai she was gone he ran away and Lorelai
pretended he didn't say it, she was in denial I guess, but Luke went to her
room with her and they didn't come out until the doctor had to bring her
body away.
Dean just stood there and he started talking like a mad man, he just
couldn't shut up about the great times he had with Rory but then Lorelai
yelled at him if he would like to shut up.
I myself had Dave to comfort me, he was having a hard time too even though
he didn't know her that well.
And then there was Paris, she didn't speak or cried, she just sat there.
When I walked to her and asked her if she wanted something to drink she
kept staring at the ground.
But somehow she's not the one I worried most about, that's Jess.
Even though Simon is here he's just sitting there just like Paris, there's
something in his eyes that worry's me.
"Jess"
"Lane"
"So how uhm...how are you holding up?"
"Fine"
"Good, look if you need to talk to someone...just know I'm here"
"Well thank you but that won't be necessary"
"I'm just letting you know"
Today is her funeral.
At first I didn't want to come, I always hated funerals, not because you're
saying goodbye to someone you lost but because there always people
pretending to care about a person and say all these good things about them
when they never really knowed him/her.
Luke tried to convince me to go anyway but I told him there was nothing he
could to convince me to go, but now here I am standing in front of the
church still making up my mind to go in or not.
A couple of minuts later I find myself sitting in the back of the church
where nobody can see me.
In the front I see Lorelai and Luke sitting, in the row behind them there
are Lane, Dave and Paris.
Memories of her come flashing by, memories of our first kiss, the time I
wanted us to end but she didn't let me, the time we first said our goodbye,
the time she told me she was pregnant.
As I think about it I realize how much we've been through.
The whole ceremony seem to pass by without my notice and when everybody's
gone I walk to the front, to see her one last time, to touch her one last
time.
After I stand by her side for a while I know it's time to let her go but I
know I can't, I can't leave her.
So instead I kiss her and sit beside her waiting for someone to take me
away.
"Jess? Jess!"
"Huh, what"
"What are you doing here?"
"Lane? Stop bothering me!"
"No I will not stop bothering you, I know, I know about your relationship,
I know she was going to tell Dean and I know she was leaving Dean because
of you and I can see that you're not doing okay, okay! You're far from okay
and I will not stop bothering you before you talk to me."
"How do you know?"
"She told me, long before it even started"
"I can't take this Lane, I really can't"
And then he breaks down, he just sits there in the middle of the church
crying over a woman he loves.
The big almighty Jess is actually crying over a woman.
I go and sit beside him with my arm wrapped aroung him trying to give him
some comfort.
"It's okay Jess, it's okay"
"How can it be okay when she's gone? How? Please tell me!"
"I don't know"
And there we are sitting in the middle of the church holding each other and
I finally see what it was, why she felt for him.
Cause underneath it all he's still this innocent, scared guy that Rory fell
in love with years ago.
"Lane?"
"Yeah"
"I can't do this, I can't put up with the fact of living without her"
"You did it before"
"This is different, now I know for sure she's..."
"GO!"
And there he is storming into the church like he owns the place, Dean.
"Dean don't do this just go"
"It's his fault! He killed her!"
"Dean...GO"
"Not before he's gone too"
And then there's this loud shot causing me to stumble, all I see is Jess
falling down in front of me and Dean running away.
This isn't happening, this cannot be happening!
"Oh god no! No Jess! Jess listen to me...Jess....HELPPP!!!"
"Lane...don't...it's okay...I can...I can see her"
"No Jess don't leave, think about Luke he needs you, I need you...you can't
go"
"Thank you Lane"
And then he's gone.
I run outside the church stumbling against Luke when I finally enter the
diner,my tears streaming down my face.
"Lane...what happend? Why are you covered with blood?"
"It's Dean...he..."
"What happend to Dean?"
"Nothing...he...he...he shot him"
"Who? Lane...who did Dean shoot?"
"He's gone Luke...Jess...he's gone...I was there"
1 year later:
"And I now pronounce you husband and wife"
I can't believe I'm finally married to the man I love, Dave.
I'm so glad things turned out alright, Lorelai is starting to get her life
back on track and so does Luke.
I can't believe how Jess' death affected him, I'll never forget the day I
told him, he closed the diner and went to the church, he carried his body
outside and walked to the hospital.
Maybe it was some kind of pride thing, I don't know.
Only a day after Jess died they arrested Dean and he's doing his time now.
Paris is seeing a therapist, I guess when Rory died something inside of her
snapped, it turns out she already had problems that started at school.
Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night because I hear a gunshot
cause somehow Dean didn't only kill Jess but he also killed a part of me.
___________________________________________________________________________
Feedback: justsomebodycalledme@yahoo.com
kind of dramatic and not really my style of writing but still I'm satisfied
about it...maybe because it's something different for a change.
Well enjoy and hopefully you find some time to review :-D
Feedback: justsomebodycalledme@yahoo.com
___________________________________________________________________________
You are still a whisper on my lips
A feeling at my fingertips
That's pulling at my skin
You leave me when I'm at my worst
Feeling as if I've been cursed
Bitter cold within
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
___________________________________________________________________________
Chapter 7:
The days that followed were killing for everybody.
Dean was avoiding Jess and all Lorelai could do was cry in Luke's arms.
There was also some guy I've never seen before, Simon, I guess he's one of
Jess' friends from Seattle.
When Jess screamed at Lorelai she was gone he ran away and Lorelai
pretended he didn't say it, she was in denial I guess, but Luke went to her
room with her and they didn't come out until the doctor had to bring her
body away.
Dean just stood there and he started talking like a mad man, he just
couldn't shut up about the great times he had with Rory but then Lorelai
yelled at him if he would like to shut up.
I myself had Dave to comfort me, he was having a hard time too even though
he didn't know her that well.
And then there was Paris, she didn't speak or cried, she just sat there.
When I walked to her and asked her if she wanted something to drink she
kept staring at the ground.
But somehow she's not the one I worried most about, that's Jess.
Even though Simon is here he's just sitting there just like Paris, there's
something in his eyes that worry's me.
"Jess"
"Lane"
"So how uhm...how are you holding up?"
"Fine"
"Good, look if you need to talk to someone...just know I'm here"
"Well thank you but that won't be necessary"
"I'm just letting you know"
Today is her funeral.
At first I didn't want to come, I always hated funerals, not because you're
saying goodbye to someone you lost but because there always people
pretending to care about a person and say all these good things about them
when they never really knowed him/her.
Luke tried to convince me to go anyway but I told him there was nothing he
could to convince me to go, but now here I am standing in front of the
church still making up my mind to go in or not.
A couple of minuts later I find myself sitting in the back of the church
where nobody can see me.
In the front I see Lorelai and Luke sitting, in the row behind them there
are Lane, Dave and Paris.
Memories of her come flashing by, memories of our first kiss, the time I
wanted us to end but she didn't let me, the time we first said our goodbye,
the time she told me she was pregnant.
As I think about it I realize how much we've been through.
The whole ceremony seem to pass by without my notice and when everybody's
gone I walk to the front, to see her one last time, to touch her one last
time.
After I stand by her side for a while I know it's time to let her go but I
know I can't, I can't leave her.
So instead I kiss her and sit beside her waiting for someone to take me
away.
"Jess? Jess!"
"Huh, what"
"What are you doing here?"
"Lane? Stop bothering me!"
"No I will not stop bothering you, I know, I know about your relationship,
I know she was going to tell Dean and I know she was leaving Dean because
of you and I can see that you're not doing okay, okay! You're far from okay
and I will not stop bothering you before you talk to me."
"How do you know?"
"She told me, long before it even started"
"I can't take this Lane, I really can't"
And then he breaks down, he just sits there in the middle of the church
crying over a woman he loves.
The big almighty Jess is actually crying over a woman.
I go and sit beside him with my arm wrapped aroung him trying to give him
some comfort.
"It's okay Jess, it's okay"
"How can it be okay when she's gone? How? Please tell me!"
"I don't know"
And there we are sitting in the middle of the church holding each other and
I finally see what it was, why she felt for him.
Cause underneath it all he's still this innocent, scared guy that Rory fell
in love with years ago.
"Lane?"
"Yeah"
"I can't do this, I can't put up with the fact of living without her"
"You did it before"
"This is different, now I know for sure she's..."
"GO!"
And there he is storming into the church like he owns the place, Dean.
"Dean don't do this just go"
"It's his fault! He killed her!"
"Dean...GO"
"Not before he's gone too"
And then there's this loud shot causing me to stumble, all I see is Jess
falling down in front of me and Dean running away.
This isn't happening, this cannot be happening!
"Oh god no! No Jess! Jess listen to me...Jess....HELPPP!!!"
"Lane...don't...it's okay...I can...I can see her"
"No Jess don't leave, think about Luke he needs you, I need you...you can't
go"
"Thank you Lane"
And then he's gone.
I run outside the church stumbling against Luke when I finally enter the
diner,my tears streaming down my face.
"Lane...what happend? Why are you covered with blood?"
"It's Dean...he..."
"What happend to Dean?"
"Nothing...he...he...he shot him"
"Who? Lane...who did Dean shoot?"
"He's gone Luke...Jess...he's gone...I was there"
1 year later:
"And I now pronounce you husband and wife"
I can't believe I'm finally married to the man I love, Dave.
I'm so glad things turned out alright, Lorelai is starting to get her life
back on track and so does Luke.
I can't believe how Jess' death affected him, I'll never forget the day I
told him, he closed the diner and went to the church, he carried his body
outside and walked to the hospital.
Maybe it was some kind of pride thing, I don't know.
Only a day after Jess died they arrested Dean and he's doing his time now.
Paris is seeing a therapist, I guess when Rory died something inside of her
snapped, it turns out she already had problems that started at school.
Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night because I hear a gunshot
cause somehow Dean didn't only kill Jess but he also killed a part of me.
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Feedback: justsomebodycalledme@yahoo.com