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the advice.
Always My Soul
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters
Inuyasha stared at the small hut intently, his ears straining to pick up every word of the conversation going on inside.
After the near miss with Shippo Kagome had insisted they hurry to Kaede's. Inuyasha easily picked up the guilt on her face when she passed him, going out of her way to avoid coming to near, and he felt even more unsure of his role in all of this. Kagome couldn't stay this way, could she? If so where did he fit into all of this? She had become more then capable of handling youkai herself, and there was the sword at her side to consider. True she had yet to try and use it but she seemed so self assured when it had come to her using her new powers, couldn't this transformation also have provided her with abilities to wield her sword properly and effectively?
A new thought occurred to him and his stomach twisted in reaction. What if Kagome decided to go off on her own to find the jewel shards!? She couldn't take Shippo, Miroku, or Kirara with her. There had been times during their journey here that he had definitely gotten the feeling that Kagome wished she were alone. At the time he had been more concerned with getting her to the village and hadn't talked to her about it. Now he thought it might have been a mistake for him to be so silent for so long. He knew Kagome trusted his opinion and yet he had given her no real words of advice not once.
He cast a glance over at Miroku who was watching the hut as well; Shippo sat on the monk's lap obviously disturbed by not being allowed near the hut, near Kagome. Miroku didn't seem like he minded the kitsune's extra attention, in fact he seemed quiet content. Inuyasha felt a small smile tug at his lips. Miroku would make a good father someday, one that gave attention without really thinking about it. That thought almost made Inuyasha hit himself. Why did he care what kind of father the monk would be?
" The hell I will!"
The exclamation made Inuyasha jump to his feet. Kagome stormed out of the hut, her miko energy flaring wildly around her body. She didn't seem to notice. Kaede and Sango exited the hut right after her.
"It may be the only way child" Kaede insisted.
Kagome rounded on the old woman, anger in her every movement. Her eyes were clouded again in mist, glowing faintly pink.
"I will not seal my powers! I will not be reduced to nothing! I will not leave myself defenseless! That isn't a choice, it's a death sentence, and you know it hag!" She roared back at Kaede.
"Kagome!" Inuyasha admonished, shocked beyond thought at her outburst.
"Stay out of this hanyou!" Kagome ordered
His ears went back in anger, she had never referred to him as a hanyou, and it cut him deeply.
"Who the hell do you think you are talking to wench!?" Inuyasha heard himself respond.
Kagome ignored him completely and he felt himself twitch with new anger. She wasn't acting like herself at all. In fact she was acting more like him.
"Kagome please listen to Kaede, she doesn't mean you harm, she is only trying to help" Sango ventured, tense because of Kagome's change.
Kagome seemed to deflate, her power ebbing back inside of her. Her eyes cleared once again of the mist. Her hand went to her mouth in horror and he knew she had not meant a word that she had said in anger.
"I'm so sorry Kaede, Inuyasha. I didn't mean to say those things. They just came out." She begged, tears in her eyes.
"Kagome there is nothing to forgive. These powers of yours they have a mind of their own and will seek any outlet. You must remain in control child. I know it is difficult but you have no choice until there is a way found to return you to your normal self." Kaede said gently.
"I can't stay like this Kaede, I can't. I can feel myself dying, being eaten away. What if...what if because I have only a partial soul what Yensa did to me isn't reversible?" Kagome asked fearfully.
Kagome's fears hit Inuyasha harder then he had imagined anything could. Was it possible? Could the reason she was like this be that Kikyo had part of her soul? And if that was the case could they do anything at all besides the obvious to prevent their Kagome from disappearing inside this new person?
"I have no answers for you child. I do not completely understand what has happened to you nor why. All I know is that your soul, the essence of your very being is no longer locked inside of you. And this is a very dangerous state to be in. Our souls burn brightly like newborn fire, kept at bay by being controlled by our hearts. Without your heart in control you will continue to flare, each time hotter and faster until..." here Kaede trailed off.
"Until what Kaede?" Kagome asked, her voice soft in hurt.
"Until that is all you are child. A living flame. Uncontrolled. You will have no thought except those your powers give you." Kaede answered, her voice rough.
Kagome's eyes cut to Inuyasha's and he could almost read the thought in her mind.
~ Then I'll kill you ~
Always My Soul
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters
Inuyasha stared at the small hut intently, his ears straining to pick up every word of the conversation going on inside.
After the near miss with Shippo Kagome had insisted they hurry to Kaede's. Inuyasha easily picked up the guilt on her face when she passed him, going out of her way to avoid coming to near, and he felt even more unsure of his role in all of this. Kagome couldn't stay this way, could she? If so where did he fit into all of this? She had become more then capable of handling youkai herself, and there was the sword at her side to consider. True she had yet to try and use it but she seemed so self assured when it had come to her using her new powers, couldn't this transformation also have provided her with abilities to wield her sword properly and effectively?
A new thought occurred to him and his stomach twisted in reaction. What if Kagome decided to go off on her own to find the jewel shards!? She couldn't take Shippo, Miroku, or Kirara with her. There had been times during their journey here that he had definitely gotten the feeling that Kagome wished she were alone. At the time he had been more concerned with getting her to the village and hadn't talked to her about it. Now he thought it might have been a mistake for him to be so silent for so long. He knew Kagome trusted his opinion and yet he had given her no real words of advice not once.
He cast a glance over at Miroku who was watching the hut as well; Shippo sat on the monk's lap obviously disturbed by not being allowed near the hut, near Kagome. Miroku didn't seem like he minded the kitsune's extra attention, in fact he seemed quiet content. Inuyasha felt a small smile tug at his lips. Miroku would make a good father someday, one that gave attention without really thinking about it. That thought almost made Inuyasha hit himself. Why did he care what kind of father the monk would be?
" The hell I will!"
The exclamation made Inuyasha jump to his feet. Kagome stormed out of the hut, her miko energy flaring wildly around her body. She didn't seem to notice. Kaede and Sango exited the hut right after her.
"It may be the only way child" Kaede insisted.
Kagome rounded on the old woman, anger in her every movement. Her eyes were clouded again in mist, glowing faintly pink.
"I will not seal my powers! I will not be reduced to nothing! I will not leave myself defenseless! That isn't a choice, it's a death sentence, and you know it hag!" She roared back at Kaede.
"Kagome!" Inuyasha admonished, shocked beyond thought at her outburst.
"Stay out of this hanyou!" Kagome ordered
His ears went back in anger, she had never referred to him as a hanyou, and it cut him deeply.
"Who the hell do you think you are talking to wench!?" Inuyasha heard himself respond.
Kagome ignored him completely and he felt himself twitch with new anger. She wasn't acting like herself at all. In fact she was acting more like him.
"Kagome please listen to Kaede, she doesn't mean you harm, she is only trying to help" Sango ventured, tense because of Kagome's change.
Kagome seemed to deflate, her power ebbing back inside of her. Her eyes cleared once again of the mist. Her hand went to her mouth in horror and he knew she had not meant a word that she had said in anger.
"I'm so sorry Kaede, Inuyasha. I didn't mean to say those things. They just came out." She begged, tears in her eyes.
"Kagome there is nothing to forgive. These powers of yours they have a mind of their own and will seek any outlet. You must remain in control child. I know it is difficult but you have no choice until there is a way found to return you to your normal self." Kaede said gently.
"I can't stay like this Kaede, I can't. I can feel myself dying, being eaten away. What if...what if because I have only a partial soul what Yensa did to me isn't reversible?" Kagome asked fearfully.
Kagome's fears hit Inuyasha harder then he had imagined anything could. Was it possible? Could the reason she was like this be that Kikyo had part of her soul? And if that was the case could they do anything at all besides the obvious to prevent their Kagome from disappearing inside this new person?
"I have no answers for you child. I do not completely understand what has happened to you nor why. All I know is that your soul, the essence of your very being is no longer locked inside of you. And this is a very dangerous state to be in. Our souls burn brightly like newborn fire, kept at bay by being controlled by our hearts. Without your heart in control you will continue to flare, each time hotter and faster until..." here Kaede trailed off.
"Until what Kaede?" Kagome asked, her voice soft in hurt.
"Until that is all you are child. A living flame. Uncontrolled. You will have no thought except those your powers give you." Kaede answered, her voice rough.
Kagome's eyes cut to Inuyasha's and he could almost read the thought in her mind.
~ Then I'll kill you ~