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Past Lives: Part Two Phoebe

            Phoebe sat awake that night, her mind was buzzing. She tried to shut it down but she couldn't keep herself from reliving that premonition. The doctors and all the pain that Parker has gone through kept filling her mind up. She went from her bedroom and wandered down stairs where she found Piper sitting at the kitchen table, she was clasping a small mug of what Phoebe assumed was hot chocolate.

            "Hey," she said quietly, Phoebe smiled and sat down beside her sister,

            "Can't sleep?" asked Phoebe,

"No, you either?"

"I don't want to do to sleep. I just want to find a way to help her, I mean maybe we could get rid of the gift or help her to control it or something… I just want my daughter to have some kind of normal life. Doesn't everyone… I mean you and Wyatt, you wanted him to have a normal life and I guess he does. I mean he's studying at North Carolina and he's fine. Maybe that's what I should do, let her live a normal life like a normal teenager… or something," said Phoebe,

"But there's a difference between Parker and Wyatt. He doesn't have the same powers that she does he has similar powers to Paige. He can control them and he can feel, I don't know how Parker would react to being surrounded by all these confused students every single day of her life," replied Piper,

"I know, I just want an answer… this is all my fault,"

"What… how is it all your fault? There was no way that you could change Parker's powers, or what happened to her in the past,"

"Not that… it's my fault that she was born, that she has to live with a mother who doesn't know her yet still see a rapist when she looks at her. And can't feel anything that some else isn't feeling first. What kind of life have I given her? She's as big a freak as you and I are and its my fault, I gave her this life if you can even call it that," sobbed Phoebe,

"Parker is not a freak. And neither are we, we are just people with gifts, we can't control them or do anything about them so we might as well just deal. And we have, and its not your fault that you were raped. You didn't ask for it to happen and I'm so, so sorry that it did but we can't change it… ever,"

"How was it not my fault… it was all my fault I was just asking to be mugged or raped or god even murdered!" said Phoebe,

"Look Phoebe, I don't know what happened to you in New York, I know very little about your life there. And for some reason you won't tell me and I don't know why you won't. But that's up to you… I just wish you…"

"I was a mess," Phoebe started cutting Piper off mid sentence, "I lived in a run down flat with like no hot water or heating or nothing. I worked as a waitress full time just to afford my rent and on the days I wasn't working I worked in a McDonalds branch part time. Every single night I went out and spent all the money I didn't need for rent, or basic food on clubs, and booze and at the worst point in my life drugs. But that was only for about a week – the drugs anyway – but the clubbing and crawling home at three in the morning lasted nearly two years." Phoebe paused for a second, "And then one night I left this new club I had started going to… I left with a guy. He seemed really smart and funny – he was studying something at some big University or college or something. HE was really handsome, and I really liked him. Anyway he offered to walk me home and since I was rather far gone almost totally drunk I agreed. We got nearly two blocks away from the club when he started pushing his luck. I mean at the club he was dancing with me and was getting rather friendly but he just started going to far. He started just by putting his hand round my waist and then he took a detour, or at least that's what he called it – a detour – it was down some dark alleyway thing. I know what you're thinking what was I thinking going down an alleyway with some one I had just met. Well to be honest with you I wasn't thinking about anything. But anyway he started trying to kiss me and grope me and stuff she I pushed him away. But then he well… you know…" she stopped and looked up at her sister who had tears welling up at the corner of her eyes.

"Phoebe…" she mumbled something after that but Phoebe only caught about every third word so none of it really made any sense. Suddenly Piper looked up, Parker was standing at the doorway in tears,

"No wonder you resent me…" she said before walking out of the room and heading for the front door of the manor.