Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters, or basic idea of the show.
A/N: In light of new circumstances on the show – Phoebe's Empath Power – I feel the need to explain the future of this fic. I do not plan to include this power in the fic, it would just complicate matters however if you want to believe that Parker received her power from Phoebe's empathic side then please do. However just remember that this will not be included as part of the fic.
Innocent Eyes – Beautiful Lie
There's a sadness that they don't see,
When you come to me,
With all your sorrows,
Its not enough,
For you to cry,
Cos you don't know why,
It still hurts,
Night had fallen; the stars had emerged for the daylight hours. At San Francisco general hospital all was quiet, the patients were all in their beds and the night shift had just begun. Most of the patients lay sleeping, some peacefully but others not so. Parker however laid away, her eyes fixated on the ceiling, the tiling made her dizzy. She wanted to go to sleep but she could feel the pan that the other people on the ward were feeling and couldn't sleep with it all. She could also feel Piper's pain, Piper's room was a few wards away from her but Parker had formed some sort of connection with her. Parker adjusted her sleeping position in the bed and turned to face the door of the ward, she saw Leo pacing up and down. He still hadn't gone home, he had been told to but refused to leave Piper's side. Parker stared intensely at him,
"Its all my fault," she sighed, she knew that she should feel guilty but didn't. All she felt was concern for Piper; she assumed that she was picking this up from Leo. She looked back out at him, he was staring back at her, and she smiled as their gazes met but he instantly looked away. Now she was feeling anger from him. He blamed her for Piper's injuries, and why shouldn't he? She asked herself, I am to blame for it.
I know we've been here,
A thousand times,
With your past,
Full of lies,
Its still there,
A constant struggle,
To find yourself,
But I know that,
I can't help it,
Oh, No
An hour or so passed and eventually Leo went for a cup of coffee, his eyes were getting heavier and heavier and he couldn't pace up and down that corridor any more. Parker lay in her hospital bed and watched him leave the ward only to return at a later date. As soon as he left, Parker headed for the nurses station. There was a short redheaded nurse behind it,
"Hey… may I have a piece of paper and some pens please?" asked Parker politely,
"Shouldn't you be sleeping hun?" asked the nurse who's name tag read Janice,
"Well, I can't sleep. I figure I could doodle or something until I could, you mind?" asked Parker,
"Well… as long as you don't wake up any of the other patients," said the nurse and handed her the stationery, Parker thanked her and headed back to her bed. She sat up at the small table for a second and began to write,
"Dear Mom,
I hope you understand what I had to do…" she started and then continued writing the letter. She knew that she would only have maybe five minutes until Leo came back from the cafeteria. She slowly climbed out of her bed, her legs were sore and she could barely walk but she continued on. She arrived outside Piper's room a few seconds later; she peered in the small glass pane in the door. Piper lay still on her hospital bed, her eyes were still closed I don't have much time thought Parker as she pushed the door open as quietly as she could.
You don't have nothing but pride,
To keep you alive,
Yeah,
Alive, Oh Yeah,
I can say it will be fine,
Ts a beautiful lies,
So please,
Don't leave it all upto me,
Phoebe sat at home in the manor kitchen silence reigned over the room. She sipped from her tea and wiped away any tears that started to fall. Why do I feel so divided? I can support my sister and my daughter at the same time. I will help Piper, I will find a way, some way to heal her, I won't let her die. And at the same time I will find a spell to help Parker feel… I'm just not sure how yet. She thought, then suddenly an inspiration came to her, she got up from the table and ran to the attic. She bumped into Paige on the stairs who was carrying a piece of paper which Phoebe ignored and began telling Paige about her plan,
"Paige!" she sighed, "I've figured out how to help Parker," she said,
"Phoebe," said Paige but she was ignored and Phoebe continued talking,
"I think that I can bind her powers, that way if she can't feel what others are feeling she will only be left with her feelings. Because I'm sure that she feels something, and she probably feels the same things that we all feel its just she's been repressing them and thinking they are other people's feelings so if I do that then I can help her and just leave her with her own feelings!" she finished triumphantly but the look of triumph vanished when she saw Paige's face, "What?" she asked,
"I found this under Parker's pillow," she said handing the paper to Phoebe, it was a page out the book of shadows, "It looks like Parker has found a way to help Piper," she said,
"That's great," said Phoebe,
"No, read it. It says that she will be taking away Piper's pain, and all her wounds onto her body." Sighed Paige, "And Piper's doctors said that it's a miracle that she's alive, Piper is a fully grown adult and Parker is just a kid. Parker's body couldn't handle all Piper's wounds. It would kill her," sighed Paige,
"Why would she do this? She must know that it will kill her," said Phoebe, glancing back and forth at the paper,
"I think she knows that it will kill her but she also blames herself for Piper's injuries. She thinks this will make everything better," sighed Paige,
"We have to stop her," said Phoebe as she headed for the front door, grabbing her car keys on the way out. Paige followed close behind her,
I see the way,
They talk at you,
They're always trying to prove,
That they are better,
You run away,
Cos you can't take,
The way they make,
You feel,
Parker stood in Piper's room holding her aunt's hand; she reached into her dressing gown pocket with her free hand and brought out a small piece of paper. She opened it up and looked down at Piper. Parker bent over and kissed her on the forehead,
"I will help you," she whispered and then began to say the spell,
"Hide her pain,
Take it away,
Bring to me,
Just what I say,
Remove her wounds,
Place them on me,
Wake her now,
And blessed be," she finished and a few seconds later bright lights swirled round both her and Piper, suddenly Parker saw the wound on Piper's head begin to fade and her eyes begin to flutter. Suddenly she had a sharp, shooting pain in her head, she coughed as she felt another cut appear this time on her abdomen,
"Hide her pain,
Take it away,
Bring to me,
Just what I say!" she said in a louder voice, she let out a scream as a gash in her leg appeared causing her to fall to the ground – the noise awoke Piper completely –
"Remove her wounds,
Place them on me,
Wake her now,
And blessed be," she said again, once more and her spell would be complete, Piper blinked her eyes a couple of times and tried to focus after a moment she was focused. She looked over towards where Parker lay and saw her niece doubled over in pain and was surprised to find that she was not,
Another self hate,
Behind locked doors,
But then nobody knows,
Something's wrong,
You made a cage,
You cannot break,
I try but I cannot help at all,
"Parker!" she yelled but there was no response from her, suddenly the door opened slightly and a nurse walked in, Piper threw her arms up and froze the nurse, "Parker!" she called again, then finally "LEO!" within seconds Leo orbed in.
"Piper, you're awake," he gushed as he ran towards her but stopped when he saw the brght light swirling round Parker,
"Help her!" said Piper,
"No!" yelled Parker, "No!"
"Parker?" asked Piper,
"Hide her pain,
Take it away!" she spluttered,
"Bring to me,
Just what I say!" she started coughing, as more wounds – mostly internal – started appearing on her body, she felt herself getting dizzy but refused to give in until she had finished,
"She's taking my pain, my injuries! She can't handle them Leo, stop this!" said Piper feeling helpless,
"I can't," he said, "She won't let me help her,"
"Remove her wounds,
Place them on me!"
At that moment Phoebe and Paige orbed into the room – the traffic had been really bad so they orbed,
"PARKER!" Yelled Phoebe, "No! We'll find another way please!" sobbed Phoebe,
"Mom," spluttered Parker, "I have to do this," she said,
"No," said Phoebe as she edged closer to Parker, she reached out for her but the lights gave her what felt like an electric shock,
"Wake her now," coughed Parker,
"Don't do this!" Yelled Phoebe, "Please don't do this! I need you! Please Parker, don't do this, don't die, don't leave me I just found you, don't leave me Parker," pleaded Phoebe
"I'm sorry," sobbed Parker, "Goodbye," she whispered and closed her eyes,
"No!" yelled Phoebe,
"And blessed be!" whispered Parker.
"Parker! Parker no," yelled Phoebe as she ran towards her when the lights started disappearing, the last of Piper's wound materialised on Parkers body and she was gone.
You don't have nothing but pride,
To keep you alive,
Yeah,
Alive, Oh yeah,
Can say it will be fine,
It's a beautiful lie,
So please,
Don't leave it all up to me,
Phoebe, and Leo sat outside Piper's room, Paige had went to Parker's ward to clear up her things, Phoebe's head in her hands leaning against Paige sobbing quietly to herself. The doctors and nurses were in with Piper – Parker had been pronounced dead and her body was sent to the morgue – they were desperate to find out how a coma patient could have woken up, and be free of wounds.
"Why?" sobbed Phoebe, "Why didn't we just orb to the hospital in the first place? If we'd gotten there sooner we could have stopped her, we could have done something," she sobbed,
"Even if you had arrived earlier, you couldn't have stopped her," sighed Leo, "She was determined to go through with this, and she did what she thought was best," said Leo,
"How can this be best, she's dead! My daughter is dead! There is nothing 'best' about that, nothing!" said Phoebe getting angry,
"I know you are angry, but you just have to believe that this was meant to happen so Parker could find peace. So she could feel something in heaven," said Leo,
"But it didn't have to happen, I had a plan. That would help her find peace down here, it would help her to feel her own feelings – I was going to bind her powers. And that would have helped her but now I can't. I can't save my daughter, what kind of mother was I, I abandoned her and then I let her kill herself without trying to help her," wept Phoebe,
"You did try and help her," started Leo but Paige cut him off,
"Phoebe, I think you ought to see this," she said handing Phoebe Parker's note, Phoebe opened it and began to read aloud,
"Dear Mom,
I hope you understand what I had to do… it was the only way for me to find peace; I hope you're not mad at me or upset with me. And please if you are don't take it out on Piper, I wanted to do this. I wanted to save her, and I knew what I was doing… I knew what would happen to me if I did and I accepted that. I'll be happier knowing that I helped her and that I'm free. Love Always,
Parker"
I can feel you,
Can hear you,
I could help you,
It's a beautiful lie,
Lost in silence,
Trapped by violence,
Oh,
Oh, Oh,
You don't have nothing but pride,
To keep you alive,
Alive, oh yeah,
I can say it will be fine,
It's a beautiful lie,
So please,
Don't leave it all up to me.