The usual disclaimers apply.
Hurt Before
*Blind*
In the next few days Darien avoided any talk with Serena, not that they ever talked as it normally it was just an exchange of critical remarks (on Darien's side) and half good combats (on Serena's side). But, for once, Darien just walked past her as if she was just a regular employee. His ignoring her lead her to realize just how much she liked to be teased by him (AN: masochism at it's best, huh?). Not that she liked what he said, but she liked the special attention he gave her. So the silence between them did not make her sigh with relief but with disappointment, although she made herself believe that it was relief that she was feeling.
At lunch Michelle came around to Serena's desk. Serena fidgeted, and could not bring herself to look at Michelle.
"I have a problem, Serena, and we need to talk," she started. Serena's heart started to race, anxiously. Did Michelle notice anything about her, did she figure out that her feelings for Darien? "I've ordered Chinese, would you mind eating with me?"
"Uh.not at all," Serena muttered, not really grasping the meaning of what Michelle had said, it was just an automatic answer. Awkwardly she followed Michelle to her office. They sat down and Michelle offered her some of her food.
"You won't tell anyone about the things you discuss with your patients, will you?" Michelle started, looking serious.
"No, I'm not allowed to do that. I would never, even if I could, I'd be like having no honor," Serena answered somewhat surprised by such an odd question. She tasted her food to ease some of the tense vibe between them.
"Well then," Michelle said somewhat cheerful, then lowed her voice to merely above a whisper, "About that incident in Darien's office the other day; it wasn't what you think it was."
Oh no! Serena guessed it right. She didn't immediately answer, instead the collected herself and put on the role of a stiff counselor. This was too personal for her, she couldn't just talk about it as she talked about many other's concerns in the friendly comforting buddy sort of way.
"What do you think I think?" she asked choosing her words carefully, so as to not seem affected, but still not losing her gentle tone.
"Well, that Darien and I are hitting it off." she muttered. Then she added looking at Serena with a hopeless face, "I've been meaning to talk to you about us for some time now, but after yesterday I don't know what you will think of me. I mean, he's a very attractive man, and it's hard say no, and not get swept away by him sometimes."
"So, what's the problem?" she asked confused.
"Our relationship has hit the rocks," she told her. "I'm seeing someone else- I don't know what to do."
"You love them both?"
"No. It might sound harsh, but I'm not in love with Darien, I have never been. It's just that for the past half year I've been so confused, and I started dating Darien, but I've come to accept it now. You, see, I like women; and I'm in love with Amara. I thought that if I dated Darien I might come back to my senses, he being so sexy and all. But I just could never get Amara out of my head, and now it's unavoidable because I know that my feelings are returned."
Serena softened. It's was a hard deal to try to fit in. But should she say what she thought? Perhaps Michelle might take her wrongly. But no, she had to be professional here, she had to say what she thought, no matter how Michelle reacted.
"You know, Michelle, I think that you should end it with Darien, if you don't love him."
"I know, but it's hard, you know, I've known him since forever. I don't want to hurt him," she explained. "We grew up together, and if we end it like that we'll never be able to look at each other. Getting involved with Darien was the stupidest thing I've ever done!"
"It's hard," Serena spoke, "but you have to realize that you're not only cheating on Darien, but on Amara, too, and not to mention yourself! You should be aware that you're hurting Amara by being together with Darien. I don't think you should wait too long to end it with Darien; it will be more painful for both of you; you'll feel more guilty and he more cheated. I'm not saying you should dump him quickly. not after such- ahem, that incident, but you should start dropping hints that will make him realize that you two have reached a dead end."
"Oh," Michelle breathed them burst out crying.
Serena reached her hand to comfort Michelle. "Talk to Amara, look inside yourself, try feeling how much time you'd want to have until it's completely over, then just let your feelings flow. There's no such thing as a perfect break up, one way or the other he will get hurt, but he'll get over it. There's not point in staying in a relationship built on guilt."
And there the two women sat until lunchtime was over, the one who wanted him comforting the one who had him. Live couldn't be more ironic!
How quick was that? Anyway, I know I was told not to rush, but I just can't help it when the chibi in me takes over me! Well, now I think I should classify myself as COMPLETELY heartless. How could I just do that to Serena? Man I'm evil!
Speaking of sadism and masochism there's this movie called Secretary, my friend says it's very romantic (all my friends a completely insane, so at least on this one I wouldn't judge romantic by the normal standards). and it got very good reviews, and watching the trailer it looks like an interesting movie, but it's Rated for nudity, mental disorders and what not, so it's really rated. And I always feel as if it's wrong to watch really Rated movies. what a dilemma (hey, I watched Calendar Girls. it can't get more weird that that can it? It can? Noooooo!)
Hurt Before
*Blind*
In the next few days Darien avoided any talk with Serena, not that they ever talked as it normally it was just an exchange of critical remarks (on Darien's side) and half good combats (on Serena's side). But, for once, Darien just walked past her as if she was just a regular employee. His ignoring her lead her to realize just how much she liked to be teased by him (AN: masochism at it's best, huh?). Not that she liked what he said, but she liked the special attention he gave her. So the silence between them did not make her sigh with relief but with disappointment, although she made herself believe that it was relief that she was feeling.
At lunch Michelle came around to Serena's desk. Serena fidgeted, and could not bring herself to look at Michelle.
"I have a problem, Serena, and we need to talk," she started. Serena's heart started to race, anxiously. Did Michelle notice anything about her, did she figure out that her feelings for Darien? "I've ordered Chinese, would you mind eating with me?"
"Uh.not at all," Serena muttered, not really grasping the meaning of what Michelle had said, it was just an automatic answer. Awkwardly she followed Michelle to her office. They sat down and Michelle offered her some of her food.
"You won't tell anyone about the things you discuss with your patients, will you?" Michelle started, looking serious.
"No, I'm not allowed to do that. I would never, even if I could, I'd be like having no honor," Serena answered somewhat surprised by such an odd question. She tasted her food to ease some of the tense vibe between them.
"Well then," Michelle said somewhat cheerful, then lowed her voice to merely above a whisper, "About that incident in Darien's office the other day; it wasn't what you think it was."
Oh no! Serena guessed it right. She didn't immediately answer, instead the collected herself and put on the role of a stiff counselor. This was too personal for her, she couldn't just talk about it as she talked about many other's concerns in the friendly comforting buddy sort of way.
"What do you think I think?" she asked choosing her words carefully, so as to not seem affected, but still not losing her gentle tone.
"Well, that Darien and I are hitting it off." she muttered. Then she added looking at Serena with a hopeless face, "I've been meaning to talk to you about us for some time now, but after yesterday I don't know what you will think of me. I mean, he's a very attractive man, and it's hard say no, and not get swept away by him sometimes."
"So, what's the problem?" she asked confused.
"Our relationship has hit the rocks," she told her. "I'm seeing someone else- I don't know what to do."
"You love them both?"
"No. It might sound harsh, but I'm not in love with Darien, I have never been. It's just that for the past half year I've been so confused, and I started dating Darien, but I've come to accept it now. You, see, I like women; and I'm in love with Amara. I thought that if I dated Darien I might come back to my senses, he being so sexy and all. But I just could never get Amara out of my head, and now it's unavoidable because I know that my feelings are returned."
Serena softened. It's was a hard deal to try to fit in. But should she say what she thought? Perhaps Michelle might take her wrongly. But no, she had to be professional here, she had to say what she thought, no matter how Michelle reacted.
"You know, Michelle, I think that you should end it with Darien, if you don't love him."
"I know, but it's hard, you know, I've known him since forever. I don't want to hurt him," she explained. "We grew up together, and if we end it like that we'll never be able to look at each other. Getting involved with Darien was the stupidest thing I've ever done!"
"It's hard," Serena spoke, "but you have to realize that you're not only cheating on Darien, but on Amara, too, and not to mention yourself! You should be aware that you're hurting Amara by being together with Darien. I don't think you should wait too long to end it with Darien; it will be more painful for both of you; you'll feel more guilty and he more cheated. I'm not saying you should dump him quickly. not after such- ahem, that incident, but you should start dropping hints that will make him realize that you two have reached a dead end."
"Oh," Michelle breathed them burst out crying.
Serena reached her hand to comfort Michelle. "Talk to Amara, look inside yourself, try feeling how much time you'd want to have until it's completely over, then just let your feelings flow. There's no such thing as a perfect break up, one way or the other he will get hurt, but he'll get over it. There's not point in staying in a relationship built on guilt."
And there the two women sat until lunchtime was over, the one who wanted him comforting the one who had him. Live couldn't be more ironic!
How quick was that? Anyway, I know I was told not to rush, but I just can't help it when the chibi in me takes over me! Well, now I think I should classify myself as COMPLETELY heartless. How could I just do that to Serena? Man I'm evil!
Speaking of sadism and masochism there's this movie called Secretary, my friend says it's very romantic (all my friends a completely insane, so at least on this one I wouldn't judge romantic by the normal standards). and it got very good reviews, and watching the trailer it looks like an interesting movie, but it's Rated for nudity, mental disorders and what not, so it's really rated. And I always feel as if it's wrong to watch really Rated movies. what a dilemma (hey, I watched Calendar Girls. it can't get more weird that that can it? It can? Noooooo!)