Title: Flicker
A/N: There is going to be one more chapter after this one, so stick around,
folks! Also.I just found out my friend has four brain tumors. Knowing that
I have this community to fall back on is truly a gift. You're all kind,
supportive and understanding. To know you is to love you. Thank you all.
You make my life bearable.
that night I was studying at the table in the Magic Box
Buffy came through the door an annoyed expression on her features
Giles was ranting as he followed behind
"How could you?"
"Giles"
she turned
"I won so nothing to worry about"
"but what if you hadn't?"
"then"
her voice was wistful
"then I would die and go to Heaven where I belong"
the room went dead silent
no pun intended
Giles looked scared as he asked
"is it really that bad?"
but I knew him knew him well enough that what he was really asking was:
"am I really that bad?"
"yes"
she leaned against the bookcase looking at the floor
"Heaven was love and light
this this is darkness and hate and violence"
she finally looked at him
and whispered
"this is hell"
"Buffy"
he took her in his arms
and placed his head on hers
it was the most intimate I'd ever seen them
it was as if Willow and Tara Xander, Anya and me weren't there
like it was just the two of them
"Buffy I've loved you for six years
never have I seen such light such joy or such love
and if seeing you smile isn't Heaven
then I don't know what is
Buffy
the hardest thing in this world is to live in it
but you
you make it just that much easier"
he hugged her to him and she wept
we all did
knowing that this trial by fire
and ordeal by moonlight
was finally at an end.
that night I was studying at the table in the Magic Box
Buffy came through the door an annoyed expression on her features
Giles was ranting as he followed behind
"How could you?"
"Giles"
she turned
"I won so nothing to worry about"
"but what if you hadn't?"
"then"
her voice was wistful
"then I would die and go to Heaven where I belong"
the room went dead silent
no pun intended
Giles looked scared as he asked
"is it really that bad?"
but I knew him knew him well enough that what he was really asking was:
"am I really that bad?"
"yes"
she leaned against the bookcase looking at the floor
"Heaven was love and light
this this is darkness and hate and violence"
she finally looked at him
and whispered
"this is hell"
"Buffy"
he took her in his arms
and placed his head on hers
it was the most intimate I'd ever seen them
it was as if Willow and Tara Xander, Anya and me weren't there
like it was just the two of them
"Buffy I've loved you for six years
never have I seen such light such joy or such love
and if seeing you smile isn't Heaven
then I don't know what is
Buffy
the hardest thing in this world is to live in it
but you
you make it just that much easier"
he hugged her to him and she wept
we all did
knowing that this trial by fire
and ordeal by moonlight
was finally at an end.