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He sleeps innocently as a child. A few of his black bangs rest on his face. I love to watch him sleep.
Creatures of the Underworld never sleep.
My body is tired. I ache everywhere. I feel my lungs slowly disappearing......I feel myself disappearing. My skin is ghastly white and blood often stains my life. Dark circles incessantly creep around my almost always blood shot eyes. I don't remember the last thing I ate. I choke whatever liquid I can manage to swallow with a shot of absinthe for courage. But even the green fairy cannot take away my pain.
I don't know what's worse, the physical pain or my heart breaking in two. The Duke always demanding for the Sparkling Diamond, sucking all of the energy I have left in my weary body. Then there is my beloved Christian. He loves me. Men have loved my body but he is the first to love me not the Diamond. I wish I could give more to him but I fear the sparkle has lost its shine. Soon the curtain will fall......the show must go on. Christian is the light around my lost soul, if I still have one. He should never have come here.
Creatures of the Underworld never fall in love.
So many times I wanted to runaway, to start over from scratch. But my wings were clipped long ago. I am held to my trapeze with diamond chains. I only noticed them when Christian came into my life. So young and new, I was overwhelmed but later fell into his arms. He did not touch me with lust or anger. He didn't push for a quickie on the top of a fake elephant. Christian held me. He kissed me gently not forcibly. From that moment on I knew what love felt like. I also learned how to cry.
I made the bed that I lie in. I willingly gave up my life to be a man's possession. I was so naïve. Coughing fits come and go, making me shudder with every breath I take. It hurts so much. Sometimes I want to die. I want to end the pain and to be under no man's desires. However, I cannot leave my Christian. I love him more than he'll ever know. But I cannot keep him in this dark corner. I have to let him go. I know he will go on and live while I stay here and die. I may be giving up on my life but I will never stop hoping for my love. I want him to breathe, to run, to do anything he pleases. I want him to do it for me.
I am not a fool. I feel Death breathe down my spine. With each day his grasp on me is tighter and tighter. I know the end is coming for me. I do not fear Death. My life is complete with Christian. I am no longer the heartless courtesan but I have to become the fearless courtesan. I have retreat to my precious shackles and push him away. I learned much from Christian and I hope he learns from me. I have to save him. If I don't our love will be a joke and the Duke will win. I refuse to let him be victorious even if it takes my last breath. I owe it to Christian. I cannot depend on anyone this time. I have to be brave. I have to take my chance.
I must walk alone.
He sleeps innocently as a child. A few of his black bangs rest on his face. I love to watch him sleep.
Creatures of the Underworld never sleep.
My body is tired. I ache everywhere. I feel my lungs slowly disappearing......I feel myself disappearing. My skin is ghastly white and blood often stains my life. Dark circles incessantly creep around my almost always blood shot eyes. I don't remember the last thing I ate. I choke whatever liquid I can manage to swallow with a shot of absinthe for courage. But even the green fairy cannot take away my pain.
I don't know what's worse, the physical pain or my heart breaking in two. The Duke always demanding for the Sparkling Diamond, sucking all of the energy I have left in my weary body. Then there is my beloved Christian. He loves me. Men have loved my body but he is the first to love me not the Diamond. I wish I could give more to him but I fear the sparkle has lost its shine. Soon the curtain will fall......the show must go on. Christian is the light around my lost soul, if I still have one. He should never have come here.
Creatures of the Underworld never fall in love.
So many times I wanted to runaway, to start over from scratch. But my wings were clipped long ago. I am held to my trapeze with diamond chains. I only noticed them when Christian came into my life. So young and new, I was overwhelmed but later fell into his arms. He did not touch me with lust or anger. He didn't push for a quickie on the top of a fake elephant. Christian held me. He kissed me gently not forcibly. From that moment on I knew what love felt like. I also learned how to cry.
I made the bed that I lie in. I willingly gave up my life to be a man's possession. I was so naïve. Coughing fits come and go, making me shudder with every breath I take. It hurts so much. Sometimes I want to die. I want to end the pain and to be under no man's desires. However, I cannot leave my Christian. I love him more than he'll ever know. But I cannot keep him in this dark corner. I have to let him go. I know he will go on and live while I stay here and die. I may be giving up on my life but I will never stop hoping for my love. I want him to breathe, to run, to do anything he pleases. I want him to do it for me.
I am not a fool. I feel Death breathe down my spine. With each day his grasp on me is tighter and tighter. I know the end is coming for me. I do not fear Death. My life is complete with Christian. I am no longer the heartless courtesan but I have to become the fearless courtesan. I have retreat to my precious shackles and push him away. I learned much from Christian and I hope he learns from me. I have to save him. If I don't our love will be a joke and the Duke will win. I refuse to let him be victorious even if it takes my last breath. I owe it to Christian. I cannot depend on anyone this time. I have to be brave. I have to take my chance.
I must walk alone.