TITLE: I Saw
DATE: 2/28/2004 – 3/3/2004
RATING: G
SPOILERS: Everything up through "No Bad Guy".
SUMMARY: What Makes Adam Decided to Visit Joan on a Rainy Night? – A Song-fic
CATEGORY: Romance/Angst
DISCLAIMERS: Joan of Arcadia and all of its characters are the creation and property of Barbara Hall, CBS and Sony Pictures. This story is for pure entertainment and not for any profit at all. The song lyrics are credited to Matt Nathanson and Mark Weinberg.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: This is my first song-fic and though lacking in character interaction, I'm not unhappy how it turned out. One comment though, if you've not seen NBG, this will not likely make much sense. Kudos to BH and her music staff on the show who find the background music. I credit them for increasing my CD collection by introducing artists I wasn't familiar with before. Then I spend several days listening to the whole CD, trying to see which, if any, of the others songs could also apply to the show and its characters.
FEEDBACK: I'd welcome your feedback, good or bad (so long as you're nice about it).
-----------------------------------------------------
Adam sat in his shed. It was late. His dad was at work and by all rights he should have been inside and asleep. But he kept seeing the events of the past few weeks flash through his mind. Sleep wasn't a possibility and he couldn't seem to focus on the sculpture that he'd come out here to work on in the first place.
A song on the radio caught his attention and seemed to help focus his thoughts...
\\ It's amazing the look in your eyes
Like you could save me, but you won't even try
Then you tell me again how everything will be alright \\
Jane, why did you stand in the hall that evening and say that you "had' to be alright with me and Iris? What went through your mind when I asked you that question? There have been times, both that day and others, when your eyes tell me that you wish things were different.
\\ If I told you that I'm sorry
Would you tell me you were wrong?
Or would you hold me down forever
If I came to you for answers \\
Jane, we've seem to be able to talk more these past few days, far better than right after the concert. Is that because you have come to terms with Iris and me together or is it because the connection between us is so strong that it has drawn us back together? Can we be truthful and open with each other on how we feel, or are we destined to keep our thoughts to ourselves in an attempt to avoid hurting one another? Would you be honest with me if I told you what I want?
\\ I saw pictures in my head
And I swear I saw you opening up again
And I would be heavenly if baby you'd just rescue me now \\
I see us together at the science fair and dancing on the sidewalk and I remember what it felt like to be with 'Jane'. I see flashes of that girl again when you allow yourself to forget everything else around us, but then you let the world intrude into your thoughts and we go back to...where? Can't you understand what I need to make me happy?
\\ While I'm surrounded, you spill
All alive and brand new
And I'll forget about you long enough
To forget why I need to \\
I'm feeling trapped by the situation we find ourselves in. I'm caught between Iris who openly shows her interest in me and you who I'm afraid to show how I really feel. You seem unable to accept Iris as she is and she isn't really interested in getting to know you either. Then I see you do something risking embarrassment and even physical harm, all just to stand up for someone else who is misunderstood. There are so many examples of this side of your personality, me (more than once), Ramsey, Brianna, and each time I see it happen, I'm drawn to know more of you and your motivations in life. I try and accept that I'm suppose to be happy being with Iris and to remember that you aren't ready for a relationship with me that involves more than friendship, but you draw me back to you through your actions and your laughter and I want even more for our relationship to become more than it is.
\\ I saw pictures in my head
And I swear I saw you opening up again
And I would be heavenly if baby you'd just rescue me now \\
I see those moments on the stairs when Grace was listing her ideas for retribution and you just seemed to know that I'd be okay with being your footstool. But something got in the way again and you couldn't let the moment be and you pushed me away by being rude to Iris. I have to be there for Iris, not in the same way as I want to be there for you, but as things are now I had to go after her. I don't want to be caught between the two of you. Isn't there a way out?
\\ The days are drifting away from me
I still wake up burning through everything
It's all I know
Somebody save me now \\
Jane, since reading the note from my mom, my life has started to come back together. I'm not as lost anymore and I want and need to experience what goes on around me in real and tangible ways. But this thing between us, I know it's there, remains unresolved and holds me back from moving forward. Jane, you rescued me before, will you do it again?
\\ I saw pictures in my head
And I swear I saw you opening up again
And I would be heavenly if baby you'd just rescue me now \\
I see in my mind us together over the past months but those pictures become confused with scenes of how I want us to be. Jane, I need to see you now. Maybe if I do and if we can talk, we can move past these barriers between us and begin to see our future, either together or apart. Will you help me again?
-------------------------------------------
He stood on the Giradi porch looking out into the cold rain. They say that rain signifies change and, in this case Adam thought, they'd be right. It was surprising maybe how life could seem so much clearer and promising with only six small words.
---The End ---
DATE: 2/28/2004 – 3/3/2004
RATING: G
SPOILERS: Everything up through "No Bad Guy".
SUMMARY: What Makes Adam Decided to Visit Joan on a Rainy Night? – A Song-fic
CATEGORY: Romance/Angst
DISCLAIMERS: Joan of Arcadia and all of its characters are the creation and property of Barbara Hall, CBS and Sony Pictures. This story is for pure entertainment and not for any profit at all. The song lyrics are credited to Matt Nathanson and Mark Weinberg.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: This is my first song-fic and though lacking in character interaction, I'm not unhappy how it turned out. One comment though, if you've not seen NBG, this will not likely make much sense. Kudos to BH and her music staff on the show who find the background music. I credit them for increasing my CD collection by introducing artists I wasn't familiar with before. Then I spend several days listening to the whole CD, trying to see which, if any, of the others songs could also apply to the show and its characters.
FEEDBACK: I'd welcome your feedback, good or bad (so long as you're nice about it).
-----------------------------------------------------
Adam sat in his shed. It was late. His dad was at work and by all rights he should have been inside and asleep. But he kept seeing the events of the past few weeks flash through his mind. Sleep wasn't a possibility and he couldn't seem to focus on the sculpture that he'd come out here to work on in the first place.
A song on the radio caught his attention and seemed to help focus his thoughts...
\\ It's amazing the look in your eyes
Like you could save me, but you won't even try
Then you tell me again how everything will be alright \\
Jane, why did you stand in the hall that evening and say that you "had' to be alright with me and Iris? What went through your mind when I asked you that question? There have been times, both that day and others, when your eyes tell me that you wish things were different.
\\ If I told you that I'm sorry
Would you tell me you were wrong?
Or would you hold me down forever
If I came to you for answers \\
Jane, we've seem to be able to talk more these past few days, far better than right after the concert. Is that because you have come to terms with Iris and me together or is it because the connection between us is so strong that it has drawn us back together? Can we be truthful and open with each other on how we feel, or are we destined to keep our thoughts to ourselves in an attempt to avoid hurting one another? Would you be honest with me if I told you what I want?
\\ I saw pictures in my head
And I swear I saw you opening up again
And I would be heavenly if baby you'd just rescue me now \\
I see us together at the science fair and dancing on the sidewalk and I remember what it felt like to be with 'Jane'. I see flashes of that girl again when you allow yourself to forget everything else around us, but then you let the world intrude into your thoughts and we go back to...where? Can't you understand what I need to make me happy?
\\ While I'm surrounded, you spill
All alive and brand new
And I'll forget about you long enough
To forget why I need to \\
I'm feeling trapped by the situation we find ourselves in. I'm caught between Iris who openly shows her interest in me and you who I'm afraid to show how I really feel. You seem unable to accept Iris as she is and she isn't really interested in getting to know you either. Then I see you do something risking embarrassment and even physical harm, all just to stand up for someone else who is misunderstood. There are so many examples of this side of your personality, me (more than once), Ramsey, Brianna, and each time I see it happen, I'm drawn to know more of you and your motivations in life. I try and accept that I'm suppose to be happy being with Iris and to remember that you aren't ready for a relationship with me that involves more than friendship, but you draw me back to you through your actions and your laughter and I want even more for our relationship to become more than it is.
\\ I saw pictures in my head
And I swear I saw you opening up again
And I would be heavenly if baby you'd just rescue me now \\
I see those moments on the stairs when Grace was listing her ideas for retribution and you just seemed to know that I'd be okay with being your footstool. But something got in the way again and you couldn't let the moment be and you pushed me away by being rude to Iris. I have to be there for Iris, not in the same way as I want to be there for you, but as things are now I had to go after her. I don't want to be caught between the two of you. Isn't there a way out?
\\ The days are drifting away from me
I still wake up burning through everything
It's all I know
Somebody save me now \\
Jane, since reading the note from my mom, my life has started to come back together. I'm not as lost anymore and I want and need to experience what goes on around me in real and tangible ways. But this thing between us, I know it's there, remains unresolved and holds me back from moving forward. Jane, you rescued me before, will you do it again?
\\ I saw pictures in my head
And I swear I saw you opening up again
And I would be heavenly if baby you'd just rescue me now \\
I see in my mind us together over the past months but those pictures become confused with scenes of how I want us to be. Jane, I need to see you now. Maybe if I do and if we can talk, we can move past these barriers between us and begin to see our future, either together or apart. Will you help me again?
-------------------------------------------
He stood on the Giradi porch looking out into the cold rain. They say that rain signifies change and, in this case Adam thought, they'd be right. It was surprising maybe how life could seem so much clearer and promising with only six small words.
---The End ---