Disclaimer: Same As Usual
Innocent Eyes - Detached
Parker awoke the next morning and went downstairs where she fond Piper, Paige and Phoebe sitting round the kitchen table. The conversation silenced suddenly when she walked in, she looked at Piper and Paige and smiled but then ignored Phoebe altogether. She walked over to the work surface and put some toast in the toaster, at the table Piper looked over at Phoebe. Who looked genuinely hurt by the snub she had just received from Parker, Paige also looked at her and signalled that she should talk to Parker. Then both sisters left the kitchen leaving mother and daughter to talk.
"How are you this morning?" asked Phoebe after a few minutes of dead silence,
"Fine," replied Parker walking over to the table and sitting down with her toast,
"Did you sleep well?" asked Phoebe,
"Fine," replied Parker once more,
"How's you're toast?"
"Fine,"
"Parker, I know you overheard what I was saying yesterday," said Phoebe, then she paused debating with her mind whether or not to continue, "And I was wondering how you felt about what I said,"
"Fine," replied Parker not looking up from the table,
"Dammit Parker!" cursed Phoebe, "I know that what I said must have upset you and I know that you must need to talk and if you don't then I sure do!"
"Fine," replied Parker, sighing loudly, "Yes I overheard what you said about me and yes it hurt but I\m over it. In fact I'm going to call my parents - The Parkers - and ask for them to get me a plane ticket to go home." She finished,
"Parker, you can't leave. I'm your mother and ." began Phoebe but Parker cut her off,
"My mother! That's a laugh, you're not my mother you're just some woman who gave birth to me. You don't know me or anything about my life and I think that it would just be better for the both of us of I just left," said Parker getting up from the table and running from the room. She ran upstairs pushing past Piper and Paige on the way and into Phoebe's bedroom. Where she grabbed a pillow and held it to her face - then she screamed. She screamed long and hard but the pillow muffled her voice, once she had caught her breath and stopped screaming she threw the pillow across the room and reached for Phoebe desk tidy once more. She grabbed it and emptied the contents onto the ground and picked up the scissors. She opened the blades and without a second thought began to cut away at her arms, she saw the blood begin to fall to the ground and didn't think to stop. She just kept cutting, it wasn't that she couldn't stop - she could have stopped whenever she wanted - she wanted to feel the pain. She wanted to feel, suddenly there was knock at the door.
"Parker," the voice said, "Its Paige, can I come in?" Parker stopped dead when she saw the door opening and Paige standing in front of her.
***
Downstairs Piper and Phoebe sat in the kitchen; they had heard Parker slamming things around upstairs but dared not go up. They had tried to stop Paige from going up but she claimed that she could relate to what Parker was going through - neither of them were entirely sure what she meant - but figured it was better than letting Parker sit upstairs alone.
"So how did she take it?" asked Piper,
"How do you think?" replied Phoebe, "She just got so angry, I now she's going through a lot and I just feel so helpless. I mean all the years we've been witches we've always been able to handle every situation we've come up against and now it just seems like we've. I've hit a brick wall or something."
"Phoebe, you know this is going to turn out alright. Don't you?" said Piper,
"No, I don't. I wish that I could say I do but I honestly don't know what I'm going to do next I mean I'm just so lost. And Parker well this whole motherhood thing is so new to me and now she's a teenager dealing with all kinds of emotions and I just can't relate tot hat any more. And even though I have moved on since my time in New York every time I look at her; I don't see me I see the man who raped me."
Innocent Eyes - Detached
Parker awoke the next morning and went downstairs where she fond Piper, Paige and Phoebe sitting round the kitchen table. The conversation silenced suddenly when she walked in, she looked at Piper and Paige and smiled but then ignored Phoebe altogether. She walked over to the work surface and put some toast in the toaster, at the table Piper looked over at Phoebe. Who looked genuinely hurt by the snub she had just received from Parker, Paige also looked at her and signalled that she should talk to Parker. Then both sisters left the kitchen leaving mother and daughter to talk.
"How are you this morning?" asked Phoebe after a few minutes of dead silence,
"Fine," replied Parker walking over to the table and sitting down with her toast,
"Did you sleep well?" asked Phoebe,
"Fine," replied Parker once more,
"How's you're toast?"
"Fine,"
"Parker, I know you overheard what I was saying yesterday," said Phoebe, then she paused debating with her mind whether or not to continue, "And I was wondering how you felt about what I said,"
"Fine," replied Parker not looking up from the table,
"Dammit Parker!" cursed Phoebe, "I know that what I said must have upset you and I know that you must need to talk and if you don't then I sure do!"
"Fine," replied Parker, sighing loudly, "Yes I overheard what you said about me and yes it hurt but I\m over it. In fact I'm going to call my parents - The Parkers - and ask for them to get me a plane ticket to go home." She finished,
"Parker, you can't leave. I'm your mother and ." began Phoebe but Parker cut her off,
"My mother! That's a laugh, you're not my mother you're just some woman who gave birth to me. You don't know me or anything about my life and I think that it would just be better for the both of us of I just left," said Parker getting up from the table and running from the room. She ran upstairs pushing past Piper and Paige on the way and into Phoebe's bedroom. Where she grabbed a pillow and held it to her face - then she screamed. She screamed long and hard but the pillow muffled her voice, once she had caught her breath and stopped screaming she threw the pillow across the room and reached for Phoebe desk tidy once more. She grabbed it and emptied the contents onto the ground and picked up the scissors. She opened the blades and without a second thought began to cut away at her arms, she saw the blood begin to fall to the ground and didn't think to stop. She just kept cutting, it wasn't that she couldn't stop - she could have stopped whenever she wanted - she wanted to feel the pain. She wanted to feel, suddenly there was knock at the door.
"Parker," the voice said, "Its Paige, can I come in?" Parker stopped dead when she saw the door opening and Paige standing in front of her.
***
Downstairs Piper and Phoebe sat in the kitchen; they had heard Parker slamming things around upstairs but dared not go up. They had tried to stop Paige from going up but she claimed that she could relate to what Parker was going through - neither of them were entirely sure what she meant - but figured it was better than letting Parker sit upstairs alone.
"So how did she take it?" asked Piper,
"How do you think?" replied Phoebe, "She just got so angry, I now she's going through a lot and I just feel so helpless. I mean all the years we've been witches we've always been able to handle every situation we've come up against and now it just seems like we've. I've hit a brick wall or something."
"Phoebe, you know this is going to turn out alright. Don't you?" said Piper,
"No, I don't. I wish that I could say I do but I honestly don't know what I'm going to do next I mean I'm just so lost. And Parker well this whole motherhood thing is so new to me and now she's a teenager dealing with all kinds of emotions and I just can't relate tot hat any more. And even though I have moved on since my time in New York every time I look at her; I don't see me I see the man who raped me."