AN: I'm sorry it's taken me so long to update. I'm computer died and I had a bit of writers block but now that's over. Here's the next chapter and the other will be up soon. I hope you enjoy. And anything like this is Sara's point of view
" Two weeks after Sara left she found out she was pregnant." Brian said to Monica.
" What? Is it yours?" Monica asked out of shock. She never thought what Sara was hiding was a baby.
" Of course the baby's mine. Sara isn't that kind of girl. We were friends for a year before we started dating and in that time, I never even saw her go out on a date." Brian explained, with a bit of anger, he took offense to Monica's questions.
" So what now? Have you even seen your kid?" Monica asked with an attitude, she knows that Brian has feelings for Sara just by the way he defended her.
" Yeah, I went by Sara's about an hour ago and I saw her for the first time. She is so beautiful, her name is Samantha." Brian explained with a certain glow in his eyes.
" So what are you going to do? You have to go to court and get custody of her, so Sara can't take her away." Monica told Brian.
" Monica listen, I'm not taking Sara to court. We decided that Sam should have both of her parents in her life." Brian explained.
" What are you talking about? After what she did, you still believe her. Brian, think about it. She took your child once, what makes you think she won't again?" Monica asked in a sweet voice as she walked up to Brian and tried to touch his cheek but he pulled away.
" I know Sara better then I know myself. I know her pains, fears, the things she loves and hates. " Brian began saying as he walked towards the other side of the room. " Sara told me she regrets what she did and wants me in Sam's life and I believe her." Brain explained.
" Sara doesn't want you in Sam's life she wants you in hers she's just using your baby to do it!" Monica yelled.
" Samantha is Sara's child to and I will always be in Sara's life and she knows that. We have a baby together, we share best friends and we are friends there's no hard feelings between us." Brian explained.
" You still love her don't you?" Monica flat out asked.
" No." Was all Brian said because it was the opposite from the truth.
" I have to get going, I just wanted to come see you." Monica said as she grabbed her purse from the bed where she was sitting and left his room.
The only thing Monica has done on Brian's bed is sit. They've been dating for almost two and a half months and still haven't slept together. Not because she doesn't want to, every time things start heating up, Brian pulls away
" Wow Sara, You and Brian made such a beautiful little girl." Suki said as she handed Sam back to Sara.
" Thanks." Sara said.
" Well its late, I have to get going. Will you be at the garage tomorrow?" Suki asked.
" Of course. We've been getting together every Sunday since I can remember. That's one of the things I missed the most, every Sunday how we would sit around and eat, drink, and catch up with each other on everything that has happened in the last week. Of course I'm there." Sara explained with a big smile across her face.
" I'm so happy you're back. Why don't you bring Sam so the guys can meet her." Suki suggested as she walked towards the door.
" Yeah, I'll do that. Bye sweetie." Sara told Suki as she left.
Sara went upstairs to put Sam back in her crib in the nursery. Sam has two cribs, one in the nursery and one in Sara's room.
When Sara feels lonely she likes Sam close by.
As Sara walked in to her room, she took off her shoes and sat on the bed. On the bed was a box of pictures, she decided to look through them.
~ Sara's point of view~
I opened the box, it was full of pictures. I decided to look through some of them. The first couple were of me, Tej, Suki , and Jimmy as kids, those were good times. Everything use to be so easy then, sometimes I wish it was still like that.
The next one was the first picture taken of all of us, Jimmy, Suki, Rome, Tej, Brian and me. That day I was so happy, we became a family. Brian was in town for maybe three weeks and we were already best friends. We didn't start dating for maybe another year but from the first time I laid eyes on him I knew I would love him forever
I looked threw a couple of more boxes then I heard a knock on the door.
I stood from the bed and went to open the door.
" I have to talk to you." Monica said as she stormed in to the living room.
" Yeah sure come in." I said sarcastically.
" Brian told me the truth, that you had his kid." Monica said as she took a look around.
" So?" I asked hoping she would get to this point.
" So?! You hurt him and you haven't stopped hurting him since you came back. He thinks your this perfect angel but I know the truth. You should have stayed gone." Monica yelled with pure anger in her voice.
" Okay first of all, lower your voice, I have a baby sleeping up stairs. And What the fuck? Where do you get off coming to my home and disrespecting me. If you don't like Brian's decisions take it up with him." I said in a calm voice, if I had gotten any more pissed, I would have hit her.
" I tried but all he could say was how much he trusts you." Monica said then turned her back and mumbled " It should have worked, how the hell was I suppose to know she was pregnant." Monica said to herself as she placed her hands on her hips.
" What should have worked?" I asked Monica after I heard what she said but it was clear I wasn't suppose to hear it by the way she turned around and looked shocked.
" Um nothing." Monica said, acting like she didn't know what Sara meant.
" Tell me." I said as I grabbed her by her arm and looked her in the eye.
" Fine, you don't have to hurt me. Your not going to like this." Monica said as Sara let her go.
" Just tell me." I said.
" After Brian went on the run, the cops went looking for him non-stop. We came across a case that we really needed his skills on, if he was to do the case, his file would be cleared. When the cops found him, he said he didn't want to do the case. He said he didn't want to be a cop any more or risk his life because he was finally happy. If his case was taken to trail, he would have won because there's no evidence and it was his word against there's. If he went to trail, we would have been left in the dust and we really needed him. So I came up with a plan, if he was to lose the thing that made him happy, he wouldn't care either way about the case and he would work with us. I sent you his file and the letter telling you about his past." Monica admitted.
" Your the one that sent me that letter? You fucking bitch. Do you know what its like to have your world come crashing down because someone decided you shouldn't be happy?" I asked, I was trying to hold back this anger I felt. Any minute I was going to loose it and I can't because I have Sam in the house.
" Hey, I did you a favor. Brian was the one that was lying to you." Monica said in her defense.
" And this plan you had worked great for you because now you and Brian are together." I said as I felt my blood boiling.
" I have to get going." Monica said as she walked towards the door and left, she could see the anger in Sara's eyes.
" Oh what a bitch." I said as I walked back to my room.
I walked too my stereo and put on my favorite song. Here without you by 3 doors down. When I first heard this song, it brought me to tears because it's what I feel every night when I close my eyes and see Brian.
~ A hundred days have made me older.
Since the last time I saw your pretty face.
A thousand lies have made me colder.
And I don't think I can look at this the same.
All the miles that separate.
Disappear now I'm dreaming of your pretty face.~
I laid back in my bed and just listened to the words. I wish I could have the guts to tell Brian, I love you. I don't care about him being a cop any more. I just want to spend the rest of my life with him and now I'm here without him.
~ I'm here without you baby.
But your still on my mind.
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby.
But your still with me in my dreams and tonight it's only you and me.~
I picked up an old photo album that I made. It's filled with memories of me and Brian. All of the pictures were about us. As I looked at each picture, my eyes watered. I couldn't hold it any longer, I started to cry.
~ The miles just keep rollin.
As the people leave their way to say hello.
I've heard this life is over rated.
But I hope it gets better as we go.
I'm here without you baby.
But your still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby.
But your still with me in my dreams.~
Before I met Brian, I lived my life one day at a time, struggling to survive this hole in my heart. Brian fills that hole. I felt my heart break when I read that letter, all I felt was anger. The only thing I wanted was to forget him but I couldn't and not just because of Sam, but because of the happiness he gave me and also the pain. The truth is I could never forget Brian because he's my soul mate.
~ Everything I know, and everywhere I go.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.
And when the last one falls.
When it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.
I'm here without you baby.
But your still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby.
But your still with me in my dreams.
And tonight, it's only you and me.~
*** Please review! I should have the next chapter up soon, I'm almost done writing it. The case Sara and Monica were talking about wasn't the Carter Verone case, that's still to come. The case they were talking about will be relived next chapter with other surprises. Please review.****
Thanks,
Isabelle