Always And Forever
By: Midnight Maiden
(Disclaimer: Tamora Pierce owns all characters. Song: "It's All Coming Back To Me" By: Celine Dion.)
As much as she didn't want to Daine had to return to Corus. Nearly all of the horses in the capital had been infected with a life-threatening virus called West Nile. She had been tracked down and summoned to come heal it. In fairness to her hooved friends she could not refuse. But she had wanted to. Numair would be waiting for her; or he would be angry.
But she'd had to leave him. It was her only choice. It wasn't fair what she had been doing to him. She'd had to relieve him of raising a little girl. Sure, he said he would never see her that way, but he would. Knowing Numair he would never say a thing about it and make himself stay with her. How could she possibly do that to him?
Nights had been so cold and the days so long. She'd forced herself to forget. It was the only way she could keep herself from crying herself to sleep. She made herself erase all the memories she had with him. It had taken nearly the whole year she had been away, but she had manages to push everything to the back of her mind. Now she had to go back, and she caught herself remembering.
***There were nights
When the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside my window***
***There were days
When the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I knew that my eyes
Were drying up forever***
Daine walked into the throne room with her head held as high as she could manage. She almost choked when she saw Numair standing next to Thayet. He was staring at her. There was something in his eyes she could never believe would ever be there; sorrow. She did her best to ignore him and looked at Jonathan.
"I'm glad you're back," he started. ~Temporarily,~ she thought. "Onua is waiting for you in the stables."
After they had hugged and said hello Onua put her to work. She found the virus in these ponies was fairly easy to fight so she could do more before she wore out. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad after all. She could finish and leave.
After hours, when she had just finished a dun gelding Onua tapped on her shoulder. "Daine, it's late. You should get some rest." She handed her a key. "You'll be rooming next to Alanna."
When Daine walked into her she saw the red headed knight already sitting on her bed. Alanna tapped the spot next to her indicating for Daine to sit. She did.
"Daine, tell me what happened."
She buried her face in her knees. She would never escape the past if people made her remember it. "I don't want to talk about it."
Daine remembered that day. She'd cried so hard before she'd left, knowing she'd lied to her love and was now going to leave him. She ran off on Cloud and didn't spill another tear on his behalf. She wasn't sure when she'd decided it just was somehow. Like the first step to forgetting.
***I finished crying
In the instant that I left
And I can't remember
Where or when or how
And I banished every memory
You and I had ever made***
"I need air." Daine stalked away, leaving Alanna's question unanswered. She decided seeing Cloud might make her feel better. When she got there Numair was standing against the fence. Damn him! He'd been waiting for her!
She stopped in her tracks. "Daine, come here," he ordered. Just like Numair, to be so demanding that you had to listen, but still gentle and soft.
She wanted to refuse; to turn and run away, but she couldn't. She'd never been able to. She walked up to him, eyes glued firmly to the ground. Then two arms wrapped around her, pulling her against a warm chest.
Memories flashed through her head. She'd never wanted to leave this. She hugged him fiercely, clinging to him with all her strength. Tears rolled down her cheeks as she pressed her face into his chest.
***But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
It's all coming back
It's all coming back to me now***
A memory of midsummer filled her mind. He'd never looked so handsome. He led her on the dance floor and twirled hr around, holding her close to him. No body was around then anymore. Just the two of them, dancing on the clouds. Then it had stopped. He took her hand and led her outside. He'd kissed her warmly held her tight.
Then news came of a band of killer centaurs. Both of them had run off in their formal attire and joined the battle. The ballroom dress was an awful nuisance in trying to shape-change. She'd nearly gotten herself killed until she became a mouse just to get herself out of that wretched gown.
She found herself smiling. Both of them had ruined their clothes and gotten a few new scars, but they'd won out in the end.
***There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights in just your comfort
A love that shouldn't be allowed***
He pulled her chin up and made her look at him. That look was still in his eyes, but now it was mixed with a kind of happiness. "Daine," he whispered, "I love you." Then he kissed her. She deepened his passion, remembering what she used to have. Inside she screamed, NO! She wanted to fall to her knees and cover her ears, to drown him out. But she couldn't do it. "Stay with me," he whispered.
***If you kiss me like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
But it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now.
But it's all coming back***
She knew Numair had thought he meant what he said, but he couldn't. There was no way he could truly love her. He'd promised her forever and she knew he would stand true to those promises, but he would be living in misery, wanting something else. Besides, she wasn't capable of loving him. She wasn't capable of loving anyone. She couldn't even tell him that she wanted to marry him. But here he was, kissing her like she'd never left. She had to leave.
***There were those
Empty words and hollow lies
And whenever you tired to love me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper***
***There were hours
That just went on for days
When alone at last
We'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever***
"I can't." Tears flew down her cheeks as she tried to turn him away. She had before; she could do it again.
"Why?" he asked. He had no anger or frustration in his voice, just gentleness and caring.
"I...I would only hurt you, trap you somewhere you don't want to be." She wanted him to kiss her and hug her, and then she didn't.
"You couldn't. I know you think you could, but you couldn't."
He kissed her again, pulling her up against her as if he was trying to convince her. She tangled her hands in his hair, knowing this was where she belonged. She just hoped Numair knew what he was getting himself into. She hoped he would tell her if he wanted something different. He pulled away but she brought him back, never wanted him to go.
***But you were history
With a ride in the wind
And I made myself
So strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time
On you since then***
***But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
It's all coming back
It's all coming back to me now***
Then something she had never wanted to see again came back to her. She was caught in deadly web, nearly all of her strength gone. Spidrens were all around her, ready to kill her and eat her. But then one blew up, just disappeared. Numair fought off two of then and her darking killed the final. When he'd found her he'd kissed her for the first time. He'd told her he loved her for the first time. She'd known then she would always be with him. He'd taken care of her and then asked her to marry him.
"What's wrong love?" He asked, concerned.
She smiled up at him. "I was thinking of the Realm of the Gods."
"Oh, that." Numair kissed her again, trying to secure that memory as the right thing.
***There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights in just your comfort
A love that shouldn't be allowed
Baby, Baby, Baby***
She snuggled her head under his neck, breathing deep. He seemed content to hold her. He didn't seem to need an explanation to her departure. She was glad. She didn't want to explain it she just wanted to stay like this.
"Then you're okay with me being so young?" She didn't even look at him, just snuggled closer.
"Forever. And you don't mind me being an old man?"
She pushed her nose to his. "Old men don't kiss like that, Numair."
***When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And When I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now***
***If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we just see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now***
Daine couldn't leave now. Not that she really had any thing to go back for. Everything was fine with Numair now, but soon all the questions would come. She would have to apologize for leaving without telling anyone. She looked up at Numair and smiled. It would be worth it.
***It's all coming back to me now
And when you kiss me like this
It's all coming back to me now
And when I touch you like that
It's all coming back to me now
If you do it like this
It's all coming back to me now
And if we...***
Yeah! I finished. Please leave me a review letting me know what you think. Gosh this song was sooooo long. Oh well it was worth it. I think there will be another chapter but I might just leave it here. I might be inspired if I get 15 reviews. *HINT*HINT* Food for thought anyway. Thanx ^_^Midnight Maiden^_^
By: Midnight Maiden
(Disclaimer: Tamora Pierce owns all characters. Song: "It's All Coming Back To Me" By: Celine Dion.)
As much as she didn't want to Daine had to return to Corus. Nearly all of the horses in the capital had been infected with a life-threatening virus called West Nile. She had been tracked down and summoned to come heal it. In fairness to her hooved friends she could not refuse. But she had wanted to. Numair would be waiting for her; or he would be angry.
But she'd had to leave him. It was her only choice. It wasn't fair what she had been doing to him. She'd had to relieve him of raising a little girl. Sure, he said he would never see her that way, but he would. Knowing Numair he would never say a thing about it and make himself stay with her. How could she possibly do that to him?
Nights had been so cold and the days so long. She'd forced herself to forget. It was the only way she could keep herself from crying herself to sleep. She made herself erase all the memories she had with him. It had taken nearly the whole year she had been away, but she had manages to push everything to the back of her mind. Now she had to go back, and she caught herself remembering.
***There were nights
When the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside my window***
***There were days
When the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I knew that my eyes
Were drying up forever***
Daine walked into the throne room with her head held as high as she could manage. She almost choked when she saw Numair standing next to Thayet. He was staring at her. There was something in his eyes she could never believe would ever be there; sorrow. She did her best to ignore him and looked at Jonathan.
"I'm glad you're back," he started. ~Temporarily,~ she thought. "Onua is waiting for you in the stables."
After they had hugged and said hello Onua put her to work. She found the virus in these ponies was fairly easy to fight so she could do more before she wore out. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad after all. She could finish and leave.
After hours, when she had just finished a dun gelding Onua tapped on her shoulder. "Daine, it's late. You should get some rest." She handed her a key. "You'll be rooming next to Alanna."
When Daine walked into her she saw the red headed knight already sitting on her bed. Alanna tapped the spot next to her indicating for Daine to sit. She did.
"Daine, tell me what happened."
She buried her face in her knees. She would never escape the past if people made her remember it. "I don't want to talk about it."
Daine remembered that day. She'd cried so hard before she'd left, knowing she'd lied to her love and was now going to leave him. She ran off on Cloud and didn't spill another tear on his behalf. She wasn't sure when she'd decided it just was somehow. Like the first step to forgetting.
***I finished crying
In the instant that I left
And I can't remember
Where or when or how
And I banished every memory
You and I had ever made***
"I need air." Daine stalked away, leaving Alanna's question unanswered. She decided seeing Cloud might make her feel better. When she got there Numair was standing against the fence. Damn him! He'd been waiting for her!
She stopped in her tracks. "Daine, come here," he ordered. Just like Numair, to be so demanding that you had to listen, but still gentle and soft.
She wanted to refuse; to turn and run away, but she couldn't. She'd never been able to. She walked up to him, eyes glued firmly to the ground. Then two arms wrapped around her, pulling her against a warm chest.
Memories flashed through her head. She'd never wanted to leave this. She hugged him fiercely, clinging to him with all her strength. Tears rolled down her cheeks as she pressed her face into his chest.
***But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
It's all coming back
It's all coming back to me now***
A memory of midsummer filled her mind. He'd never looked so handsome. He led her on the dance floor and twirled hr around, holding her close to him. No body was around then anymore. Just the two of them, dancing on the clouds. Then it had stopped. He took her hand and led her outside. He'd kissed her warmly held her tight.
Then news came of a band of killer centaurs. Both of them had run off in their formal attire and joined the battle. The ballroom dress was an awful nuisance in trying to shape-change. She'd nearly gotten herself killed until she became a mouse just to get herself out of that wretched gown.
She found herself smiling. Both of them had ruined their clothes and gotten a few new scars, but they'd won out in the end.
***There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights in just your comfort
A love that shouldn't be allowed***
He pulled her chin up and made her look at him. That look was still in his eyes, but now it was mixed with a kind of happiness. "Daine," he whispered, "I love you." Then he kissed her. She deepened his passion, remembering what she used to have. Inside she screamed, NO! She wanted to fall to her knees and cover her ears, to drown him out. But she couldn't do it. "Stay with me," he whispered.
***If you kiss me like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
But it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now.
But it's all coming back***
She knew Numair had thought he meant what he said, but he couldn't. There was no way he could truly love her. He'd promised her forever and she knew he would stand true to those promises, but he would be living in misery, wanting something else. Besides, she wasn't capable of loving him. She wasn't capable of loving anyone. She couldn't even tell him that she wanted to marry him. But here he was, kissing her like she'd never left. She had to leave.
***There were those
Empty words and hollow lies
And whenever you tired to love me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper***
***There were hours
That just went on for days
When alone at last
We'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever***
"I can't." Tears flew down her cheeks as she tried to turn him away. She had before; she could do it again.
"Why?" he asked. He had no anger or frustration in his voice, just gentleness and caring.
"I...I would only hurt you, trap you somewhere you don't want to be." She wanted him to kiss her and hug her, and then she didn't.
"You couldn't. I know you think you could, but you couldn't."
He kissed her again, pulling her up against her as if he was trying to convince her. She tangled her hands in his hair, knowing this was where she belonged. She just hoped Numair knew what he was getting himself into. She hoped he would tell her if he wanted something different. He pulled away but she brought him back, never wanted him to go.
***But you were history
With a ride in the wind
And I made myself
So strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time
On you since then***
***But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
It's all coming back
It's all coming back to me now***
Then something she had never wanted to see again came back to her. She was caught in deadly web, nearly all of her strength gone. Spidrens were all around her, ready to kill her and eat her. But then one blew up, just disappeared. Numair fought off two of then and her darking killed the final. When he'd found her he'd kissed her for the first time. He'd told her he loved her for the first time. She'd known then she would always be with him. He'd taken care of her and then asked her to marry him.
"What's wrong love?" He asked, concerned.
She smiled up at him. "I was thinking of the Realm of the Gods."
"Oh, that." Numair kissed her again, trying to secure that memory as the right thing.
***There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights in just your comfort
A love that shouldn't be allowed
Baby, Baby, Baby***
She snuggled her head under his neck, breathing deep. He seemed content to hold her. He didn't seem to need an explanation to her departure. She was glad. She didn't want to explain it she just wanted to stay like this.
"Then you're okay with me being so young?" She didn't even look at him, just snuggled closer.
"Forever. And you don't mind me being an old man?"
She pushed her nose to his. "Old men don't kiss like that, Numair."
***When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And When I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now***
***If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we just see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now***
Daine couldn't leave now. Not that she really had any thing to go back for. Everything was fine with Numair now, but soon all the questions would come. She would have to apologize for leaving without telling anyone. She looked up at Numair and smiled. It would be worth it.
***It's all coming back to me now
And when you kiss me like this
It's all coming back to me now
And when I touch you like that
It's all coming back to me now
If you do it like this
It's all coming back to me now
And if we...***
Yeah! I finished. Please leave me a review letting me know what you think. Gosh this song was sooooo long. Oh well it was worth it. I think there will be another chapter but I might just leave it here. I might be inspired if I get 15 reviews. *HINT*HINT* Food for thought anyway. Thanx ^_^Midnight Maiden^_^