Title: Because You Loved Me
Summary: A/U Buffy Summers has the perfect life, great boyfriend, awesome friends and amazing parents. Her life is going great until someone new decides to join it. Will this new person cause her perfect life to crumble before her? Or make it better then she ever thought possible?
Disclaimer: I do not own them
.:A/N:. Okay, so I decided to not rewrite this. Um, yeah, I'm getting the sense that this sucks. The story sucks. All my stories do. but meh. I think I'm going down down down with this story. Down into a hole of some sort. Anyways, review.
~~**~~
Buffy sat in her room, reading a book she had checked out of the school library. It was called "Tenderness" by Robert Cormier. It was about this girl who had ran away from home after her mother brought home another one of her boyfriend. She met this guy who had just been released out of juvie for killing his parents and felt a wave of familiarity. Buffy had only gotten that far and was hooked on the book. She hadn't put it down since she got it home, but her mother calling her for dinner stopped her reading. As she placed it on the table, she jumped off her bed and walked down the stairs. The doorbell rang just as she stepped off the last one and she was quick to answer it.
"Spike, what are you doing here?" she asked, but he didn't answer, just pulled her outside. He grabbed her around the waist and kissed her deeply. She reacted by kissing back, a surprise to him. When he thought she had finally given in, she pulled away. "What the hell was that?"
"Did you feel anything?" Spike asked, out of breath.
"Aside from your disgusting lips on mine, no," Buffy said.
"Like hell," Spike said, kicking at the ground.
"Whatever. I have to get back inside," Buffy said and slammed the door closed.
~~**~~
"Angel," Cordelia said, wrapping her arms around his waist from behind. "You seem a little tense."
"What do you want Cordelia?" he asked, turning towards her.
"Just to loosen you up a bit," she smirked. "C'mon, you think Buffy's going to care. She's gone at it with Spike a number of times since you caught her. Make the score even." Angel looked at Cordelia then at his surroundings. They were in the middle of the hallway, where could they go? Why would he go? He was faithful and loyal to Buffy. "Its only one time. She doesn't even have to know."
Angel looked down at her before taking her hand and leading her to the basement door.
~~**~~
The gang sat outside of the school waiting for Angel to show up. Buffy sat next to Natalie and the two were talking. "I met Spike," she said.
"You? When?" Buffy asked.
"When you guys were ignoring me completely. You didn't even realize I was gone. Spike took me to the Bronze. Oh yeah and thanks for telling him I was a lesbian," Natalie said.
"I-I was going to say half . . . okay, I'm sorry. I just . . . I know Spike and he isn't the type of guy you need."
"Buffy, are you blind deaf and stupid? Spike is an amazing guy. Any girl would be lucky to have him. He's not into me though; he's too into you to care about any other girl. Unlike Angelic Angel."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Buffy asked, offensively.
"Angel, hi," Natalie said, ignoring Buffy's question when she saw Angel approaching.
Buffy stood and gave him a tight squeeze. She noticed something on his neck and pulled away, "What's that?"
"Huh?" he looked to the hickey that Cordelia had given him. "Don't you remember?"
"No, I don't. Refresh my memory," Buffy said, standing with one hand on her hip.
"Okay, so lattés on me," Xander said and the gang walked away.
"I didn't give you that," Buffy said. "Its not something I just forget."
"Who else would give it to me Buff?"
"I cant believe you'd stoop that low. Cheating? How could you?"
"Like its all me. You started this habit way before I did," Angel said.
"That is totally different," Buffy said.
"How?"
"Spike was . . . It was a kiss. A harmless kiss. I don't think that's all you and whoever . . . My money's on Cordelia. Am I right?"
"Does it matter?" Angel asked.
"Was it?"
"Yeah, it was Cordelia Buffy. You're enemy. Well you slept with mine," Angel said.
"I? I never slept with Spike. You're just making up a lie to make yourself feel better. Well sorry, but it may fool you, but only you. Go be with Cordelia, you two make a cute couple," Buffy said, taking her Claddagh ring off. "Oh, and give her this," she passed it to him before turning and walking off.
"Buffy!" he yelled after her, but she ignored his calls.
~~**~~
Tears fell from Buffy's eyes. It was over with Angel, for good. There was no running back, no more rough patches. How could he think she slept with Spike? He could never compare to Angel in any way. He couldn't be loved, couldn't love. 'Buffy, are you blind deaf and stupid? Spike is an amazing guy. Any girl would be lucky to have him. He's not into me though; he's too into you to care about any other girl.' Natalie's words stayed her mind. Was she giving Spike a fair chance? Was she being a total bitch to the one who really loved her? She shook her head, she didn't know.
"Buffy?"
Looking up, she saw Spike standing before her. 'And my day just keeps getting better and better,' she thought.
"What Spike?"
"Heard about you and Peaches," he said.
"Yeah, well it wasn't meant to be," Buffy said, walking past him.
"Wait up!" Spike yelled, running after her. "Why don't we go get a drink at the Bronze pet?"
"Why?"
"Cause I want to get you drunk on root beer, why else?"
Buffy smiled, "Fine."
~~**~~
Buffy took a sip of her root beer. She looked over at Spike who was watching her. "Buffy, we need to talk."
"I know," she said quietly.
"You're sending me mixed signals here luv, I need some help."
"I'm sorry. I don't . . . I'm confused."
"Guess there's nothing I can do then," he shrugged.
"I lied," Buffy said.
"You're not confused?"
"No, I am. The other night, I lied."
"Bout what?"
"The . . . Thing," Buffy said, hoping he'd catch on. She sighed when he didn't. "The kiss. I did . . . I felt something okay? I just don't know . . . What."
"I already knew that luv," Spike said. "It was all over your bloody face."
"Spike, I don't know where . . . I don't know what my life is right now. It's confusing and I don't understand half the stuff I'm feeling. I feel something for you, I do. I just . . . I cant just be with you," Buffy said.
"Why not?"
"Cause. I just . . ."
"Angel?" Spike asked, using his real name this time. "Is it Angel?"
"Maybe. I know you're a good guy and now that I broke up with Angel, you'd think I'd . . ."
"Now, you're confusing me," Spike laughed.
"Can I let myself be with you after all we've been through?"
"That's not a question for me to answer pet. Only you can," Spike said standing. "Care to dance?"
Buffy nodded and took his hand. The two walked over to a space on the floor and Spike wrapped his arms around her waist. Buffy locked hers around his neck and rested her head on his chest, hesitating a minute at the touch.
//Anytime you feel like you just can't hold on
Just hold on to my love and I'll help you be strong
But you're so afraid to lose, and baby I can't reach your heart
I can't face this world that's keeping us apart
When I can be the one to show you
Everything you missed before
Just hold on now, cause I can be the one to give you more
Let you know//
As Spike held her, Buffy felt safe. She relaxed herself against him, moving closer to him. He looked down on her, but she couldn't see him. Smiling, he tightened his grip.
//I look into your eyes, and I feel it coming through
And I can't help but want you more than I want to
So baby take all of your fears, and cast them all on me
'Cause all I ever wanted is just to make you see
That I could be the one to give you
All that you've been searching for//
Summary: A/U Buffy Summers has the perfect life, great boyfriend, awesome friends and amazing parents. Her life is going great until someone new decides to join it. Will this new person cause her perfect life to crumble before her? Or make it better then she ever thought possible?
Disclaimer: I do not own them
.:A/N:. Okay, so I decided to not rewrite this. Um, yeah, I'm getting the sense that this sucks. The story sucks. All my stories do. but meh. I think I'm going down down down with this story. Down into a hole of some sort. Anyways, review.
~~**~~
Buffy sat in her room, reading a book she had checked out of the school library. It was called "Tenderness" by Robert Cormier. It was about this girl who had ran away from home after her mother brought home another one of her boyfriend. She met this guy who had just been released out of juvie for killing his parents and felt a wave of familiarity. Buffy had only gotten that far and was hooked on the book. She hadn't put it down since she got it home, but her mother calling her for dinner stopped her reading. As she placed it on the table, she jumped off her bed and walked down the stairs. The doorbell rang just as she stepped off the last one and she was quick to answer it.
"Spike, what are you doing here?" she asked, but he didn't answer, just pulled her outside. He grabbed her around the waist and kissed her deeply. She reacted by kissing back, a surprise to him. When he thought she had finally given in, she pulled away. "What the hell was that?"
"Did you feel anything?" Spike asked, out of breath.
"Aside from your disgusting lips on mine, no," Buffy said.
"Like hell," Spike said, kicking at the ground.
"Whatever. I have to get back inside," Buffy said and slammed the door closed.
~~**~~
"Angel," Cordelia said, wrapping her arms around his waist from behind. "You seem a little tense."
"What do you want Cordelia?" he asked, turning towards her.
"Just to loosen you up a bit," she smirked. "C'mon, you think Buffy's going to care. She's gone at it with Spike a number of times since you caught her. Make the score even." Angel looked at Cordelia then at his surroundings. They were in the middle of the hallway, where could they go? Why would he go? He was faithful and loyal to Buffy. "Its only one time. She doesn't even have to know."
Angel looked down at her before taking her hand and leading her to the basement door.
~~**~~
The gang sat outside of the school waiting for Angel to show up. Buffy sat next to Natalie and the two were talking. "I met Spike," she said.
"You? When?" Buffy asked.
"When you guys were ignoring me completely. You didn't even realize I was gone. Spike took me to the Bronze. Oh yeah and thanks for telling him I was a lesbian," Natalie said.
"I-I was going to say half . . . okay, I'm sorry. I just . . . I know Spike and he isn't the type of guy you need."
"Buffy, are you blind deaf and stupid? Spike is an amazing guy. Any girl would be lucky to have him. He's not into me though; he's too into you to care about any other girl. Unlike Angelic Angel."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Buffy asked, offensively.
"Angel, hi," Natalie said, ignoring Buffy's question when she saw Angel approaching.
Buffy stood and gave him a tight squeeze. She noticed something on his neck and pulled away, "What's that?"
"Huh?" he looked to the hickey that Cordelia had given him. "Don't you remember?"
"No, I don't. Refresh my memory," Buffy said, standing with one hand on her hip.
"Okay, so lattés on me," Xander said and the gang walked away.
"I didn't give you that," Buffy said. "Its not something I just forget."
"Who else would give it to me Buff?"
"I cant believe you'd stoop that low. Cheating? How could you?"
"Like its all me. You started this habit way before I did," Angel said.
"That is totally different," Buffy said.
"How?"
"Spike was . . . It was a kiss. A harmless kiss. I don't think that's all you and whoever . . . My money's on Cordelia. Am I right?"
"Does it matter?" Angel asked.
"Was it?"
"Yeah, it was Cordelia Buffy. You're enemy. Well you slept with mine," Angel said.
"I? I never slept with Spike. You're just making up a lie to make yourself feel better. Well sorry, but it may fool you, but only you. Go be with Cordelia, you two make a cute couple," Buffy said, taking her Claddagh ring off. "Oh, and give her this," she passed it to him before turning and walking off.
"Buffy!" he yelled after her, but she ignored his calls.
~~**~~
Tears fell from Buffy's eyes. It was over with Angel, for good. There was no running back, no more rough patches. How could he think she slept with Spike? He could never compare to Angel in any way. He couldn't be loved, couldn't love. 'Buffy, are you blind deaf and stupid? Spike is an amazing guy. Any girl would be lucky to have him. He's not into me though; he's too into you to care about any other girl.' Natalie's words stayed her mind. Was she giving Spike a fair chance? Was she being a total bitch to the one who really loved her? She shook her head, she didn't know.
"Buffy?"
Looking up, she saw Spike standing before her. 'And my day just keeps getting better and better,' she thought.
"What Spike?"
"Heard about you and Peaches," he said.
"Yeah, well it wasn't meant to be," Buffy said, walking past him.
"Wait up!" Spike yelled, running after her. "Why don't we go get a drink at the Bronze pet?"
"Why?"
"Cause I want to get you drunk on root beer, why else?"
Buffy smiled, "Fine."
~~**~~
Buffy took a sip of her root beer. She looked over at Spike who was watching her. "Buffy, we need to talk."
"I know," she said quietly.
"You're sending me mixed signals here luv, I need some help."
"I'm sorry. I don't . . . I'm confused."
"Guess there's nothing I can do then," he shrugged.
"I lied," Buffy said.
"You're not confused?"
"No, I am. The other night, I lied."
"Bout what?"
"The . . . Thing," Buffy said, hoping he'd catch on. She sighed when he didn't. "The kiss. I did . . . I felt something okay? I just don't know . . . What."
"I already knew that luv," Spike said. "It was all over your bloody face."
"Spike, I don't know where . . . I don't know what my life is right now. It's confusing and I don't understand half the stuff I'm feeling. I feel something for you, I do. I just . . . I cant just be with you," Buffy said.
"Why not?"
"Cause. I just . . ."
"Angel?" Spike asked, using his real name this time. "Is it Angel?"
"Maybe. I know you're a good guy and now that I broke up with Angel, you'd think I'd . . ."
"Now, you're confusing me," Spike laughed.
"Can I let myself be with you after all we've been through?"
"That's not a question for me to answer pet. Only you can," Spike said standing. "Care to dance?"
Buffy nodded and took his hand. The two walked over to a space on the floor and Spike wrapped his arms around her waist. Buffy locked hers around his neck and rested her head on his chest, hesitating a minute at the touch.
//Anytime you feel like you just can't hold on
Just hold on to my love and I'll help you be strong
But you're so afraid to lose, and baby I can't reach your heart
I can't face this world that's keeping us apart
When I can be the one to show you
Everything you missed before
Just hold on now, cause I can be the one to give you more
Let you know//
As Spike held her, Buffy felt safe. She relaxed herself against him, moving closer to him. He looked down on her, but she couldn't see him. Smiling, he tightened his grip.
//I look into your eyes, and I feel it coming through
And I can't help but want you more than I want to
So baby take all of your fears, and cast them all on me
'Cause all I ever wanted is just to make you see
That I could be the one to give you
All that you've been searching for//