Wishful Thinking
A/N: Sage: Well, after writing a bit of yaoi cuteness for .hack, I'm feeling much better and ready to write in this fic!!
Kaley: What about the other fics you said you'd finish?
Sage: Hush small one…anyway, back to this chapter. I am pleased with how well it was received…
Bakura: Yeah, 11 reviews…not bad, not bad…
Kaley: Oh yeah, thanks Molly-chan for the happy birthday wishes!! I got .hack part three, Disgaea, Pet Shop of Horrors, umm…the manga of .hack, some jeans, lots o cash,
Sage: We get the point, you got spoiled -_-
Bakura: (ahem) Anyway, about Molly-chan, we muses know that you guys are insane…
Sage: Yep, insane I am!
Kaley: I'm just cute! ^_^
Bakura: I put up with it cause it's funny ^_^ Got to admit, living with this kid would be interesting…
Yuki: No, it's terrible I tell you!!
Dark: Yeah, sucks!
Vincent:…it's ok
Count D: Sakura gives me cakes! ^^
Sakura: Count D is cute! ^^
Sage: HEY!!! No talking at once!!
Bakura: Yeah, you guys are too loud!!
Emmy: TOO LOUD TOO LOUD TOO LOUD YAYYYY!!!
Everyone: (sweatdrop)
Ryou (not a muse,oh well): CAN WE PLEASE GET ON WITH IT?!
Sage: Err, right!! (ahem) Well, then, now that my ranting is done, I figure we can start the fic. See, this chapter's a bit different as most of it are Ryou's memories…
Bakura: So, WITHOUT FURTHER INTERUPTIONS START THE RA DAMNED STORY!!!
Ai looked out on the sea below her, the wind sweeping her hair back like long thin ribbons. She smiled and cupped her hands over her mouth.
"OH DEAR!!! OH GRAND AND GLORIOUS HUSBAND OF MINE!!! I HAVE A REQUEST FOR YOU SO PLEASE COME SEE YOUR GIRL!!!" She shouted at the top of her lungs. The ocean below churned and bubbled wildly as she let her hands fall to her sides. Suddenly what looked like a bolt of lightning shot out of the sea and crashed to the ground next to the Goddess. It took the form of a handsome young man with long flowing red hair, long red and gold robes and two particularly long golden bangs falling near his violet eyes.
"Must you wake me?" He rolled his eyes. "I was enjoying my time off from you…"
"Aww, Aries why do you say that?!" Ai pouted at the man. "You hafta miss me!!"
"You can tame me woman but you can't stop me from thinking poorly of your…recent activities…" (A/N: See, in the legend Benten was thought of as very powerful in the love area because she tamed a wild dragon's heart and even married him!)
"What, with Ryou and Bakura?" Ai tilted her head to the side.
"Yes, those two idiots have distracted you from me!!" The man suddenly sulked. "I mean, you and I used to ride through the heavens and sing under the waves!!"
"This is kind of important…" The goddess reached over and brushed her hand over his face. "I mean, I love you more then anything, you know that…it's just that these two are in love and I need to help them, bless them."
"Your blessings do wonders for the sex life too." Aries smirked. Benten blushed and hit him lightly in the shoulder.
"Aries!! Listen, I need your help…a storm is brewing…"
"A storm?" Aries raised an eyebrow. "You mean, one of my special storms?"
"Oh yeah, the works…" Ai grinned and her husband laughed.
"I just remembered why I love you." He grinned back and hugged her tightly. "But be warned, it's going to be one great storm!!"
Ryou had fallen asleep already. Bakura sighed and laid the boy down on his bed. He looked so happy, his lips forming a gentle smile as his chest rose and fell with every breath. His hair spread across the pillow and a few strains graced his cheeks. 'He looks so sweet…my Ryou…' Bakura chuckled and stretched out.
"Well, since you're sleeping I guess I will too." Bakura mumbled, glancing at the resting form. He flopped down beside the boy and watched him. His lips twitched and his hand moved slightly. "Huh, you're dreaming…" Bakura looked him over curiously. "About what though?"
"AH! Accursed table!!" Bakura's voice roared from the kitchen. Ryou peeked his head in. Bakura was standing in front of the stove, shouting angrily at it. It was obvious by the way he was holding his hand that the stove had burnt him. "Damn you for burning my finger!! Feel my pain evil table!!"
"Bakura…" Ryou spoke up. His yami rounded on him. "The stove is hot, I told you not to touch it…"
"It burnt me!" He hissed, pointing at it. "I demand its life in exchange for my burnt finger!"
"It's not a living object…"
"I know that!" Bakura snapped. "I just…grr…Ryou make food!"
"Bakura…" Ryou sighed but smiled and started getting out some food. Bakura always had trouble with the electric stuff. Like the tv, the stereo, the washing machine, the hair dryer, the shower…
"What are you smiling about?!" Bakura yelled.
"I was just thinking about the shower…" Ryou smirked at the look on Bakura's face.
"It tried to kill me hikari!" Bakura cried. "It shot scolding hot water at me!" Ryou burst out laughing and Bakura glared at him. "It's not funny!!"
"No but you running from it naked screaming curses at the top of your lungs is." Ryou grinned and the memory faded into darkness.
"Ryou, where are you going?" Bakura shouted from the top of the stairs. Ryou sighed and turned around.
"School, it's the first day and I really need to get going." Ryou held up his backpack. Bakura sighed and stomped down the stairs.
"You have to go again?!" Bakura frowned. "You went last year! And the year before that!"
"And I still have a few years left." Ryou shrugged. "So yes, I have to go again."
"Why?" Bakura asked. "School is stupid. I didn't go to school."
"Yes and your life went really well didn't it?" Ryou said under his breath.
"What'd you say?" Bakura looked over at him.
"Nothing…anyways, I'm going to be late now…"
"Ah, wait!" Bakura grabbed his arm.
"Yes?" Ryou turned to him. "Do you need something?"
"I, um…err…I…" Bakura groaned. "I don't want to be alone in this stupid house again!"
"Well, then come with me!" Ryou said. "Besides, I'd rather stay home with you then go to school!"
"Then stay home!" Bakura yelled.
"I can't!" Ryou yelled back.
"Why the hell not?!"
"Because dad wants me to get an education!"
"Screw him! He's in Egypt right now!"
"Bakura you're missing the point like always!"
"So you think I'm stupid?"
"I didn't say that!!"
"Just go to your goddamn school if you like it so much! I don't care!"
"I will!"
"Good!"
"Fine then!"
"Go!!"
"I'm going and maybe I won't come back!!" Ryou screamed finally, running out the door and slamming it.
"Go ahead I don't care!" He heard Bakura shout. Ryou sighed and leaned against the door.
"I wish you would…" He muttered sadly. That fight was mild compared to their usual fights but somehow it hurt just as much as the others. "Why does it hurt? It's not like I care about Bakura…oh God I think I do like him…" Ryou sighed and walked off to school with a new thought in his head.
"Ryou…" The white haired boy opened his eyes. It was Bakura, which surprised the small child. It had been a week since his mother's funeral and he hadn't seen Bakura at all since his mom's death.
"B-Bakura?" He rubbed his eyes and looked up at him. "W-what are you doing?"
"I noticed that you haven't slept well lately…" Bakura looked down at him. "It's making your body even weaker then it already is!"
"B-Bakura…I…I…I don't wanna sleep anymore…" Ryou whimpered.
"Why the hell not?!" Bakura glared at him.
"Mommy's not in my dreams in anymore…she's…she dies…in my nightmares…" Ryou looked away from Bakura. Bakura stared down at him.
"Listen boy, your mother is dead and just because you see it in your sleep-" But Bakura's sentence didn't finish. At that moment, Ryou burst out sobbing and buried his head in the pillow. "Stop that!" Bakura yelled. Ryou wailed loudly. "Grr, I said stop!" Bakura grabbed his arm but Ryou pulled away and looked up at the man. Bakura let go in surprise, for Ryou's eyes were full of a strange hate.
"You don't care!" Ryou sobbed. "You don't care! You don't know!! Mommy…I want my mom! Go away!" Ryou balled up his tiny fists and hit Bakura repeatedly in the arm. "Go away or bring her back!"
"I-I…" Bakura gaped at the small child. "I do care…" He said quietly. "Really, I do…"
"No you don't!" Ryou shouted. "You hate me and you hate mommy and you hate everything!!" Ryou choked out between his tears.
"No…Ryou…really…when my mom died, I cried too…" Bakura said, gently grabbing Ryou's fists. "But you have to stop crying now. Would your mother want you to be so sad?"
"Mommy…" Ryou looked down and then nodded. "Alright…Kura…I won't cry…" Ryou laid back down. "But…I…"
"Go to sleep…" Bakura covered Ryou's mouth. "Sleep, we'll talk in the morning. I promise you you'll have good dreams."
Bakura watched these memories fly by in Ryou's soul room. Ryou himself was asleep in the corner, yet this is what he was dreaming about.
"Why are you thinking about all this now?" Bakura wondered out loud. His hikari, of course, didn't answer. He slept on, his body twitching every once and awhile as he moved on to another memory. Bakura was surprised to see it was the one where they first met.
"Huh, it's been a long time since I thought about this…" Bakura muttered as the memory began to play.
Ryou slammed the door and stormed up the stairs, tears flying from his eyes. He threw himself into his room and collapsed on his bed. Burying his face into his sheets, he finally let himself sob. The kids at his new school were no different then any of the others.
"Albino…freak…" Ryou whispered. "I'm not a bad person am I?" Ryou cried harder, his tiny hand grasping his arm, where one boy had punched him that day. "I hate school…I hate everything…" Ryou sobbed softly. "I wish I had a friend…" Of course, he hadn't been expecting anything to happen. No one ever came to help him. His mom was too busy at work and his father was always away on a dig…no one ever stopped to help him…
So I noticed… Ryou's head shot up from the bed and he looked around wildly. That voice was unfamiliar but on top of that, it sounded like…like…Like it came from your head? It did Ryou sat up and looked around more.
"Who's t-there?" Ryou asked nervously. He heard laughing, then he noticed that the strange necklace his father had recently given him was glowing. He hadn't worn it for away since the kids beat him up for that too. He walked over to it and gently touched it with his fingertips.
It's pretty nice isn't it? A great treasure, made of pure gold, I bet it took a long time to make it… This time, the voice sounded much stronger, like the person was behind him or something. Would you put it on? It's harder to talk when you don't have it on… Ryou did as the voice told. Instantly, the necklace glowed brighter and a man appeared in front of him. He looked older, in his late teens, and had a smirk on his face.
"Thanks, now I can talk to you properly." The man knelt down beside the younger boy. Ryou jumped in surprise. Not long did this guy have long white hair like himself but they had the same color eyes! In fact, he kind of looked like an older Ryou.
"Y-you lo-look just like m-me!" Ryou stammered. The man laughed again, his smirk growing.
"Well, of course I do…Ryou correct?" The white haired man grinned. "Cute name, sounds kind of womanly to me though…"
"Um, what's your name?" He asked. The man shrugged.
"Don't remember." He said, sitting on the ground. "I've been in that damn ring so long, I forgot…"
"In here?" Ryou asked, holding up his pendent.
"Yeah, it's called the Millennium Ring." The man said, moving closer to Ryou. "It's one of several treasures I was trying to get but…I got locked in it instead."
"How long have you been in there?" Ryou asked. "My dad said this thing is over 5000 years old…"
"Really?" The man laughed. "Well, then I've been in there that long."
"You must be really hungry!" Ryou said, surprised someone could live so long without food. The man gave him a funny look.
"Err, I don't think you get it…anyways, if I remember this right…" The man looked over Ryou. "I'm now your yami."
"Yami?"
"Your darker half." The man smirked again. "You are my hikari. You and I are destined to be together. Get it?"
"So, you mean we're stuck together?"
"Yep, that's about it…I dunno…" He sighed and leaned against the bed. "I didn't really understand what that idiot Pharaoh was yapping about…I just knew I wanted his treasure."
"Are you a thief?" Ryou asked.
"I'm not just a thief, I'm the king of all thieves, I'm the best tomb-robber and not to mention I'm the best person in Egypt."
"Oh…" Ryou smiled. "You're from Egypt?"
"Yeah…" The man sighed. "I have a feeling we aren't there though…"
"Um, um…" Ryou looked at him. "I think you need a name…"
"I'm not a pet you know." He snapped. Ryou shook his head.
"No, I mean, everyone needs a name…it's really important."
"Fine…" He leaned back then glanced over at the boy. "What's your full name?"
"Ryou Bakura." He said.
"Fine…call me Bakura then. I like that name, sounds powerful."
"Ok Bakura!" Ryou grinned and hugged Bakura. It felt so good to talk to someone, someone who didn't think he was weird.
Oh, we can do this too
Talk to each other in my head?
Yeah, listen, I came out today to help you
Help me?
With get friends and that crap…I'm going to help you
Really?!
Yeah, trust me…
Bakura sighed as that ended. Ryou had been so stupid back then, so happy and bouncy. Then of course, he started to realize what Bakura was doing. Taking over his body, hurting the people at school. His dad realized it too; they moved Ryou to a different school. The same thing happened there as well. Kids who picked on Ryou vanishing into thin air, others turning up beaten nearly to death.
"Nobody touches my hikari…" Bakura muttered. It was what he had thought back then. However, the small, innocent Ryou he loved began to fade away. He soon became depressed and quiet. Bakura knew it was his fault and had tried to fix things but Ryou had begun to hate him. So Bakura hurt him…it had been a stupid idea but sometimes, tough love was needed.
"Not with Ryou though…" Bakura thought sadly. With Ryou, it had just made him become something worse, sad and lonely. So, one day, Bakura erased Ryou's memories of him. All his childhood memories involving Bakura were changed. Ryou thought he had a curse on him, that bad things happened to those who grew close to him. So he pushed people away.
"Bakura…" Ryou murmured in his sleep. Bakura looked over at him. Then however, Ryou's dad finally moved here. That's when Bakura saw Yami, saw the puzzle…and it drove him nuts. He saw that Yami had a hikari, one that depended on him, loved him. Ryou, however, was terrified of Bakura.
"At least, I thought he was…" Bakura sat down on a pile of pillows. "You grew stronger hikari…stronger then I ever have given you credit for…" Bakura laid back and watched Ryou sleep. "You never needed me to help you…I was so stupid…"
"Bakura?" Bakura jumped when he realized Ryou was awake. He rolled off the pillows and stood up. "What are you doing in here?"
"Um, I was just err…looking at some memories…"
"Oh…" Ryou yawned and stood up as well. "Why did you just call yourself stupid?"
"Huh?!" Bakura jumped. "Well, I was thinking…" 'I really should just tell him, tell him what I said…it's no big deal, it won't change anything…so…' "Ryou, you…you're strong…"
"What?" Ryou stared at him.
"You're not weak…" Bakura crossed his arms. "I never should have called you weak…you're strong…"
"Bakura…" Ryou smiled. "Thank you but if it wasn't for you I wouldn't be strong at all."
"Don't say that Ryou…" Bakura looked away. "It's my fault that you were hurt and didn't have any friends and I did those things to you but…"
"Bakura, think about it." Ryou walked over to him. "If you hadn't done all those things, then I'd still be the kid that everyone picks on. I'd still come home crying from school…but those things you did…they weren't good things but they did make me stronger."
"Ryou…I'm sorry…" Bakura stared down at the floor. "I'm sorry I hurt you…I ruined your life…"
"No Bakura, you are my life." Bakura's head snapped up.
"What?!" He cried out in surprise.
"Bakura, you are my life because I…I…" But Ryou didn't get to finish his sentence, because right then, his soul room door burst open and water flooded inside.
A/N: Kaley: (gasps) Sage!!!
Bakura: Evil!!!
Ryou: Don't stop!!! Water, love, Bakura…(falls over)
Sage: MWHAHAHAAAHHAAA!! I shall stop this chapter now!!
Bakura: RYOU WAS GOING TO SAY IT!!!
Ryou: We were about to live happily ever after!
Kaley: You're terrible!!
Sage: I know! ^_^ Anyways, about this chapter…this was my take on Ryou's past…see, it's kinda explained in the show but I altered it…not as much as you might think but still by a crap-load. Bakura did those things to people who got close to Ryou. So it kinda tied into my story. Well, anyways, now Ai's storm plan seems to be kicking in. Bad timing?
Kaley,Ryou&Bakura: HELL YEAH BAD TIMING!!!
Sage: ^_^ hee hee, anyways, see ya next chapter!!!