Fearful Nights
It was the Christmas holidays, everyone had gone home besides a hand full of student's; which of course the normal ones stayed as they always did, they liked to stay so they could get up to no good. Sirius had twisted Nissa's arm into staying, he didn't after all want her staying in her shop and flat on her own after what had happened; he wanted her by his side so that they could all keep an eye on her.
Nissa was walking a little way in front with Remus and Peter, who she still wasn't sure she liked; with James and Sirius behind them.
"I am glad that you stayed." Sirius told her for the hundredth time since she had agreed to stay; she had hoped it would have been for an easier life because she knew that they could have left the school and come and visited her which she didn't want them getting into trouble especially for something like that.
"I wish that you would join us the next full moon." Remus told her.
Nissa was quit surprised by this, he didn't often bring up the subject himself; but when he did they made full advantage of it.
Remus had missed her during the last full moon, he knew that she wasn't his but she still felt like it when he was a werewolf and missed her when she wasn't with him.
"Yeah come on Nis, what do you say." Sirius said.
"It wasn't the same without you, more the merrier I say." James agreed. "We don't mind having two werewolves to look after, well not that you need looking after of course it's just a saying you know."
"Thanks, but I can't; I can't trust myself so I can't change under the full moon." Nissa told them.
"Of course you can, we've seen you." Remus said. "I thought that you had control over it."
"Its not control, I don't control her and she doesn't control me." Nissa told him. "It's that we have an understanding, we've learnt how to live with one another. So if I change she, I might do something stupid."
"It isn't stupid if you rip that bastard to pieces." Sirius said angrily.
Nissa turned round and smiled at him. "It's wrong, that's what it is. I know he was wrong as well, but it doesn't mean that two wrongs make a right; so I can't change not until I'm ready and I know that I won't do anything."
Sirius wanted to argue with her, but he knew there was no point; so he smiled back at her. "Find, but when you do change, and you have too because you go all moody and acting odd; I'm coming out with."
Nissa nodded in agreement, and turned back round and carried on walking.
"What about tonight then?" Sirius asked. "No ones around just us, and it'll give you a break as well."
"I don't know, I'll think about it." Nissa told him.
"And I'll just take that as a yes." Sirius told her smiling.
They went to the Great Hall and had something to eat, but Sirius dragged her outside telling the other's they would see them later; they said bye and went back up to the tower.
"Sirius what are you doing?" Nissa asked him trying to get past to go back inside.
"I just want to spend some time with you, even if we don't change; well I can even if you don't." Sirius told her, which she smiled. "See now that's what I like to see, but there a bit few and far between nowadays."
They walked across the grounds through the snow over to the lake, which was frozen over.
"Sirius, I don't blame you for what happened; you don't need to put this act on all the time." Nissa told him.
"It isn't an act, and it is my fault; I shouldn't have ignored you." Sirius told her.
"You know the stupidest thing in all this, is that I can look after myself." Nissa told him as she walked forward and stopped about an meter from the water's edge; and then she pointed at the lake. "Accendere!"
Sirius watched in amazement as the whole lake started to melt and defrost before his very eyes; he looked from the lake to Nissa.
"How did you do that?" Sirius asked her as she turned back round to him.
"I told you I was different." Nissa told him. "I'm better with the heat then with the cold, you remember that day of course; you helped me I never thought that you could but you did."
Sirius just looked at her astonished that she was able to defrost the whole lake; and hear she was as though this was nothing to her.
"I think I'm more annoyed at myself for not doing anything, I could have I just didn't." Nissa told him and then she smiled at him. "I don't balm you, I really don't; I'm glad that you're here for me now."
"I should have been there for you from the start." Sirius told her.
Nissa smiled at him and then sat down on the ground, the only ground that didn't have any snow on it; he walked over and sat down beside of her and put his arms around her.
Nissa smiled to herself as she rested her head against him, feeling warm and safe out in the snow with him as the quarter moon started to rise in the darken sky.
***
They enjoyed Christmas considering what had happened before, but with them looking out for her; it wasn't too bad. They were all sat up in the common room the night before everyone was due back, when Sirius received an owl.
"Hey great, it's from Andromeda." Sirius told them as he open the letter.
Dear Sirius,
Hope your well, and the year's going alright. I have great news, I'm Mrs Tonks now not Black anymore, and we've had a little girl; I've called her Nymphadora.
"Andromeda's married and she's had a daughter." Sirius told them smiling.
"That's great, what's she called?" Nissa asked.
"It was to Ted Tonks right, a muggle?" James asked.
"Yeap, he's a muggle; good on her." Sirius said smiling. "Nymphadora."
They all looked at him, waiting for him to tell them the real name; but he just smiled at them.
"Seriously?" James asked.
"I know I like unusual names, but that is going to next extreme wouldn't you say." Nissa said. "Not that it isn't nice of course."
"Don't worry she's always been like that." Sirius reassured them.
"Oh that reminds me Sirius, I got a letter from Bellatrix the other day; don't really know why she does." Nissa told him. "But anyway, Narcissa is engaged to Malfoy; everyone's very pleased of course."
"Sirius pulled a face, he had never really liked Malfoy and now he was going to be somewhat related well he could be already because pureblood families like to intermarry with one another; not that he really cares because he doesn't consider himself one of them anymore.
"Well at lest mother will be happy about one thing this year." Sirius said, and then went back to the letter.
You'll have to come around and see us at our new house, and Nymphadora as well; she's beautiful. I know you can't get any time off, but over in the summer; and I'll send you some pictures until then.
Love from Andromeda & Ted Tonks
Sirius opened the envelopes realising that there was something else in there, it was a photo of them all; Andromeda, Ted and baby Nymphadora all smiling and waving at him. Sirius smiled to himself as he watched them.
***
Christmas was over and it was back to lessons with everyone back, and the first full moon of the New Year was already here. Sirius had tried once again to get Nissa to come out but she said 'no', and he had left it at that.
But Severus though had been getting suspicious of the whole thing for quit a while now, about Remus disappearing once a month every month since they had started; he hadn't really paid much attention to him why should he but it had been fives years, and he wanted to get to the bottom of it.
Remus had left the table early to go up to Madam Pomfery, because he couldn't just walk out of the main entrance; they told him they would see him later wicking so no one would notice.
"So Lily..." James started.
"What ever it is, no." Lily said flatly.
James looked a little hurt but Nissa just smiled at her.
"You should give him a break." Nissa whispered. "He isn't that bad you know."
Lily just smiled slightly but didn't say anything else, Nissa though was looking over the hall towards the Slytherin table she wanted to talk with Severus she needed a little help with her potions homework and did not want detention. She saw him he was getting up to leave, Nissa quickly got as well.
"I'll see you later; I need to speak with Severus." Nissa told them as she walked off.
"Ok, see ya in a bit." Sirius said not really listening to her; she was already out the hall when they all looked up realising what she had said. "She's going to see Snape, is that what she said?"
"Yeah." James said.
"Come on, just to keep an eye on her." Sirius said.
"You know, she's a big girl she can look after herself you don't have to watch her like you do." Lily told him. "I know you're not going out anymore, but if its bugging you that much just ask her out."
"You won't go out with me." James told her.
"That's different, maybe if you didn't act like such a, a..." Lily shot back at him. "Oh, it doesn't matter."
Lily got up to leave, but James was following her wanting an answer why she wouldn't go out with him.
"Come on Lil's." James said with Sirius and Peter following; well only because he wanted to check on Nissa and Snape.
"Severus wait up will you." Nissa shouted after him as she ran over to catch him up. "Why are you in such a hurry?"
"It doesn't matter." Severus told her, but he didn't slow down.
"Of course it doesn't that's why you're almost running." Nissa said. "I just needed to know if you'll help me with my potion's homework."
Severus stopped she had got his attention. "What your boyfriend not up to scratch for that sort of thing?"
"What, he's fine; and anyway he's not my boyfriend." Nissa told him. "Well you or won't you?"
Severus smiled at her suddenly, she wasn't really sure if that was a good thing or not; he was sometimes hard to read.
"Fine I'll help you and you can help me with something." Severus said.
"Ok then, but first what is it?" Nissa asked him slowly a little unsure what she was getting herself into.
"It isn't that big of a deal, so I'm sure you can help me." Severus told her. "I just want to find out what Lupin is up too; you know where does he go every month."
Nissa looked at him for a moment that had been the last thing she had been excepting, Severus was watching her as if to she if she'll show any sign's that she already knows the answer; but he couldn't tell. Nissa smiled at him and linked his arm turning him back down to the great hall, her long hair flowing behind her and the two buns set upon her head making her look taller then him.
"So you're not interested?" Severus asked her.
"It's his business not ours." Nissa told him.
"Come on Nissa." Severus said but he could see that this was one thing she wasn't going to help him with, and pulled his arm out of hers. "Fine I'll find out on my own without your help."
Just then Jevidah was walking past, and without meaning too Severus pushed her back into him; which he enjoyed very much. Severus walked off leaving her with him, Nissa pulled away from him but he kept a firm grip on her arm.
Sirius and James had just come out of the hall; Sirius spotted Nissa talking with Snape; and then Jevidah. Sirius punched James in the arm and almost ran up the stairs; James looked round and saw the same thing.
"Sorry Lily got to go, we'll finish this later." James told her as he dragged Peter up the stairs as they went after Sirius.
"Hey Nis!" Sirius shouted almost knocking Jevidah over as he reached them, Nissa fall into his arms because he had been pulling to get away. "We're going to the common room."
Lily came up behind them not impressed with their behaviour and grabbed Nissa's hand herself and they both walked off; Jevidah glared at them all and walked off very disappointed. Sirius and James followed after Nissa and Lily.
"Hey wait up will you." James shouted after them.
Lily stopped and turned round to face him, he smiled at her but she didn't smile back at him.
"I can't believe the two of you just did that, he's a teacher and head of Slytherin house." Lily told him. "And you wonder why I don't like you."
"Lily..." Nissa started but she was walking again.
"It's like she thinks I'm a bad guy, Nissa should tell her the truth." James told Sirius as they walked.
"There he is." Sirius said and he was off again, after Snape this time; they stopped him and pinned him up against the wall. "Hi, Snape what are you doing far away from Slytherin on your own?"
"What does it matter to you what I'm doing?" Severus said calmly.
"Everything." Sirius said.
"You think you're so hard, but your numbers are down again this month." Severus said. "I wonder where he could have gotten to again; his mother can't be sick or she would have been on her death bed for the past five years, and she always looks well at the station."
James and Sirius looked at one another and then back at Snape, Sirius suddenly had an idea and smiled somewhat; a little pay back.
"Well if you want to know that much." Sirius said.
"What?" James and Snape said together.
Sirius took James to one side and explained, but James was all for having fun but this was different; he wasn't really up for this but he agreed all the same. They went back over to Snape and explained how he could find out, Snape of course was a little suspicious of them both giving this information up so willingly; but he wanted to know so he accepted it.
"You know, you shouldn't have told him." James told him as they walked up to the tower to get his invisibility cloak.
"He shouldn't have done what he did, should he; it was Jevidah he knows what their all like." Sirius was angrily.
"Yeah he does, but he doesn't know what he did; and you know it." James told him.
"So." Sirius said simply.
Nothing else was said, but James was having second, third and fourth doubts; he knew that they shouldn't be doing this that they had gone to far this time, even he had his limits what he would do; though he never thought he would meet them.
They both went out under the cloak, it was getting dark; Madam Pomfery had already taken Remus down to the Whopping Willow and was on her way back. Sirius went to hide under the trees at the edge of the forest as a dog while James took the cloak to check on where Snape was and to see if he was really going to come down.
James sat on the bottom steps waiting for him, he only had to wait ten minutes before the doors opened again and Snape himself was stood there; he looked out over the grounds and then made his way over to the Whopping Willow. James got up and quietly followed him over. They stood in front of the furious tree, Snape looked around for a twig something to use on the knot at the base of the tree; he had been told will get him inside.
He spotted a twig, James was getting worried as he picked it up and reached out to stop the tree; as soon as he pressed it the tree stopped moving and he crawled under the benches. James went quickly after him; they both crawled under the tree and down the hole.
As he walked along he could hear something, like moaning and then there was growling; james could hear as well. It was getting lighter they were coming to the end; James could hear him even louder now. He flung off his cloak and grabbed hold of Snape and started to drag him back down the tunnel but he didn't want to come.
"What chickened out." Snape said, then they both stopped because this time the growl was even louder and sounded as though it was coming towards them. Severus saw fur, and wasn't so sure anymore that he wanted to know what was down there; and let James pull him out.
They come out of the hole the benches swing at them, but Severus looked back one last time and he saw it; he saw Remus as a werewolf.
"What the hell do you think you were doing?" Snape shouted as he walked almost ran back towards the school.
"Wait." James shouted after him, Sirius came running up beside him.
"What did you do?" Sirius asked.
"I couldn't, and you wouldn't have either if you would have gone down." James told him.
They ran up the steps and across the entrance hall after Snape, he tripped over the hem of his robes and they dived to stop him going any farer.
"Get the hell off of me!" Severus shouted at them.
"NO, not until you promise not to say anything." Sirius told him kneeing him in his side.
"And what's going on here?" Dumbledore asked.
They all looked up he had been the last person they would have thought they would have ran into, though they didn't know why now because he did seem to know everything that went on in the school. Severus though was pleased to see him.
"Lupin Professor he's a werewolf." Severus told him.
"I see." Dumbledore said.
"What does that mean? You knew and you still let him in here?" Severus demanded.
"Maybe we should go up my office boys, unless the three of you want to stay on the floor with one another." Dumbledore said calmly.
They all looked at each other and got quickly to their step and followed Dumbledore to his office, they didn't speak again until they reached his office; where he indicated that they should all sit. James and Sirius both sat down but Severus was still angry and took up pacing the office instead.
"Now, I am not sure how you found out Mister Snape; but yes Mister Lupin is a werewolf." Dumbledore told him once he had settled himself into his own chair. "I have known from the start, he is quit safe where he is."
"But he's a monster, he could have killed me." Severus shouted.
"Yes, he could have if Mister Potter here hadn't saved your life; though I am also sure that you wouldn't have been in danger in the first place if they themselves hadn't encouraged you to find out." Dumbledore said. "I am very disappointed in you, I thought that your friendship towards Mister Lupin meant more then your vendetta against Mister Snape."
"It does." They both said together.
"That makes it even worst of course, when you have to explain yourselves to him when he returns." Dumbledore went on. "And he will return, Mister Snape. I must ask something of you now, you know what he is. I will ask you to keep it to yourself and never to tell anyone else, or I must erase your memory of finding out; though of course that won't solve the problem because you will still want to find out why he leaves so often. And I really don't want to keep erasing your memory every time this happens."
"So either way I have no choice." Severus said, he thought for a moment glaring all the time at Sirius and James. "Fine. I won't say anything."
"Good, I'm glad that you chose that course of action." Dumbledore said pleasantly.
"I'm not, what if he says something?" Sirius demanded.
Dumbledore looked at him for a moment before he answered. "I am sorry to say, but considering what has happened here; the same could be said of you as well Mister Black."
Sirius didn't like being told this but he knew it was right, but he wasn't going to say so in front of Snape. They left the office and then they would have to wait until Remus came back to explain to him, which they weren't looking forward to doing.
Remus went down to breakfast early before most of the school came down, not wanting to see any of them dreading the worst; Nissa walked up behind him and sat down next to him and smiled.
"Morning." Nissa said pleasantly. "You don't look that good, you look even worst then normal; are you alright?"
2Then no one knows?" Remus asked.
"No one knows what?" Nissa asked him confused.
"Severus never told anyone I'm a werewolf." Remus answered. "He knows he saw me."
"What but how?" Nissa asked.
"I don't know." Remus admitted. "But you, Sirius, James and Peter are the only ones who know; and I know that none of you would never say anything. Dumbledore would never tell him of course, why would he."
"I don't know Remus, I didn't see them the first night of the full moon; and since then they've been avoiding me so I don't know what could have happened." Nissa told him.
Peter walked in the hall first, and then turned back to James and Sirius to tell them that he was there; they all walked up to join them.
"Remus says that Severus knows how can he?" Nissa asked them before they even had chance to sit down.
James and Sirius looked at one another and then sat down facing them both.
"Well, it's my fault." Sirius told them. "I told him how to get past the Whopping Willow, if he wanted to find out why you disappeared every month."
Remus and Nissa just looked at him; neither of them could believe what they were hearing.
"You wouldn't." Nissa whispered.
"I'm sorry." Sirius said not looking either of them in the face.
Remus stood up and walked out, Nissa looked back at the two of them and then went after Remus; he walked down to the entrance hall and outside. Nissa pulled her cloak round her as she followed him outside.
"Remus." Nissa said.
Remus stopped for her. "Your not going to defend him are you?"
"I want too, I really do." Nissa admitted. "But I can't this is wrong, he went to far; I don't know why he did it I'm not sure I want to know. But I do want to know what you're going to do now."
"What can I do, he knows; I'm surprised that everyone else doesn't already." Remus said. "Unless he was waiting for me to come back so he could do it with me there."
"I'll talk him, please Remus don't do anything stupid." Nissa told him.
Nissa left him and went to find Severus straight away, she past James and Sirius on her way back in while they were going out to talk to Remus.
"I don't believe you, we trusted you." Nissa said. "I thought he meant more, but I was wrong."
"Nissa please." Sirius pleaded, but she had already walked off. "I'm an idiot, why don't I think before I do something?"
They walked over to Remus by the lake, he was sat under their tree where they always sat; they didn't sit down to start with. They looked at one another and then finally sat either side of him so that he couldn't get away from them.
"I'm sorry Remus; I was stupid; you know what I'm like." Sirius told him. "I was angry with him and Jevidah after he had handed her over. I know its wrong; but I didn't think."
"That's just it, you don't think." Remus told him. "I thought with this I could trust you, and now Severus knows; him of all people."
"He won't say anything, Dumbledore made him." James told him.
"That still doesn't make it alright, because he still knows." Remus told them.
They were still friends, but they were earning Remus' trust back and Sirius was also trying to make it up to Nissa as well; which turned out to be a lot harder. It was coming up to the end of the year and their O.W.L.S, and caress advice as well; what they would want to do after they left school.
Nissa hadn't gotten a couple of laughs when she had said that she wanted to be an Auror; but she just ignored them and went on telling them all the lessons she would have to take, just as many as she's doing now.
It was the full moon before the exam's, and Nissa had agreed as it being the last one of their fifth year that she would go out with them all; Sirius was chuffed thinking that she was finally coming around again.
They went down earlier while Nissa finished up with Lily and came up with some sort of excuse of leaving, then she made her way down. She was walking through the entrance hall, when she heard someone coming up from the dungeon's. She hide in the cupboard until they past; it was Jevidah and he was reading a letter; she knew who that writing belonged too. She couldn't help herself she stepped out of the cupboard and walked down the stairs, and stopped right in his path; not that he notice her at first though.
"So how is Infidus?" Nissa asked making him jump.
He straighten himself and then smiled at her, quit pleased to see her; and didn't seem to care that she was out after hours. He stepped closer but she grabbed his wrist and twisted it taking the letter off of him and pushing him back, making him fall backwards tripping over them hem of his robes.
"I don't think that Infidus would be glad that you were walking around the castle with this, now would he?" Nissa said pleasantly.
Infidus smiled at her, as he tried to get to his feet; but he didn't seem capable so he made to grab her leg but she kicked it away. And without words he was on his feet in front of her and was having his hands tied behind his back and lifting off the ground.
"So how do you like being tied up?" Nissa asked him, as she waved her hand and more ropes appeared tying his feet and legs.
"Let me down, and you won't be in as much trouble as you are now." Jevidah told her.
"I don't think that you're in any place to be telling me what to do." Nissa told him pleasantly, she held out her hand and his wand flew into it; she smiled at him and it burst into flames. "I think I should just give this to Dumbledore and see what he makes of it. Oh, and don't move so much; if you do you could end up losing something."
The ropes had moved all around his body in quit strange places, and in some of those places the rope seemed to sharp to be just rope; so he did what she told him as she walked away, what else could he do but stay where he was.
Nissa came back about fifteen minutes later with Dumbledore and McGonagall, who didn't at all seemed surprised who they found him; well that was because she had told them what she had done to him.
"Professor I am very disappointed in you, one of my own staff in league with Voldermot." Dumbledore said. "There are Auror's on the way."
"What! You're going to believe the word of a stupid child over mine!" Jevidah shouted at them.
"Yes I am, and this letter of yours as well." Dumbledore told him. "I think it best that we keep you bond until they get here, encase you try to escape."
"Come Miss Tiania, I'll take you back to your dorm." McGonagall told her.
"No, not just yet they'll want to talk to her." Dumbledore said.
They didn't have to wait long for the Auror's to arrive, they kept Jevidah bond just changed his ropes.
"You did a very good job Miss Tiania, and these ropes are very impressive." Auror Higgs told her, he smiled at her. "And where is his wand."
"She burnt my wand!" Jevidah shouted. "It just went up in flames in her hand."
They all looked at her, as if waiting for her to tell them if this was true.
"I did, I'm sorry did you need it; because I could always recreate it." Nissa told them.
"Sorry, you don't have to be sorry." Higgs told her. "I just hope that when you leave school that you'll think about becoming an Auror, we could use someone like you."
Nissa smiled at him, a little embarrassed.
Next morning the school was talking about Jevidah leaving in the middle of the night, and there being a fight of some sort and two Auror's coming as well. No one really knew what had happened.
Nissa ran into the hall and sat down next to Sirius and Remus.
"Why didn't you meet us last night?" Sirius asked her.
"Was it something to do with all this talk about Jevidah?" James asked.
"Yes, he was arrested." Nissa told them all, and now everyone was listening. "He was a Death Eater and in league with Voldermot,"
"Wait a minute how do you know all this?" matt asked her.
"You didn't did you?" Sirius asked her excitedly.
"I don't think he liked being tied up." Nissa said smiling. "And for the fact that he could of lost something if he moved."
"What does that mean?" Lily asked her.
Nissa turned round and smiled at her. "Well they weren't really ropes, well not normal ones anyway. They were razer sharp."
"Oh god, please don't say anymore." James said knowing where she was going. "I know I hated him..."
"So is he still in one piece?" Sirius asked.
"Yeah, shame." Nissa said sounding disappointed.
"I don't get it." Ella said.
Sirius laughed not at her, but the thought of what could have happened; while James tried not to think about it.
"Well, if he moved he could have lost his dick." Nissa told him.
Ella screamed, she hadn't meant too; but everyone laughed at hearing this they had all kind of thought along those lines but to hear it out loud was another thing. They didn't know what had happened, but none of them liked him.
"So you're trying out to be an Auror already are you?" Jake said.
"Why shouldn't she." Sirius said.
The whole talked about it until they were leaving going back home, it had gotten around kind of what Nissa had done; and she wasn't at all popular among the Slytherin's even with Severus.
AS they walked through the station pushing their trolleys to meet Mr and Mrs Potter, Sirius stopped Nissa so that he could speak to her alone.
"Nissa, I'm sorry about everything what I've done wrong this year." Sirius told her, and stopped her quickly before she said something back because he wasn't finished. "I just need to say this. I hope that one day that one day that I'll be good enough for you to take me as your mate. I know myself that I even I wouldn't want me, not at the moment anyway. But one day, hopefully."
Nissa smiled at him; then she hugged him tightly and kissed as he always kissed her. Their friends cheered as they past them kissing, while holding her with one hand he waved them away with his other; and then gave up and just lost himself in the moment with her.
(A/N: - Thanks for all the views; I'm glad that enjoyed the story so far. There are still more to come in the series, so I hope that you'll keep reading. I'll finish writing them all in time, as well as my own books; just bare with me.)
It was the Christmas holidays, everyone had gone home besides a hand full of student's; which of course the normal ones stayed as they always did, they liked to stay so they could get up to no good. Sirius had twisted Nissa's arm into staying, he didn't after all want her staying in her shop and flat on her own after what had happened; he wanted her by his side so that they could all keep an eye on her.
Nissa was walking a little way in front with Remus and Peter, who she still wasn't sure she liked; with James and Sirius behind them.
"I am glad that you stayed." Sirius told her for the hundredth time since she had agreed to stay; she had hoped it would have been for an easier life because she knew that they could have left the school and come and visited her which she didn't want them getting into trouble especially for something like that.
"I wish that you would join us the next full moon." Remus told her.
Nissa was quit surprised by this, he didn't often bring up the subject himself; but when he did they made full advantage of it.
Remus had missed her during the last full moon, he knew that she wasn't his but she still felt like it when he was a werewolf and missed her when she wasn't with him.
"Yeah come on Nis, what do you say." Sirius said.
"It wasn't the same without you, more the merrier I say." James agreed. "We don't mind having two werewolves to look after, well not that you need looking after of course it's just a saying you know."
"Thanks, but I can't; I can't trust myself so I can't change under the full moon." Nissa told them.
"Of course you can, we've seen you." Remus said. "I thought that you had control over it."
"Its not control, I don't control her and she doesn't control me." Nissa told him. "It's that we have an understanding, we've learnt how to live with one another. So if I change she, I might do something stupid."
"It isn't stupid if you rip that bastard to pieces." Sirius said angrily.
Nissa turned round and smiled at him. "It's wrong, that's what it is. I know he was wrong as well, but it doesn't mean that two wrongs make a right; so I can't change not until I'm ready and I know that I won't do anything."
Sirius wanted to argue with her, but he knew there was no point; so he smiled back at her. "Find, but when you do change, and you have too because you go all moody and acting odd; I'm coming out with."
Nissa nodded in agreement, and turned back round and carried on walking.
"What about tonight then?" Sirius asked. "No ones around just us, and it'll give you a break as well."
"I don't know, I'll think about it." Nissa told him.
"And I'll just take that as a yes." Sirius told her smiling.
They went to the Great Hall and had something to eat, but Sirius dragged her outside telling the other's they would see them later; they said bye and went back up to the tower.
"Sirius what are you doing?" Nissa asked him trying to get past to go back inside.
"I just want to spend some time with you, even if we don't change; well I can even if you don't." Sirius told her, which she smiled. "See now that's what I like to see, but there a bit few and far between nowadays."
They walked across the grounds through the snow over to the lake, which was frozen over.
"Sirius, I don't blame you for what happened; you don't need to put this act on all the time." Nissa told him.
"It isn't an act, and it is my fault; I shouldn't have ignored you." Sirius told her.
"You know the stupidest thing in all this, is that I can look after myself." Nissa told him as she walked forward and stopped about an meter from the water's edge; and then she pointed at the lake. "Accendere!"
Sirius watched in amazement as the whole lake started to melt and defrost before his very eyes; he looked from the lake to Nissa.
"How did you do that?" Sirius asked her as she turned back round to him.
"I told you I was different." Nissa told him. "I'm better with the heat then with the cold, you remember that day of course; you helped me I never thought that you could but you did."
Sirius just looked at her astonished that she was able to defrost the whole lake; and hear she was as though this was nothing to her.
"I think I'm more annoyed at myself for not doing anything, I could have I just didn't." Nissa told him and then she smiled at him. "I don't balm you, I really don't; I'm glad that you're here for me now."
"I should have been there for you from the start." Sirius told her.
Nissa smiled at him and then sat down on the ground, the only ground that didn't have any snow on it; he walked over and sat down beside of her and put his arms around her.
Nissa smiled to herself as she rested her head against him, feeling warm and safe out in the snow with him as the quarter moon started to rise in the darken sky.
***
They enjoyed Christmas considering what had happened before, but with them looking out for her; it wasn't too bad. They were all sat up in the common room the night before everyone was due back, when Sirius received an owl.
"Hey great, it's from Andromeda." Sirius told them as he open the letter.
Dear Sirius,
Hope your well, and the year's going alright. I have great news, I'm Mrs Tonks now not Black anymore, and we've had a little girl; I've called her Nymphadora.
"Andromeda's married and she's had a daughter." Sirius told them smiling.
"That's great, what's she called?" Nissa asked.
"It was to Ted Tonks right, a muggle?" James asked.
"Yeap, he's a muggle; good on her." Sirius said smiling. "Nymphadora."
They all looked at him, waiting for him to tell them the real name; but he just smiled at them.
"Seriously?" James asked.
"I know I like unusual names, but that is going to next extreme wouldn't you say." Nissa said. "Not that it isn't nice of course."
"Don't worry she's always been like that." Sirius reassured them.
"Oh that reminds me Sirius, I got a letter from Bellatrix the other day; don't really know why she does." Nissa told him. "But anyway, Narcissa is engaged to Malfoy; everyone's very pleased of course."
"Sirius pulled a face, he had never really liked Malfoy and now he was going to be somewhat related well he could be already because pureblood families like to intermarry with one another; not that he really cares because he doesn't consider himself one of them anymore.
"Well at lest mother will be happy about one thing this year." Sirius said, and then went back to the letter.
You'll have to come around and see us at our new house, and Nymphadora as well; she's beautiful. I know you can't get any time off, but over in the summer; and I'll send you some pictures until then.
Love from Andromeda & Ted Tonks
Sirius opened the envelopes realising that there was something else in there, it was a photo of them all; Andromeda, Ted and baby Nymphadora all smiling and waving at him. Sirius smiled to himself as he watched them.
***
Christmas was over and it was back to lessons with everyone back, and the first full moon of the New Year was already here. Sirius had tried once again to get Nissa to come out but she said 'no', and he had left it at that.
But Severus though had been getting suspicious of the whole thing for quit a while now, about Remus disappearing once a month every month since they had started; he hadn't really paid much attention to him why should he but it had been fives years, and he wanted to get to the bottom of it.
Remus had left the table early to go up to Madam Pomfery, because he couldn't just walk out of the main entrance; they told him they would see him later wicking so no one would notice.
"So Lily..." James started.
"What ever it is, no." Lily said flatly.
James looked a little hurt but Nissa just smiled at her.
"You should give him a break." Nissa whispered. "He isn't that bad you know."
Lily just smiled slightly but didn't say anything else, Nissa though was looking over the hall towards the Slytherin table she wanted to talk with Severus she needed a little help with her potions homework and did not want detention. She saw him he was getting up to leave, Nissa quickly got as well.
"I'll see you later; I need to speak with Severus." Nissa told them as she walked off.
"Ok, see ya in a bit." Sirius said not really listening to her; she was already out the hall when they all looked up realising what she had said. "She's going to see Snape, is that what she said?"
"Yeah." James said.
"Come on, just to keep an eye on her." Sirius said.
"You know, she's a big girl she can look after herself you don't have to watch her like you do." Lily told him. "I know you're not going out anymore, but if its bugging you that much just ask her out."
"You won't go out with me." James told her.
"That's different, maybe if you didn't act like such a, a..." Lily shot back at him. "Oh, it doesn't matter."
Lily got up to leave, but James was following her wanting an answer why she wouldn't go out with him.
"Come on Lil's." James said with Sirius and Peter following; well only because he wanted to check on Nissa and Snape.
"Severus wait up will you." Nissa shouted after him as she ran over to catch him up. "Why are you in such a hurry?"
"It doesn't matter." Severus told her, but he didn't slow down.
"Of course it doesn't that's why you're almost running." Nissa said. "I just needed to know if you'll help me with my potion's homework."
Severus stopped she had got his attention. "What your boyfriend not up to scratch for that sort of thing?"
"What, he's fine; and anyway he's not my boyfriend." Nissa told him. "Well you or won't you?"
Severus smiled at her suddenly, she wasn't really sure if that was a good thing or not; he was sometimes hard to read.
"Fine I'll help you and you can help me with something." Severus said.
"Ok then, but first what is it?" Nissa asked him slowly a little unsure what she was getting herself into.
"It isn't that big of a deal, so I'm sure you can help me." Severus told her. "I just want to find out what Lupin is up too; you know where does he go every month."
Nissa looked at him for a moment that had been the last thing she had been excepting, Severus was watching her as if to she if she'll show any sign's that she already knows the answer; but he couldn't tell. Nissa smiled at him and linked his arm turning him back down to the great hall, her long hair flowing behind her and the two buns set upon her head making her look taller then him.
"So you're not interested?" Severus asked her.
"It's his business not ours." Nissa told him.
"Come on Nissa." Severus said but he could see that this was one thing she wasn't going to help him with, and pulled his arm out of hers. "Fine I'll find out on my own without your help."
Just then Jevidah was walking past, and without meaning too Severus pushed her back into him; which he enjoyed very much. Severus walked off leaving her with him, Nissa pulled away from him but he kept a firm grip on her arm.
Sirius and James had just come out of the hall; Sirius spotted Nissa talking with Snape; and then Jevidah. Sirius punched James in the arm and almost ran up the stairs; James looked round and saw the same thing.
"Sorry Lily got to go, we'll finish this later." James told her as he dragged Peter up the stairs as they went after Sirius.
"Hey Nis!" Sirius shouted almost knocking Jevidah over as he reached them, Nissa fall into his arms because he had been pulling to get away. "We're going to the common room."
Lily came up behind them not impressed with their behaviour and grabbed Nissa's hand herself and they both walked off; Jevidah glared at them all and walked off very disappointed. Sirius and James followed after Nissa and Lily.
"Hey wait up will you." James shouted after them.
Lily stopped and turned round to face him, he smiled at her but she didn't smile back at him.
"I can't believe the two of you just did that, he's a teacher and head of Slytherin house." Lily told him. "And you wonder why I don't like you."
"Lily..." Nissa started but she was walking again.
"It's like she thinks I'm a bad guy, Nissa should tell her the truth." James told Sirius as they walked.
"There he is." Sirius said and he was off again, after Snape this time; they stopped him and pinned him up against the wall. "Hi, Snape what are you doing far away from Slytherin on your own?"
"What does it matter to you what I'm doing?" Severus said calmly.
"Everything." Sirius said.
"You think you're so hard, but your numbers are down again this month." Severus said. "I wonder where he could have gotten to again; his mother can't be sick or she would have been on her death bed for the past five years, and she always looks well at the station."
James and Sirius looked at one another and then back at Snape, Sirius suddenly had an idea and smiled somewhat; a little pay back.
"Well if you want to know that much." Sirius said.
"What?" James and Snape said together.
Sirius took James to one side and explained, but James was all for having fun but this was different; he wasn't really up for this but he agreed all the same. They went back over to Snape and explained how he could find out, Snape of course was a little suspicious of them both giving this information up so willingly; but he wanted to know so he accepted it.
"You know, you shouldn't have told him." James told him as they walked up to the tower to get his invisibility cloak.
"He shouldn't have done what he did, should he; it was Jevidah he knows what their all like." Sirius was angrily.
"Yeah he does, but he doesn't know what he did; and you know it." James told him.
"So." Sirius said simply.
Nothing else was said, but James was having second, third and fourth doubts; he knew that they shouldn't be doing this that they had gone to far this time, even he had his limits what he would do; though he never thought he would meet them.
They both went out under the cloak, it was getting dark; Madam Pomfery had already taken Remus down to the Whopping Willow and was on her way back. Sirius went to hide under the trees at the edge of the forest as a dog while James took the cloak to check on where Snape was and to see if he was really going to come down.
James sat on the bottom steps waiting for him, he only had to wait ten minutes before the doors opened again and Snape himself was stood there; he looked out over the grounds and then made his way over to the Whopping Willow. James got up and quietly followed him over. They stood in front of the furious tree, Snape looked around for a twig something to use on the knot at the base of the tree; he had been told will get him inside.
He spotted a twig, James was getting worried as he picked it up and reached out to stop the tree; as soon as he pressed it the tree stopped moving and he crawled under the benches. James went quickly after him; they both crawled under the tree and down the hole.
As he walked along he could hear something, like moaning and then there was growling; james could hear as well. It was getting lighter they were coming to the end; James could hear him even louder now. He flung off his cloak and grabbed hold of Snape and started to drag him back down the tunnel but he didn't want to come.
"What chickened out." Snape said, then they both stopped because this time the growl was even louder and sounded as though it was coming towards them. Severus saw fur, and wasn't so sure anymore that he wanted to know what was down there; and let James pull him out.
They come out of the hole the benches swing at them, but Severus looked back one last time and he saw it; he saw Remus as a werewolf.
"What the hell do you think you were doing?" Snape shouted as he walked almost ran back towards the school.
"Wait." James shouted after him, Sirius came running up beside him.
"What did you do?" Sirius asked.
"I couldn't, and you wouldn't have either if you would have gone down." James told him.
They ran up the steps and across the entrance hall after Snape, he tripped over the hem of his robes and they dived to stop him going any farer.
"Get the hell off of me!" Severus shouted at them.
"NO, not until you promise not to say anything." Sirius told him kneeing him in his side.
"And what's going on here?" Dumbledore asked.
They all looked up he had been the last person they would have thought they would have ran into, though they didn't know why now because he did seem to know everything that went on in the school. Severus though was pleased to see him.
"Lupin Professor he's a werewolf." Severus told him.
"I see." Dumbledore said.
"What does that mean? You knew and you still let him in here?" Severus demanded.
"Maybe we should go up my office boys, unless the three of you want to stay on the floor with one another." Dumbledore said calmly.
They all looked at each other and got quickly to their step and followed Dumbledore to his office, they didn't speak again until they reached his office; where he indicated that they should all sit. James and Sirius both sat down but Severus was still angry and took up pacing the office instead.
"Now, I am not sure how you found out Mister Snape; but yes Mister Lupin is a werewolf." Dumbledore told him once he had settled himself into his own chair. "I have known from the start, he is quit safe where he is."
"But he's a monster, he could have killed me." Severus shouted.
"Yes, he could have if Mister Potter here hadn't saved your life; though I am also sure that you wouldn't have been in danger in the first place if they themselves hadn't encouraged you to find out." Dumbledore said. "I am very disappointed in you, I thought that your friendship towards Mister Lupin meant more then your vendetta against Mister Snape."
"It does." They both said together.
"That makes it even worst of course, when you have to explain yourselves to him when he returns." Dumbledore went on. "And he will return, Mister Snape. I must ask something of you now, you know what he is. I will ask you to keep it to yourself and never to tell anyone else, or I must erase your memory of finding out; though of course that won't solve the problem because you will still want to find out why he leaves so often. And I really don't want to keep erasing your memory every time this happens."
"So either way I have no choice." Severus said, he thought for a moment glaring all the time at Sirius and James. "Fine. I won't say anything."
"Good, I'm glad that you chose that course of action." Dumbledore said pleasantly.
"I'm not, what if he says something?" Sirius demanded.
Dumbledore looked at him for a moment before he answered. "I am sorry to say, but considering what has happened here; the same could be said of you as well Mister Black."
Sirius didn't like being told this but he knew it was right, but he wasn't going to say so in front of Snape. They left the office and then they would have to wait until Remus came back to explain to him, which they weren't looking forward to doing.
Remus went down to breakfast early before most of the school came down, not wanting to see any of them dreading the worst; Nissa walked up behind him and sat down next to him and smiled.
"Morning." Nissa said pleasantly. "You don't look that good, you look even worst then normal; are you alright?"
2Then no one knows?" Remus asked.
"No one knows what?" Nissa asked him confused.
"Severus never told anyone I'm a werewolf." Remus answered. "He knows he saw me."
"What but how?" Nissa asked.
"I don't know." Remus admitted. "But you, Sirius, James and Peter are the only ones who know; and I know that none of you would never say anything. Dumbledore would never tell him of course, why would he."
"I don't know Remus, I didn't see them the first night of the full moon; and since then they've been avoiding me so I don't know what could have happened." Nissa told him.
Peter walked in the hall first, and then turned back to James and Sirius to tell them that he was there; they all walked up to join them.
"Remus says that Severus knows how can he?" Nissa asked them before they even had chance to sit down.
James and Sirius looked at one another and then sat down facing them both.
"Well, it's my fault." Sirius told them. "I told him how to get past the Whopping Willow, if he wanted to find out why you disappeared every month."
Remus and Nissa just looked at him; neither of them could believe what they were hearing.
"You wouldn't." Nissa whispered.
"I'm sorry." Sirius said not looking either of them in the face.
Remus stood up and walked out, Nissa looked back at the two of them and then went after Remus; he walked down to the entrance hall and outside. Nissa pulled her cloak round her as she followed him outside.
"Remus." Nissa said.
Remus stopped for her. "Your not going to defend him are you?"
"I want too, I really do." Nissa admitted. "But I can't this is wrong, he went to far; I don't know why he did it I'm not sure I want to know. But I do want to know what you're going to do now."
"What can I do, he knows; I'm surprised that everyone else doesn't already." Remus said. "Unless he was waiting for me to come back so he could do it with me there."
"I'll talk him, please Remus don't do anything stupid." Nissa told him.
Nissa left him and went to find Severus straight away, she past James and Sirius on her way back in while they were going out to talk to Remus.
"I don't believe you, we trusted you." Nissa said. "I thought he meant more, but I was wrong."
"Nissa please." Sirius pleaded, but she had already walked off. "I'm an idiot, why don't I think before I do something?"
They walked over to Remus by the lake, he was sat under their tree where they always sat; they didn't sit down to start with. They looked at one another and then finally sat either side of him so that he couldn't get away from them.
"I'm sorry Remus; I was stupid; you know what I'm like." Sirius told him. "I was angry with him and Jevidah after he had handed her over. I know its wrong; but I didn't think."
"That's just it, you don't think." Remus told him. "I thought with this I could trust you, and now Severus knows; him of all people."
"He won't say anything, Dumbledore made him." James told him.
"That still doesn't make it alright, because he still knows." Remus told them.
They were still friends, but they were earning Remus' trust back and Sirius was also trying to make it up to Nissa as well; which turned out to be a lot harder. It was coming up to the end of the year and their O.W.L.S, and caress advice as well; what they would want to do after they left school.
Nissa hadn't gotten a couple of laughs when she had said that she wanted to be an Auror; but she just ignored them and went on telling them all the lessons she would have to take, just as many as she's doing now.
It was the full moon before the exam's, and Nissa had agreed as it being the last one of their fifth year that she would go out with them all; Sirius was chuffed thinking that she was finally coming around again.
They went down earlier while Nissa finished up with Lily and came up with some sort of excuse of leaving, then she made her way down. She was walking through the entrance hall, when she heard someone coming up from the dungeon's. She hide in the cupboard until they past; it was Jevidah and he was reading a letter; she knew who that writing belonged too. She couldn't help herself she stepped out of the cupboard and walked down the stairs, and stopped right in his path; not that he notice her at first though.
"So how is Infidus?" Nissa asked making him jump.
He straighten himself and then smiled at her, quit pleased to see her; and didn't seem to care that she was out after hours. He stepped closer but she grabbed his wrist and twisted it taking the letter off of him and pushing him back, making him fall backwards tripping over them hem of his robes.
"I don't think that Infidus would be glad that you were walking around the castle with this, now would he?" Nissa said pleasantly.
Infidus smiled at her, as he tried to get to his feet; but he didn't seem capable so he made to grab her leg but she kicked it away. And without words he was on his feet in front of her and was having his hands tied behind his back and lifting off the ground.
"So how do you like being tied up?" Nissa asked him, as she waved her hand and more ropes appeared tying his feet and legs.
"Let me down, and you won't be in as much trouble as you are now." Jevidah told her.
"I don't think that you're in any place to be telling me what to do." Nissa told him pleasantly, she held out her hand and his wand flew into it; she smiled at him and it burst into flames. "I think I should just give this to Dumbledore and see what he makes of it. Oh, and don't move so much; if you do you could end up losing something."
The ropes had moved all around his body in quit strange places, and in some of those places the rope seemed to sharp to be just rope; so he did what she told him as she walked away, what else could he do but stay where he was.
Nissa came back about fifteen minutes later with Dumbledore and McGonagall, who didn't at all seemed surprised who they found him; well that was because she had told them what she had done to him.
"Professor I am very disappointed in you, one of my own staff in league with Voldermot." Dumbledore said. "There are Auror's on the way."
"What! You're going to believe the word of a stupid child over mine!" Jevidah shouted at them.
"Yes I am, and this letter of yours as well." Dumbledore told him. "I think it best that we keep you bond until they get here, encase you try to escape."
"Come Miss Tiania, I'll take you back to your dorm." McGonagall told her.
"No, not just yet they'll want to talk to her." Dumbledore said.
They didn't have to wait long for the Auror's to arrive, they kept Jevidah bond just changed his ropes.
"You did a very good job Miss Tiania, and these ropes are very impressive." Auror Higgs told her, he smiled at her. "And where is his wand."
"She burnt my wand!" Jevidah shouted. "It just went up in flames in her hand."
They all looked at her, as if waiting for her to tell them if this was true.
"I did, I'm sorry did you need it; because I could always recreate it." Nissa told them.
"Sorry, you don't have to be sorry." Higgs told her. "I just hope that when you leave school that you'll think about becoming an Auror, we could use someone like you."
Nissa smiled at him, a little embarrassed.
Next morning the school was talking about Jevidah leaving in the middle of the night, and there being a fight of some sort and two Auror's coming as well. No one really knew what had happened.
Nissa ran into the hall and sat down next to Sirius and Remus.
"Why didn't you meet us last night?" Sirius asked her.
"Was it something to do with all this talk about Jevidah?" James asked.
"Yes, he was arrested." Nissa told them all, and now everyone was listening. "He was a Death Eater and in league with Voldermot,"
"Wait a minute how do you know all this?" matt asked her.
"You didn't did you?" Sirius asked her excitedly.
"I don't think he liked being tied up." Nissa said smiling. "And for the fact that he could of lost something if he moved."
"What does that mean?" Lily asked her.
Nissa turned round and smiled at her. "Well they weren't really ropes, well not normal ones anyway. They were razer sharp."
"Oh god, please don't say anymore." James said knowing where she was going. "I know I hated him..."
"So is he still in one piece?" Sirius asked.
"Yeah, shame." Nissa said sounding disappointed.
"I don't get it." Ella said.
Sirius laughed not at her, but the thought of what could have happened; while James tried not to think about it.
"Well, if he moved he could have lost his dick." Nissa told him.
Ella screamed, she hadn't meant too; but everyone laughed at hearing this they had all kind of thought along those lines but to hear it out loud was another thing. They didn't know what had happened, but none of them liked him.
"So you're trying out to be an Auror already are you?" Jake said.
"Why shouldn't she." Sirius said.
The whole talked about it until they were leaving going back home, it had gotten around kind of what Nissa had done; and she wasn't at all popular among the Slytherin's even with Severus.
AS they walked through the station pushing their trolleys to meet Mr and Mrs Potter, Sirius stopped Nissa so that he could speak to her alone.
"Nissa, I'm sorry about everything what I've done wrong this year." Sirius told her, and stopped her quickly before she said something back because he wasn't finished. "I just need to say this. I hope that one day that one day that I'll be good enough for you to take me as your mate. I know myself that I even I wouldn't want me, not at the moment anyway. But one day, hopefully."
Nissa smiled at him; then she hugged him tightly and kissed as he always kissed her. Their friends cheered as they past them kissing, while holding her with one hand he waved them away with his other; and then gave up and just lost himself in the moment with her.
(A/N: - Thanks for all the views; I'm glad that enjoyed the story so far. There are still more to come in the series, so I hope that you'll keep reading. I'll finish writing them all in time, as well as my own books; just bare with me.)