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I had no idea of how I was going to explain this. Lady Galadriel had tried her best to explain, but I was still left somewhat confused.
"Thalia was brought here under a misconception. Yes, she was brought here because she was in pain and needed help, that much you already know"
"So what don't we know?" Elrohir impatiently asked.
"Lady Galadriel went to Thalia on the night of her death. She had heard the call of Thalia's soul. After her arrival in Middle-Earth she met Legolas. They did not know it at the time, but their souls have matched. As you know, elves only love once and when they do, they love their match completely. It usually takes a few years before a pair of souls meet and intertwine. But in this case, Legolas' soul felt the pain and sorrow that she eminated, and before he could do anything about it, his soul answered".
Immediate soul bonding was rare and very few knew what actually went on when this happened. I hoped that I was explaining this well, I was trying my best.
"So, why has it taken so long for either of them to realise it?" Glorfindel asked, his concern for both evident in the hushed tone of his voice.
"Legolas realised it almost immediately. But Thalia fought against it. Her soul tried to hide from the love he so readily offered her. The fear she felt towards her father hindered her own feelings. However, part of her soul did accept him, which is why she was most trusting with Legolas"
"I still do not fully understand. Why is it that we have to leave them here?"
"Did you see Legolas before he left with her?"
Everybody nodded grimly.
"The reason that Legolas looked so weak, is because they now share the same soul. Their souls have ceased to become individual, and have strongly intertwined. They are each aware of the others feelings. When an extreme feeling takes over however, the results are either blissful or sorrowful.
Normally the finding of a matched soul is a joyous event. But neither of them were ready to become soul bound so soon, especially with present circumstances as they are. Legolas fought his feelings and subdued them, as did Thalia, although she did not know what she was fighting against".
"So he can feel her torment?" Elrohir asked.
"Yes. He feels it as sharply as she does, however, he has the ability to see through the haze and can still make a rational decision".
"But, why have we left them?" Glorfindel was becoming restless.
"Their souls have joined, almost fully, the only thing left to do is for both of them to sit and acknowledge this. They do not yet have to bond in body, but in order for Thalia to recover they must acknowledge it. If they do not, the added pressure of their unacknowledged bond will slowly wear them down. They love each other but they are both afraid. Once they have talked, hopefully they will come to realise what has happened"
"But what if Thalia rejects it?"
"She will have no choice. She does love him, she knows that much. Legolas has taken her to an old, hidden healing glade, where he will explain the situation to her, she comes out of this stupor"
"What is it that you saw when you looked into her eyes?"
"Because their bond has ignored for so long, to compensate for the lack of nurturing the connection is slowly draining her of her life. While the bond becomes stronger, she grows weaker. There was no light in her eyes. The only thing keeping her alive at this moment is her will to live".
I looked at the three of them. Glorfindel looked a little more hopeful, a light had made its way back into his eyes, at least he had faith in them.
Elladan and Elrohir looked as confused as I felt.
We each looked at one another before making the silent decision to leave them, much against our wishes, but we wanted them both back. What I hadn't told them, was that if Legolas failed they would both die.
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I had no idea where I was going. I just let my feet do the walking. At the moment I was too concerned about the woman I held in my arms.
She was so pale and small. She looked worse than she did when we first arrived in Lothlorien. I could feel the pain and sorrow that she felt as if it were my own.
I knew from the first time I met her, that she was my match. But for her sake I had ignored my needs. Usually when two souls bond, the bond must be strengthened physically. But that had not been an option. Our souls had connected and intertwined much quicker than normal. It usually it took a while for two souls to recognise it's twin. The love I felt magnified as the bond became stronger. She knew that something was different but fought it.
And now, because I had not had the courage to say anything, she was dying. I could not let that happen. I could feel her heart beat alongside mine. I could feel every emotion and almost hear every thought. As I looked down at her a rush of emotion ran through me. She must have felt it, as she looked at me. Her eyes were blank. There was nothing at all. The bright sapphire eyes that usually looked at me with such love were completely dead.
I felt something in my mind tell me to stop. I stood still and looked at my surroundings. We were in a small glade, it was very similar to the one which I had taken Thalia to when I first told her I loved her. Without thinking about anything I put Thalia down on the grass beside the small stream that ran through the glade. I had no idea what I was supposed to do.
"Trust your instincts Legolas Greenleaf "
Lady Galadriel's words sounded in my ears. Carefully I stripped off my clothes and entered the cool, clear water. The water came up to waist and moved around my body as I took hold of her upper body and rested her against my chest. Her soft, silky hair brushed against my chest. I took my time as I undid the ribbons of her dress. The feel of her soft skin against the tips of my fingers sent shivers down my spine. I looked at her face as I moved the dress down and over her torso, her lifeless eyes blinked once or twice, but she gave me no sign of wanting me to stop, or curiosity, or even just acknowledgement.
I picked her up and gently lowered her into the water. Her head snapped up and her eyes locked on mine.
"What are you doing? Where am I?" she asked as her eyes scanned the glade.
"We are still on the path to Rivendell, however before we can continue, there is something we must do?"
her brow furrowed as she looked at me, "Where are the others?"
"They have continued on".
"Oh. So why am I sat in a river…naked?"
"What is the last thing you remember?"
She chewed on her bottom lip for a moment, "I was sat on Adar's lap, and…"
Her eyes began to glisten with tears, "…and…I had…had..umm done…done it".
She could barely get the words out of her mouth. A lone tear made it's made down her pale cheek, I reached out and bushed the tear away with my thumb. I lifted her bent head so that I could look her in the eye.
"Thalia. There is something that we must discuss"
"What?"
"Close your eyes"
She obediently closed her eyes, she gasped and opened her eyes.
" This is the spring of Vana. It is one of the three springs of life that the Valar have graced Arda with. It is kept hidden with magic to all but those whose needs are greatest".
"Who is Vana?"
"Vana is the Mistress of life, she helps those who need in finding their true paths".
I reached out and grasped her small hand in mine. Her eyes widened as she finally felt our bond. She let go and sat down, the water coming up to her neck.
"What was that?" she looked frightened.
"That was our bond. Over the past few months you have felt very different have you not?"
"Yes", she whispered, "But I thought was because I was learning to adjust to being an elf".
"No, what you have felt is the result of finding your match".
"What do you mean my match?"
"Your souls other half, its twin"
"I don't understand", she said, shaking her head.
"The moment that we met, our souls joined. You had been lost, your true home was here, in Middle-Earth. Your soul cried out and you were answered. I could not tell you, your heart was already laden with dark thoughts and I could not stand to see you in more anguish".
She looked at me with teary eyes, confusion showing clearly.
"You knew?" I nodded.
"I didn't want to hurt you".
"But why didn't I notice it? what happened?"
"Because your heart was already too clouded to see. The bond has finally sealed itself and because it has not been acknowledged by both of us, it has taken over. Normally, when to souls bond, it is nurtured by the two elves, and because we had not, it finally became too much and your heart cried out. That is why you could not think. I felt everything, your pain, your sorrow, your love and your hope. And you did not know what to do with it. You were unable to let me into your heart and you were unable to carry the burden. Our souls are joined which means that you are no longer a full individual. We share everything"
I brought her hand over my chest and let it rest over my heart. She closed her eyes and smiled as she felt my heart beat at the same time as hers.
I watched as she slowly came towards me, her hair falling about her face and blowing gently in the light breeze. Her eyes sparkled brightly as she trailed her hands on my bare chest, gently teasing my nipples. Her other hand found its way to my neck and she pulled me down to meet her lips. I nibbled gently on her bottom lip, She parted her lips and let me taste her. Our tongues battled fiercely as our hand roamed over each others body. I felt a spark ignite through our bond, as did she. Our kisses became more urgent and forceful as the sensation of our bond became more intense. My hands ran down her smooth back and moved to cup her backside, she moaned into my mouth and scraped her nails down my back in response.
She broke the kiss and looked up and smiled at me as I leant down and kissed her softly. I let my forehead rest gently on hers as we both tried to compose ourselves.
"How do you feel?" I asked her.
"I feel…strange. I feel safe, and happy, and content, and loved. And I can feel your presence in my heart".
I smiled at her. She looked serene, her eyes closed and her lips parted slightly.
"What does this mean?"
"Your heart has become whole once more. The reason that you have felt so agitated over the past few weeks, is because the bond needed to be exposed. Can you feel the difference?"
"Yes, I feel it". she said softly as she stepped closer to me and nuzzled her nose into the crook of my neck. I couldn't help but grin as I wrapped my arms around her body, holding her close. I could feel her warm breath on my neck and her hands playing with the hair on the nape of my neck. I sighed heavily, making her giggle. I was content just to be here. I shifted my weight slowly as my body betrayed my emotions. Thalia laughed slightly as she placed her hand on my shoulder letting me know that it was alright.
I closed my eyes and rested my chin on her head.
"Shall we go?" she asked me lazily.
"No, we shall stay her tonight and then continue on to Rivendell at first light"
"Hmm hmm", she responded lazily.
"Tired, melamin?"
"mmm".
I chuckled lightly as I lifted her out of the water and set her down on the soft grass. She lay on the grass, watching me as I went about finding blankets and making a fire.
We sat watching the flames of the fire dance merrily. I sat with my back against a tree, one hand behind my head the other stroking Thalia's hair as her head lay on my lap. She lay with a soft smile gracing her lips, drawing small circles on my thighs.
We sat like this for most of the night, talking or just sitting in silence and enjoying each others company.
Our souls and hearts have finally become one. Only one thing remained to be done, and that would happen when we were both ready, but for now, we were content.