Always My Soul
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters
A/N: Just so ya'll don't get too confused everything that happens in this chapter is from one second to the next not over a long period time.
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Kee found herself in a setting of chaotic miko energy. It shifted and churned continuously with black and pink energies that spun endlessly mixing and breaking away only to mix in different areas. Flashes of lightening could be seen from time to time illuminating the frenzied activity.
In front of her floated Kagome and Tosh. Kagome's being seemed infused with power that Kee had not thought the girl could ever possess even being as powerful as she already was. In the environment they existed in Kagome was the axis of all causing the constant movement of the combined strength. Kagome's eyes were filled with the churning power; it flowed around her body draping it so that she appeared to be clothed in it. Kagome's hair billowed around her, giving the impression that she was in the middle of a slow moving current that swept up her figure.
Beside her Tosh was the embodiment of youkai anger. His own blue aura flared around him, his eyes were dark and blood red.
"Why are you interfering?!" Kee snapped.
"Interfering?! How dare you speak to me in this manner!" Tosh roared at her "How dare you endanger the fate of the world by selfish, ineffectual use of Kagome's power! You are about to kill the ones you have stripped power from to fuel your own energy without one thought of their destinies! How dare you interfere with the fabric of life in such a way!"
Stung Kee looked away from Tosh's face, "Ferlias must die".
"And Sango must live Kee as must you live. There is no room for error here; everything depends on what you do within the next moment. Is revenge all that exists for you? Will you sacrifice our friends for your selfish need?" Kagome asked quietly.
Kee snapped her attention back to Kagome, "So it matters now? After all your whining all your complaining it finally matters to you."
Kagome's expression did not change, "I deserved that...you were right to question my loyalty, my dedication. It was you who showed me the truth of it Kee. I have a responsibility to those I care about to be all that I can possibly be. It just took me some time to realize it and I am sorry that you had to carry my burden for so long. I am not sorry that you were given the chance to have people in your life that you could care about and that could care about you. It gave you something to truly fight for, it gave you the strength to endure what you have but you are not alone Kee, you have never been alone."
"And what good has it done me?" Kee asked the hurt of seeing Sango fall to the ground after Ferlias stabbed her coming to the forefront.
"She is not dead yet Kee there is still time. We can save her if we move quickly but it all depends upon you dark miko. Will you choose to fight this alone or will you surrender to me?"
"Surrender what?" Kee asked suspiciously.
Kagome closed her eyes and Kee was caught up into the moment that Kagome allowed her to step forward to save Miroku's life. At the time Kee had been loath to do such a thing, seeing Miroku as an unnecessary distraction for Kagome. She had seen Kagome's willingness to sacrifice her power for the monk's life as a weakness. Now she became aware of what had caused Kagome to do such a thing, what had given her the strength to trust Kee to do as she implored her to do. These people were the core of who Kagome was, what gave her the ability to be what she had become now. They had strengthened the extent of her love, compassion, understanding, and patience, everything that existed within her. They were her heart and without them there was no true purpose. Without them she was Kee.
Kee looked at Kagome with sorrow born of knowing the truth about both of them. Tears ran unabashedly down Kagome's cheeks. Kee found she also had tears wetting her face.
"I never meant..." Kee sobbed.
Kagome nodded understandingly, "I know that Kee...all of us know that. None of us could have known what would happen. That I would become so involved with my own pain. That you would find it within yourself to open to the people around you without even a second thought as to why such people would offer friendship to you. That they would come to mean so much that Sango's injury would push you into almost destroying all of us here. We understand all of it Kee, we have many times becomes so caught up in the rescue of friends that we have put our own lives at risk."
As Kagome spoke her voice became one of many voices, all of them female. With the intermingling of voices came the feeling of being in the presence of an entity that encompassed an eternity of lifetimes, of personalities. Kee's own personality yearned to be a part of this harmonious being, to be entrenched in such perpetuity of intention.
~ Please come with me...Please let me do this thing as well...Please don't fight me ~
This was Kagome speaking just to Kee, a request she had made of Miroku when he was not moved to save his own life. One made of tenderness and grief. It shredded Kee's heart making her agony deeper. She sobbed in her loneliness. She jerked back as she felt Tosh's arms go around her, holding her tightly to him. She cried into his robes, as she had never done when she was living. He stroked her hair soothingly.
~There are very few times in life that you actually have a real, clear choice Kee, now it is your turn to choose ~
Tosh's soul spoke directly to Kee's as Kagome's had and she shuddered in reaction to his comforting supportive soul. Another set of smaller arms went around her waist and Kee could feel Kagome's desire to ease her pain in any way that she could. With shock Kee realized that Kagome truly meant the feeling in every way. The girl would do absolutely anything to stop the agony within her heart if she were capable of doing such a thing.
~ What an amazing person she is inside ~
She felt Kagome's embarrassed amusement and smiled, her grief becoming less.
~ What must I do? ~
"Come with me to save them...be who you are and me as well...surrender your anger" Kagome answered out loud.
Kee nodded her head and felt her self begin to merge with Kagome, without fear.
She was The Sentry of the Soul complete and uncompromising.
"Tosh it is time" She intoned along with the mikos of the past.
Tosh looked down at her, his eyes beginning to glow with sparks of his aura within the blood red.
"Yes Miko it is time." He agreed ominously.
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters
A/N: Just so ya'll don't get too confused everything that happens in this chapter is from one second to the next not over a long period time.
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Kee found herself in a setting of chaotic miko energy. It shifted and churned continuously with black and pink energies that spun endlessly mixing and breaking away only to mix in different areas. Flashes of lightening could be seen from time to time illuminating the frenzied activity.
In front of her floated Kagome and Tosh. Kagome's being seemed infused with power that Kee had not thought the girl could ever possess even being as powerful as she already was. In the environment they existed in Kagome was the axis of all causing the constant movement of the combined strength. Kagome's eyes were filled with the churning power; it flowed around her body draping it so that she appeared to be clothed in it. Kagome's hair billowed around her, giving the impression that she was in the middle of a slow moving current that swept up her figure.
Beside her Tosh was the embodiment of youkai anger. His own blue aura flared around him, his eyes were dark and blood red.
"Why are you interfering?!" Kee snapped.
"Interfering?! How dare you speak to me in this manner!" Tosh roared at her "How dare you endanger the fate of the world by selfish, ineffectual use of Kagome's power! You are about to kill the ones you have stripped power from to fuel your own energy without one thought of their destinies! How dare you interfere with the fabric of life in such a way!"
Stung Kee looked away from Tosh's face, "Ferlias must die".
"And Sango must live Kee as must you live. There is no room for error here; everything depends on what you do within the next moment. Is revenge all that exists for you? Will you sacrifice our friends for your selfish need?" Kagome asked quietly.
Kee snapped her attention back to Kagome, "So it matters now? After all your whining all your complaining it finally matters to you."
Kagome's expression did not change, "I deserved that...you were right to question my loyalty, my dedication. It was you who showed me the truth of it Kee. I have a responsibility to those I care about to be all that I can possibly be. It just took me some time to realize it and I am sorry that you had to carry my burden for so long. I am not sorry that you were given the chance to have people in your life that you could care about and that could care about you. It gave you something to truly fight for, it gave you the strength to endure what you have but you are not alone Kee, you have never been alone."
"And what good has it done me?" Kee asked the hurt of seeing Sango fall to the ground after Ferlias stabbed her coming to the forefront.
"She is not dead yet Kee there is still time. We can save her if we move quickly but it all depends upon you dark miko. Will you choose to fight this alone or will you surrender to me?"
"Surrender what?" Kee asked suspiciously.
Kagome closed her eyes and Kee was caught up into the moment that Kagome allowed her to step forward to save Miroku's life. At the time Kee had been loath to do such a thing, seeing Miroku as an unnecessary distraction for Kagome. She had seen Kagome's willingness to sacrifice her power for the monk's life as a weakness. Now she became aware of what had caused Kagome to do such a thing, what had given her the strength to trust Kee to do as she implored her to do. These people were the core of who Kagome was, what gave her the ability to be what she had become now. They had strengthened the extent of her love, compassion, understanding, and patience, everything that existed within her. They were her heart and without them there was no true purpose. Without them she was Kee.
Kee looked at Kagome with sorrow born of knowing the truth about both of them. Tears ran unabashedly down Kagome's cheeks. Kee found she also had tears wetting her face.
"I never meant..." Kee sobbed.
Kagome nodded understandingly, "I know that Kee...all of us know that. None of us could have known what would happen. That I would become so involved with my own pain. That you would find it within yourself to open to the people around you without even a second thought as to why such people would offer friendship to you. That they would come to mean so much that Sango's injury would push you into almost destroying all of us here. We understand all of it Kee, we have many times becomes so caught up in the rescue of friends that we have put our own lives at risk."
As Kagome spoke her voice became one of many voices, all of them female. With the intermingling of voices came the feeling of being in the presence of an entity that encompassed an eternity of lifetimes, of personalities. Kee's own personality yearned to be a part of this harmonious being, to be entrenched in such perpetuity of intention.
~ Please come with me...Please let me do this thing as well...Please don't fight me ~
This was Kagome speaking just to Kee, a request she had made of Miroku when he was not moved to save his own life. One made of tenderness and grief. It shredded Kee's heart making her agony deeper. She sobbed in her loneliness. She jerked back as she felt Tosh's arms go around her, holding her tightly to him. She cried into his robes, as she had never done when she was living. He stroked her hair soothingly.
~There are very few times in life that you actually have a real, clear choice Kee, now it is your turn to choose ~
Tosh's soul spoke directly to Kee's as Kagome's had and she shuddered in reaction to his comforting supportive soul. Another set of smaller arms went around her waist and Kee could feel Kagome's desire to ease her pain in any way that she could. With shock Kee realized that Kagome truly meant the feeling in every way. The girl would do absolutely anything to stop the agony within her heart if she were capable of doing such a thing.
~ What an amazing person she is inside ~
She felt Kagome's embarrassed amusement and smiled, her grief becoming less.
~ What must I do? ~
"Come with me to save them...be who you are and me as well...surrender your anger" Kagome answered out loud.
Kee nodded her head and felt her self begin to merge with Kagome, without fear.
She was The Sentry of the Soul complete and uncompromising.
"Tosh it is time" She intoned along with the mikos of the past.
Tosh looked down at her, his eyes beginning to glow with sparks of his aura within the blood red.
"Yes Miko it is time." He agreed ominously.