Always My Soul
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters.
Tosh closed his eye against the sight of Kagome's loss of power. He could not understand how the mikos could abandon her in such a way, at so critical of a time. He could feel the tumultuous churning of the others through his ongoing link to Kagome. Without this link she would not have been able to utilize the jewel fragments as she did since it lent her the essence of his youkai soul. He strained to embolden her with his own strength and power knowing it to be the futile gesture it was. The only power Kagome could call upon was of mikos and he had no such power within him to give. His anger at the others and himself was growing monumentally. He had known of the connection between the mikos and Inuyasha and yet had said nothing, thinking it unimportant. Ferlias had used the knowledge to his advantage and Tosh knew he had failed Kagome in a way he would never forgive himself for.
He opened his eyes finally, surprised to find the combatants in the same positions as before. Neither of them moved and all that could be heard was the sound of their slightly strained breathing. Then Ferlias moved at Kagome, who without the support of the mikos responded slowly to it, no real match for youkai speed. Ferlias knocked her sword out of his way and slammed his shoulder into her chest, sending her flying across the field. Tosh flinched violently as her body met the ground with a resounding thud that even he could feel.
"What's happening? What's wrong with her?" Inuyasha asked immediately.
Tosh sighed, "What always happens..."
"What are you talking about old man?" Inuyasha snapped, his concern obvious.
"You heard what he said to her Inu...and it's the truth. Your soul and her's are connected and have always been so connected." Tosh began, interrupted by Kagome rising and launching herself at Ferlias who simply batted her body away as if she were a bug.
"Speak a language I understand!" Inuyasha insisted angrily.
"The downfall of a miko has been and will FOR ALL TIME be her heart. Only mikos who either die before meeting such a person or refuses such a person is not vulnerable to the person they fall in love with. In almost every case, when your soul and her soul met something happened that either made your soul abandon her or caused you to betray her to Ferlias. Do you understand now?! Ferlias has done the one thing that could guarantee his victory. He has separated Kagome from almost all of the others who did not recognize your soul until he brought you to their attention. She is not One any longer and it means her death by his hands once again!" Tosh finished in a voice one octave below bellowing.
Inuyasha's eyes were wide with shock, "But I would never..."
"Unfortunately you have already...many times. It is a betrayal for you to ignore her pain and justify your abhorrent behavior when near Kikyo. You have betrayed your own heart in this manner. She knows this of you Inuyasha, she has always known. A betrayal of the heart, no matter if it were visited upon another or upon your self, it is still a betrayal. You did not give her enough credit when it was due her, and so you have failed both of you." He explained with a heavy heart hoping Inuyasha could understand what he was attempting to say.
Inuyasha's eyes clouded with conflicting emotions, "I see..."
"No you really don't Inuyasha, you don't because you have a mind centered only on yesterday and tomorrow. What you don't understand is that this is not your downfall. Out there she is fighting for you, fighting for a future she sees somewhere in the distance of all of this. Fate only takes you so far Inuyasha...after that it is on you to find out where it has taken you and what to do with that knowledge. There are times I am glad I am dead, that such things no longer apply to me." He said realizing something as he watched Ferlias snatch at a quickly retreating Kagome "There are also times when I should heed my own advice".
"Huh?" Inuyasha asked, confused.
Tosh did not answer him as he stepped forward and concentrated, calling to himself a form he had long left behind in the physical realm. As he did so he felt himself fade then rushed his essence forward.
Now there was only one real, clear choice and it was his to make.
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Of all the things he had thought he would do for a miko he had never imagined he would be willing to break every rule ever set down by the higher beings. He should never have blended with Kagome and the others. He should never have materialized into this plane of existence. And now he was about to break the most important of all the rules. He was going to show his truest self to save Kagome from Ferlias. And he was doing so with no trepidation, no worry to changing others destinies. He had been at one time the Lord of the Western Lands and he was going to show this would be youkai lord what that meant.
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters.
Tosh closed his eye against the sight of Kagome's loss of power. He could not understand how the mikos could abandon her in such a way, at so critical of a time. He could feel the tumultuous churning of the others through his ongoing link to Kagome. Without this link she would not have been able to utilize the jewel fragments as she did since it lent her the essence of his youkai soul. He strained to embolden her with his own strength and power knowing it to be the futile gesture it was. The only power Kagome could call upon was of mikos and he had no such power within him to give. His anger at the others and himself was growing monumentally. He had known of the connection between the mikos and Inuyasha and yet had said nothing, thinking it unimportant. Ferlias had used the knowledge to his advantage and Tosh knew he had failed Kagome in a way he would never forgive himself for.
He opened his eyes finally, surprised to find the combatants in the same positions as before. Neither of them moved and all that could be heard was the sound of their slightly strained breathing. Then Ferlias moved at Kagome, who without the support of the mikos responded slowly to it, no real match for youkai speed. Ferlias knocked her sword out of his way and slammed his shoulder into her chest, sending her flying across the field. Tosh flinched violently as her body met the ground with a resounding thud that even he could feel.
"What's happening? What's wrong with her?" Inuyasha asked immediately.
Tosh sighed, "What always happens..."
"What are you talking about old man?" Inuyasha snapped, his concern obvious.
"You heard what he said to her Inu...and it's the truth. Your soul and her's are connected and have always been so connected." Tosh began, interrupted by Kagome rising and launching herself at Ferlias who simply batted her body away as if she were a bug.
"Speak a language I understand!" Inuyasha insisted angrily.
"The downfall of a miko has been and will FOR ALL TIME be her heart. Only mikos who either die before meeting such a person or refuses such a person is not vulnerable to the person they fall in love with. In almost every case, when your soul and her soul met something happened that either made your soul abandon her or caused you to betray her to Ferlias. Do you understand now?! Ferlias has done the one thing that could guarantee his victory. He has separated Kagome from almost all of the others who did not recognize your soul until he brought you to their attention. She is not One any longer and it means her death by his hands once again!" Tosh finished in a voice one octave below bellowing.
Inuyasha's eyes were wide with shock, "But I would never..."
"Unfortunately you have already...many times. It is a betrayal for you to ignore her pain and justify your abhorrent behavior when near Kikyo. You have betrayed your own heart in this manner. She knows this of you Inuyasha, she has always known. A betrayal of the heart, no matter if it were visited upon another or upon your self, it is still a betrayal. You did not give her enough credit when it was due her, and so you have failed both of you." He explained with a heavy heart hoping Inuyasha could understand what he was attempting to say.
Inuyasha's eyes clouded with conflicting emotions, "I see..."
"No you really don't Inuyasha, you don't because you have a mind centered only on yesterday and tomorrow. What you don't understand is that this is not your downfall. Out there she is fighting for you, fighting for a future she sees somewhere in the distance of all of this. Fate only takes you so far Inuyasha...after that it is on you to find out where it has taken you and what to do with that knowledge. There are times I am glad I am dead, that such things no longer apply to me." He said realizing something as he watched Ferlias snatch at a quickly retreating Kagome "There are also times when I should heed my own advice".
"Huh?" Inuyasha asked, confused.
Tosh did not answer him as he stepped forward and concentrated, calling to himself a form he had long left behind in the physical realm. As he did so he felt himself fade then rushed his essence forward.
Now there was only one real, clear choice and it was his to make.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Of all the things he had thought he would do for a miko he had never imagined he would be willing to break every rule ever set down by the higher beings. He should never have blended with Kagome and the others. He should never have materialized into this plane of existence. And now he was about to break the most important of all the rules. He was going to show his truest self to save Kagome from Ferlias. And he was doing so with no trepidation, no worry to changing others destinies. He had been at one time the Lord of the Western Lands and he was going to show this would be youkai lord what that meant.