Sakuras Blooming, Feathers Fly...

I woke up, checked the clock----
4:50am
I don`t get much sleep these days, especially not after this.
Another grayish day, It is as if everything si being sucked in by the darkness that surrounds them.
Just like me.
Sometimes I wonder if I was ever happy....ever.....
Before my dad died, he used to take me to an ice cream shop and buy me a chocolate and peanut butter ice cream.
I would lick it and then close my eyes,
enjoy its milky taste,
listen to the coins rattle in dad`s pocket
and then,
I`m happy.

Just last month, I deteated Yugi, I should have been overjoyed, But am I? I don't know.

Sakuras blooming, Feathers fly, With you looking, At a sky so high, You ask me, If I can go back, Back to be, Your big brother, Who always wore a smile, The smile that now faltered, Your voice faded, Into the deep gray sky, A sky so high.