Disclaimer: Harry Potter isn't mine. So Sirius isn't mine and neither is Remus (too bad, really, I'd love to own my own Sirius and my own Remus), as well.
Pairing: Sirius/Remus, what else?
Genre(s): Angst/Romance/Drama
Summary: Sirius made a promise to Remus, which he almost broke when being sent to Azkaban, though it was kept by his return. Now his promise has been broken for good, and Remus can't take it. SB/RL, OoTP spoilers.
PoV: Remus
Archive: Slashfiction.net, possibly Fanfiction.net, LJ.
Empty
By: Spellcastre/Vitani Alycion
I stare down into my tea, and I can see the light reflecting in it. I can feel the warmth of it through my hands cupped around the mug. One sigh, to break the silence. One sigh, before I'm trapped in memory world again…
We were young…and we were lying together, encircled in the caring embrace of each other, when finally he broke the silence.
"Remus?"
"Yes, Sirius?"
"You just gave yourself to me."
"Don't you think I know that?"
Sirius smiled at me after I said that. I will never forget that dazzling smile of his. It always brightened my day, it was always there to lift me up. He snuggled closer.
"I'll keep to it, then. I'll stay with you forever," he told me.
I smiled into his chest, enjoying the feeling of his warm arms around me.
"You promise?"
"I promise, Moony. I'll always be there."
He lied to me. He didn't know it, but he still lied. He PROMISED me he'd always be there, but he isn't here! Sirius isn't next to me, he's not laughing that uplifting laugh of his that made my heart flutter every time I heard it, he's not smiling and holding me like he always did. He just came back to me from…from that horrible place, and I remember the first thing he said when it was just the two of us alone:
"See, I promised I'd always be there."
He had kissed me after that. Kissed me so passionately, that I believed that he'd keep his promise. I believed it, because he had returned, and he was there to be there for me again.
But…now…
"SIRIUS, YOU LIAR!"
I throw the mug at the wall, and it smashes, and the tea splashes everywhere. A few drops catch a place under my eye. It burns, but I don't care anymore. I let the droplets of tea slide down my face, as I just stand there…
Soon I just sink to the floor and bring my knees up to my chest, and I hug them close to me, putting my head there, and crying. I feel so helpless, and it's driving me insane. I miss him so much. It's too much.
Sirius, why did you do what you did?
Sirius, what will I do now?
Sirius, will you ever return to me?
Sirius…please…I'm so empty without you.