Disclaimers: If I had a plushie for every time I've said this….I'd need a fork-lift truck to get inside my house!

So No I don't own YGO or Nelly Furtado's 'Try'

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My friends were shocked – I was shocked as we were on our way home, Kathy….what did I do to make you go down that dank, menacing road? Why did you look so frightened? Just thinking about her startled, child-like face sent shivers down my spine as they took off her black, torn mask off. As if we were now looking at her true self, her inner self.

 I turned to look at Kathy who remained silent the whole time. I could almost feel the anger radiating through her.

"We're still your friend Katy…" Yugi sympathised, putting his hand on my shoulder which was comforting, but I couldn't help but feel numb. You know that feeling when you feel as if someone's wretched your whole nervous system out but you just don't care; if anything, it was more pity than anger.

I whispered shakily as the words trembled out of my dry mouth.

"Sanura y-you pr-promised to n-n-never wear that m-mask again….YOU PROMISED!!" Warm tears began to prick my eyes as her face was stricken with guilt.

"I was trying to protect you…." The ancient eyes looked as though it has seen too much destruction through the course of a thousand life times.

"FROM WHAT? YOU MURDERING US??" I spat, seething with frustration. How the hell was she protecting us?? What right did she have to take those innocent lives!?

Kurai held me back and told me to cut Kathy some slack. I've known Kathy since I was 13 and she never told me anything about herself…apart from that her name was Sanura, aged 22 years old and she was the royal beautician. But that was it.

"Katy, if I didn't murder people my brother would of sealed me away and took all the ones I've ever cared about away from me." She turned me, still no sign of breaking down her impenetrable barriers.

"Don't you get it? Drakhan is my aristocratic brother from southern Egypt….I was sold off when I was 3 yrs old to a young couple when our parents died of an unknown disease. All I had to remember them by was my armlet. They did it because they knew what my brother was like. I never knew much about him till I met him again 5 years ago"

Joey piped up. "You mean that creepazoid with the four horns for a hairstyle is YOUR brother??? Man are all your folks have the crazy genes?"

Bakura growled viciously. He was that foul tempered that you could just about see his biceps taking form! It took the 3 of us to get Bakura off of Joey. He's been more edgy over Kathy than normal. I wonder why though….he told me the other day that he didn't feel anything for her but after tonight, it appears to be nothing more than a lie.

"Guys, GUYS! We need to keep it together!" Renoun barked, making us jump. She's right; we shouldn't be fighting each other. I began to try & cheer me and the others up by cracking a few one liners and doing impressions of some of the people back home, Kurai & DMG starting singing some pirate song ..I think it was the one with jolly Rogers in it and soon we were all joining in until we got just outside the millennium dome. A huge sign had read 'Come one! Come all! See the biggest show on earth LIVE!"

I had to admit it, but I was afraid of clowns ever since I watched Steven King's 'IT' I've been frit to death of them. I decided to go home and see the others later since they were really keen on going to watch. All monkey jokes were at Tristan's expense.

The bitter wind whipped through my hair as I slowly made my way back to my uncle's mansion. Just typical of British weather, it started to lightly rain which was the hazardous sort since fine rain could make you catch flu or even worse – Pneumonia.

I walked past the children's park and began to remember bits of my early childhood.  My mother, pushing me on the swings, seeing that little boy with white hair play in the sand box, Dad giving me my first daisy chain necklace (then finding out that I was allergic to flowers).

'Mummy why is he alone?' A little girl aged 3 with pigtails was looking up at her mother's shadow figure with curiosity.

'Because people afraid…'

'Afraid of what mummy?'

'Sometimes, it's best to leave what is hidden, hidden…the boy will have burden as he ages…he's meant to be alone'

'But I want to be his friend…'

'My dearest angel, you can never be a 'friend' to a man of snow…'

"Mother…what were you hiding from me that day….what could you see that I couldn't?" I looked up at the mundane grey clouds as they grew darker & darker still.

"Katy, you ok? You seemed to be in a world of your own…."

I spun around in fright, only to be faced to face with Ryou. Am I hungry again? Or is it that nagging feeling that keeps screaming at me to stop fighting and give in to him, as if I was supposed to. Well not with an explanation I won't! After all, he DID go out with Miho after leading me on with that 'there's girl I like' scenario!

"I-I'm fine Ryou, I thought you were at the Circus with the others?" Dammit I'm stuttering again! Quickly I motioned him to sit down next to me on the swing.

If he was a porcelain doll for real he'd be a limited edition.

Ryou kept looking at me with heartbreaking eyes, occasionally he'd try to swipe the mud off of his jeans though it was no use – well it's raining isn't it?

"Katy, I can't keep it to myself any longer, ever since seeing you again I-"

"Whoa, WHOA back up there buddy! Seeing me…again?" Talk about appearing on Trisha.

"I f-f-first saw y-y-you when I was 3…. You were talking to some lady. I know it's silly to remember a trivial thing like that but you looked like an angel from where I'm standing."

I laughed "If you saw what I was like growing up you'd think twice before giving me that label. Trust, no one on this earth is an angel" Justifying myself coarsely.

Could he be what my mother was talking about when she said that no one could be just a friend to a man of snow? Or was she making that up? Oh this is stupid, god rest her soul but she was a superstitious woman who only wanted –

'All I know / is everything is not as it's sold

But the more I grow the less I know

And I have lived so many lives/ though I'm not old

And the more I see, the less I grow/ the fewer the seeds the more I sow'

I turned to look at this 'porcelain doll' that was still looking at me with a mixture of confusion and uncertainty.

Have you ever had a nagging feeling inside you that tells you to stop looking for an excuse to fly away into the ice cool sky? I think that's the feeling I've got now, either that or I've drank too much Pepsi Max.

I started to swing back & forth, not caring whether I was soaked to bone or my hair was frizzing out of control that bad it would soon be able to conduct electricity!

"Well, we're only human after all right? We're not all perfect in everyway like a god or Mary-Poppings" I carried on, like a steamboat on dry land.

"Can you please hear me out Kate?  I don't care if you grew a dozen heads and named yourself Barney! You-mean-a lot to me!" Ryou pleaded, grabbing my hand. Only to be slapped out of the way by my own.

'Then I see you standing there/ wanting more from me

And all I can do is try/ Then I see you standing there
wanting more from me/ and all I can do is try

Try'

Anger was brewing upside of me. *growls* How can you just sweep that feeling under the rug after the lies, hurt and mental/emotional torture that you get put under?! I can't just say 'aw well, I forgive you although my jagged heart was smashed into a million pieces!' It doesn't work….it like burning your hand with boiling water and it leaves a disgusting scar, reminding you of that day.

'I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness

And all the real people are really not real at all

The more I learn/the more I learn

The more I cry/ the more I cry

As I say goodbye to the way of life

I thought I had designed for me'

I sprang up from the seat as if it was on fire. All of the sudden, I just exploded into a fit of fury.

 "You mean the world to me too but you just don't get it do you Ryou!? Miho's that mature, kind and twice more mature than I could ever be! I been trying to live up to your expectations but it appears to be not good enough for you! Well this is MY REVOLUTION!"

'Then I see you standing there/ wanting more from me

And all I can do is trying/ then I see you standing there

I'm all I'll ever be/But all I can do is try

Try'

I clamped my hands over my surprised mouth. That wasn't supposed to all come out oh dear god that wasn't supposed to come out like that. What I wanted to say was that….was that….I don't know what I wanted to say….I've forgotten.

Ryou's face seemed to say it all but he kept coming towards me until he had me backed into where the multi-coloured climbing frames were just in front of the duck pond.

What's he gonna do? Tell me what a stupid, hyperventilating little girl I was?

No.

He hugged me instead, nearly suffocating me with that jumper of his. You'd think that after what I've said to him MUST have at least scared him, but he was calm.

"I'm sorry you're hurting Kate, I-I didn't mean for that to happen, if anything, I was trying to ask you out…"

"Can't……….breathe……too……much…..wool!" I said, gasping for air.

He quickly let go of me from his vice-like grip and repeatedly apologising. It's hammering down with rain and he's saying sorry? There's no time for it! We've gotta get going or suffer the wrath of the cook's chicken soup if we catch the flu!

"You mean it don't you? About how it was supposed to be me…" My eyes sheepishly looked up at him. I did after all make a prat of myself no?

He nodded and smiled warmly at me again as we finally made our way back home in the downpour of London. Hoo boy….fuzzy feeling returning to the stomach…*achoo* no that was just me sneezing.

I didn't notice but the whole time I was in the park, I could have sworn I saw Mokuba with that girl that was a stowaway in Jasmine's luggage. I must speak to her to see if she knows her…

"Hurry up Kate! We're *sneezes* nearly there!" He took hold of my hand and we dashed towards home, me blushing like a beetroot *starry-eyed*

Heh, some revolution I had.

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A/N: YAY! For pages this time! *hugs herself* I'm so proud. Now, I just need to do the next chappy. Then after that we're back in domino! Just in time for school….

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