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Thanks for the reviews! A/N: Still Kurama's POV Okay, incase you read the last chapter and you're confused about everything REREAD IT! I fixed it. Besides, you'll need to read it to know what answers are being answered in this chapter. Come on, I know you wanna know all the answers !=^.^= ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ =^.^=
I remembered feeling weak. And the darkness. The darkness had felt perpetual and unfading. Slowly, my memory came back to me. I shouldn't be able to remember that I had felt weak. Shouldn't I be gone? Shouldn't Botan be here to greet me and carry me to the next life? Either I wasn't dead, or my soul had escaped the human core called Suichi Minamino and found another shell to hide into. Maybe I have been resurrected to be something else other than a human who human girls found physically attractive. Maybe I was a cockroach now.
Doubt that. Highly doubt that, Youko replied, scoffing at how idiotic that thought was. Me? Youko, a cockroach. Don't think so.
Youko was still here. Obviously I hadn't died. A portion of me felt disappointed. It seemed that I was destined to remain living in this hellacious world.
"Shhh, he's asleep now. Be quiet! He needs to get rest to recover the lost blood."
That sounded like Botan's voice. I sensed that she had been crying. I decided that she was still crying over whatever it had been when I found her . . . and Hiei . . .urgh; I didn't want to think about that. Now I remembered perfectly well. She had caused me to temporarily lose my mind and attempt to commit suicide.
Yes. Attempt. That was the right word because it didn't seem to work. Unless my mind was still lost.
You had a mind? Forgive me; I hadn't found it yet, Youko wondered thoughtfully.
I frowned inwardly at the sound of his soft and goading voice. I was beginning to become very annoyed at the sound of his voice in my mind.
"How's Yukina taking all this?" Hiei's voice asked, breaking me out of my annoyed thoughts at Youko. "Is she still crying?"
"I don't know. The last time I saw her was when Kuwabara carried Kurama's body here. She asked some questions and left, crying. I'm afraid she thinks Kurama is dead," Botan's voice answered. I felt a hand on my forehead. "Of course I can't really tell if he is or not. I don't have much experience and he feels so cold." Her voice shook.
Hiei made a sound as if he were disappointed in himself for some reason.
"How's your head feeling?" Botan asked quickly.
"Hn."
"Okay. . .I'll just not ask then." She laughed the melodic laugh of hers that had haunted my dreams.
I felt a nagging in my mind. I only heard Hiei and Botan's voice. Were the two the only one here with me? It didn't sound right to me.
"But still," she continued, stopping abruptly. "I don't know if he is dead or not. Kuwabara told me he didn't sense much Spirit Energy left in him. Maybe my radar's broke."
"Uh, Botan, Yukina's feeling a little better now," Kuwabara's gruff voice announced.
"That's a relief. Could you do me a favor and tell me what you sense about Kurama?"
"Fox boy? Sure."
I sensed Kuwabara walk closer. "He's alive so don't sweat it. He's just feeling pretty wimpy right now, eh Kurama?" He hit my shoulder lightly.
Botan gasped. "He's trying to sleep!"
"Oh, sorry."
I opened my eyes, meeting Kuwabara's. "I wasn't asleep. I was trying to think."
"Good to see you're alive. I hate seeing Yukina crying. It gives me nightmares!" he remarked.
I smiled weakly at him, not knowing how to respond. "Yukina was crying? About me?"
"Yeah! If you were my boyfriend, you know, if I was a girl, and I saw you all pale and limp with blood pouring from your arms, I'd be upset too!"
"I'm not Yukina's boyfriend," I murmured.
"But you make the cutest couple!" Botan replied earnestly. Her sentence made me shiver in shame at myself.
Kuwabara wore the smallest of frowns. "Come on, Kurama. Once a guy and a girl play tonsil hockey, you're practically engaged."
"We didn't . . .go that far," I exclaimed.
"Sure," he grumbled sarcastically.
"Botan, may I speak with you? Please?" I asked. Botan nodded. Kuwabara looked back at me and then at Botan.
"Alone," I corrected politely.
Hiei gave me a calculating look and left, followed by Kuwabara.
"Botan, I saw you and Hiei kissing," I began lamely. "I saw you crying too, but I didn't understand it."
Botan stared at me. "So this is what it was all about. I see." She sighed.
"Here's the story. I do love Hiei, but it wasn't really what you thought."
I looked at her, admiring her beauty, but feeling sad at hearing the fact that she cared for Hiei. "Continue," I replied.
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