A/N: Thanks again for the reviews they really did help me.
Always My Soul
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters
Kagome knew Inuyasha could read her face the moment his eyes flashed in stubborn denial. At that moment she didn't think she could've loved him anymore then she did. His stubbornness had taken them through many close situations and if he wasn't willing to give in to her fate then neither was she. With renewed hope she looked back at Kaede.
"Do you know anyone who may be able to help her Kaede?" Inuyasha asked respectfully.
If the situation hadn't been so tense Kagome would've thought Inuyasha had lost his mind. He rarely if ever spoke respectfully to Kaede.
~ He's worried, very worried ~ She thought and enjoyed the small sliver of warmth that flowed into her with the new knowledge that he cared about her.
Kaede thought for several moments and Kagome resisted the urge to strangle the old woman.
" There might be one...Usuti...a priest. He is a guardian of the soul. He may be able to help. I am uncertain if his abilities encompass what has happened to Kagome," She finally answered gravely.
"Where can we find this priest?" Miroku asked rising and setting Shippo down.
Kagome felt a moment of panic " I'm going on my own"
"I don't think so Kagome" Inuyasha spat.
She glared at him "You have no idea how difficult it was for me not to hurt the two of you on our way back here"
He shrugged nonchalantly " And you have no idea what it will take for me to allow you to go off on your own"
"Allow?" She asked incredulous
"Kagome, we are all very worried about you. We've always helped each other out when it came to things like this, please allow us to be your companions. Allow us to help you through this, please." Sango begged gently walking up to her.
Tears came to her eyes, as her heart filled with wonder at how these people could be so brave just for her sake. And yet her mind whirled with possible negative outcomes. She shivered uncontrollably for a moment as visions of death came to her.
"Kagome, you don't have a choice. We're coming with you" Miroku insisted and then smiled openly " Besides I know the way"
"Not Shippo or Kirara...I can't...not with my body responding the way it is. I can barely stop myself with only two of you. And they are full blooded youkai." She hadn't meant it as an insult but she caught Inuyasha's ear twitching.
"I want to come with!" Shippo whined.
"He will stay with me Kagome" Kaede overrode his demands.
The kitsune pouted and glared at Inuyasha. Inuyasha sighed and knelt down in front of Shippo looking at him seriously. Surprised Kagome only watched as Inuyasha went about installing Shippo as the guardian of Kaede in their absence. She didn't understand why suddenly Inuyasha was being kinder to Shippo but she wasn't about to question it incase he stopped.
Later that day She, Inuyasha, Miroku, and Sango set off towards a place called the Temple of the Soul. Inuyasha took the lead as usual and Kagome walked beside Sango. Before they had left Kaede had given Kagome a small charm to wear around her neck. It was a bone with the symbol for shield carved into it attached to a thin leather strap. It allowed Kagome to control her powers a little, just enough so that she could be in contact with Inuyasha or Miroku and not harm them without willing herself to. It gave Kagome a sense of security. Her power fought against the charms affects but could not overcome the power of the spell set into it. Kaede had refused to answer any questions about the charm leading Kagome to believe it was something she didn't really want to know.
The sun was just beginning to set when they found a place to camp for the night. Though exhausted Kagome found she could not make herself relax enough to sleep. After the others drifted off she rose from her place beneath a tree and walked a few paces off so that she could look at the moon without anything in the way.
The moon was only a sliver in the sky and Kagome leaned against a nearby tree as she gazed at it. Her inner turmoil had not faltered in the least. The longer she was in this state the less and less she could distinguish between her thoughts and the miko energy lashing inside of her. It seemed to never sleep, or really abate. She may have drained it earlier that day but not so much that it hadn't come back full force the moment she had become angry in Kaede's hut.
~* flashback *~
"There is no way for me to change what has happened to you" Kaede said solemnly.
Kagome felt her hope fade from her heart. Kaede was very knowledgeable of all things miko and if she had no clue how to stop this then there may be no way for her to change back. Kagome slumped down in defeat.
"You may have to seal away your powers child before they consume you" the old woman continued.
Resentment flared inside of Kagome, "Why? I haven't hurt anyone yet..."
"Yet...no you have shown extreme control but you may lose that control and it will not be you who pays for it," Kaede warned " Not even my sister had power such as yours, there is no telling what will happen to you. You don't even fully understand your powers and to have them enhanced in this way may well lead to many deaths. There is nothing more dangerous then an untrained powerful miko. You must understand what you are now. You must seal away your power before it consumes you."
Kagome scowled at Kaede her anger building as her power answered for her, "The hell I will!"
~* end flashback *~
Kagome felt the blush creep to her cheeks as she recalled how she had spoken to Kaede. The whole thing seemed like a nightmare that she couldn't wake up from. She closed her eyes in pain as the heartbeats she could heat became stronger insisting her attention. Her miko energy flared inside her body demanding to be used against the youkai nearby. To be used against the hanyou in the tree watching her with his intense amber eyes. Against the monk who slept on the ground, his right hand wrapped in prayer beads. She put a hand to her head trying to calm the insistent demands of her body.
A small thud made her snap her head up and turn slightly. Inuyasha had landed behind her, his face a play of shadows. She narrowed her eyes at him. He stepped more fully into the scant moonlight and she saw that his expression was troubled. She twisted her head back to look at the moon, praying he left before she said something wrong.
"Couldn't sleep?" He asked innocently enough.
"No...you?"
"No"
Kagome could feel he wanted to say something but she wasn't about to open her mouth for fear something vile would come out. Inuyasha sighed quietly behind her.
"Kagome...I'm sorry"
Her eyes widened in surprise " For what?"
"I failed you..."
She turned to him and took in his stance. His posture screamed guilt and he was looking at the ground. At the same time her heart was breaking for him she felt another more powerful thought rip through her.
~ Subdue him...kill the hanyou...he is nothing but a beast...use your powers to their full extent against him ~
Kagome stepped back full of revulsion for the thought even as her eyes strayed to his prayer beads.
~ It would be so easy. Force him to sit and burn him with everything I have ~
She shut her eyes ", get away from me Inuyasha. just get away"
"What's wrong with you?"
The voice inside her head was so seductive that she felt her mouth open to say the word, instead she put a hand up pooling her power for one simple task.
Always My Soul
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters
Kagome knew Inuyasha could read her face the moment his eyes flashed in stubborn denial. At that moment she didn't think she could've loved him anymore then she did. His stubbornness had taken them through many close situations and if he wasn't willing to give in to her fate then neither was she. With renewed hope she looked back at Kaede.
"Do you know anyone who may be able to help her Kaede?" Inuyasha asked respectfully.
If the situation hadn't been so tense Kagome would've thought Inuyasha had lost his mind. He rarely if ever spoke respectfully to Kaede.
~ He's worried, very worried ~ She thought and enjoyed the small sliver of warmth that flowed into her with the new knowledge that he cared about her.
Kaede thought for several moments and Kagome resisted the urge to strangle the old woman.
" There might be one...Usuti...a priest. He is a guardian of the soul. He may be able to help. I am uncertain if his abilities encompass what has happened to Kagome," She finally answered gravely.
"Where can we find this priest?" Miroku asked rising and setting Shippo down.
Kagome felt a moment of panic " I'm going on my own"
"I don't think so Kagome" Inuyasha spat.
She glared at him "You have no idea how difficult it was for me not to hurt the two of you on our way back here"
He shrugged nonchalantly " And you have no idea what it will take for me to allow you to go off on your own"
"Allow?" She asked incredulous
"Kagome, we are all very worried about you. We've always helped each other out when it came to things like this, please allow us to be your companions. Allow us to help you through this, please." Sango begged gently walking up to her.
Tears came to her eyes, as her heart filled with wonder at how these people could be so brave just for her sake. And yet her mind whirled with possible negative outcomes. She shivered uncontrollably for a moment as visions of death came to her.
"Kagome, you don't have a choice. We're coming with you" Miroku insisted and then smiled openly " Besides I know the way"
"Not Shippo or Kirara...I can't...not with my body responding the way it is. I can barely stop myself with only two of you. And they are full blooded youkai." She hadn't meant it as an insult but she caught Inuyasha's ear twitching.
"I want to come with!" Shippo whined.
"He will stay with me Kagome" Kaede overrode his demands.
The kitsune pouted and glared at Inuyasha. Inuyasha sighed and knelt down in front of Shippo looking at him seriously. Surprised Kagome only watched as Inuyasha went about installing Shippo as the guardian of Kaede in their absence. She didn't understand why suddenly Inuyasha was being kinder to Shippo but she wasn't about to question it incase he stopped.
Later that day She, Inuyasha, Miroku, and Sango set off towards a place called the Temple of the Soul. Inuyasha took the lead as usual and Kagome walked beside Sango. Before they had left Kaede had given Kagome a small charm to wear around her neck. It was a bone with the symbol for shield carved into it attached to a thin leather strap. It allowed Kagome to control her powers a little, just enough so that she could be in contact with Inuyasha or Miroku and not harm them without willing herself to. It gave Kagome a sense of security. Her power fought against the charms affects but could not overcome the power of the spell set into it. Kaede had refused to answer any questions about the charm leading Kagome to believe it was something she didn't really want to know.
The sun was just beginning to set when they found a place to camp for the night. Though exhausted Kagome found she could not make herself relax enough to sleep. After the others drifted off she rose from her place beneath a tree and walked a few paces off so that she could look at the moon without anything in the way.
The moon was only a sliver in the sky and Kagome leaned against a nearby tree as she gazed at it. Her inner turmoil had not faltered in the least. The longer she was in this state the less and less she could distinguish between her thoughts and the miko energy lashing inside of her. It seemed to never sleep, or really abate. She may have drained it earlier that day but not so much that it hadn't come back full force the moment she had become angry in Kaede's hut.
~* flashback *~
"There is no way for me to change what has happened to you" Kaede said solemnly.
Kagome felt her hope fade from her heart. Kaede was very knowledgeable of all things miko and if she had no clue how to stop this then there may be no way for her to change back. Kagome slumped down in defeat.
"You may have to seal away your powers child before they consume you" the old woman continued.
Resentment flared inside of Kagome, "Why? I haven't hurt anyone yet..."
"Yet...no you have shown extreme control but you may lose that control and it will not be you who pays for it," Kaede warned " Not even my sister had power such as yours, there is no telling what will happen to you. You don't even fully understand your powers and to have them enhanced in this way may well lead to many deaths. There is nothing more dangerous then an untrained powerful miko. You must understand what you are now. You must seal away your power before it consumes you."
Kagome scowled at Kaede her anger building as her power answered for her, "The hell I will!"
~* end flashback *~
Kagome felt the blush creep to her cheeks as she recalled how she had spoken to Kaede. The whole thing seemed like a nightmare that she couldn't wake up from. She closed her eyes in pain as the heartbeats she could heat became stronger insisting her attention. Her miko energy flared inside her body demanding to be used against the youkai nearby. To be used against the hanyou in the tree watching her with his intense amber eyes. Against the monk who slept on the ground, his right hand wrapped in prayer beads. She put a hand to her head trying to calm the insistent demands of her body.
A small thud made her snap her head up and turn slightly. Inuyasha had landed behind her, his face a play of shadows. She narrowed her eyes at him. He stepped more fully into the scant moonlight and she saw that his expression was troubled. She twisted her head back to look at the moon, praying he left before she said something wrong.
"Couldn't sleep?" He asked innocently enough.
"No...you?"
"No"
Kagome could feel he wanted to say something but she wasn't about to open her mouth for fear something vile would come out. Inuyasha sighed quietly behind her.
"Kagome...I'm sorry"
Her eyes widened in surprise " For what?"
"I failed you..."
She turned to him and took in his stance. His posture screamed guilt and he was looking at the ground. At the same time her heart was breaking for him she felt another more powerful thought rip through her.
~ Subdue him...kill the hanyou...he is nothing but a beast...use your powers to their full extent against him ~
Kagome stepped back full of revulsion for the thought even as her eyes strayed to his prayer beads.
~ It would be so easy. Force him to sit and burn him with everything I have ~
She shut her eyes ", get away from me Inuyasha. just get away"
"What's wrong with you?"
The voice inside her head was so seductive that she felt her mouth open to say the word, instead she put a hand up pooling her power for one simple task.