FMA do not belong to me, it is not mine. If FMA is mine, I would have made
ROY the main character, and not Chibi Edward, but it's not mine... sob
Full metal Alchemist
Suffering
A Roy and Riza fan fiction
"Tomorrow" Colonel Roy Mustang said out loud, to no one in particular, Well,, since the only one in the office now other then him is his First Lieutenant, Riza Hawkeye, could it be that he was talking to her?
However, Riza didn't want to hear it, she knows what "Tomorrow" means. Tomorrow is the date Roy has to set off to fight a war. It is the day she wish will never come, ever since last week, when Roy gotten the notice that he will be send to the front line, it seems that Riza had lost her peace of mind.
Roy seems clam about it, well, most of the time anyway. He had the day off actually, but he didn't want to stay at home, so he came down, and sat in his office the whole time. Riza peak up and see the man, heavy in thoughts, he still look so much like the Roy Mustang she saw when she was first posted here. Silent, strong, and so full of himself. It was after which she found out that he was nothing near Silent, rather, he is as silent as an elephant tip toeing. Sometimes, she even wonders how a guy like him ended up being a colonel.
He is serious about his work, sure. That is when Riza like him best. When he is studying a document, or analyzing something, or hosting a meeting. That, she always believes, is the real Roy Mustang. The confident he has when dealing with a case. However, he has too much confident in battle, so much that he forgets that he is useless in rain.
She, on the other hand, was serious all the time, hardworking, smart, neat, tidy, with a wicked sense of humor, and daring to go head on with him. That's what he likes about her. He still remembers the whole "you are useless in the rain" incident. How many people will dare tip him like that? And in front of everyone. He laughed at the thought of it, and Riza looked up, to see what went wrong with her superior.
"I haven't lost a screw," he informs her. "Are you done, Lieutenant? I am waiting for you to close the office."
"Sir, you do not need to wait for me," Riza remind him. "I always work till the wee hours."
"That is very dangerous. No matter how good you are with a gun, you are a girl."
"I don't like that phrase, Colonel, It's not as if being a female is automatic the weaker sex."
"Whatever, hurry up with it, will you?"
"Yes sir" she answered one last time before going back to her work.
After the small conversation, Roy made sure that she was back absorbed in her work before he stared at her again.
'It so happens that she is every thing I want in a friend. Maybe more then a friend.' He thought. 'But our timing are so wrong. I only notice how I love her when I am going away from her.'
Riza finally finished her last word, and was looking for the file she needs to file the paper in, when the thought suddenly came back to her... 'Maybe I should tell him.. about how I feel about him... No! I can't! I will only increase pressure on him. I can't bear to see him struck in the middle of war and love. That is why I decided to let him go silently, and keeping this desire inside myself.
"I am going off, Colonel." Riza announced, and started to walk toward the door.
"Wait," Roy suddenly called out. "Let me walk you to the domes."
"Thank you, Colonel."
'No, I don't want you to walk me back, it will just make the separation even harder.' Her heart screamed.
The domes are just about 10 minutes walk from the office, but Roy seems to be having a lot of trouble walking. One minute he was looking at some roadside stall, the other he needs to comb his hair, and something was wrong with his boots.
Just went they are one street before the dome, Roy had to stop again. Riza was getting irritated, for a 10-minute walk home had been dragged to 30 minute, and counting. "What now, Colonel?"
"I will stop here. It wouldn't be good for people to see me sending you back," he answered. "I have to go now," he forced a smirk on his face. "See you later, Riza Hawkeye" With that, Roy turned and walked as steady as he can away from her.
'This maybe the last time I will ever get to see her again, I maybe gone for a long time, hell, I may even die on the field! At least, I get to see her. Still, I wish I can hold her in my arms, till the sun rises tomorrow, but if I have her in my arms, I will wish that the sun would never again rise.'
'What did he mean, 'See you around' ... Is he trying to assure me that he will be back? That smirk of his was so faked, he's feeling uneasy, and yet he is trying to assure me that he will be back? Who am I to him that he needs to assure me of his return? He just thinks that I am the cold Lieutenant in his office... But, to assure me when he is himself uncertain and scare, trying to put up a brave front for me... that is so like him...' Riza thought. Slowly, she sees Roy's figure slowly move away from her, slowly disappearing...
'It's not as if I don't know' Roy admits to himself "How much I will suffer emotionally without her by my side'
'Maybe he thinks that I am a fool, because I am treating my lost as a gain,' Riza found herself slowly, step by step, moving towards Roy. And before she knows it, she had broken out in a run. 'I know that by not telling him I love him, it's my lost, but at least he can fight peacefully... So long as it is for his own good, I will do anything, even if it means hurting myself'
'I wonder if she understands my feelings, have she guessed my feeling for her, does she know how much I was suffering as I walk her back home?"
'Please don't turn back, Colonel, don't turn back.'
'I should not love you so deeply'
'Don't turn back and see me running after you, it will just make both of us even more miserable then before...'
'Why can't my love have a perfect ending?'
After a while, Riza had stopped running, she knows, if she continue, she will meet Roy, Roy will know that she was chasing after him. She didn't want him to know, to find out. She whispered to the air, "Please come back safely, Colonel, I have something to tell you went you return..."
"I will return safely, Riza, and I will hear what you have to say to me... I promise."
Ok, this is my first one shot, and err... maybe can also be consider a song fic, cos I got the idea off a song in the OST of a Taiwan drama, Westside story. The song is Jian Ao, by 5566's Tony Su and err.. 'the girl who act as Yin he' (sorry, I don't know her name . I don't stay in touch with the Chinese music circle)
Full metal Alchemist
Suffering
A Roy and Riza fan fiction
"Tomorrow" Colonel Roy Mustang said out loud, to no one in particular, Well,, since the only one in the office now other then him is his First Lieutenant, Riza Hawkeye, could it be that he was talking to her?
However, Riza didn't want to hear it, she knows what "Tomorrow" means. Tomorrow is the date Roy has to set off to fight a war. It is the day she wish will never come, ever since last week, when Roy gotten the notice that he will be send to the front line, it seems that Riza had lost her peace of mind.
Roy seems clam about it, well, most of the time anyway. He had the day off actually, but he didn't want to stay at home, so he came down, and sat in his office the whole time. Riza peak up and see the man, heavy in thoughts, he still look so much like the Roy Mustang she saw when she was first posted here. Silent, strong, and so full of himself. It was after which she found out that he was nothing near Silent, rather, he is as silent as an elephant tip toeing. Sometimes, she even wonders how a guy like him ended up being a colonel.
He is serious about his work, sure. That is when Riza like him best. When he is studying a document, or analyzing something, or hosting a meeting. That, she always believes, is the real Roy Mustang. The confident he has when dealing with a case. However, he has too much confident in battle, so much that he forgets that he is useless in rain.
She, on the other hand, was serious all the time, hardworking, smart, neat, tidy, with a wicked sense of humor, and daring to go head on with him. That's what he likes about her. He still remembers the whole "you are useless in the rain" incident. How many people will dare tip him like that? And in front of everyone. He laughed at the thought of it, and Riza looked up, to see what went wrong with her superior.
"I haven't lost a screw," he informs her. "Are you done, Lieutenant? I am waiting for you to close the office."
"Sir, you do not need to wait for me," Riza remind him. "I always work till the wee hours."
"That is very dangerous. No matter how good you are with a gun, you are a girl."
"I don't like that phrase, Colonel, It's not as if being a female is automatic the weaker sex."
"Whatever, hurry up with it, will you?"
"Yes sir" she answered one last time before going back to her work.
After the small conversation, Roy made sure that she was back absorbed in her work before he stared at her again.
'It so happens that she is every thing I want in a friend. Maybe more then a friend.' He thought. 'But our timing are so wrong. I only notice how I love her when I am going away from her.'
Riza finally finished her last word, and was looking for the file she needs to file the paper in, when the thought suddenly came back to her... 'Maybe I should tell him.. about how I feel about him... No! I can't! I will only increase pressure on him. I can't bear to see him struck in the middle of war and love. That is why I decided to let him go silently, and keeping this desire inside myself.
"I am going off, Colonel." Riza announced, and started to walk toward the door.
"Wait," Roy suddenly called out. "Let me walk you to the domes."
"Thank you, Colonel."
'No, I don't want you to walk me back, it will just make the separation even harder.' Her heart screamed.
The domes are just about 10 minutes walk from the office, but Roy seems to be having a lot of trouble walking. One minute he was looking at some roadside stall, the other he needs to comb his hair, and something was wrong with his boots.
Just went they are one street before the dome, Roy had to stop again. Riza was getting irritated, for a 10-minute walk home had been dragged to 30 minute, and counting. "What now, Colonel?"
"I will stop here. It wouldn't be good for people to see me sending you back," he answered. "I have to go now," he forced a smirk on his face. "See you later, Riza Hawkeye" With that, Roy turned and walked as steady as he can away from her.
'This maybe the last time I will ever get to see her again, I maybe gone for a long time, hell, I may even die on the field! At least, I get to see her. Still, I wish I can hold her in my arms, till the sun rises tomorrow, but if I have her in my arms, I will wish that the sun would never again rise.'
'What did he mean, 'See you around' ... Is he trying to assure me that he will be back? That smirk of his was so faked, he's feeling uneasy, and yet he is trying to assure me that he will be back? Who am I to him that he needs to assure me of his return? He just thinks that I am the cold Lieutenant in his office... But, to assure me when he is himself uncertain and scare, trying to put up a brave front for me... that is so like him...' Riza thought. Slowly, she sees Roy's figure slowly move away from her, slowly disappearing...
'It's not as if I don't know' Roy admits to himself "How much I will suffer emotionally without her by my side'
'Maybe he thinks that I am a fool, because I am treating my lost as a gain,' Riza found herself slowly, step by step, moving towards Roy. And before she knows it, she had broken out in a run. 'I know that by not telling him I love him, it's my lost, but at least he can fight peacefully... So long as it is for his own good, I will do anything, even if it means hurting myself'
'I wonder if she understands my feelings, have she guessed my feeling for her, does she know how much I was suffering as I walk her back home?"
'Please don't turn back, Colonel, don't turn back.'
'I should not love you so deeply'
'Don't turn back and see me running after you, it will just make both of us even more miserable then before...'
'Why can't my love have a perfect ending?'
After a while, Riza had stopped running, she knows, if she continue, she will meet Roy, Roy will know that she was chasing after him. She didn't want him to know, to find out. She whispered to the air, "Please come back safely, Colonel, I have something to tell you went you return..."
"I will return safely, Riza, and I will hear what you have to say to me... I promise."
Ok, this is my first one shot, and err... maybe can also be consider a song fic, cos I got the idea off a song in the OST of a Taiwan drama, Westside story. The song is Jian Ao, by 5566's Tony Su and err.. 'the girl who act as Yin he' (sorry, I don't know her name . I don't stay in touch with the Chinese music circle)