Always My Soul
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters
Inuyasha stepped back hurriedly as Kagome's raised hand began to glow with energy. Her brown eyes faded, becoming what he was now thinking of as her "misty eyes". Fear began to build inside his heart. He didn't understand what was going on, he had come over to apologize to her, and what does he get in return?!
"Kagome..." he stuttered " Kagome what are you doing?"
Her brows came together in concentration and he started thinking of ways to get away from a crazed miko out for his blood. He yelped as something tugged and then fell away from his neck. In astonishment he watched the beads of his very own prayer beads fly over to Kagome's glowing hand and then reform into the necklace that had been around his neck.
Later he would berate himself a million times for how he felt watching her hands curl around HIS prayer beads. His first reaction was to put his hands to his neck. Yep those were his prayer beads in her small hand.
HIS PRAYER BEADS! HOW DARE SHE TAKE SOMETHING THAT WAS HIS!
"What the HELL do you think you are doing?!" he roared at her.
Her eyes, slowly changing back to brown widened.
"I...I had to Inuyasha" she stammered this time looking uncertainly at him.
"Those are mine not yours you had no right to take them!" he roared again.
A small part of his brain was trying to kick him into waking up. It insisted it was a VERY good thing to have the prayer beads gone, that he WANTED the prayer beads gone. She couldn't "sit" him anymore. It tried and failed to be perfectly happy with the idea. The larger part of his brain was beyond that kind of rational thinking. All he knew was that those beads connected him and Kagome in a way he was not EVER willing to give up. To have her take them from him was a form of her letting him go and he was NOT allowing that to happen.
He snatched the prayer beads out of her hand rudely and stepped away from her. They felt empty to him; the spell on them was broken. Again the small part tried to have a party about it but he could not get rid of the feeling that now there was no purpose for him at all in Kagome's life. That this was devastating came only as a minor shock, he wasn't dumb. A long time ago he had realized how much Kagome really meant to him, he just wasn't willing to admit it out loud. He had yet to release himself from the obligation he felt towards Kikyo but he knew Kikyo was his past, Kagome was his future.
He gritted his teeth against the wave of sorrow he felt as he looked down at the red prayer beads.
"I had to Inuyasha" Kagome whispered behind him.
"Why?" he asked gruffly, refusing to turn and look at her.
"Please don't ask me that...don't ever ask me that again", She answered, her voice filled with self-loathing.
Now he did turn and look at her. She was looking at the ground, her arms wrapped around herself. She was every bit his Kagome in that moment and he released a sigh that seemed to shake him from head to foot. She looked up at him and tears were in her eyes. He stepped up to her without thought and caught her up into his arms. Her shoulders heaved and then she was crying. He held her a little tighter wondering what exactly he was supposed to do now, and then began stroking her hair as he had seen Sango do to some child in a village when it needed comfort. She spoke as she sobbed and Inuyasha listened in stunned silence to her words.
"It wants me to kill you. I had to take them off. I had to give you a fighting chance. I couldn't stand it if I killed you by using those against you. At least without them you have a chance against me. A chance to kill me if I go after you."
"I could never..." he began
She pushed off of his chest and met his eyes steadily. He allowed his arms to fall away from her even though he really wanted to hold her longer. Her gaze was intense and he felt his own body tense as a result of the determination in her eyes.
"Promise me Inuyasha"
"Promise you what?" he asked knowing full well what she was asking for.
"Promise me that if I go after you you'll fight me and not let me kill you," she demanded.
"The hell I will" he responded angrily.
Her face became cold and she stepped further away from him, his mind cried out at the change in her.
"Useless hanyou. Why do you insist on this charade? I asked you something simple and you can't even give me the satisfaction of a real fight."
"A real fight? You have no idea what that is?" he shot back.
Her hand went to the hilt of her sword and Inuyasha reacted putting his hand on Tetsusaiga. Coughs off to the side made both of them jump and turn. Sango and Miroku stood there watching them with confused looks on their faces.
"We fall asleep and the two of you decided its "play with the swords" time?" Sango asked sarcastically.
Both of them looked at each other then away, blushing.
"Perhaps it is some mating custom from Kagome's time?" Miroku offered
Sango slapped him "Pervert"
She walked away leaving Miroku behind rubbing his cheek. The monk looked at Kagome and Inuyasha, his face becoming serious.
"Don't we have enough problems without the two of you slicing each other up?"
"She started it" Inuyasha insisted
"I was going to finish it too" Kagome said under her breath.
"Wench!" Inuyasha yelled then bound away, happy to have the last word.
He didn't look back, so he missed the faint smile on Kagome's face as she watched him leave.
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters
Inuyasha stepped back hurriedly as Kagome's raised hand began to glow with energy. Her brown eyes faded, becoming what he was now thinking of as her "misty eyes". Fear began to build inside his heart. He didn't understand what was going on, he had come over to apologize to her, and what does he get in return?!
"Kagome..." he stuttered " Kagome what are you doing?"
Her brows came together in concentration and he started thinking of ways to get away from a crazed miko out for his blood. He yelped as something tugged and then fell away from his neck. In astonishment he watched the beads of his very own prayer beads fly over to Kagome's glowing hand and then reform into the necklace that had been around his neck.
Later he would berate himself a million times for how he felt watching her hands curl around HIS prayer beads. His first reaction was to put his hands to his neck. Yep those were his prayer beads in her small hand.
HIS PRAYER BEADS! HOW DARE SHE TAKE SOMETHING THAT WAS HIS!
"What the HELL do you think you are doing?!" he roared at her.
Her eyes, slowly changing back to brown widened.
"I...I had to Inuyasha" she stammered this time looking uncertainly at him.
"Those are mine not yours you had no right to take them!" he roared again.
A small part of his brain was trying to kick him into waking up. It insisted it was a VERY good thing to have the prayer beads gone, that he WANTED the prayer beads gone. She couldn't "sit" him anymore. It tried and failed to be perfectly happy with the idea. The larger part of his brain was beyond that kind of rational thinking. All he knew was that those beads connected him and Kagome in a way he was not EVER willing to give up. To have her take them from him was a form of her letting him go and he was NOT allowing that to happen.
He snatched the prayer beads out of her hand rudely and stepped away from her. They felt empty to him; the spell on them was broken. Again the small part tried to have a party about it but he could not get rid of the feeling that now there was no purpose for him at all in Kagome's life. That this was devastating came only as a minor shock, he wasn't dumb. A long time ago he had realized how much Kagome really meant to him, he just wasn't willing to admit it out loud. He had yet to release himself from the obligation he felt towards Kikyo but he knew Kikyo was his past, Kagome was his future.
He gritted his teeth against the wave of sorrow he felt as he looked down at the red prayer beads.
"I had to Inuyasha" Kagome whispered behind him.
"Why?" he asked gruffly, refusing to turn and look at her.
"Please don't ask me that...don't ever ask me that again", She answered, her voice filled with self-loathing.
Now he did turn and look at her. She was looking at the ground, her arms wrapped around herself. She was every bit his Kagome in that moment and he released a sigh that seemed to shake him from head to foot. She looked up at him and tears were in her eyes. He stepped up to her without thought and caught her up into his arms. Her shoulders heaved and then she was crying. He held her a little tighter wondering what exactly he was supposed to do now, and then began stroking her hair as he had seen Sango do to some child in a village when it needed comfort. She spoke as she sobbed and Inuyasha listened in stunned silence to her words.
"It wants me to kill you. I had to take them off. I had to give you a fighting chance. I couldn't stand it if I killed you by using those against you. At least without them you have a chance against me. A chance to kill me if I go after you."
"I could never..." he began
She pushed off of his chest and met his eyes steadily. He allowed his arms to fall away from her even though he really wanted to hold her longer. Her gaze was intense and he felt his own body tense as a result of the determination in her eyes.
"Promise me Inuyasha"
"Promise you what?" he asked knowing full well what she was asking for.
"Promise me that if I go after you you'll fight me and not let me kill you," she demanded.
"The hell I will" he responded angrily.
Her face became cold and she stepped further away from him, his mind cried out at the change in her.
"Useless hanyou. Why do you insist on this charade? I asked you something simple and you can't even give me the satisfaction of a real fight."
"A real fight? You have no idea what that is?" he shot back.
Her hand went to the hilt of her sword and Inuyasha reacted putting his hand on Tetsusaiga. Coughs off to the side made both of them jump and turn. Sango and Miroku stood there watching them with confused looks on their faces.
"We fall asleep and the two of you decided its "play with the swords" time?" Sango asked sarcastically.
Both of them looked at each other then away, blushing.
"Perhaps it is some mating custom from Kagome's time?" Miroku offered
Sango slapped him "Pervert"
She walked away leaving Miroku behind rubbing his cheek. The monk looked at Kagome and Inuyasha, his face becoming serious.
"Don't we have enough problems without the two of you slicing each other up?"
"She started it" Inuyasha insisted
"I was going to finish it too" Kagome said under her breath.
"Wench!" Inuyasha yelled then bound away, happy to have the last word.
He didn't look back, so he missed the faint smile on Kagome's face as she watched him leave.