© Maki Murakami
The song that made Suguru act the way he did (at the NG café) (a.k.a., it gave me inspiration on what the hell he was gonna do) –
Artist - Namie Amuro
Album - Genius 2000
Track - 05
Title – Respect the Power of Love (and only the version from Genius 2000, not the Single Collection! I think they are different, because 'Love 2000' was, and I remember that 'Respect' didn't catch my attention as it did now...but it's still good ^_^)
***See the end for information on where that damn lemon I promised is!***
--Tsukihime333 (@yahoo.com, if anybody wants to contact me ^_~)
P.S. – I apologize in advance for the pointlessness Tsurupeta and Kira have. But, I think that it shows to Suguru that even though he has all this shit going on, others are in even deeper.
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The Fourth Part Of A Potentially Long Short Story
~ Chapter 4/4: Finish ~For Lovers~ ~
Suguru awoke in a cold sweat. He was lying naked over top of several white blankets, and his face was buried in a damp pillow
/Ugh...I must have fallen asleep while I was crying.../ Suguru thought groggily. /Uhn...I'm thirsty from crying.../ he said getting up to turn on the light. He got dressed, and went out to the kitchen to pour himself a large glass of juice.
He poured it, and went to the living room to sit on the couch. Suguru slowly took a sip and placed the cup on the coffee table. He turned to look out the window.
"Ame, ka?" he said sadly "Pathetic Fallacy, desu ka?" he felt tears come to his eyes again, but he shook his head /I'm not going to leave just because of what that note said! I deserve better than that! / Suguru sighed, and turned back to the coffee table. He picked up his cup and twirled the cup a bit. Suguru was doing this, thinking about what had happened, when the door clicked open. Suguru gasped and spilled a bit of the juice on the coffee table.
"Hiro!" Suguru stood up and walked to Hiro when he entered "I was really worried...Hiro...?"
Hiro had large bags under his eyes, and his hair was knotted. He was looking at Suguru that if Suguru said anything, he would be killed.
"THE NOTE" Hiro boomed.
"Uh..." Suguru whispered, "I read it, but I think—"
Hiro raised his hand in front of Suguru's face "You read it. Now do as it says." He finished, walking towards his bedroom.
"Wait!" Suguru yelled, "Do you think that I really can be dumped by some stupid note? Maybe if you weren't leading me on, but you said you loved me, you couldn't live without me..." Suguru trailed off, hoping Hiro would remember this.
"JUST LEAVE" Hiro boomed, this time with more intensity.
"Why? I deserve an answer! I'm gonna have a permanent limp because of you, horny fucker!!"
Hiro turned around, his eyes burning with anger. "Look, I'm leaving our relationship for your sake! Okay? Your fucking sake! Leave me alone!"
Suguru stepped back "Why? I still want us to be together..."
Hiro sighed "It's just better for us to be just co-workers all right? I want to be a father, and you want a relationship with...any random man. So I'll see you at work tomorrow—"
Suguru was clenching his fists, and shaking "Not any random man!! JUST YOU!! HIRO~~~~!" he said, running to Hiro and falling into him.
Hiro just stood there, not holding Suguru closer to him. Suguru wrapped his arms around Hiro tighter, shaking even harder. Hiro bit his lip, but pushed Suguru away from him
"I'm sorry...Fujisaki-san..." Hiro said the last part coldly
Suguru shook his head, and ran out the front door, tears streaming down his face. He ran until he fell face down in a puddle that was in the middle of the sidewalk.
"B-baka." Suguru managed, using his arms to push himself up. However, he failed, and fell back into the dirty water. Suguru gave up, and just rolled on his back in the puddle. He was soaking from all the rainwater, but he was dehydrated from how much he had cried.
/I should just lie here forever...it would be better than going to work tomorrow...ugh, I need food, and some water...drinkable water.../
Suguru curled up into a ball on the empty sidewalk, and shut his eyes.
~ Anti Nostalgic ~
Suguru awoke in a warm bed. It had an orange comforter and sheets, and a door was directly in front of Suguru. Sitting at the end of the bed was Tsurupeta and another unknown figure.
"Hiro!!" Suguru called out, hopping out of the bed, attempting to run somewhere, but he collapsed as he reached the door exiting the bedroom.
"I think maybe you two had a fight?" the other person suggested.
"You're really~~ lucky I found you!" Tsurupeta exclaimed "I never thought I'd see you in this section of town! Especially with all the paparatzzi's around! And you were collapsed on the sidewalk, of all places!"
Suguru nodded "Could I have some food, strange person~~?" he asked as politely as he could, because he hadn't eaten for over 24 hours.
"Anything specific?" the 'strange person' asked
"I really don't care, I'm starving." Suguru said seriously
The 'strange person' nodded, and exited the room
Tsurupeta helped Suguru back into the brightly colored bed, and Suguru quickly asked questions.
"You asked me, but what are you doing in this section of town? You have such expensive tastes, and you being in this shitty area here...I would never expect to see you here!!" Suguru stumbled, poorly wording his sentences due to lack of food and drink.
Tsurupeta sighed, "You don't even care where you are, or who the 'strange person' is, but why I'm here?"
Suguru thought "Oh...well...uh...thas important I guess, but chocolate is good, huh?"
Tsurupeta laughed, "Damn, you are not in a good state of mind are you?"
Suguru laughed just because Tsurupeta did "Uh, huh, but I was thinking like erotic chocolate! Kyhahahaha~~ like melt it and spread it all over Hiro~~~ Kya~~ I'd eat it all."
Tsurupeta raised an eyebrow "Honey, you never cease to amaze me. Almost dead, and think about erotic ways to use chocolate!" Tsurupeta patted Suguru on the shoulder "The world could use more dedicated yaoi men like you!"
"Yeah! But..." Suguru's head fell into Tsurupeta's lap
"Aa-ah, Suguru! Don't!" Tsurupeta yelled.
"Hiro and I aren't together anymore~~~! My happy-happy luvu-luvu fantasy will neva happen now~~ Kya~~"
Tsurupeta started patting Suguru on the back "Daijoubu! Who needs men? You have me! Friends!"
Just then, the 'strange person' walked into the room, and Suguru's head was still in Tsurupeta's lap.
"A---a Kira-san, this is not what it looks like at all!!" Tsurupeta exclaimed to the 'strange person' when he walked in.
Suguru raised his head with all the moving Tsurupeta was doing. "Aa, right, uh...Ki...ba-san~~"
Kira/Kiba looked suspiciously at where Suguru's head had been "What's that white fluid?" he asked, pointing to Tsurupeta's pants.
Suguru blushed "Snot..."
Kira/Kiba laughed "Hai, I'll believe you." he said, placing a tray with hot soup, assorted cold foods in front of Suguru. "After all, he's already cheating on his wife with me." He said, smiling sadly.
"Arigato gosai masu, god!!" he praised, looking directly at Kira/Kiba with tears of happiness in his eyes.
"H-hai...but did you here what I said after I gave you the food?" Kira asked
Suguru shook his head, shoving a banana in his mouth "Ah, this banana reminds me of Hiro~~" he gasped between mouthfuls.
Tsurupeta laughed "I bet I know how~~"
Suguru laughed ecchily, with a full mouth "Kya kya kya...the first time we ever made love" Suguru's eyes filled with tears "Waaaaaaaaahhhhh~~~~~~ I miiiiiiiiiissssss hiiiiiiimmmmm" he cried, nearly spilling the soup in front of him.
"A—aa, but maybe he would forgive you for whatever you did?" Kira suggested, grabbing the soup, and handing it back to Suguru.
"Arigato..." Suguru mumbled, when Kira handed the soup back to him "But, I didn't do anything wrong!! We just (I thought) decided to ignore Ayaka's problems, but nooo~~! When I wake up, there is this note telling me to leave..."
Suguru explained the situation to them frantically, including Ayaka's problems of her child's paternity. When he was finished, he started gulping down his soup, and left Tsurupeta and Kira blankly starting at him.
"Wow, this sounds like a soap opera." Kira said in awe
Suguru nodded "Yep, but this is my life~ Why did Hiro just push me away like that? Aaaa, Kira-san, the fattiest food you have, onegai!"
Kira nodded, and left. Tsurupeta made sure Kira left, and shut the door. "Y'know, Suguru-san...this sounds a lot like what I had to do." Tsurupeta said seriously, sitting at the edge of the bed. "I'm a lot older than you, so I've been more places than you..." he smiled sadly "I'm married to a woman, you know."
Suguru's jaw dropped "Oh my fucking god, no way! You, the gayest man ever, married to a woman!!" Suguru shook his head "No way in hell. Were you drunk and got a Vegas style wedding?!" Suguru scrambled out from the covers, and slapped Tsurupeta-san across the face "You're the one who took me under your wing, who taught me not to be ashamed of anything that I was, and...this!?" Suguru collapsed on the bed "No....way..."
Tsurupeta turned away from Suguru "I'm ashamed too...but I didn't want you to end up like me, so I lied to you so you would be how I wanted myself to be...make sense?"
Suguru nodded "A wife...how?"
Tsurupeta sighed "She was my 'high school sweetheart'. We had grown up right next door to each other, and we played together all the time." he blushed "Although we did mostly play dolls or house..."
Suguru nodded "You do live up to all the gay stereotypes."
"Not on purpose! Dolls are fun!" Tsurupeta sighed. "But back to the story. When we entered high school together, she started to become more possessive of me. She only ever wanted to be with me. But I was always trying to get rid of her. But still, she followed me everywhere...except at night." Tsurupeta blushed "Almost every night, I went to the club. The one I work at now. I—had a boyfriend there. Ken-chan. He was the cutest one to me. Then, one night, when Ken-chan and I had been seeing each other for about six months, Yukie –my wife—confessed her feelings towards me. She said she was in love with me, obviously. I rejected her, but when I got to my house, my mother was waiting for me, like she usually did. She asked me where Yukie was, and I said I had no idea. Apparently, she was in on what Yukie was planning to confess to me, and she was upset when I told her I rejected Yukie. I told my mother that I had someone else, so she asked me to bring 'her' over. So, I did."
"I told Ken-chan that night that he had to come at meet my mother tomorrow. He agreed, and was very excited. However, when I brought him over the next day, my mother was very hostile towards him. When he left, she sat me down, and lectured me for hours on how my behavior was inappropriate, and how I was disappointment. Of course, I wasn't a total idiot, I knew that two men weren't supposed to be having a relationship like that, but I couldn't just leave Ken-chan like that." Tsurupeta stopped himself "To make a long story short, I left Ken-chan, so I could be 'normal' just as my mother wanted. As soon as high school was over, I married Yukie. What I'm trying to say is that Hiro is acting the same way I did. He will probably regret it in a year or less. A marriage with no love will never work, no matter whom it is between. But I want you to be happy. Especially since you look so much like Ken-chan." Tsurupeta reached his hand out and stroked Suguru's cheek. Suguru's eyes widened. Tsurupeta giggled, and dropped his hand. "I'm really in love with Kira-san, you know. I'm thinking of going to Canada with him and getting married."
Suguru started sobbing "Tsu-tsurupeta-saaaan~~ You're so great! Hiro is acting exactly how you did! Ayaka was all like 'be normal Hiro'" Suguru said while rubbing up to Tsurupeta to show how Ayaka was "So he must have listened to her shitty advice! Yeah!" Suguru glomped Tsurupeta to the bed "Wai~~ you have got to be the best man alive~~ you dumped your boyfriend because of your mother, and you married a woman, but now you realized the error of your ways, and you're marrying another man! Yay! I love you!" Suguru said, while burying himself in Tsurupeta's chest "You will convince Hiro that he loves me~~! Ohohohoho...ho..." Suguru stopped when he saw Kira standing at the door, ice cream in hand.
"Whoops, you've caught us two times!" Suguru laughed, hopping off Tsurupeta, and taking the ice cream from Kira "But seriously, we weren't doing anything."
"I know, I've been standing there for a while." Kira sighed.
"Aha, that's good...ara?" Suguru asked "How much did you hear?" he asked, while digging out a scoop of the ice cream.
Kira's eyes welled up with tears, and he threw himself on top of Tsurupeta who was still lying on the bed.
"Don't leave Yukie for me! You have a child together! You can't just leave that behind for me!" Kira cried.
/A child now!!/ Suguru thought angrily, taking everything it took to keep his mouth shut.
"I don't care. I really love you. Today, I'll tell Yukie how much I love you." Tsurupeta said, wrapping his arms around Kira "You're my family. Yukie and I never really loved each other, so she probably won't take it too badly."
"Tsurupeta-san..." Kira said, moving higher, so he could kiss Tsurupeta on the lips. Suguru watched for a few moments.
"Uh, as much as I really want to stay and watch, I'll show myself out." Suguru said quietly "And I'm keeping the ice cream heart"
~ Blind Game Again ~
"Aa, everyone's life is a big shit pile heart" Suguru sighed, dropping onto his couch. After he left Kira's apartment (It took him five minutes to find the door and another 10 minutes to find the elevator), he went shopping and bought himself whatever he wanted.
"I should really buy a car..." Suguru laughed. He was carrying ten bags filled with chocolate and other various useless items, and he had come home by taxi.
"Hmmm, well maybe I should learn how to drive first. Ha, it's not like I can't afford a chauffeur!" Suguru mumbled to himself.
/Oh my god, I've gone completely insane. I'm talking to myself./ Suguru shook his head "Well, I'll check my messages for someone to bitch to. Tsurupeta-san is busy with Kira-san, so I can't go to him..." /Oh shit, I'm talking out loud to myself again.../
The number on the machine blinked 5. "Wai~ I'm so popular!" Suguru exclaimed, as he pushed the play button.
"Suguru-san~~ sexy, where are you? Your cell is turned off and you are starving on the streets~~! I'm scared! Call back!" Tsurupeta's frantic voice called out.
/I'm gone for over 24 hours, and the first call I have is from four hours ago!?/
The next three messages were from other friends Suguru had, who were waiting to hear the 'juicy gossip' he apparently had, according to Tsurupeta.
The last message was a shock for Suguru.
"Ano...Konbanwa, Fujisaki-san, this is Sakano...I just called to tell you that we have recorded one song today without you. If your poor attendance record continues to persist, you can be replaced, just as you were today. Sayo—K-san!!! Dame!!!"
Suguru's eyes widened "Re...placed..." Suguru covered his mouth "But I've only been absent this one time...urrg...how the hell did they finish a song before 4 PM?!" Suguru started shaking his head "Sakano is just trying to psyche me out! Aha, right! I only missed this one day in a row." Tears streamed down Suguru's face "Why the hell am I crying! It's not true! They can't replace me! No..." Suguru whispered. "I'd never see Hiro again..." Suguru started sobbing. He collapsed in the middle of the floor, his bags surrounding him. After crying for a bit, he blindly grabbed into one of his bags.
"Aha, look! A pooping c-cow. Aha ha! So funny. When y-you squeeze it, it poops! Yay!" he managed, biting his lip.
/I can't ask for an explanation. He'll just get mad at me again.
But, if I can just be near him.../ Suguru's eyes welled up with
tears "Ahahaha, cow-san..." ha said to distract himself. /...I always thought if I could be near him, it would be okay.../
"Aaaaaa~~~!!!!!! Everything in this house reminds me of Hiro!! All the years I spent idolizing him from afar! Grrr!! I must kill everything that reminds me of Hiro!!!! Stupid bastard, leaving me for some stupid tramp! KYAAAAAAAAA~~~~" Suguru burst out. He sighed, and sat down on the couch. "Maybe I'll destroy him after I phone Takeshi-san, Atsushi-san and Norita-san."
~ Super Drive! ~
Suguru entered NG studios the next morning tired.
/All night, they kept phoning me with ideas! 'Oh, Suguru-san, you should kick his ass!' 'Let's go and stick it in his ass, see how he feels' aarrrrg, those ideas aren't ALL bad, but Norita-san, you came up with the best idea of all.../
Suguru entered the studio with a smile "Ohayo! Sakano-san, I'll be here everyday now~ Ara?" Suguru asked when only Hiro was standing in the studio.
"Uh...Ohayo, Nakano-san." Suguru, as happily as he could.
"Fujisaki-san..." Hiro replied back.
"Aaaaa something is definitely wrong here!~ You two are alone in the studio, and all you do is say 'ohayo'! God damn!" K exclaimed, coming in from the main entrance of the booth.
"K-K, maybe they were about to do something!!" Sakano cried, trying to pull K back out of the studio.
"I don't think they were!! Hiiiiro, you would move faster than that! I know you!" Shuichi blamed, pointing a finger at Hiro as he entered as well.
"Uh...was this a setup to see if we would do anything?!" Hiro asked.
"Well, we received a phone call here from one of Suguru's friend's, saying that if we saw Hiro, to 'kick his stupid ass and tell him to get back with Suguru,' but since neither of you came in for work, we couldn't really do that..." Sakano explained
"But you said you recorded a song without me!!" Suguru yelled
"Oh, we did, but just Shindo singing acapella" Sakano said, sticking out his tongue. "We also really wanted both of you here, so we used that threat on both of you."
"Now, what's the deal!!" Shuichi asked "Are you two really broken up?! Hiro~~~"
"Uh...that is..." Hiro blushed, scratching his chin.
"Yes, we are." Suguru said sharply "We decided it was better we went our separate ways. But I'm sure you're glad, Sakano-san. The non-yaoi fanbase will be happy. "
Sakano sighed "Well, we calculated that most of the fans wouldn't have minded, that we could even potentially make money off of it, if we marketed it correctly."
"Oh well, you can't control what we do." Suguru said bluntly, going into the recording booth. "Now, did Shindo-san receive the lyrics for 'Burnin' Namida!' (the song Nakano-san and I worked on last time)?"
"A—Hai!" Sakano said, hustling Hiro and Shuichi into the studio.
Shuichi entered the studio a stunned look on his face, but quietly walked up his mike, and put on his headphones. "Yosh, Let's start!"
After four hours, Sakano felt that they had sung the song well enough, so they were allowed to take a break, but were expected to return in an hour to record another song, one that a professional had written.
"Aaaaa, I'm really glad we only record three songs a month! I need a break!" Shuichi whined, collapsing on a leather couch located right outside of their studio.
"Wouldn't it make more sense if we did the next song maybe two weeks from now? To give your voice a rest?" Suguru asked, taking a sip from his water bottle.
Shuichi shook his head "Nope, nope Suguru-san~! Cuz me an' Yuki are goin' on a vacation! Waaai~~ I'm soooo happy~~~~" Shuichi squealed, grabbing on to Suguru's arm. "Ah, you are..." Shuichi shook his head "uh...Suguru-san, about Hiro...you two had a fight, ne?"
Suguru sighed "Something like that. But Shindo-san, you are closer to Hi—Nakano-san, so you should hear about it from him."
Shuichi removed his grasp on Suguru's arm, and his eyes went serious "I already have. Don't tell him I said this, but he phoned me last night. And he was crying, asking me what he did, and why. And that is was normal to have a gay relationship. Of course, I assured him it was...and anyway, he told me everything." Shuichi paused "If Hiro is really that important to you, you wouldn't care about what happened the night he left you in his apartment alone."
"He left me, Shindo-san. He left me all alone, with only a note. And I begged him to stay with me! Do you know about that part? Well? What would you do if the one you loved for such a long time rejected you? Well, I'm not going back to Hiro! I don't need his shit, going between Ayaka and me! I'm just fine on my own!!" Suguru's eyes welled with tears, and he bit his lower lip "See? Damn it, I keep crying because of that stupid piece of shit! Aaaaa!! I hate hi---m" Suguru's voice broke, and tears streamed down his face.
Shuichi hugged Suguru tightly. They were silent for a few moments before Shuichi spoke "I know how you feel, and I think that Hiro feels the same way."
"About Ayaka!!" Suguru cried.
"About you."
"Then why doesn't he just tell me that!?"
Shuichi paused "I think he wants to do what is best for everyone by marring Aya—Ara? Suguru-san?"
"Marry?" Suguru asked angrily, standing up "Did I hear you correctly?"
"Whoops!" Shuichi slipped a hand behind his head "Looks like you didn't hear about that."
"Damn right! Where the hell is he??" Suguru asked furiously "He can't just stick it in my ass and leave!!"
"Uh...I think he's at the NG café that's on the fourth—" before Shuichi could finish, Suguru was already running to the elevator. Suguru was up to the fourth floor in about a minute, since they were on the third floor. When the elevator stopped, he ran all over the fourth floor, looking for the café. He found it at the center of the floor, which was a tourist area, with several gift shops.
Suguru looked through the window, and Hiro was sitting there, reading a newspaper while sipping a coffee. "HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIRRROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~" Suguru yelled as he slammed open the glass door of the café.
"Sir, please be careful!" An effeminate cashier said in a small voice.
"Um...Fujisaki-san." Hiro said nonchalantly, only briefly turning his head to Suguru.
"Are you getting married?????????!!!!!!!!!" Suguru asked frantically, slamming himself in the seat across from Hiro.
"Hmmm? Ah, I am." Hiro said, folding up his newspaper 'Why do you care?"
"You know why I care!" Suguru cried, slamming his hands on the table. "I was really taking our relationship seriously, but now you're getting married to Ayaka? I can't stand it!!!~~~"
"But why? We broke up remember?" Hiro said, looking away from Suguru
"Yeah, but it wasn't exactly consensual!" Suguru stood up, but sat back down. He took a deep breath and continued "I can't stop you if you get married. I can't stop you if you decide to claim Ayaka's child. But I just want to know why you decided to waste a few days of your life with me. No more talking about other bullshit. Tell me."
Hiro stared at the table "I thought you were cute. I figured a few days wouldn't hurt...? Besides," Hiro looked at Suguru straight in the eyes, with a deathly cold look "It's only you who was interested in me before those days. It's only you who's suffering." Hiro stood up and walked to the exit of the café. "Sayonara." He said, before exiting.
Suguru almost turned into a blubbering fool right there, but instead, he stood up and followed Hiro. /Norita-san...maybe I can't stay independent from him after all.../
"It's never 'sayonara'~~~!!" Suguru called after Hiro.
"Nani?" Hiro asked turning around "Is that a lyric, Fujisaki-san?"
Suguru stuck out his lower lip "Grrrr, you make me really angry sometimes! I'm not gonna leave you alone until you tell me...uh..."
"If you don't want anything, leave me alone." Hiro said coldly.
"...uh...why did we have sex for almost six hours? Aa yeah...uh I mean that it was your first time too! Yeah! If you were going to have such a fun weekend, why lose your virginity with a stupid one time fuck?" /Haha...being so worried over Hiro almost made me lose my edge.../
Hiro glared at Suguru "Fine, I really liked you." Hiro laughed "But now, I want to be normal! With a wife and kids, it's been my dream..." Hiro turned away from Suguru.
"Hiro..." Suguru said softly.
"NAKANO-SAN!" Hiro yelled.
"A..aa" Suguru whispered /It sounds like he's crying.../
Hiro turned around, and there were tears streaming down his cheeks. Seeing that made Suguru lose his nerve too, and he started crying too. Suguru fell to the floor, and Hiro quickly went after him.
"B-but it's better for us like this! We can still be friends and nothing bad will ever happen with the press...and you can walk without a limp again!" Hiro futilely grasped onto excuses.
"B-but I want a limp!" Suguru tried to counter.
Hiro crawled over to Suguru "We look so...so...stupid! Like this on the floor! Why did we decide to become a couple! I don't want to become such an odd person, with a boyfriend!! What the hell do you say to people who look at you oddly?!"
"But, you accept Shindo-san so openly!! Didn't you say that it didn't matter if it was two men?" Suguru sobbed, getting on his knees and placing his hands around Hiro's face.
Hiro looked up at Suguru "I said that when Shuichi first told me that he was in love with Erie, but I never applied it to myself..." Hiro got on his own knees, and threw himself on top of Suguru "You deserve someone better than me. Please, let's stop this! I think you need someone more responsible than me!!"
"Hi-Hiro..." Suguru stopped himself "Mmm. You're right." He said, lightly shoving Hiro away. "I'm sure you will be a good father. I'm sorry for following you up here, and embarrassing you in front of...the girly cashier...hmmm, maybe I should ask him out..." Suguru smiled, and giggled slightly. "Well, I'm going to go home now! Tell that to K and Sakano, Kay?~"
"Aa." Hiro agreed. They both stood up, and Hiro headed back to the café, and Suguru went down a hall, back to the elevator.
/Nakano-san.../ Suguru thought as he balled up his fist /You are truly vain. An ignorant little shit./ Suguru clenched his fist /...I still want you back./ Suguru sighed /However, I'll be fine on my own. After all, I have my friends...and my pooping cow./ Suguru smiled, and pressed the button to call up the elevator.
~ Six months later ~
"Urrrg...I can't believe the album isn't fuckin' finished yet!!!~~" Suguru whined, slamming on his headphones. Suguru was alone in the recording studio, waiting for Hiro. Today they were set to write the music for the lyrics they wrote.
/Heh, I wrote mine about how much I loved Hiro...such a kid back then.../ Suguru smiled /and of course Nakano-san wrote his about his beloved Ayaka...he's lucky he got the one he wanted./ Suguru thought with a smile.
The reason that it had taken so long for the album to be completed was because after Hiro left Suguru for good, it left Suguru with no hope. No matter how much he tried, his friends and cow could not keep his mind off the one thing he wanted. So, Suguru retreated into hiding for two months, never leaving his penthouse. He cried, ate, slept, ate, went shopping on-line, ate, wrote, ate, talked on the phone, ate and ate. After gaining twenty pounds, he decided it was time to move on.
/Aha...starving myself is really doing the trick.../ Suguru thought, patting his stomach. /I've lost 17 pounds~/
When Suguru and Hiro met for the first time in two months, things were tense. However, they had work to do together. When they had to do this, Hiro was surprisingly friendly. The two never mentioned the few days they spent together as something deeper, and things had been normal ever since.
/Hmmm...I wonder if it ever happened.../ Suguru thought, then giggled out loud.
"Ano...Suguru-san, please try to keep calm!" Sakano's voice boomed over the speaker.
/Urrrrgggg...did those two have another fight???/ Suguru thought angrily. He looked through he glass window, and noticed that K wasn't molesting Sakano. /Geez, that is a perfect example of why one should be alone forever./
The three waited tiredly for a few more minutes, when Shuichi burst in the room. "Miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~ HIRO IS HAVING THE BABY~~~~~"
"Ah? Congratulations." Suguru said politely forced, although nobody heard him because he was in the studio and his microphone wasn't on.
"Oh my!! We should get to the hospital ne, K?" Sakano asked K politely.
"Oh yes. Let's go." K said, ushering them out of the studio.
"Um...I guess I'll go home." Suguru sighed /It's going to take a lot to keep me away from Ebay...and I think I bought some chocolate cake.../
"Oh, Suguru you come too." Sakano said, as he popped his head in the studio one last time.
"But Sakano-san!! You know we used to go out! I cannot go to the birth of his child! Ayaka will kill me!!"
"Ano...that would be troublesome..."
/Troublesome!! I'd be dead!!/ "Ahaha, so I think I will go home..."
"Oh no, you cannot! The press needs to make sure all of you are there! If they report that Suguru wasn't there, that could lead to an even bigger rumor..."
A few months ago, right after Suguru got back on his feet, a rumor broke out that Suguru had not been attending recordings for the new album, and that was why the album was delayed. Of course, that was the truth, but a few tabloids got hold of the information that Hiro and Suguru dated. Which was true as well, but the two pieces of information were linked together. Sakano almost had a heart attack, and K tried to set them up in compromising situations. The whole thing blew over in a week, but Suguru nearly had a relapse of his compulsive eating disorder.
"Okay, fine I'll be there!!" Suguru agreed angrily. /What will I do.../ Suguru thought, but quickly composed himself /I'll just say congratulations! Happy baby! Uh...healthy AND happy! All right I got something!/ Suguru's eyes teared up /No, no I'll be happy! This is his dream.../
"Ano...all you have to do is say 'congratulations' and leave if it is that painful." Sakano said, walking up to Suguru and patting him on the shoulder.
"I-I know but...I suppose I haven't gotten over him yet." Suguru smiled weakly. "And more than him being with me, I want him to be happy." Suguru shook his head "I know that sounds corny, but it's true! Like, for example, say K wanted to run away to Rome with some slutty chick ,okay? Would you stop him? Of course not, because you want him to be happy, ne Sakano-san? ...ano I said ne, Sakano-san...?"
Sakano got a frightened look on his face "H-how did you know? K~~~~~ matte yo~~~~!" he yelled, running out of the studio, and down the hall.
"Well, that was weird." Suguru shook his head. He exited the studio as well, eager to see what would happen next.
"But Sakano," K started "It's too late now! I cannot go to Rome with that whore anymore!! She left with Taki (from ASK)!!"
/Wow, I'm good/ Suguru thought as he trailed the two.
~ Yuutsu Na Seven Days ~
"Ooookay, now I don't know how long it takes to give birth (and hopefully I never will heart) but I think five hours is long enough right??" Shuichi asked Suguru as they reached the delivery floor. The floor and walls were off-white in the large room. There were about five doors on the far wall, and there were two halls leading presumably to other rooms. On the right wall was a receptionists desk, and across on the other was a visitors waiting area.
"Actually, it can take anywhere from 2 to 24 hours. But those are the most extreme cases, usually it's 7 hours or so." Suguru shrugged off casually.
"Wow, you're knowledgeable Suguru-san!!" Shuichi exclaimed in awe
"Actually, the author made those facts up off the top of her head." Suguru said casually.
"What?"
"Ano...I mean didn't your learn that is Sex Ed class? I was really anxious to see some...well..." Suguru blushed.
Shuichi looked cluelessly at Suguru, but then burst out "Aaaa, I get it. Well don't worry, we were all interested in women at one point or another."
"Actually I never was...but uh, I guess I see what you're saying..." Suguru quickly added the last part.
"Then what!" Shuichi asked
"Aha...nothing." Suguru blushed, and quickly turned away from Shuichi.
"Awa nani nani nani nani nani~~~~" Shuichi pried "C'mon, I'm curious now!!"
"Well..." Suguru beckoned Shuichi closer "I always thought that I could give birth to children one day..." Suguru whispered.
Shuichi burst out laughing "S-so what, you researched child bearing a lot?? Didn't it ever say that it's impossible for you!?"
Suguru blushed "Lower your voice!! And I was only like seven, and they said stuff about sperms and eggs...I don't know, I liked the tadpoles though." Suguru laughed "Still do!"
"Oh my god, you must have been so heartbroken when you learned only women give birth!!"
"Actually, I found out the hard way..."
Shuichi drew closer to Suguru with a curious look in his eye "Aha...so how did you find out..."
"Why the hell am I telling you this!!" Suguru exclaimed, stomping his foot on the floor. "I cried for days after I found out I could never have a child in my stomach!!"
"Ah, you! I've been here for hours, and you are just arriving now!" A voice from behind them boomed. It was Yuki, who looked extremely glad to see them.
"YUKI~~!!" Shuichi exclaimed, kissing him on the lips. "Gomen, but K and Sakano were driving! They had a fight and drove around for hours, while we listened. Eventually, K took Sakano to his house and...well, I was left to drive cuz Suguru can't!! Anyways, we were lost and and..."
"Okay, well the child isn't out yet...ah, who's this." Yuki asked, pointing to Suguru.
"I think you know who I am..." Suguru said, glaring.
"Oh, right. Fujisaki huh?" Yuki asked "I know who you are, you're right! But what are you doing here? Wouldn't you rather curse this child, because it caused you and Hiro to break up?"
"W-well, that is..." Suguru stood up straight "That is, I want Hiro to be happy. And if his happiness does not include me, I am all right with that!"
Yuki grunted "Yeah, I'm sure. Everyone has jealousy in them. I cannot believe that you are just sitting and taking it easily."
"Well, did Shuichi-san tell you that I spent two months in my penthouse, without leaving because I was mourning Hiro?" Suguru asked sharply.
"Yep, but still..." Yuki shook his head. "Anyway, Nakano-san was out here looking for you a while ago, Shuichi. He want's you to be with him."
"Uuuu..." Shuichi cringed "But I only ever want to see your ass Yuki!!"
"Just go. It's a miracle of life." Yuki said, kicking Shuichi into a closed door.
"Uuuf. Yuuuuukiiiiii~~~~" Shuichi started, but Hiro opened the door.
"Come in Shuichi. Ayaka says it's okay, and she also want's Erie, but he refused!" Hiro said, exasperated.
"Aaaa Yuki why aren't you gooooiiiing~~" Shuichi asked.
"I only ever want to see your ass, honey." Yuki called as he flipped through a magazine from his seat in the waiting room.
"Uuuuwaa not fair! You saw all those sluts before you met meeeeee~~~" Shuichi cried.
"Come in for me. I'm nervous—uh, Suguru! What are you doing here??" Hiro asked, sounding surprised
"...Just for the media..." Suguru blushed. /He called me Suguru again happy little chibi dancing!!/
"Oh...well..." Hiro was at a loss for words.
"Uh...I'll wait out here." Suguru smiled, as he went over to Yuki, and took a seat beside him.
Hiro shut the door, and Suguru grabbed on to Yuki's arm "D-d-d-did you see how he called me Suguru!!!~~Eeeeek~~~" Suguru started shaking Yuki's arm and squealing.
"What the hell are you doing!" Yuki asked, glaring down at Suguru.
"He, he called me by my first name~~heart" Suguru giggled.
"Yeah, but your freaking out so loud that he probably heard." Yuki said sighing.
Suguru froze, and sat up straight in his chair. "Uh...it's nice that band mates have such closeness..." Suguru announced loudly.
Yuki sighed "How big a load of bull that is. You were just freaking out because he said 'Suguru'. You're not over him yet, are you? You could have stayed in your cave until you died, right?"
"Of course not! I was gaining so much weight, and I had to make a living right?" Suguru defended
"Do you want to know what I have to say about your situation?" Yuki asked seriously. "Because I've been living with Shuichi for close to three and a half years now. I've also written over 100 Romance novels, and I'm still popular with fans. So what I am about to say is serious."
Suguru nodded, and Yuki continued "Do you know how many times Nakano has been over, crying? And how many nights he's slept over, interrupting me and Shuichi's time together?" Yuki paused "Countless. Almost every night this month, he's slept over, and cried to Shuichi until he fell asleep. And he was crying about you, about how he could have easily left Ayaka 'that time' but now you probably hated him. Oh my god, I'm fucking sick of it." Yuki shook his head, as to get rid of the memories. "But anyway, I always thought it was a hopelessly one sided love. Until this. You two are so hopelessly in love with each other, but for the 'common good', you're just staying away from each other." Yuki sighed "In this world, there is no right or wrong type of love. Just love. And if you two cannot see that..." Yuki shook his head "I don't want anymore nights of Nakano's crying..."
Suguru looked wide-eyed at Yuki "But...but its too late now!! He's going to be a father and it would be unfair to Ayaka!" Suguru burst out.
Yuki looked at Suguru with violent eyes "Be more selfish! Do you honestly want to be alone for the rest of your life! Even if you're not alone, you'll still remember Hiro as the one who got away, and every other man will never measure up to him! You still have time! Go!"
Suguru shook his head "I—I can't..." he whispered.
Yuki sighed, and pulled out a cigarette
"Yuki-sama, you can't smoke in a hospital!" another visitor said.
"Yeah, well did you hear what this stupid fuck just said? It would drive anyone to smoke out of spite." Yuki said, raising an eyebrow. The woman looked away "C'mon, it's okay to admit you were listening."
"W-well yeah, I was listening...aah, but I'd never spill any of the stuff I heard to the press, I swear!"
"Ah, a Bad Luck fangirl as well. So, don't you think that Fujisaki is being an idiot?" Yuki asked
"Erie-san~" Suguru tried to stop Yuki.
"Ah, well what he does is his own business..." the woman said shyly
"But, still he's a total baka, ne?" Yuki asked "Now, if you promise to keep quiet, remember that rumor a few months ago..."
"Eiri-san, what are you trying to do!? Rip apart the NG empire!?" Suguru asked.
"No, I'm trying to get Nakano-san out of my bedroom." Yuki sighed. "Besides, think about it. You both are obsessed with each other, so just give up on trying to be 'normal'."
"Uh...I know I'm not 'normal', but Hiro is!!" Suguru exclaimed.
"Um...Suguru-sama...aaaa!~ I'm actually talking to you!!" the woman interrupted.
"Yeah, but if that's all you had to say, I'm talking to someone as well." Suguru replied rudely.
"Uh...uh...well, I think Yuki-sama is right! I'm not too much for yaoi, but I always thought that you and Hiro-sama were really cute together! Onegai, ganbare!" The woman pumped her fist.
"Besides, what have you got to lose?" Yuki added, tipping some ash off his cigarette on to the coffee table.
"Yeah. Yeah! You two are right!" Suguru stood up "Okay! I'm going for it~~~~~~~!" Suguru said, running to the door where he thought Hiro was.
"Wrong door, fool." Yuki said.
"THEN WHICH ONE IS IT????!!!!~~~" Suguru asked frantically.
"Next one on the right." Yuki said.
"HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~" Suguru cried when he slammed open the door. "I can't be here just as a supportive friend!! I really really like you, and I can't stand by as you take this child as your own! I love you!!"
Hiro's eyes widened "Ju-just saying that now...it's too late..."
"No! No it's not! I don't want you to be with Ayaka! To only be with me! I can't leave you like this!!" Suguru cried, wiping away his tears.
Hiro stepped closer to Suguru. Suguru held his breath. Hiro embraced Suguru, and pulled him closer to him.
"I never wanted to leave you either! It's just that Ayaka would have been all alone...but over the past six months, I could barely live without you! Almost every night I was over at Shuichi's house, crying about what a fool I was!" Hiro cried.
"I know, Eiri told me about it~~" Suguru cried into Hiro's chest. "I was locked away in my penthouse for two months, just eating, and it was because of you!!"
"I thought maybe it was because of me..." Hiro laughed as best he could, as he squeezed Suguru closer.
"I never want to be away from you again!!" Suguru cried, leaning in closer.
"Wow, it looks like those two are going to suffocate..." Shuichi said thoughtfully.
"Aa-aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa" Ayaka screamed.
"Oh, she's still giving birth." Suguru said, but didn't let go of Hiro.
"Ah, Ayaka-san, I'm afraid I cannot be the father of your child anymore! Besides, you don't want to have a child raised by parents who don't love each other, right?" Hiro said, moving his hands up Suguru's back.
"I-I thought ooof tha same thingu..." Ayaka managed, between breaths. "But you fucker! Not telling me this shit e-earlier!! I had a feeling that you missed that slut, but I just thought I was imagining it...Fu-Fujisaki-san, I'll give him up to you...but if I wasn't in labour, I'd fight!"
Suguru smiled "I'm really sorry though Ayaka-san. You will have to be a single parent all by yourself (hence 'single' parent!)!"
Ayaka shook her head "I-I got an e-mail from the real father...he said that he's coming to town, and he'll be marrying me."
"Did he propose over the internet?" Suguru asked.
"Y-yeah, about five months ago..." Ayaka huffed
"F-five months!" Suguru and Hiro exclaimed in unison, still embracing each other.
"Uh...and he said that he would also claim responsibilities for the baby about five months ago too...I was trying to reject you everyday, Hiro! Gomen!!"
Hiro and Suguru's arms dropped to their sides "WHAAAAAAAAAAT~~~~!!!"
Ayaka panted, and stuck out her tongue "Well, you guys can be rid of me forever! Urrrrrrg~~~" she pushed.
"Aaaa~ guys, the little tummy is coming out~~!" Shuichi cried "But, I think something's wrong! It's all covered with blood!"
Hiro and Suguru smacked Shuichi over the head "They're supposed to be like that!" they said in unison.
"D-don't scare me like th-that!!" Ayaka protested.
"Let the doctor through." A female voice came from the doorway. "All friends get out, it's only supposed to be the father...but looking at the three of you, no one is the father right?" the doctor said, in the least offensive way possible.
Bad Luck nodded in unison, and marched out of the room.
"Wait! I want them all present for the bir—aaaaaaaaaaaaa" Ayaka screamed.
"Can't she take a tranquilizer to kill the pain? But, I think I'll pass" Shuichi said, scrambling for the exit. "Father's only!"
"Ayaka!!" A voice from outside the door came. "I'm looking for her! She's supposed to be here today! I know, she told me online, and I'm ready to be her husband!" Hiro and Suguru peeked outside, to see a big burly biker interrogating the frazzled receptionist.
"It must be for her right?" Suguru asked.
"But he's so not her type!" Hiro whispered back.
"Still" Suguru whispered, and turned his head to the biker. "...Are you looking for Ayaka???" he called.
"Oh yeah...hey, you two are those Bad Luck kids, so she must be in there!" the biker ran across the waiting room, and into the labour room.
"'Father's only'" Suguru smiled, taking Hiro by the hand and leading him out of the room.
"One day...will you raise children with me?" Hiro asked.
Suguru nodded "Someday...but for now, all I want is to be with you..."
In the waiting room, Shuichi was sitting on Yuki's lap, and they were casually chatting with the fangirl.
"Oh good, no more sexless nights!" Yuki sighed.
"I'm soooo happy for you!! Hiro, do you want to go on a double date sometime?? Ne ne, we could go to liiiiiiiiiiiiiiike...uh...a ski trip!" Shuichi gushed.
"Thank you Eiri." Suguru said privately to Yuki.
Yuki blushed and looked to the side "It's nothing..."
Suguru linked arms with Yuki.
"O-oi! What the hell do you think you're doing??" Yuki asked loudly.
"Fujisaki-san!!!!!!! That's my Yuki!!!!!!!" Shuichi screamed "EXPLAIN YOURSELF OR ROT IN HELL!!!~~~~~~~~~~~"
"Well, Eiri really cares about you Shuichi, and everyone else around him, even though he doesn't act like it. And I just wanted to give him a little kiss on the cheek to say thank you. He's the one that talked me into going to make an ass of myself, even though it was a really stupid idea. So..." Suguru kissed Yuki on the cheek. Shuichi screamed. "Arigato gosai masu!!!" Suguru exclaimed.
Hiro was kind of pouting, walking in front of them.
"Jealous?" Suguru asked "Don't worry." Suguru said, pinning Hiro up to a wall, and placing his mouth on his.
"You know, watching this isn't so bad..." Yuki said, as Shuichi latched his arm on to his.
When they stopped, Yuki and Shuichi started clapping.
"Wow Fujisaki-san, you really can go at it!" Shuichi hooted.
"Standing on your toes too." Yuki exclaimed sarcastically.
"Well, excuse me, but you know we haven't been together in six months or so~~~"
"Oh, I know." Yuki said, shivering due to his 'sexless' nights.
"Oh, Fujisaki-san, how did you find out you couldn't bear children again?" Shuichi asked cluelessly.
Suguru blushed, and the other three started giggling. "DON'T BRING THAT UP~~~!!!" Suguru yelled. "Oh, I'll tell you tonight, okay darling." He said aside to Hiro.
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Wellp, it's done!! Arigato to deviant-creature-san, who review each chapter, and is gonna upload the lemon to her site for me (site URL will be giver later!)!! (And like two of my shitty sketches, of Kira and Tsurupeta! Remember, they appeared for like a page? And their personal story didn't go anywhere?), to Yuki-Kurai for also reviewing every chapter (It's so nice to have followers! Arigato~~), to Katie (a.k.a. Chibi-ko Ichi) from Japanese class for reading each chapter, and just saying '...it was...good...' each time I asked (and I asked like I was crying and really creepy, not just with normal words...), and to everyone else who reviewed my work, even if it was only once. I seriously freaked out with every comment, very entertaining to watch, I'm sure ^_^
I will be working on a one shot follow up to this story, tentatively title 'Moonlight Shadow'. That's the title only tentatively because there's this DDR song called that, and I love the way the title of the song sounds, but I can't remember what the song sounds like. So I will have to listen to the song to make sure it is appropriate for the two men in my life. ^^
Uuuum...plz email me and tell me...what should my next project be. I'll never bug u again, u can just send reply, and ask never to speak to me again!
Ideas -
1) Eerie Queery! (Ghost!) (The two leads...)
2) Azumanga Daioh (Sakaki X Kaorin, but I will not do lemon for that _ It was hard enough for me to swallow my inexperience for 2 men that I love...sigh, watta prude...)
3) Menkui (Shinobu X Chihiro)
4) Utopia of Homosexuality (Byo Bin X That guy ^^;;;)
5) X Day (Platonic)
6) Paradise Kiss (Isabella X Hiro (yay, another Hiro!!))
7) Weiss (Omi X Aya)
8) Platonic Chain (its 'platonic' chain peoples! Just something fun...)
9) Saiyuki (Sanzo X Goku or Hakkai...or replace the first or with an X...ecchi laughter)
10) Chobits (Yumi X Manager...what was his name again??)
11) Gravi again! (Ryuchi X Tashuha)
Next time, I wanna make something not so romantic, something platonic (...chain...or maybe not) and happy like...oh, and if u email me, don't say 'do whatever u want' cuz yeah, that's kinda my plan. I'll do all these (maybe), but which one first...@.@
Arigato everyone who read this! Please come around for the follow up (bows).