Always My Soul
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters
It was too much for him to grasp. So much had happened in just a few days time; so much had been lost in a heartbeat. He would never be redeemed, would never again be able to reach out to her, as he needed to. He had lost his chance, it had turned to ash just as her body had and there was nothing that could bring her back to him.
Inuyasha gently stirred the ash with his fingertips numbly. He could not even bring himself to be angry with his father for keeping him from trying to save Kagome. It did not matter because in the end she was dead and he was still alive. There was no changing the course of what had happened, no going back and fixing what had gone so terribly wrong. The image of her face was imprinted deeply into his memories and he knew for the rest of his life he would have nightmares of this day, of her tormented expression.
He heard his father approach and stop right behind him but could not bring himself to move from the last spot she had been alive in; not yet anyway.
"She use to yell at me for just about everything" Inuyasha said, his throat constricting with tears that would not come, "I think I drove her crazy with all the fighting I do. Before all of this I imagined she must hate me for how stubborn I can be over little things but now I know she just teased me. Do you think she knows I know that?"
This last part seemed a catalyst because his voice deepened and the tears began to flow unabashedly. It was not a release; it made his grief deeper, made his pain unendurable. He held to the pain as if it might bring her back. The weight of his prayer beads on his wrist only reminded him of how completely he had failed her.
"All that time I wasted, all the things I wanted to say to her but never did...does she know it all now father? Can she hear me, hear everything I intended for her to know?" He hated the way his outburst sounded but needed to know what he asked.
"Yes Inu...where she is she cannot help but hear what your heart says to her" Inutashio replied, his own voice gruff.
A small sliver of relief went through Inuyasha but it was not enough, would never be enough to console him.
"Inutashio!" yelled Sango.
Inuyasha jumped to his feet and turned to find Sango dragging Miroku over to them. Sango's face was tight with some unknown emotion when she reached them but her eyes shined as if she knew something.
"Go on...tell them what you told me" Sango urged Miroku.
Confused Inuyasha stared at Miroku expectantly. The monk scowled.
"As if I need to tell Inutashio something he already knows" huffed Miroku.
"What do you mean?" Inutashio asked.
Inuyasha resisted the urge to strangle his friend barely.
"She was not supposed to die. It was not in her destiny to die at the hands of Ferlias." Miroku said as if to a child.
"Wait...she wasn't..." Inuyasha began even more confused and looked at his father.
Inutashio at first looked angry and then ever so slowly he began to smile. Inuyasha's heart began to beat wildly though he did not know why his father seemed so happy suddenly.
"No matter what I did they cannot change Kagome's destiny Inuyasha and if she were not meant to die here..." Inutashio explained.
"Then she could not possibly have been killed," said a mature woman's voice behind them.
Inuyasha whirled to be greeted by a sight that left him breathless with elation. Kee in her familiar outfit, though now her features not like Kagome's, stood in the center of the scorch mark holding Kagome in her arms. She smiled openly at Inuyasha who could not take his eyes off of her burden.
"Well are you going to take her from me hanyou or shall I just take her back?" Kee asked teasingly.
Inuyasha bound over to her only to find himself afraid to touch Kagome as he looked down at her face. A new scar in the shape of a star stood out on her neck behind her ear. He traced it lightly then looked at Kee as if asking her permission. She chuckled indulgently then pushed Kagome into Inuyasha's arms. Her scent flooded his senses and he buried his face into her hair, holding her as tightly as he dared to his chest. After an eternity in which he released his pain Inuyasha finally raised his head to find Kee watching him.
"You know that if it were not for you Inuyasha she would not have won" Kee commented.
Inuyasha snorted, "You know that if it were not for you we wouldn't have gotten captured by Usuti in the first place"
Kee chuckled then sobered quickly, "She needs to sleep Inuyasha. Unfortunately she was not ready to deal with what had to be done to Ferlias so we have made her memories of the battle hazy. She is a very special person; I wish I had had her strength when I was alive. She pitied Ferlias in the end."
Inuyasha looked down at Kagome and felt a smile tug at his lips, "She would"
"There is one more task to complete and this is finally at an end." Kee informed him.
"What?! There is more?!" he yelped jerking his head up.
"Nothing quite so life threatening Inuyasha" Kee assured him then looked over at Inutashio.
"We have to suppress the previous incarnations Inu...you, Miroku, and Kagome cannot function with the others aware inside of you." Inutashio supplied.
"What about Sango?" Inuyasha asked unhappy with the idea of being messed with.
"I never was really involved in this Inuyasha...Hiraikotsu was" Sango explained blushing.
Inuyasha snorted, "Figures"
By: dragonfly-rising
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters
It was too much for him to grasp. So much had happened in just a few days time; so much had been lost in a heartbeat. He would never be redeemed, would never again be able to reach out to her, as he needed to. He had lost his chance, it had turned to ash just as her body had and there was nothing that could bring her back to him.
Inuyasha gently stirred the ash with his fingertips numbly. He could not even bring himself to be angry with his father for keeping him from trying to save Kagome. It did not matter because in the end she was dead and he was still alive. There was no changing the course of what had happened, no going back and fixing what had gone so terribly wrong. The image of her face was imprinted deeply into his memories and he knew for the rest of his life he would have nightmares of this day, of her tormented expression.
He heard his father approach and stop right behind him but could not bring himself to move from the last spot she had been alive in; not yet anyway.
"She use to yell at me for just about everything" Inuyasha said, his throat constricting with tears that would not come, "I think I drove her crazy with all the fighting I do. Before all of this I imagined she must hate me for how stubborn I can be over little things but now I know she just teased me. Do you think she knows I know that?"
This last part seemed a catalyst because his voice deepened and the tears began to flow unabashedly. It was not a release; it made his grief deeper, made his pain unendurable. He held to the pain as if it might bring her back. The weight of his prayer beads on his wrist only reminded him of how completely he had failed her.
"All that time I wasted, all the things I wanted to say to her but never did...does she know it all now father? Can she hear me, hear everything I intended for her to know?" He hated the way his outburst sounded but needed to know what he asked.
"Yes Inu...where she is she cannot help but hear what your heart says to her" Inutashio replied, his own voice gruff.
A small sliver of relief went through Inuyasha but it was not enough, would never be enough to console him.
"Inutashio!" yelled Sango.
Inuyasha jumped to his feet and turned to find Sango dragging Miroku over to them. Sango's face was tight with some unknown emotion when she reached them but her eyes shined as if she knew something.
"Go on...tell them what you told me" Sango urged Miroku.
Confused Inuyasha stared at Miroku expectantly. The monk scowled.
"As if I need to tell Inutashio something he already knows" huffed Miroku.
"What do you mean?" Inutashio asked.
Inuyasha resisted the urge to strangle his friend barely.
"She was not supposed to die. It was not in her destiny to die at the hands of Ferlias." Miroku said as if to a child.
"Wait...she wasn't..." Inuyasha began even more confused and looked at his father.
Inutashio at first looked angry and then ever so slowly he began to smile. Inuyasha's heart began to beat wildly though he did not know why his father seemed so happy suddenly.
"No matter what I did they cannot change Kagome's destiny Inuyasha and if she were not meant to die here..." Inutashio explained.
"Then she could not possibly have been killed," said a mature woman's voice behind them.
Inuyasha whirled to be greeted by a sight that left him breathless with elation. Kee in her familiar outfit, though now her features not like Kagome's, stood in the center of the scorch mark holding Kagome in her arms. She smiled openly at Inuyasha who could not take his eyes off of her burden.
"Well are you going to take her from me hanyou or shall I just take her back?" Kee asked teasingly.
Inuyasha bound over to her only to find himself afraid to touch Kagome as he looked down at her face. A new scar in the shape of a star stood out on her neck behind her ear. He traced it lightly then looked at Kee as if asking her permission. She chuckled indulgently then pushed Kagome into Inuyasha's arms. Her scent flooded his senses and he buried his face into her hair, holding her as tightly as he dared to his chest. After an eternity in which he released his pain Inuyasha finally raised his head to find Kee watching him.
"You know that if it were not for you Inuyasha she would not have won" Kee commented.
Inuyasha snorted, "You know that if it were not for you we wouldn't have gotten captured by Usuti in the first place"
Kee chuckled then sobered quickly, "She needs to sleep Inuyasha. Unfortunately she was not ready to deal with what had to be done to Ferlias so we have made her memories of the battle hazy. She is a very special person; I wish I had had her strength when I was alive. She pitied Ferlias in the end."
Inuyasha looked down at Kagome and felt a smile tug at his lips, "She would"
"There is one more task to complete and this is finally at an end." Kee informed him.
"What?! There is more?!" he yelped jerking his head up.
"Nothing quite so life threatening Inuyasha" Kee assured him then looked over at Inutashio.
"We have to suppress the previous incarnations Inu...you, Miroku, and Kagome cannot function with the others aware inside of you." Inutashio supplied.
"What about Sango?" Inuyasha asked unhappy with the idea of being messed with.
"I never was really involved in this Inuyasha...Hiraikotsu was" Sango explained blushing.
Inuyasha snorted, "Figures"