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~Don't try to fix me I'm not broken
Hello,
I'm the lie, living for you so you can hide
Don't cry~
Trip looked up as Phlox approached Malcolm's biobed.
"He cried himself to sleep," Trip told him quietly. "He told me what they did to him,"
"I know," said Phlox.
"Will he be ok?" Trip asked, staring at his friend's sleeping face.
"It depends on your definition of ok," Phlox replied evenly. "Physically he should be fine, mentally-who knows?"
Trip nodded.
"Time for you to go get some rest yourself," Phlox told him.
~~~~~~~~~Malcolm's mind~~~~~~~~~
It's just me and you brain. Great.
So how do I feel?
I honestly don't know.
I guess, I'm upset, angry, annoyed, desperate, guilty, pleading, hoping, praying, wishing, hating and I don't know what to do.
I'm the bloody armoury officer and they broke me, the bastards broke me.
What use am I now?
What bloody use am I now?
Maybe I should end it all.
Should I?
I don't think............I want to.
I'm tired of running.
Time to stop and face this head on.
I can't hide me forever.
I gotta deal with this thing.
Time to stop running.
~~~~~~~~~~~~Normal~~~~~~~~~~~
Malcolm woke slowly, his eyes still red and puffy.
He laid there quietly, enjoying the silence for a moment.
About ten minutes later he heard sickbay doors open. He propped himself up into a sitting position.
"Hi Malcolm,"
"Hello Hoshi,"
"You look like hell,"
"Thanks, it's called being ill."
"You ok?"
"Well, I've been better,"
"Everyone's been worried about you,"
"They have?"
"Yup,"
Malcolm had a coughing fit and Hoshi waited patiently for it to pass.
"I just wanted to make sure you were alright,"
"Thanks for coming Hoshi,"
"I might come see you later if that's ok with you,"
"Fine by me,"
Malcolm blushed and watched Hoshi walk out again.
"Good morning, feeling better?" Phlox asked cheerily.
Malcolm considered his question a moment.
~I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried
so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter~
Malcolm nodded.
Sickbay doors opened.
Phlox walked away to tend to his menagerie.
"Mornin' Mal"
"Morning Trip,"
There was a lengthy pause until Malcolm took a deep breath and said:
"I'm ready to talk now."
"Tell me everything?"
He nodded.
Trip sat down and waited.
~*~Please review! I'm not sure if this makes much sense......hmm........well the first song extract was Hello by Evanescence and the second was In the End by Linkin Park. I think the next chapter will be the last~*~
~Don't try to fix me I'm not broken
Hello,
I'm the lie, living for you so you can hide
Don't cry~
Trip looked up as Phlox approached Malcolm's biobed.
"He cried himself to sleep," Trip told him quietly. "He told me what they did to him,"
"I know," said Phlox.
"Will he be ok?" Trip asked, staring at his friend's sleeping face.
"It depends on your definition of ok," Phlox replied evenly. "Physically he should be fine, mentally-who knows?"
Trip nodded.
"Time for you to go get some rest yourself," Phlox told him.
~~~~~~~~~Malcolm's mind~~~~~~~~~
It's just me and you brain. Great.
So how do I feel?
I honestly don't know.
I guess, I'm upset, angry, annoyed, desperate, guilty, pleading, hoping, praying, wishing, hating and I don't know what to do.
I'm the bloody armoury officer and they broke me, the bastards broke me.
What use am I now?
What bloody use am I now?
Maybe I should end it all.
Should I?
I don't think............I want to.
I'm tired of running.
Time to stop and face this head on.
I can't hide me forever.
I gotta deal with this thing.
Time to stop running.
~~~~~~~~~~~~Normal~~~~~~~~~~~
Malcolm woke slowly, his eyes still red and puffy.
He laid there quietly, enjoying the silence for a moment.
About ten minutes later he heard sickbay doors open. He propped himself up into a sitting position.
"Hi Malcolm,"
"Hello Hoshi,"
"You look like hell,"
"Thanks, it's called being ill."
"You ok?"
"Well, I've been better,"
"Everyone's been worried about you,"
"They have?"
"Yup,"
Malcolm had a coughing fit and Hoshi waited patiently for it to pass.
"I just wanted to make sure you were alright,"
"Thanks for coming Hoshi,"
"I might come see you later if that's ok with you,"
"Fine by me,"
Malcolm blushed and watched Hoshi walk out again.
"Good morning, feeling better?" Phlox asked cheerily.
Malcolm considered his question a moment.
~I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried
so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter~
Malcolm nodded.
Sickbay doors opened.
Phlox walked away to tend to his menagerie.
"Mornin' Mal"
"Morning Trip,"
There was a lengthy pause until Malcolm took a deep breath and said:
"I'm ready to talk now."
"Tell me everything?"
He nodded.
Trip sat down and waited.
~*~Please review! I'm not sure if this makes much sense......hmm........well the first song extract was Hello by Evanescence and the second was In the End by Linkin Park. I think the next chapter will be the last~*~