Dead Love
Woa. Reviews. Yahoo ^_^. Thank you all so much, sorry for the slow updates. It's just I need my muse, and my muse is usually the small things that Seth does to Anna or stuff like that, and lately its been Seth x Summer all the way (they had sex if you didn't know. T_T) I'm ruined… o.k so I'm not. But I'm coming there.
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The red light turned green, and everything started again. The car, the tears, the emotions. Hell, if she anyone knew of the emotional break down a person could have over a red light we all know those damn things would be taken down. They should make them purple lights anyways… but anywhoo, Anna was staring at a blurred road. The tears fell like rain, slowly at first and then faster. She wiped them away as best as she could as she pulled into the parking lot of a café that her and Seth used to go to. Used to, they didn't any more. No, she didn't do anything that she used to anymore. Now everything revolved around work, sleep, and more work. Why was she back again? Oh yeah, she had no choice. She so far only had one good thing happen during this whole trip and it was the guy on the airplane. Yeah, so one good thing, but that wouldn't make up for all the pain she was feeling inside. No, it wasn't really pain, it was emptiness. Incompleteness, a void within her eating away at all those good emotions, making her feel alone even when she's surrounded by friends. She was always alone when she wasn't with him, there was no doubt about it. But, Summer had him, and Anna had always tried to hook them up, and it was just useless. He wanted a pretty, beautiful, popular and well sought after girl, not some cutesy blonde whose wild. He wanted the homely type. The Summer type.
She got out of her car, finally, and walked inside. Somethings had changed, like everything else, but you can always see the old stuff, the stuff that carried the memories. The booth they'd used to sit in, the menus they used to open with new foods listed on it, the bathrooms Summer… No, no thoughts about Summer. She felt a hand tap her on the shoulder, and she turned around to face a beautiful blonde girl The girl pushed back the hair out of her face, and smiled up at Anna.
"Hey, don't I know you?" The girl asked, turning her head to the side and giving a loppy grin. Anna smiled, noticed who the girl was finally.
"Marissa?" Anna asked, smiling down at the familiar girl. Marissa studied Anna for a bit more before she nearly yelped out a long "Anna!" and hugged the girl like crazy.
"Wow!" Marissa began, "It's been so long! How are you? Why'd you leave? Is there a reason you came back? I'm so happy that you're back! You married yet? Got any kids? Probably not, though. Where do you work now?"
Marissa continued to ask questions all in one huff, before they finally decided to sit down and talk about this over coffee. Marissa and Ryan had gotten married, and were trying to get pregnant. Anna was sad that she missed the wedding, but that's what happens when you just disappear. She listened to how beautiful the wedding was and how beautiful everything was. Sure, they had crisis's, money problems financial problems, relationship problems. But if anyone was to look in Marissa's eyes at that moment you would have no doubt that she loved Ryan. Anna smiled, and nodded, and kept up with the story. But her mind still wandered to what Seth was doing, and how much did she pine to just ask. But, she had to work it into the conversation which would be no walk in the park considering right now they were talking about their jobs.
"So, Anna, what is your job?" Marissa asked quietly while she took a sip of her coffee. Anna smiled, she was proud of what she did.
"I produce the comic 'Dead Love' with my friend." She said in a happy-go-merry voice. Marissa laughed, and smiled.
"That's so ironic! Mostly because Seth-" Anna flinched, "really likes that comic!"
Anna was thankful that Marissa hadn't seen the flinch, she hadn't even known she was going to do it. Of course, not many people know when they are or aren't, but that was besides the point. Anna smiled, now was a better time then ever to ask.
"Oh? So, um, how is Seth and Summer?" Anna asked idly as she took another sip. She noticed the look of pity Marissa gave Anna, she knew how much Anna had pined for Seth. Marissa sighed, and played with her hair a bit.
"Oh, well their wedding was-" Everything was droned out. They had a wedding, they're married. They love each other and are soul mates till death do them part, and Anna couldn't wait that long. She suddenly wanted out, like she couldn't breathe. She couldn't she wasn't breathing! Was she going crazy? She didn't know. She looked around quickly as though there was something around her, haunting her. She wanted to scream but instead she collected herself and calmly stopped Marissa to tell her that she wanted to step out a bit. She also added it was nice seeing Marissa again, and then departed to her car where she drove off with the windows opened. There are things in this world we tell ourselves are true, mostly because we believe they weren't. Which was exactly Annas position. She didn't think they'd actually get married, they were high school sweet hearts. High School! Thus meaning it should have ended then or at least around then. It wasn't fair, Summer had everything now. Everything Anna could possibly want and or need. Anna had nothing anymore. She stopped at the beach which was slowing up in crowds as the time was nearing about nine p.m.
She sat down on a rock and just stared out at the glistening water. Fate is hell, that's all it is. It allows you the simple pleasure of meeting someone you think you're destined to marry or be with forever and they fall in love with some other girl. Some other girl who could have anyone, and would be just as content with them. But Anna refused to be rude to Summer, or try to break them up. No, that wouldn't be right. She sighed as she took a rock and just flung it out in the middle of some portion of the water. She knew what this meant, in order for everyone to be happy she would have to be sad. There was no doubting it, if she broke up Seth and Summer, both of them would be sad, Marissa would be sad for Summer and Ryan would be sad for Seth, and Seths parents would be sad with him and Summers with hers, and so on. But, the way things were, it would just be her sad and hurt. Sure, it hurt like hell and she was empty inside, but hey, that for the happiness of Seth? She could deal it.
She got up slowly, thirst quenching her, and left the beach. She headed to a old tavern and sat down at one of the stools at a counter. She hit her hand on the counter, ordered an alcohol and drank it. Ordered again, and drank that one too. She did this for quite some time until everything was blurry, and everything was funny. She got up shakily, paid the man a little to much, and got into her car. She fumbled around, found the seat belt and after ten minutes of screaming, kicking, and shaking the car she had it buckled in. She pulled out of the driving lot. She was on her street to her moms house, so close to pulling in when she decided to swerve suddenly. Ok, so she hadn't had perfect driving all the way there and was swerving more often then driving straight, but for a few minutes she was driving straight. And when she swerved,
She hit a car and blacked out.
-Sorry for the slow update its just well yeah….