A/N: Hey, took a while ^^. Okay well I've gotten reviews and they really
inspired me, because after writing the latest chapter I had some writer's
block, but I'm okay now..I think :P
Warnings...none that I know of...probably some few curses threw around..not sure..and on the part about Sango's past...it turned on the waterworks for me :P
Disclaimer: I forgot this until I was about to upload this chapter. Hehe, I don't own Inuyasha unfortunately, Rumiko Takahashi does =P lucky!
Dear Betrothed, I Hate You
Always
Chapter 3
Sango stood in the cafeteria pacing around and venting her worry on her bottom lip nervously. 'Kagome isn't here yet. It's already been about 20 minutes since she dropped her books...where is she? God, I hope she's alright'. She eyed Miroku running around the cafeteria turning on the girls running after him. He ran around, sometimes giving some other girls foxy grins, which just adds more to the fan-girl mob behind him. Sango looked away and ignored the weird feeling prickling at her heart strings. Suddenly Sango heard some yelling and hollering outside the lunchroom. She looked at it curiously and Kagome and Inuyasha both came in laughing and Kagome had a rosy blush on her cheeks and Inuyasha, a healthy/protective glow (probably his 'manly instincts ^.). Sango felt the ends of her lips tug upward slowly. Kagome suddenly caught Sango's eyes and she blushed, the color of light pink setting on her cheeks. Sango smiled wryly. Miroku stopped running for a second looked at Sango and grinned suavely at her and turned away to continue the escape from the mob laughing with much mirth in his eyes. She blinked a few times and tried to suppress a weird sensation of joy within her but she quickly tried to block it from entering any deeper. 'Don't do this again to yourself...once is enough..enough to last...' she thought.
She turned away abruptly and went out to the school's untamed wilderness. It wasn't really like a garden, more like a field, a big forest/grassland where the student sit at when they have free time to think and write, or just be by themselves. It was another part of the forest Kagome was in earlier that morning. She found a vacant a seat under a willow tree( that was starting to lose some of its greenery since winter was nearing), giving shade from the sun and from everyone, not that there was anyone out in the field at the moment. That willow tree was like a boundary between the school and a vast groove of trees and a lake. She breathes in the comfortable afternoon air. She hugs her knees and rocks herself gently back and forth, her high pony tail swaying in the wind. She hugs herself tight and closes her eyes and puts her head on her knees and continues to rock herself gently. Suddenly Miroku walked out the doors and toward her. 'I'm in no mood for guys like him right now' her mood turning from serene calmness to irritation. She shut her eyes and breathed, trying to remain calm. Miroku came up to her and sat cross-legged in front of her smiling with a genuine grin. She opened her eyes and glared at him. Then she spun around and faced the willow tree instead. Soon she felt his body heat near her and she felt him lean in toward her. She felt the hairs on the back of her neck bristle. Her expression softened but then she felt a hand caressing the lower side of her back. Her expression hardened and she closed her eyes, and breathed deeply and repeated to herself under her breath "He's just another pervert, he's just an immature pervert." and then she balled one of her hands into a fist and punched backward with all her force. Her hand connected with Miroku's face. Sango then got up, opened her eyes looked at the dazed Miroku lying on the grass and sighed. She was actually trying to hold in all her inner emotions. Then she ran off deeper into the field, past the groove of cherry blossom trees, and sat on a hill that sloped down to the lake. The wind was blowing softly making the grass blades dance and the water ripple. This type of fair weather was one of it's lasts of that year, as winter was looming near. The sun shone hazily on the lake. She bit her lip in pain and looked toward the skies and tried to blink back the tears that were about to roll down her cheeks. Her vision became foggy as the tears blurred it all. Then without warning she started to sob uncontrollably. Her hands balled into fists at her sides, grabbing the tufts of grass around her and grasping onto them with much anguish. She let go of the grass softly and clutched her knees tightly to her chest; known as a defensive position, and she sobbed into her knees to muffle the noise. The remaining browning leaves of the trees rattled on the trees bumping into each other, sounding like wind chimes. Sango lifted her head and shut her eyes to try and stop the cascade of tears. The wind blew towards her drying away any traces of tears that had existed a few moments ago.
Suddenly right when Sango started to relax and take in her surroundings she heard a slight scuffle in the grass. She spun around immediately hoping no one saw her weak side. It was Kagome. She had been standing there after she heard Miroku groan loudly after waking up a few minutes after Sango left. She had sent Miroku back inside and she went after Sango, just in time to see everything happen.
"Sango..S-Sango...what's wrong? What's the matter?" Kagome asked as she ran over to Sango and kneeled beside the distressed girl.
"K-Kagome...n–nothings wrong." Sango said as she quickly rubbed her eyes self-consciously to make sure all the tears were gone.
"Sango, come on! Tell me already..you know you can tell me anything, anything at all. I saw you cry and I know something's wrong. Is it that idiotic Miroku? If it is I'm going over there right now and making him apol- "
"No. Don't. Its not his fault. It's just me in my mood swings..yeah..I just don't feel very happy right now." Sango interrupted.
"Sango..." Kagome breathed as she sat down next to Sango and gave her a big hug. "I want to know what is wrong. As your best friend and almost like a sister to you, I don't want to see you suffering some inner war with yourself...please."
Sango closed her eyes and breathed in the cool fresh air that swept over her neck, hair and face. She resisted the urge to tumble everything out to Kagome, her motherly care washing over Sango. Sango hugged Kagome back and whispered "It's alright Kagome, I'm okay, really I am. Sorry if I got you worried." She could already tell Kagome didn't buy that but she pressured Sango no further. Kagome released the hug and looked at Sango closely. "You are almost like a sister to me ever since I met you, my dearest and closest friend, and if you can't tell me right now, if you ever feel like you must speak to someone about it, or about anything, I'll be right beside you all the way, just close your eyes and open them and I'll be there, wherever I am, if you need me I'll always have the time for you." she smiled a warm smile at Sango, hugged her one more time and got up ready to leave. Kagome turned around and began to walk up the slope back into the trees.
"Kagome..." Sango's soft subdued voice said quietly. Kagome, upon hearing the sound of her name turned around.
"...I.." Sango looked uncomfortable concentrating on the blades of grass beneath her. "Oh god, this is so embarrassing...breaking down in front of you." she looked away in discomfort, the wind rustling her hair. "It's just that...I mean...I don't want to get involved with another guy anymore. The last time I did I ended up moving here. He promised he'd be with me forever, he promised he never misunderstand, but in the end he did...he lied like all the others and he misunderstood everything, he didn't even give me a chance to explain, and the last words that was ever said between us was 'It's over..' and he turned his back on me, and by a month he forgot I was ever there. Then he just went out with other girls. I don't think I could take that pain anymore. I don't want to be so vulnerable anymore, so weak, so lost, so pained."
Kagome walked slowly back to Sango and sat next to her. She held Sango's hand affectionately. 'Oh gods Sango, why didn't you tell me earlier? Was that the reason you became so indifferent and troubled since the first time I met you? Was that what happened after you moved away 2 years ago? And came back this year..like this, sad, unhappy and trying to cover up everything?' Kagome thought sadly.
"Sango..dear Sango..why didn't you tell me this before? He didn't deserve you! Before you moved there, you were happy, carefree and taking chances and risks. When you moved back here, you..changed..you were hurt somehow, I'd never would've guessed."
Sango smiled at Kagome, wiping some of her tears away. "But I'm learning to heal, slowly. We built up all these defenses, day after day, month after month, year after year. We built up an armor to fend off anything that would hurt our fragile hearts, but in the end, some stupid person no different than all the other stupid people does something stupid like smile or say hello and we don't have our hearts anymore." Sango laughed at the irony of that. "Kagome, I'm blessed to know someone like you. It's impossible to believe that you understand so much about me and can brighten my spirits when even I can't, but you do, and I want you to know, you are the best, and if anything happens and you need someone to lean on and to be there for you, I'll be by your side, always." and with a hug they sealed that promise.
They got up and Kagome smiled, the sun's light illuminating her face, the wind drying Sango's tears for good, and cloudless skies to ensure tear- less days to come. They turned around and were planning to walk back, but before they could enter the cherry blossom grooves they heard the boy's hollering voices and before long Miroku and Inuyasha emerged from the cherry blossom haven. Kagome smiled at Sango, at first Sango looked uncertain, but she looked back at Kagome and smiled warmly. As the boys began to get nearer to them they walked towards the boys, but before they got very far Kagome stopped Sango for a second.
"Always?" Kagome whispered.
"Always." Sango answered with mirth in her voice.
A/N: Gomen! Sorry it took so long . Hope you liked it! I hope to write the next chapter soon!
~Review~
Mi
Warnings...none that I know of...probably some few curses threw around..not sure..and on the part about Sango's past...it turned on the waterworks for me :P
Disclaimer: I forgot this until I was about to upload this chapter. Hehe, I don't own Inuyasha unfortunately, Rumiko Takahashi does =P lucky!
Dear Betrothed, I Hate You
Always
Chapter 3
Sango stood in the cafeteria pacing around and venting her worry on her bottom lip nervously. 'Kagome isn't here yet. It's already been about 20 minutes since she dropped her books...where is she? God, I hope she's alright'. She eyed Miroku running around the cafeteria turning on the girls running after him. He ran around, sometimes giving some other girls foxy grins, which just adds more to the fan-girl mob behind him. Sango looked away and ignored the weird feeling prickling at her heart strings. Suddenly Sango heard some yelling and hollering outside the lunchroom. She looked at it curiously and Kagome and Inuyasha both came in laughing and Kagome had a rosy blush on her cheeks and Inuyasha, a healthy/protective glow (probably his 'manly instincts ^.). Sango felt the ends of her lips tug upward slowly. Kagome suddenly caught Sango's eyes and she blushed, the color of light pink setting on her cheeks. Sango smiled wryly. Miroku stopped running for a second looked at Sango and grinned suavely at her and turned away to continue the escape from the mob laughing with much mirth in his eyes. She blinked a few times and tried to suppress a weird sensation of joy within her but she quickly tried to block it from entering any deeper. 'Don't do this again to yourself...once is enough..enough to last...' she thought.
She turned away abruptly and went out to the school's untamed wilderness. It wasn't really like a garden, more like a field, a big forest/grassland where the student sit at when they have free time to think and write, or just be by themselves. It was another part of the forest Kagome was in earlier that morning. She found a vacant a seat under a willow tree( that was starting to lose some of its greenery since winter was nearing), giving shade from the sun and from everyone, not that there was anyone out in the field at the moment. That willow tree was like a boundary between the school and a vast groove of trees and a lake. She breathes in the comfortable afternoon air. She hugs her knees and rocks herself gently back and forth, her high pony tail swaying in the wind. She hugs herself tight and closes her eyes and puts her head on her knees and continues to rock herself gently. Suddenly Miroku walked out the doors and toward her. 'I'm in no mood for guys like him right now' her mood turning from serene calmness to irritation. She shut her eyes and breathed, trying to remain calm. Miroku came up to her and sat cross-legged in front of her smiling with a genuine grin. She opened her eyes and glared at him. Then she spun around and faced the willow tree instead. Soon she felt his body heat near her and she felt him lean in toward her. She felt the hairs on the back of her neck bristle. Her expression softened but then she felt a hand caressing the lower side of her back. Her expression hardened and she closed her eyes, and breathed deeply and repeated to herself under her breath "He's just another pervert, he's just an immature pervert." and then she balled one of her hands into a fist and punched backward with all her force. Her hand connected with Miroku's face. Sango then got up, opened her eyes looked at the dazed Miroku lying on the grass and sighed. She was actually trying to hold in all her inner emotions. Then she ran off deeper into the field, past the groove of cherry blossom trees, and sat on a hill that sloped down to the lake. The wind was blowing softly making the grass blades dance and the water ripple. This type of fair weather was one of it's lasts of that year, as winter was looming near. The sun shone hazily on the lake. She bit her lip in pain and looked toward the skies and tried to blink back the tears that were about to roll down her cheeks. Her vision became foggy as the tears blurred it all. Then without warning she started to sob uncontrollably. Her hands balled into fists at her sides, grabbing the tufts of grass around her and grasping onto them with much anguish. She let go of the grass softly and clutched her knees tightly to her chest; known as a defensive position, and she sobbed into her knees to muffle the noise. The remaining browning leaves of the trees rattled on the trees bumping into each other, sounding like wind chimes. Sango lifted her head and shut her eyes to try and stop the cascade of tears. The wind blew towards her drying away any traces of tears that had existed a few moments ago.
Suddenly right when Sango started to relax and take in her surroundings she heard a slight scuffle in the grass. She spun around immediately hoping no one saw her weak side. It was Kagome. She had been standing there after she heard Miroku groan loudly after waking up a few minutes after Sango left. She had sent Miroku back inside and she went after Sango, just in time to see everything happen.
"Sango..S-Sango...what's wrong? What's the matter?" Kagome asked as she ran over to Sango and kneeled beside the distressed girl.
"K-Kagome...n–nothings wrong." Sango said as she quickly rubbed her eyes self-consciously to make sure all the tears were gone.
"Sango, come on! Tell me already..you know you can tell me anything, anything at all. I saw you cry and I know something's wrong. Is it that idiotic Miroku? If it is I'm going over there right now and making him apol- "
"No. Don't. Its not his fault. It's just me in my mood swings..yeah..I just don't feel very happy right now." Sango interrupted.
"Sango..." Kagome breathed as she sat down next to Sango and gave her a big hug. "I want to know what is wrong. As your best friend and almost like a sister to you, I don't want to see you suffering some inner war with yourself...please."
Sango closed her eyes and breathed in the cool fresh air that swept over her neck, hair and face. She resisted the urge to tumble everything out to Kagome, her motherly care washing over Sango. Sango hugged Kagome back and whispered "It's alright Kagome, I'm okay, really I am. Sorry if I got you worried." She could already tell Kagome didn't buy that but she pressured Sango no further. Kagome released the hug and looked at Sango closely. "You are almost like a sister to me ever since I met you, my dearest and closest friend, and if you can't tell me right now, if you ever feel like you must speak to someone about it, or about anything, I'll be right beside you all the way, just close your eyes and open them and I'll be there, wherever I am, if you need me I'll always have the time for you." she smiled a warm smile at Sango, hugged her one more time and got up ready to leave. Kagome turned around and began to walk up the slope back into the trees.
"Kagome..." Sango's soft subdued voice said quietly. Kagome, upon hearing the sound of her name turned around.
"...I.." Sango looked uncomfortable concentrating on the blades of grass beneath her. "Oh god, this is so embarrassing...breaking down in front of you." she looked away in discomfort, the wind rustling her hair. "It's just that...I mean...I don't want to get involved with another guy anymore. The last time I did I ended up moving here. He promised he'd be with me forever, he promised he never misunderstand, but in the end he did...he lied like all the others and he misunderstood everything, he didn't even give me a chance to explain, and the last words that was ever said between us was 'It's over..' and he turned his back on me, and by a month he forgot I was ever there. Then he just went out with other girls. I don't think I could take that pain anymore. I don't want to be so vulnerable anymore, so weak, so lost, so pained."
Kagome walked slowly back to Sango and sat next to her. She held Sango's hand affectionately. 'Oh gods Sango, why didn't you tell me earlier? Was that the reason you became so indifferent and troubled since the first time I met you? Was that what happened after you moved away 2 years ago? And came back this year..like this, sad, unhappy and trying to cover up everything?' Kagome thought sadly.
"Sango..dear Sango..why didn't you tell me this before? He didn't deserve you! Before you moved there, you were happy, carefree and taking chances and risks. When you moved back here, you..changed..you were hurt somehow, I'd never would've guessed."
Sango smiled at Kagome, wiping some of her tears away. "But I'm learning to heal, slowly. We built up all these defenses, day after day, month after month, year after year. We built up an armor to fend off anything that would hurt our fragile hearts, but in the end, some stupid person no different than all the other stupid people does something stupid like smile or say hello and we don't have our hearts anymore." Sango laughed at the irony of that. "Kagome, I'm blessed to know someone like you. It's impossible to believe that you understand so much about me and can brighten my spirits when even I can't, but you do, and I want you to know, you are the best, and if anything happens and you need someone to lean on and to be there for you, I'll be by your side, always." and with a hug they sealed that promise.
They got up and Kagome smiled, the sun's light illuminating her face, the wind drying Sango's tears for good, and cloudless skies to ensure tear- less days to come. They turned around and were planning to walk back, but before they could enter the cherry blossom grooves they heard the boy's hollering voices and before long Miroku and Inuyasha emerged from the cherry blossom haven. Kagome smiled at Sango, at first Sango looked uncertain, but she looked back at Kagome and smiled warmly. As the boys began to get nearer to them they walked towards the boys, but before they got very far Kagome stopped Sango for a second.
"Always?" Kagome whispered.
"Always." Sango answered with mirth in her voice.
A/N: Gomen! Sorry it took so long . Hope you liked it! I hope to write the next chapter soon!
~Review~
Mi