Chapter 5
Shuffling through the debris of the Corinthos/Morgan warehouse, Roy waited for Felicia to arrive. He had called her and asked that she meet him there. Allowing his head to fall forward to his chest, he heaved a sigh. 'Well, DiLucca, are you satisfied with yourself now? When are you ever going to learn man? None of this should have happened.'
"Roy? What's wrong? Did we have to meet here, I mean... why here?"
Taking in the sight before them he took hold of Felicia's hand.
"Would you look at that, Felicia! An innocent woman was caught up in all of this and died. I did this. Because I was too stupid to turn that money over to the cops, this is what it came to. And it's not over yet."
"Roy, you couldn't have known this would happen. We didn't know."
"Not good enough. How long have I been around these kind of people. I know them. I know what they are capable of. I should have known better. Felicia, Kristina Cassadine is dead because of my greed, my need to be more than what I am."
"Roy, don't do this to yourself. Please let's just go. We have to find a way to get away from of all this."
She had such hopeful eyes when she looked at him. Roy felt good when he saw how she looked at him. She was a good woman. She fought for those she cared about. She fought daily to give her girls a better life. Now he couldn't even guarantee her that she'd be alive in a week. Because of him, she was in danger.
"Did you know Alexis defended me a couple of times? It was right after I came back to Port Charles. I was working for Sonny at the time. She was good. Didn't take any flack off those guys at the PCPD. Can you imagine what she's going through now? I took her sister away from her. Oh, I know I didn't actually plant the bomb, but this all started with that money and me. I have to find a way out of this and keep anyone else from getting hurt."
"Mr. DiLucca?"
Turning quickly to see who walked up behind him, he stepped in front of Felicia to shield her from any threat that may be coming with the arrival of Sonny's trusted accountant.
"Benny. What brings you here? Not much left of the place to rummage around in."
"Mr. Corinthos has sent me to ask you if you would meet with him at your convenience."
Roy looked around at Felicia with a veiled look of surprise. Since when did Corinthos ask anything? He didn't like this at all. Something was up and he needed a little time to investigate.
"Why don't you tell him to meet me on Pier 52 at 10:00 in the morning."
"Fine, I'll tell him."
Watching Benny walk away Felicia laid a hand on Roy's arm.
"That doesn't sound good. I'm coming with you."
"No, you're not. It may be a set-up. I need to do some checking around. If Sonny is on the level, then the threat won't be from him, it will be from Alcazar. Sonny wants something from me and it's not the pier this time. I don't want you anywhere near the pier Felicia. Do I make myself clear?"
"I beg your pardon. Who do you think you are talking to? I'm not a child!"
"I'm sorry Felicia. I don't want to lose you like Alexis lost Kristina. I need you safe. Please just go with me on this."
"Well, all right. But, you better watch that macho pig stuff. I don't take kindly to it at all."
Pulling her into his arms he whispered in her ear, "I'll remember that."
***********
Folding down the comforter on her bed Alexis prepared to try to get some much-needed rest. Sitting down on the end of the bed she leaned forward and placed her head in her hands and let the tears fall unchecked.
"Kristina? Can you hear me? Are you there? Help me, Kristina. Help me get through this. I can't do this alone."
"Alexis."
"Kristina?" Standing abruptly she turned to see who had spoken. The voice sounded so much like Kristina, but she was... As she looked toward her bedroom window she gasped and sank to her knees. In the soft moonlight there stood Kristina reaching out to her.
"Kristina? How...?"
"Don't be afraid Alexis, you are seeing that part of me that you
haven't let go of yet. I am only here until you are strong enough to
stand on your own again. There will come a time when you will no
longer need me and I will join that part of your heart that you
treasure most; where you keep the memory of our mother and Chloe."
"What am I going to do without you? How can I go on without you with me? You were the best part of me. I need you with me, Kristina. Please don't leave again."
"Oh Alexis, you are such a strong and capable woman. Yes, you are
hurting right now. You feel alone in the world again. I know you
miss me and I know how much you loved me, but you have to pull
yourself together. You have a life to live, a child to love and
protect; and there is love waiting for you, Alexis."
"No, Kristina. I don't want to love anymore. It hurts too much. I can't bear to open my heart again. I've lost everything that meant anything to me except my child. She will have all of the love I can give her, but that is it. No one else is ever going to get to me again."
"Lie down and rest Alexis, we will talk again soon. But right now,
your child needs you to remember her and allow her to rest along with
you. Sleep my beautiful sister. I will watch over you and chase the
demons away. Lay your head down and, sleep sweet sister."
Listening to the spirit of Kristina that her grief had invoked she lay down on the bed and pulled the comforter over her. Smiling gently she allowed herself to finally rest with the voice of her sister still in echoing in her ears.
**********
There was one who would not be so blessed to find rest though. Sleep would not come to Sonny Corinthos. He was in Jason's penthouse having just watched the video that Johnny had delivered for him. There was that one point from the whole film that reached the core of him and he couldn't shake it. Standing on the balcony he gave voice to the one critical concept of the whole film.
"What does it profit a man if he gain the whole world and lose his own soul?"
Had he lost his soul? Alexis tried to tell him on more than one occasion that he was playing a dangerous game with his life and that one day his luck would run out. Thinking of her and yearning for her he closed his eyes and breathed the prayer that would stay with him until the chaos of his life was resolved. "Alexis, wait for me. Wait for me to get it all straightened out. Don't give up on me yet."
Shuffling through the debris of the Corinthos/Morgan warehouse, Roy waited for Felicia to arrive. He had called her and asked that she meet him there. Allowing his head to fall forward to his chest, he heaved a sigh. 'Well, DiLucca, are you satisfied with yourself now? When are you ever going to learn man? None of this should have happened.'
"Roy? What's wrong? Did we have to meet here, I mean... why here?"
Taking in the sight before them he took hold of Felicia's hand.
"Would you look at that, Felicia! An innocent woman was caught up in all of this and died. I did this. Because I was too stupid to turn that money over to the cops, this is what it came to. And it's not over yet."
"Roy, you couldn't have known this would happen. We didn't know."
"Not good enough. How long have I been around these kind of people. I know them. I know what they are capable of. I should have known better. Felicia, Kristina Cassadine is dead because of my greed, my need to be more than what I am."
"Roy, don't do this to yourself. Please let's just go. We have to find a way to get away from of all this."
She had such hopeful eyes when she looked at him. Roy felt good when he saw how she looked at him. She was a good woman. She fought for those she cared about. She fought daily to give her girls a better life. Now he couldn't even guarantee her that she'd be alive in a week. Because of him, she was in danger.
"Did you know Alexis defended me a couple of times? It was right after I came back to Port Charles. I was working for Sonny at the time. She was good. Didn't take any flack off those guys at the PCPD. Can you imagine what she's going through now? I took her sister away from her. Oh, I know I didn't actually plant the bomb, but this all started with that money and me. I have to find a way out of this and keep anyone else from getting hurt."
"Mr. DiLucca?"
Turning quickly to see who walked up behind him, he stepped in front of Felicia to shield her from any threat that may be coming with the arrival of Sonny's trusted accountant.
"Benny. What brings you here? Not much left of the place to rummage around in."
"Mr. Corinthos has sent me to ask you if you would meet with him at your convenience."
Roy looked around at Felicia with a veiled look of surprise. Since when did Corinthos ask anything? He didn't like this at all. Something was up and he needed a little time to investigate.
"Why don't you tell him to meet me on Pier 52 at 10:00 in the morning."
"Fine, I'll tell him."
Watching Benny walk away Felicia laid a hand on Roy's arm.
"That doesn't sound good. I'm coming with you."
"No, you're not. It may be a set-up. I need to do some checking around. If Sonny is on the level, then the threat won't be from him, it will be from Alcazar. Sonny wants something from me and it's not the pier this time. I don't want you anywhere near the pier Felicia. Do I make myself clear?"
"I beg your pardon. Who do you think you are talking to? I'm not a child!"
"I'm sorry Felicia. I don't want to lose you like Alexis lost Kristina. I need you safe. Please just go with me on this."
"Well, all right. But, you better watch that macho pig stuff. I don't take kindly to it at all."
Pulling her into his arms he whispered in her ear, "I'll remember that."
***********
Folding down the comforter on her bed Alexis prepared to try to get some much-needed rest. Sitting down on the end of the bed she leaned forward and placed her head in her hands and let the tears fall unchecked.
"Kristina? Can you hear me? Are you there? Help me, Kristina. Help me get through this. I can't do this alone."
"Alexis."
"Kristina?" Standing abruptly she turned to see who had spoken. The voice sounded so much like Kristina, but she was... As she looked toward her bedroom window she gasped and sank to her knees. In the soft moonlight there stood Kristina reaching out to her.
"Kristina? How...?"
"Don't be afraid Alexis, you are seeing that part of me that you
haven't let go of yet. I am only here until you are strong enough to
stand on your own again. There will come a time when you will no
longer need me and I will join that part of your heart that you
treasure most; where you keep the memory of our mother and Chloe."
"What am I going to do without you? How can I go on without you with me? You were the best part of me. I need you with me, Kristina. Please don't leave again."
"Oh Alexis, you are such a strong and capable woman. Yes, you are
hurting right now. You feel alone in the world again. I know you
miss me and I know how much you loved me, but you have to pull
yourself together. You have a life to live, a child to love and
protect; and there is love waiting for you, Alexis."
"No, Kristina. I don't want to love anymore. It hurts too much. I can't bear to open my heart again. I've lost everything that meant anything to me except my child. She will have all of the love I can give her, but that is it. No one else is ever going to get to me again."
"Lie down and rest Alexis, we will talk again soon. But right now,
your child needs you to remember her and allow her to rest along with
you. Sleep my beautiful sister. I will watch over you and chase the
demons away. Lay your head down and, sleep sweet sister."
Listening to the spirit of Kristina that her grief had invoked she lay down on the bed and pulled the comforter over her. Smiling gently she allowed herself to finally rest with the voice of her sister still in echoing in her ears.
**********
There was one who would not be so blessed to find rest though. Sleep would not come to Sonny Corinthos. He was in Jason's penthouse having just watched the video that Johnny had delivered for him. There was that one point from the whole film that reached the core of him and he couldn't shake it. Standing on the balcony he gave voice to the one critical concept of the whole film.
"What does it profit a man if he gain the whole world and lose his own soul?"
Had he lost his soul? Alexis tried to tell him on more than one occasion that he was playing a dangerous game with his life and that one day his luck would run out. Thinking of her and yearning for her he closed his eyes and breathed the prayer that would stay with him until the chaos of his life was resolved. "Alexis, wait for me. Wait for me to get it all straightened out. Don't give up on me yet."