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Still Kurama's POV
I'm sorry about the last chapter, but I messed up somehow and put a Shaman king chapter there instead of the right one. Sorry for the mix up and here's this chapter. PLEASE FORGIVE ME!
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I nearly got run over by oncoming traffic in my eagerness to reach Botan. Part of me told me to follow her, the rest of me told me to stay away. My heart told me to go after her. I had sensed that she needed something of me.
I followed Botan's scent to the park and saw something unbelievably strange hidden behind the tree. Something that stung me very deeply.
Botan
And Hiei.
It didn't seem to be possible. Botan and Hiei? I should've seen it coming, but I doubted anyone thought it possible. I backed further away. Hiei was leaning against the tree awkwardly, his eyes closed. Botan was nuzzled against him, her eyes closed as well. One hand was on the back of his head. The other clasped his hand. Why in the world would Botan be crying while she and Hiei were kissing? I didn't stop to consider the possibilities.
Botan turned, sensing my presence. "Oh, Kurama. I wanted to ask you something, but I didn't want to interrupt you and Yukina. I came here and. . .I didn't mean to do this." She looked sadly at Hiei. "I wanted to go back and get you, but I didn't know what to do." She continued to cry. "Can you do something? Please?"
I shook my head. "No. . ." I murmured. It seemed to be all I could say. I went off, not wanting to look back and see Hiei's face. He had seemed so calm despite Botan's tears.
I went home. I went into the bathroom and turned on the water. Tears came to my eyes. It felt childish to cry over something like this. I didn't really believe I deserved her, did I? I felt so alone that I allowed the tears to fall. I had realized something in the moment I found the two together. I was lonely over the three hundred years I had lived. It had never occurred to me until then. I think I suffered a mental breakdown from what I had gone through.
Yes. That was the only explanation for doing this. I lost my mind. It was almost sad to know that something so insignificant to the eyes had done this. Makai wouldn't let me rest in peace if they had known that something so simple brought me to my death.
Botan and Hiei. And Yukina was never going to trust me. I knew I should have argued my point more strongly against Hiei. I knew it was going to come back to haunt me, but all I thought about was Botan.
Stupid me.
I filled the porcelain sink with warm water. I pulled a rose out and flicked my wrist. It turned into my signature rose whip. As anyone knew, it could cut through any substance. Flesh was only tissue paper to it. I don't know what went through my mind as I allowed the thorns to rip across my wrists, bringing blood to fill in the large gashes. I plunged my hands in the water. I had learned that warm water slowed the body from clotting the blood from escaping from cuts.
My blood clouded the water. The rose whip returned to its flower form as it fell from my hand. Soon the water matched the blood red color of the petals. I felt dizzy from the loss of blood.
Darkness. It was beginning to get dark. From my past, it was only ironic for me to end my own life. Youko laughed in my ear. He would be free to find another human body to possess, one that was strong enough to handle his power, but weak enough to be manipulated by his evil.
The last think I heard was Kuwabara's voice. I laughed as I heard it. Why would I hear Kuwabara's voice of all things? It made no sense. I didn't want it to make sense. I didn't care anymore. I fell into the soothing darkness. Falling . . .falling . . .
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Is this the end? Does the story end here or will there be a happy ending. Only reviews will tell! If you want it to end here without figuring out why Botan was crying, then it will be that way. Or will Kurama live?