*Dream*
I found myself once again in the dark hall. The endless hall of insanity.....What could I do? How could I escape....The answer was simple....I could not....I stared out to find someone walking away from me... All my thoughts gone as I began to run to him.... "Enishi-sama!" I grabbed him around his waist...But it did not matter....He had just kept walking....Away from me....Like everyone else did......
Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby.
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real.
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you,
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say:
Tears fell to the floor as I collasped. My foolish grin still upon me as I stared into the now nothing-ness of Enishi's gone form. What was I so afraid of? Why did I put this mask up in the first place. Even joy and jokes where now hidden behind it.....And because of it everyone I came to turned away....Everyone I loved....Walked away.......
I was left to cry there,
Waiting outside there, Grinning with a lost stare,
That's when I decided!
*Flashback in Dream*
"Hey Kaoru! Wanna go to the party at my house tommorow?" I turned and smiled as I saw my hero standing at the window.... "I don't know....Are you my panther of hopes?" He gave me his charming smile and spoke with pride. "See you tommorow milady........" I giggled....for the last time.......
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone!
You, you need to listen
*Flash to the Next Night*
"Enishi?" My eyes widened as I stared at the woman with him. She reminded me so much of the sluts who hung around those DISGUSTING bars. "Dear Kaoru, I was hoping to break your heart sooner or later. After all....You where only a bet....." I felt the walls move around me as I heard this......I actually heard something I could not ever stand....I was just a...a.....BET!
I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and, I'm in this thing alone
*End Flashback in Dream*
His voice played inside my head forever. I was afraid to know what he wanted. I had loved......But I was not loved back....No, I was played........
Am I just some chick you place beside you, To take somebody's place?
When you turn around can you recognize my face. You used to love me,
You used to hug me,
But that wasn't the case...
Everything wasn't ok.
Enishi had really broken my heart. And know I knew where I was lying. In the depths of my true heart. The one behind the ugly mask....The one....hidden......
I was left to cry there,
Waiting outside there, Grinning with a lost stare,
That's when I decided! Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone!
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and, I'm in this thing alone
Tears rolled down my face as another memory played itself in the back of my mind. Each unwanted. But each came......Laughing with fun at my expressions......My fear..... But this memory was the last....The one where I put up the mask...For the first...And final time.....
Crying out loud, I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud, I'm crying out loud
*Flashback*
As I stood I turned to him and the woman and spoke up.... "I loved you.....But now....... you have truly killen me, Enishi."
*End of FlashBack*
Open your eyes,
Open up wide
Why should I care,
Cuz you weren't there,
When I was scared I was so alone! Why should I care,
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared, I was so alone!
Why should I care!
If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere!
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone!
Why should I care If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere!
"Don't worry little one....You will never be alone....I will always be your panther...." Taking my face out of my kimono sleeve I stared at the hand that had been placed upon my shoulder. It looked.....familiar.......
I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that's gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn't really matter
How I feel inside
'Cause life is like a game sometimes
My eyes went up to meet the panthers golden eyes...The one's I had been searching for since he came to me when I was a child.....But this was not a panther.....Not indeed.....It was Kenshin.......
But then you came around me
The walls just disappeared
Nothing to surround me
And keep me from my fears
I'm unprotected
See how I've opened up
Oh, you've made me trust
*Flashback of Another Dream*
I was five when I saw him. The panther.....He came to me as I sat in a field of beautiful flowers..... His words unknown to my five year old brain....But now I understood.... "Don't worry....I will remain by your side for eternity."
*End of Flashback*
Because I've never felt like this before
I'm naked
Around you
Does it show?
You see right through me
And I can't hide
I'm naked
Around you
And it feels so right
I felt his two arms wrap around me and his body come in contact with mine..... "You may not know this but I have entered your dreams tonight because of that promise my dear....Please tell me you are ready to tell me why the mask has been put up." I was shocked at his words....The truth was....I was afraid to get hurt.....Hurt by anyone again.....
I'm trying to remember
Why I was afraid
To be myself and let the
Covers fall away
I guess I never had someone like you
To help me, to help me fit
In my skin
"I.....I'm afraid...." He smiled at me.....I do not know why but it gave my heart comfort..... "Why?" I looked at him for a couple minutes before answering....Enishi had asked me before....but I did not answer him.....Why was I answering Kenshin?
I never felt like this before
I'm naked
Around you
Does it show?
You see right through me
And I can't hide
I'm naked
Around you
And it feels so right
"I'm afraid because I don't want to hurt anyone....And I am afraid....of having anyone hurt me....." He smiled again. Why did I feel so happy when around him? Why? "Everyone gets hurt little one. But pain is only part of a humans life....And soon you will learn them...." But how could I when I was alone.....I had no family........
*End of Dream*
I'm naked
Oh oh yeah
Does it show?
Yeah, I'm naked
Oh oh, yeah yeah
I sat up on the futon with sweat running down my forhead..... What had just happened? I then heard a voice.....It sounded familiar.... "Your not alone Kaoru." What? But that was......Kenshin!
I'm so naked around you
And I can't hide
You're gonna see right through, baby ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter #1 Songs.... 1. My Immortal- Evanescence (2nd Favorite Band!) 2. Unknown (I think It was tears or something.) 3. Pushing Me Away- Linking Park (Favorite Band!) Remix CD
Chapter #2 Songs.... 1.Here Without You- 3 Doors Down 2. Easier To Run- Linkin Park 3. By Myself - Linkin Park
Chapter #3 Songs.... 1. Losing Grip - Avril Lavigne 2. Naked- Avril Lavigne
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Sorry for the Short Chapter Reviews....
Suicide-Greeting: Thanks, Alot of reviews have said they can relate to this fic.
Lightning-Storm: I write this story when I am usually angry or frustrates so I can make it like I feel, which is most of the time! ^-^ Thank you and I hoped you liked this chapter!
Phia: I felt like that to.....But there's somethine I did that Kaoru did not....Though I still wear the mask I still did not hide some emotions. Like joy and teasing! I have fun but I truly do hide feelings! And I agree, it is sad how many people feel like that....
Nanashi: Thank you. I only hide some feelings though....I hide pain and anger....And I never cry in front of anyone.....ever.....I agree with your theory....It's kinda sad....
Sakura Blossom: Here's the More you asked for and thanks for reviewing!
Ryuu no Furui Yami: Thank you for the comment.... Actually... you may be wrong on something.....But you will only discover that when I get to my last chapter.....You might want to keep reading! Thanks for your support!
Mori'quessir: I agree it's sad...I'm kinda like her to......Thank you for your review!
ZSilver: Thank you and I will ask you if I need help! ^-^ And I am exactly like you exept no one has tried yet to break my mask......
Sakura Himura: Thank you for the review!
aNiMePeRfEcT: Thanks and I hope you know the song now!
Silver Eyes Bright: I can relate to that subject, when my mom loses her temper and starts screaming at me I start playing some song in my head.... Like numb from Linkin Park...Thanks for the review!
Rei: Thank you! And I bet you someday everyone will.....
Sammie gal: I do the same as you, act normal but am really hiding my feelings.....Yep, but they can be real cool when they wanna be!
Silver Goddess: Here's your update, thank's for the review!
I found myself once again in the dark hall. The endless hall of insanity.....What could I do? How could I escape....The answer was simple....I could not....I stared out to find someone walking away from me... All my thoughts gone as I began to run to him.... "Enishi-sama!" I grabbed him around his waist...But it did not matter....He had just kept walking....Away from me....Like everyone else did......
Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby.
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real.
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you,
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say:
Tears fell to the floor as I collasped. My foolish grin still upon me as I stared into the now nothing-ness of Enishi's gone form. What was I so afraid of? Why did I put this mask up in the first place. Even joy and jokes where now hidden behind it.....And because of it everyone I came to turned away....Everyone I loved....Walked away.......
I was left to cry there,
Waiting outside there, Grinning with a lost stare,
That's when I decided!
*Flashback in Dream*
"Hey Kaoru! Wanna go to the party at my house tommorow?" I turned and smiled as I saw my hero standing at the window.... "I don't know....Are you my panther of hopes?" He gave me his charming smile and spoke with pride. "See you tommorow milady........" I giggled....for the last time.......
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone!
You, you need to listen
*Flash to the Next Night*
"Enishi?" My eyes widened as I stared at the woman with him. She reminded me so much of the sluts who hung around those DISGUSTING bars. "Dear Kaoru, I was hoping to break your heart sooner or later. After all....You where only a bet....." I felt the walls move around me as I heard this......I actually heard something I could not ever stand....I was just a...a.....BET!
I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and, I'm in this thing alone
*End Flashback in Dream*
His voice played inside my head forever. I was afraid to know what he wanted. I had loved......But I was not loved back....No, I was played........
Am I just some chick you place beside you, To take somebody's place?
When you turn around can you recognize my face. You used to love me,
You used to hug me,
But that wasn't the case...
Everything wasn't ok.
Enishi had really broken my heart. And know I knew where I was lying. In the depths of my true heart. The one behind the ugly mask....The one....hidden......
I was left to cry there,
Waiting outside there, Grinning with a lost stare,
That's when I decided! Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone!
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and, I'm in this thing alone
Tears rolled down my face as another memory played itself in the back of my mind. Each unwanted. But each came......Laughing with fun at my expressions......My fear..... But this memory was the last....The one where I put up the mask...For the first...And final time.....
Crying out loud, I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud, I'm crying out loud
*Flashback*
As I stood I turned to him and the woman and spoke up.... "I loved you.....But now....... you have truly killen me, Enishi."
*End of FlashBack*
Open your eyes,
Open up wide
Why should I care,
Cuz you weren't there,
When I was scared I was so alone! Why should I care,
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared, I was so alone!
Why should I care!
If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere!
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone!
Why should I care If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere!
"Don't worry little one....You will never be alone....I will always be your panther...." Taking my face out of my kimono sleeve I stared at the hand that had been placed upon my shoulder. It looked.....familiar.......
I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that's gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn't really matter
How I feel inside
'Cause life is like a game sometimes
My eyes went up to meet the panthers golden eyes...The one's I had been searching for since he came to me when I was a child.....But this was not a panther.....Not indeed.....It was Kenshin.......
But then you came around me
The walls just disappeared
Nothing to surround me
And keep me from my fears
I'm unprotected
See how I've opened up
Oh, you've made me trust
*Flashback of Another Dream*
I was five when I saw him. The panther.....He came to me as I sat in a field of beautiful flowers..... His words unknown to my five year old brain....But now I understood.... "Don't worry....I will remain by your side for eternity."
*End of Flashback*
Because I've never felt like this before
I'm naked
Around you
Does it show?
You see right through me
And I can't hide
I'm naked
Around you
And it feels so right
I felt his two arms wrap around me and his body come in contact with mine..... "You may not know this but I have entered your dreams tonight because of that promise my dear....Please tell me you are ready to tell me why the mask has been put up." I was shocked at his words....The truth was....I was afraid to get hurt.....Hurt by anyone again.....
I'm trying to remember
Why I was afraid
To be myself and let the
Covers fall away
I guess I never had someone like you
To help me, to help me fit
In my skin
"I.....I'm afraid...." He smiled at me.....I do not know why but it gave my heart comfort..... "Why?" I looked at him for a couple minutes before answering....Enishi had asked me before....but I did not answer him.....Why was I answering Kenshin?
I never felt like this before
I'm naked
Around you
Does it show?
You see right through me
And I can't hide
I'm naked
Around you
And it feels so right
"I'm afraid because I don't want to hurt anyone....And I am afraid....of having anyone hurt me....." He smiled again. Why did I feel so happy when around him? Why? "Everyone gets hurt little one. But pain is only part of a humans life....And soon you will learn them...." But how could I when I was alone.....I had no family........
*End of Dream*
I'm naked
Oh oh yeah
Does it show?
Yeah, I'm naked
Oh oh, yeah yeah
I sat up on the futon with sweat running down my forhead..... What had just happened? I then heard a voice.....It sounded familiar.... "Your not alone Kaoru." What? But that was......Kenshin!
I'm so naked around you
And I can't hide
You're gonna see right through, baby ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter #1 Songs.... 1. My Immortal- Evanescence (2nd Favorite Band!) 2. Unknown (I think It was tears or something.) 3. Pushing Me Away- Linking Park (Favorite Band!) Remix CD
Chapter #2 Songs.... 1.Here Without You- 3 Doors Down 2. Easier To Run- Linkin Park 3. By Myself - Linkin Park
Chapter #3 Songs.... 1. Losing Grip - Avril Lavigne 2. Naked- Avril Lavigne
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Sorry for the Short Chapter Reviews....
Suicide-Greeting: Thanks, Alot of reviews have said they can relate to this fic.
Lightning-Storm: I write this story when I am usually angry or frustrates so I can make it like I feel, which is most of the time! ^-^ Thank you and I hoped you liked this chapter!
Phia: I felt like that to.....But there's somethine I did that Kaoru did not....Though I still wear the mask I still did not hide some emotions. Like joy and teasing! I have fun but I truly do hide feelings! And I agree, it is sad how many people feel like that....
Nanashi: Thank you. I only hide some feelings though....I hide pain and anger....And I never cry in front of anyone.....ever.....I agree with your theory....It's kinda sad....
Sakura Blossom: Here's the More you asked for and thanks for reviewing!
Ryuu no Furui Yami: Thank you for the comment.... Actually... you may be wrong on something.....But you will only discover that when I get to my last chapter.....You might want to keep reading! Thanks for your support!
Mori'quessir: I agree it's sad...I'm kinda like her to......Thank you for your review!
ZSilver: Thank you and I will ask you if I need help! ^-^ And I am exactly like you exept no one has tried yet to break my mask......
Sakura Himura: Thank you for the review!
aNiMePeRfEcT: Thanks and I hope you know the song now!
Silver Eyes Bright: I can relate to that subject, when my mom loses her temper and starts screaming at me I start playing some song in my head.... Like numb from Linkin Park...Thanks for the review!
Rei: Thank you! And I bet you someday everyone will.....
Sammie gal: I do the same as you, act normal but am really hiding my feelings.....Yep, but they can be real cool when they wanna be!
Silver Goddess: Here's your update, thank's for the review!