You all think that you know me. You all expect so much. If only you knew
the truth. If only you knew all my fears, my nightmares. Do you know what
I'm afraid of? I'm afraid of failing you all.
I was born into a task even the bravest wizards won't take on. I was destined to kill or be killed. You all look at me strangely. You all can't understand why I am the way I am. If only you knew my world. I wish you could all feel my turmoil. I wish you could all experience just one day in my life. Then you'd understand. Then you'd stop staring.
I'm afraid of failure. All my life I've been given this task, expected to save the world. Everyone else has such confidence in me and...and I'm not who they think I am. I'm nothing special. I'm just an ordinary wizard who always seems to be in the wrong place at the wrong time and who, by some unknown miracle, always seems to get out alive. What's worse is that even though I seem to bounce back, the people who mean the most to me...they don't always make it out. And nobody will remember them.
Nobody will ever know that Sirius Black was the best man I've ever known, nobody will remember that my parents were the real heroes...nobody but his parents will remember Cedric's sacrifice and nobody cares about the countless people who've been senselessly attacked. Nobody will remember them and I know it's wrong but...sometimes I wish I could trade places with one of them.
I've been given this task...one that I don't even know how to carry out and whether I succeed or fail, the whole world will be watching and expecting of me. Sometimes it seems like it'd be so easy to give up and I want so badly to at moments but...but in the end I'm a coward, I suppose, and I can't leave this world, not knowing what I'd leave it to.
You all think that you know me. You all expect so much. If only you knew the truth. If only you knew all my fears, my nightmares. Do you know what I'm afraid of? I'm afraid of failing you all.
I was born into a task even the bravest wizards won't take on. I was destined to kill or be killed. You all look at me strangely. You all can't understand why I am the way I am. If only you knew my world. I wish you could all feel my turmoil. I wish you could all experience just one day in my life. Then you'd understand. Then you'd stop staring.
I'm afraid of failure. All my life I've been given this task, expected to save the world. Everyone else has such confidence in me and...and I'm not who they think I am. I'm nothing special. I'm just an ordinary wizard who always seems to be in the wrong place at the wrong time and who, by some unknown miracle, always seems to get out alive. What's worse is that even though I seem to bounce back, the people who mean the most to me...they don't always make it out. And nobody will remember them.
Nobody will ever know that Sirius Black was the best man I've ever known, nobody will remember that my parents were the real heroes...nobody but his parents will remember Cedric's sacrifice and nobody cares about the countless people who've been senselessly attacked. Nobody will remember them and I know it's wrong but...sometimes I wish I could trade places with one of them.
I've been given this task...one that I don't even know how to carry out and whether I succeed or fail, the whole world will be watching and expecting of me. Sometimes it seems like it'd be so easy to give up and I want so badly to at moments but...but in the end I'm a coward, I suppose, and I can't leave this world, not knowing what I'd leave it to.
You all think that you know me. You all expect so much. If only you knew the truth. If only you knew all my fears, my nightmares. Do you know what I'm afraid of? I'm afraid of failing you all.