Always My Soul
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters
Inuyasha stared dumbfounded at the figure of his father standing over Kagome protectively. It could be no other then Inutashio; there was no similar dog youkai to this one. There had never been. And he had been standing right beside him all this time!!
~ How stupid could I have been? ~ He asked himself.
The towering figure of Inutashio overwhelmed Inuyasha's senses. The smell of the great dog youkai permeated the air. The scent of his father almost brought tears to Inuyasha's eyes, somehow his mind recognized the scent bringing back images of the time he spent with his mother, how her robes would carry the barely perceptible smell underneath her scent. Though he had not known his father a deep sense of pride filled him causing his chest to swell with the unfamiliar feeling. Seeing his father play such a role in this battle made him yearn to be part of it, so he could for once stand at his father's side and know what it was like to do such a thing.
"Inutashio...isn't that..." Miroku unfinished question made Inuyasha look at the monk.
"Yes its my father" He informed both Sango and Miroku.
Sango's brow furrowed "I don't understand...how can he be here? I mean he was a youkai..."
"He came with Kagome...he was the old man who took us out of her head. I don't understand it either. He shouldn't be here," Inuyasha confessed.
"He is a higher being Inuyasha" Miroku said meaningfully.
Inuyasha stared uncomprehendingly at Miroku who gave a long-suffering sigh before he went on.
"A higher being...one of the ones that watch over us and protect us. The ones who set down and defend the laws of nature. It has never been said that a youkai could not attain such a status. It is unusual but I am sure it happens more often then we hear about. That is what I was trying to tell you before he separated us from Kagome. It amazes me that you didn't feel his essence, it was so strong it was hard to not submit to."
Inuyasha snorted, "He was the Lord of the Western Lands for centuries why would he lower himself to that?"
Miroku rolled his eyes, "Why would a great and mighty youkai lord help a miko Inuyasha...don't be dense. If you were paying any attention at all you would have noticed he is PROTECTING Kagome. And he is breaking natural laws to do so."
Inuyasha growled at Miroku in frustration, "Can't any of you people speak a common language?! What does that mean?!"
Miroku sighed deeply again then tipped his chin towards where Inutashio stood over Kagome. Inuyasha followed his line of vision to see that Kagome had moved to under Inutashio's chin. The dog youkai's aura flared wildly and Kagome put a hand to his chin, letting the blue aura surround her.
"Does that seem normal to you Inuyasha? Your father is helping a MIKO! He appeared first to us as an old man who quite obviously had been helping Kagome all this time. Now he is in his youkai form, a form that is forbidden to him since he is dead. And now he is giving Kagome, A MIKO, his essence to fight Ferlias with! There are laws of nature Inuyasha, unbreakable laws that if broken can mean the unraveling of destinies. A higher being's essence is so powerful it is prohibited to expose a human to it because it might end their lives and ruin many destinies that were intertwined with that human. Kagome should be dead but she isn't. Inutashio should be unable to attain that form but he has..."
"And Ferlias should be destroyed but he isn't yada yada yada...would you speak MY language monk before I smash your head in!" Inuyasha yelled, his hands fisting.
He knew he was being thick he couldn't help it. Sometime during Miroku's explanation something had begun to tug at Inuyasha's mind. It distracted him to the point that he had all but ignored Miroku. When he had finally returned his attention to the monk there was no hope of understanding what was being said to him. The "something" tugged at Inuyasha again, and his attention fixed solely on Kagome.
~ yes...hear me ~
"What?" He asked out loud, confused.
"Inuyasha if you aren't going to listen..." Miroku began annoyed.
Inuyasha frowned, a strange feeling creeping over him as he stared at Kagome. Somewhere inside of him an intense need to act began to grow. He had no idea where it was coming from; it was not the usual place for his impatience to become apparent in. It was from his heart that this new feeling was originating.
~ to be redeemed ~
His heart began beating more rapidly in response to this strange call. His shoulders tensed as if he were about to pull Tetsusaiga. He bit the inside of his cheek, confused. There was no reason for him to be responding like this. He was very certain that it was pure suicide to involve himself in the fight, that neither his father nor Kagome would want him to.
~ to end the strife ~
His head began to swim with vertigo and he shook it slightly hoping to dispel the feeling. It only intensified and he felt himself break out in a sweat.
"Inuyasha?"
It was Sango, her voice full of worry. He wanted to answer her but could not force himself to do so.
~ be for her what you could not be for me ~
He swallowed convulsively. He understood what was being asked of him. His whole body wished to respond to the urgent whisper of the voice in his heart. The vertigo slipped away leaving behind an echo that came from deep inside him. The echo was filled with a remorse that he understood completely, it was similar to the remorse he felt when thinking of what might have been if Kikyo had survived. It was the remorse he felt knowing his heart longed for Kagome. It was an ache he had long become accustomed to over these past months and yet it was deeper then his own feelings, deeper then anything he had ever experienced. Images leapt to his mind full of women he had never met, names for these women floated to his attention only to be whisked away and replaced by other names, other faces. He did not fight the knowledge, his grasp of what was happening to him told him it was something he could not stop. He immersed himself in the new purpose that had risen inside of him.
~ To be redeemed ~
He put his hand on the hilt of Tetsusaiga and waited.
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters
Inuyasha stared dumbfounded at the figure of his father standing over Kagome protectively. It could be no other then Inutashio; there was no similar dog youkai to this one. There had never been. And he had been standing right beside him all this time!!
~ How stupid could I have been? ~ He asked himself.
The towering figure of Inutashio overwhelmed Inuyasha's senses. The smell of the great dog youkai permeated the air. The scent of his father almost brought tears to Inuyasha's eyes, somehow his mind recognized the scent bringing back images of the time he spent with his mother, how her robes would carry the barely perceptible smell underneath her scent. Though he had not known his father a deep sense of pride filled him causing his chest to swell with the unfamiliar feeling. Seeing his father play such a role in this battle made him yearn to be part of it, so he could for once stand at his father's side and know what it was like to do such a thing.
"Inutashio...isn't that..." Miroku unfinished question made Inuyasha look at the monk.
"Yes its my father" He informed both Sango and Miroku.
Sango's brow furrowed "I don't understand...how can he be here? I mean he was a youkai..."
"He came with Kagome...he was the old man who took us out of her head. I don't understand it either. He shouldn't be here," Inuyasha confessed.
"He is a higher being Inuyasha" Miroku said meaningfully.
Inuyasha stared uncomprehendingly at Miroku who gave a long-suffering sigh before he went on.
"A higher being...one of the ones that watch over us and protect us. The ones who set down and defend the laws of nature. It has never been said that a youkai could not attain such a status. It is unusual but I am sure it happens more often then we hear about. That is what I was trying to tell you before he separated us from Kagome. It amazes me that you didn't feel his essence, it was so strong it was hard to not submit to."
Inuyasha snorted, "He was the Lord of the Western Lands for centuries why would he lower himself to that?"
Miroku rolled his eyes, "Why would a great and mighty youkai lord help a miko Inuyasha...don't be dense. If you were paying any attention at all you would have noticed he is PROTECTING Kagome. And he is breaking natural laws to do so."
Inuyasha growled at Miroku in frustration, "Can't any of you people speak a common language?! What does that mean?!"
Miroku sighed deeply again then tipped his chin towards where Inutashio stood over Kagome. Inuyasha followed his line of vision to see that Kagome had moved to under Inutashio's chin. The dog youkai's aura flared wildly and Kagome put a hand to his chin, letting the blue aura surround her.
"Does that seem normal to you Inuyasha? Your father is helping a MIKO! He appeared first to us as an old man who quite obviously had been helping Kagome all this time. Now he is in his youkai form, a form that is forbidden to him since he is dead. And now he is giving Kagome, A MIKO, his essence to fight Ferlias with! There are laws of nature Inuyasha, unbreakable laws that if broken can mean the unraveling of destinies. A higher being's essence is so powerful it is prohibited to expose a human to it because it might end their lives and ruin many destinies that were intertwined with that human. Kagome should be dead but she isn't. Inutashio should be unable to attain that form but he has..."
"And Ferlias should be destroyed but he isn't yada yada yada...would you speak MY language monk before I smash your head in!" Inuyasha yelled, his hands fisting.
He knew he was being thick he couldn't help it. Sometime during Miroku's explanation something had begun to tug at Inuyasha's mind. It distracted him to the point that he had all but ignored Miroku. When he had finally returned his attention to the monk there was no hope of understanding what was being said to him. The "something" tugged at Inuyasha again, and his attention fixed solely on Kagome.
~ yes...hear me ~
"What?" He asked out loud, confused.
"Inuyasha if you aren't going to listen..." Miroku began annoyed.
Inuyasha frowned, a strange feeling creeping over him as he stared at Kagome. Somewhere inside of him an intense need to act began to grow. He had no idea where it was coming from; it was not the usual place for his impatience to become apparent in. It was from his heart that this new feeling was originating.
~ to be redeemed ~
His heart began beating more rapidly in response to this strange call. His shoulders tensed as if he were about to pull Tetsusaiga. He bit the inside of his cheek, confused. There was no reason for him to be responding like this. He was very certain that it was pure suicide to involve himself in the fight, that neither his father nor Kagome would want him to.
~ to end the strife ~
His head began to swim with vertigo and he shook it slightly hoping to dispel the feeling. It only intensified and he felt himself break out in a sweat.
"Inuyasha?"
It was Sango, her voice full of worry. He wanted to answer her but could not force himself to do so.
~ be for her what you could not be for me ~
He swallowed convulsively. He understood what was being asked of him. His whole body wished to respond to the urgent whisper of the voice in his heart. The vertigo slipped away leaving behind an echo that came from deep inside him. The echo was filled with a remorse that he understood completely, it was similar to the remorse he felt when thinking of what might have been if Kikyo had survived. It was the remorse he felt knowing his heart longed for Kagome. It was an ache he had long become accustomed to over these past months and yet it was deeper then his own feelings, deeper then anything he had ever experienced. Images leapt to his mind full of women he had never met, names for these women floated to his attention only to be whisked away and replaced by other names, other faces. He did not fight the knowledge, his grasp of what was happening to him told him it was something he could not stop. He immersed himself in the new purpose that had risen inside of him.
~ To be redeemed ~
He put his hand on the hilt of Tetsusaiga and waited.