Always My Soul
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters.
Inuyasha cringed as Ferlias caught Kagome with a backhand sending her spinning to the ground. His heart lurched into his throat when Ferlias jumped on top of her and wrapped a huge fist around her small throat. Her reaction momentarily made his mind flash back to the day Kikyo had been brought back from the dead and he had held her wrist trying to save her from falling from the cliff. It had hurt so much for her miko energy to burn into his skin and at the time he could do nothing but release her in the end though he had tried to vainly fight the pain. The ache that came with the memory came and went
Inuyasha closed his eyes in frustration and resignation before forcing them open again concentrating on what was happening in front of him. He could hardly stand watching Kagome fight. It seemed wrong for him to be the one to watch as she exchanged blows with a youkai. This was not how it was suppose to be. He was the protector not her. He was the one who was supposed to be hacking away at an enemy, snapping insults as he did so. Each time she opened her mouth his heart seized and he mentally begged her to shut up, to not antagonize the dangerous youkai to new heights of menace. Of course she didn't respond to his mental pleas, only made the insults she threw at Ferlias more offensive. He would have happily strangled her for scaring him so much...if he had that in him to do.
And yet, even as she frightened him he could not help but feel pride in how she was handling herself. How easy it seemed for her to slip away from Ferlias's fierce attacks. How her insults struck at the youkai lord making him more and more unbalanced. How she met each swing with a confidence he had never seen before in her.
He idly wondered if she felt such conflicting emotions while watching him fight, if it bothered her as much as it bothered him. It had never entered his mind that SHE might have felt the almost overwhelming need to strangle HIM for being so reckless during a battle. After a moment of deliberation, he decided she did have such thoughts. Considering how it had always frustrated him that she appeared to "sit" him more often after a battle then at any other time.
He scowled disliking his new bend towards introspection he much preferred his normal lack of insight. All this thinking could not be good for him. He was quite sure in some way it was either Kagome or Kee's fault, it had to be, before all this had happened he wouldn't have thought twice about the why's of the world. In his mind things either were or they weren't, there was no in-between.
He didn't notice that Tosh was looking at him with amusement.
~ The pup just might have half a chance. ~ Tosh thought to himself then turned his attention back towards the fight, his amusement quickly changing to concern ~ She had better end this fight soon or she will meld with those warrior mikos too much. I had hoped they had figured out a way to end all of this forever but it should not be taking this long. ~
His thoughts were interrupted by a pause in the battle. Kagome eyed the youkai lord warily. From his vantage point Tosh could see that Ferlias had a grin on his face. This increased his worry.
~ What is he doing? ~
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Kagome watched Ferlias with a deep sense of apprehension. The fight was going exactly as all of them wanted it to. Granted Ferlias had caused damage to her, but not enough to seriously put her in danger, simple flesh wounds that was all. But when she had begun pressing the fight to end it Ferlias had backed off, keeping distance between them. The sneer on his face was what was bothering her. It was as if he knew something. A secret so horrible that it might give him an advantage over her, something devastating.
"You love that half breed don't you miko?" Ferlias asked scornfully.
"What?" She asked, confused by this new topic.
"Yes you do...would it surprise you to know you have ALWAYS loved him?" The scorn in his voice was unmistakable.
~ What? ~
~ Do not let your guard down, remember he is treacherous and will say anything to swing this battle his way. ~ Midoriko warned.
Kagome did her best not to react outwardly but inside her stomach had dropped. She glanced at Inuyasha, whom she could see just beyond Ferlias. It did not give her solace that his eyes met hers unflinchingly, nor did it stop the strange flutter that had risen within the ranks of the mikos that dwelled in her body.
"Even if you are not well versed in the particulars of fate I know the others inside you are, did they not tell you that our souls have fought through out eternity? Did they leave you in the dark about how this is a circle of meetings? Did you not think to question if your soul was the only one to have witnessed this battle before? Did it never occur to you that HE was meant to be here as well, that HE has always been here when we meet?" Ferlias asked in a low, seductive voice.
~ What is he talking about? ~ She asked those inside of her.
None answered, she could feel their confusion as their combined minds tried to understand what Ferlias was attempting to say. She caught that Midoriko was the closest to understanding and encouraged the older miko to pry meaning out of the words. Insight dawned on her in sudden painful relief.
~ The hanyou...he has been linked to you from the beginning Kagome, since before you were of Kee, Kiala, any of them. He has been in this moment with you always. ~
~What does that mean though? ~
Another, more intense and much more horrifying insight came to her.
"no" Kagome breathed in hopeless denial.
Ferlias's smile grew until Kagome wanted to destroy him in every way possible, until she wanted to crush the life from him with her own bare hands. Within her the denial rang with more torturous understanding then she thought she could bare, the many personalities crushing agony and loss erupted sending her flashes of faces, filling her mind with names she had never known but had forever known. With this new catastrophic knowledge came the ache of many life times of betrayal. For in each of their life times there had been a love, an all encompassing love that had led to the most ultimate of treasons. And in the end it had been this duplicity that had caused their demise.
Kagome tried frantically to regain the concentration of all the mikos whose minds whirled with this information and renewed pain. Only a few, such as Kee and Midoriko were still focused, those that had not lived their lives in the shadow of such human contact either by their own choice or the choice of others.
She raised a hand to her head trying to clear it so that she could defend herself better all the time losing more and more confidence as the mikos became entrenched in their shared pain.
~ We must stand Kagome...there is no hope for the others now...you must trust him...trust your instincts...know that his soul is worthy of such a thing. ~ Kee insisted sounding more frenetic then anything.
"Is there a problem little miko?" Ferlias asked triumphantly.
Kagome breathed deeply pulling Kee and Midoriko closer so that she had less distraction. The personalities willingly intertwined with her's to block out the others more effectively. She took another, deeper breath slowly releasing it. With the blocking of the other mikos she had unfortunately lessened her energies and it put her at a distinct disadvantage.
"Now the game really begins," Ferlias commented in satisfaction.
Kagome pulled her sword up, readying for his attack. Her resolve was still as firm as it had been before, she would defeat Ferlias without the others if need be.
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters.
Inuyasha cringed as Ferlias caught Kagome with a backhand sending her spinning to the ground. His heart lurched into his throat when Ferlias jumped on top of her and wrapped a huge fist around her small throat. Her reaction momentarily made his mind flash back to the day Kikyo had been brought back from the dead and he had held her wrist trying to save her from falling from the cliff. It had hurt so much for her miko energy to burn into his skin and at the time he could do nothing but release her in the end though he had tried to vainly fight the pain. The ache that came with the memory came and went
Inuyasha closed his eyes in frustration and resignation before forcing them open again concentrating on what was happening in front of him. He could hardly stand watching Kagome fight. It seemed wrong for him to be the one to watch as she exchanged blows with a youkai. This was not how it was suppose to be. He was the protector not her. He was the one who was supposed to be hacking away at an enemy, snapping insults as he did so. Each time she opened her mouth his heart seized and he mentally begged her to shut up, to not antagonize the dangerous youkai to new heights of menace. Of course she didn't respond to his mental pleas, only made the insults she threw at Ferlias more offensive. He would have happily strangled her for scaring him so much...if he had that in him to do.
And yet, even as she frightened him he could not help but feel pride in how she was handling herself. How easy it seemed for her to slip away from Ferlias's fierce attacks. How her insults struck at the youkai lord making him more and more unbalanced. How she met each swing with a confidence he had never seen before in her.
He idly wondered if she felt such conflicting emotions while watching him fight, if it bothered her as much as it bothered him. It had never entered his mind that SHE might have felt the almost overwhelming need to strangle HIM for being so reckless during a battle. After a moment of deliberation, he decided she did have such thoughts. Considering how it had always frustrated him that she appeared to "sit" him more often after a battle then at any other time.
He scowled disliking his new bend towards introspection he much preferred his normal lack of insight. All this thinking could not be good for him. He was quite sure in some way it was either Kagome or Kee's fault, it had to be, before all this had happened he wouldn't have thought twice about the why's of the world. In his mind things either were or they weren't, there was no in-between.
He didn't notice that Tosh was looking at him with amusement.
~ The pup just might have half a chance. ~ Tosh thought to himself then turned his attention back towards the fight, his amusement quickly changing to concern ~ She had better end this fight soon or she will meld with those warrior mikos too much. I had hoped they had figured out a way to end all of this forever but it should not be taking this long. ~
His thoughts were interrupted by a pause in the battle. Kagome eyed the youkai lord warily. From his vantage point Tosh could see that Ferlias had a grin on his face. This increased his worry.
~ What is he doing? ~
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Kagome watched Ferlias with a deep sense of apprehension. The fight was going exactly as all of them wanted it to. Granted Ferlias had caused damage to her, but not enough to seriously put her in danger, simple flesh wounds that was all. But when she had begun pressing the fight to end it Ferlias had backed off, keeping distance between them. The sneer on his face was what was bothering her. It was as if he knew something. A secret so horrible that it might give him an advantage over her, something devastating.
"You love that half breed don't you miko?" Ferlias asked scornfully.
"What?" She asked, confused by this new topic.
"Yes you do...would it surprise you to know you have ALWAYS loved him?" The scorn in his voice was unmistakable.
~ What? ~
~ Do not let your guard down, remember he is treacherous and will say anything to swing this battle his way. ~ Midoriko warned.
Kagome did her best not to react outwardly but inside her stomach had dropped. She glanced at Inuyasha, whom she could see just beyond Ferlias. It did not give her solace that his eyes met hers unflinchingly, nor did it stop the strange flutter that had risen within the ranks of the mikos that dwelled in her body.
"Even if you are not well versed in the particulars of fate I know the others inside you are, did they not tell you that our souls have fought through out eternity? Did they leave you in the dark about how this is a circle of meetings? Did you not think to question if your soul was the only one to have witnessed this battle before? Did it never occur to you that HE was meant to be here as well, that HE has always been here when we meet?" Ferlias asked in a low, seductive voice.
~ What is he talking about? ~ She asked those inside of her.
None answered, she could feel their confusion as their combined minds tried to understand what Ferlias was attempting to say. She caught that Midoriko was the closest to understanding and encouraged the older miko to pry meaning out of the words. Insight dawned on her in sudden painful relief.
~ The hanyou...he has been linked to you from the beginning Kagome, since before you were of Kee, Kiala, any of them. He has been in this moment with you always. ~
~What does that mean though? ~
Another, more intense and much more horrifying insight came to her.
"no" Kagome breathed in hopeless denial.
Ferlias's smile grew until Kagome wanted to destroy him in every way possible, until she wanted to crush the life from him with her own bare hands. Within her the denial rang with more torturous understanding then she thought she could bare, the many personalities crushing agony and loss erupted sending her flashes of faces, filling her mind with names she had never known but had forever known. With this new catastrophic knowledge came the ache of many life times of betrayal. For in each of their life times there had been a love, an all encompassing love that had led to the most ultimate of treasons. And in the end it had been this duplicity that had caused their demise.
Kagome tried frantically to regain the concentration of all the mikos whose minds whirled with this information and renewed pain. Only a few, such as Kee and Midoriko were still focused, those that had not lived their lives in the shadow of such human contact either by their own choice or the choice of others.
She raised a hand to her head trying to clear it so that she could defend herself better all the time losing more and more confidence as the mikos became entrenched in their shared pain.
~ We must stand Kagome...there is no hope for the others now...you must trust him...trust your instincts...know that his soul is worthy of such a thing. ~ Kee insisted sounding more frenetic then anything.
"Is there a problem little miko?" Ferlias asked triumphantly.
Kagome breathed deeply pulling Kee and Midoriko closer so that she had less distraction. The personalities willingly intertwined with her's to block out the others more effectively. She took another, deeper breath slowly releasing it. With the blocking of the other mikos she had unfortunately lessened her energies and it put her at a distinct disadvantage.
"Now the game really begins," Ferlias commented in satisfaction.
Kagome pulled her sword up, readying for his attack. Her resolve was still as firm as it had been before, she would defeat Ferlias without the others if need be.