Author's Note: This is ONE poem split into five pieces: Spike, Angel,
Wesley, Lorn, and Gunn. Each thinking about Fred at some point at the end
of A Hole in the World and the beginning of Shells. Each one describing
their feelings for Fred and their feelings about her death. Also a small
side note (for those of you who didn't watch Buffy in the last season) Clem
is a demon friend of Spike who was really funny, cute, and just an all
around pal. Enjoy! Feel free to review!
A Hole in my Heart
Spike
Fred is gone
There is a gaping hole in the universe's lawn
She always was so sweet
And always a treat
She gave me a chance
Without taking a second glance
She was so dear to me
And often made me see
She was caring
And didn't mind sharing
I've been around death before
But this has hit at my very core
I try to drown my sorrow
In this alcohol I borrow
I can't get drunk
I feel like such a skunk
I haven't known Fred long
She was as beautiful as a song
She sparkled like a gem
She kind of reminded me of Clem
Their attitudes were alike
Though Clem has never touched a bike
Fred was better than anyone I had ever known
And was helping me to atone
She was like a light
That shinned so very bright
Her walk was like a dance
Never did she prance
I will miss her more than I can say
Especially with each passing day
Angel
Winfred Burkle was my dearest friend
She so often had a tendency to transcend
Even though I was in command
She didn't mind lending a hand
Cordelia is lost
That was enough of a cost
Now I've lost us Fred
I hope she was resting in bed
My heart is breaking
My body is aching
We never should have gone to Wolfram and Hart
Now my friends and family are apart
Spike and I traveled to the Deeper Well
On these thoughts I continue to dwell
I thought I had the saving skill
But apparently I'm only meant to kill
We've survived many battles
But this one completely rattles
Fred is lost
But I will bring her back, no matter what the cost
Death is not the end
The rules I believe we can bend
Many have come back
So I think her soul we can track
I refuse to believe she is gone
I hope the others have not completely withdrawn
Fred's coming back once more
She will be just like she was before
I feel despair
But we will bring Ilyria down with flair
Wesley
Fred was so smart
She had such a large heart
Was Fred's death Fate?
She was so incredibly great
Once more I am alone
If only I had known
Three years it had taken
I feel I completely shaken
There is nothing left of her but a shell
My axe cracked like the liberty bell
I will miss her so much
If only this hadn't happened such
I had wanted us to dine
I had been completely blind
I will miss Fred forever
Never will my connection to her sever
I loved her deeply
And certainly not cheaply
My love for her will never die
I want to break down and cry
She completed me
I feel we were meant to be
Now she is gone
She had become fate's pawn
I feel anger in my heart
Why did Fred's soul depart?
Slowly I sink in the corner
I shall never be more than a mourner
There are tears I should shed
For I will only ever love Fred
Lorne
Fred was my muse
No matter what she was full of happy news
She escaped from hell
Sadly now she is a shell
This is my entire fault
Why did her life have to halt?
She was the cutest thing
And boy she could sing
She was terribly smart
Almost like a piece of priceless art
She never cared that I was green
Knox's treachery I should have seen
I had heard Knox Sing
Why hadn't the truth come to ring?
Knox was guilty all along
How can we undo this wrong?
Angel thinks she'll be back
I hope he has a good plan of attack
As for me, I couldn't see
What help could I possibly be?
I wish I could believe
But sadly I can do no more than grieve
I had been to pray
But what good did it do to this terrible day?
I am no fighter
And certainly not a writer
Fred could answer any question
No matter what my profession
My failure makes me feel so low
For I had loved Fred so
Gunn
Fred kept me grounded
My feelings for her were well founded
I miss her sweet kiss
How could I have done this?
I had taken her life
Almost as if I had stabbed her with a knife
I didn't mean to
Fred I love you
She stood by me
Even when we didn't agree
She was so cute
And even liked my suit
I feel so lost
Because I had double crossed
I became like clay
And she was the one you had to pay
Fred, I would give my life for yours
And take on all your chores
But the damage is done
The end has begun
I have no reason to go on
I feel as though I am a pawn
Not only is she gone
But Wesley has become withdrawn
Fred's soul has been destroyed
Now there is a great big void
She was the best of us
I wish I didn't care so much
Fred I regret this so
I'm so sorry you had to go
Wesley, Lorn, and Gunn. Each thinking about Fred at some point at the end
of A Hole in the World and the beginning of Shells. Each one describing
their feelings for Fred and their feelings about her death. Also a small
side note (for those of you who didn't watch Buffy in the last season) Clem
is a demon friend of Spike who was really funny, cute, and just an all
around pal. Enjoy! Feel free to review!
A Hole in my Heart
Spike
Fred is gone
There is a gaping hole in the universe's lawn
She always was so sweet
And always a treat
She gave me a chance
Without taking a second glance
She was so dear to me
And often made me see
She was caring
And didn't mind sharing
I've been around death before
But this has hit at my very core
I try to drown my sorrow
In this alcohol I borrow
I can't get drunk
I feel like such a skunk
I haven't known Fred long
She was as beautiful as a song
She sparkled like a gem
She kind of reminded me of Clem
Their attitudes were alike
Though Clem has never touched a bike
Fred was better than anyone I had ever known
And was helping me to atone
She was like a light
That shinned so very bright
Her walk was like a dance
Never did she prance
I will miss her more than I can say
Especially with each passing day
Angel
Winfred Burkle was my dearest friend
She so often had a tendency to transcend
Even though I was in command
She didn't mind lending a hand
Cordelia is lost
That was enough of a cost
Now I've lost us Fred
I hope she was resting in bed
My heart is breaking
My body is aching
We never should have gone to Wolfram and Hart
Now my friends and family are apart
Spike and I traveled to the Deeper Well
On these thoughts I continue to dwell
I thought I had the saving skill
But apparently I'm only meant to kill
We've survived many battles
But this one completely rattles
Fred is lost
But I will bring her back, no matter what the cost
Death is not the end
The rules I believe we can bend
Many have come back
So I think her soul we can track
I refuse to believe she is gone
I hope the others have not completely withdrawn
Fred's coming back once more
She will be just like she was before
I feel despair
But we will bring Ilyria down with flair
Wesley
Fred was so smart
She had such a large heart
Was Fred's death Fate?
She was so incredibly great
Once more I am alone
If only I had known
Three years it had taken
I feel I completely shaken
There is nothing left of her but a shell
My axe cracked like the liberty bell
I will miss her so much
If only this hadn't happened such
I had wanted us to dine
I had been completely blind
I will miss Fred forever
Never will my connection to her sever
I loved her deeply
And certainly not cheaply
My love for her will never die
I want to break down and cry
She completed me
I feel we were meant to be
Now she is gone
She had become fate's pawn
I feel anger in my heart
Why did Fred's soul depart?
Slowly I sink in the corner
I shall never be more than a mourner
There are tears I should shed
For I will only ever love Fred
Lorne
Fred was my muse
No matter what she was full of happy news
She escaped from hell
Sadly now she is a shell
This is my entire fault
Why did her life have to halt?
She was the cutest thing
And boy she could sing
She was terribly smart
Almost like a piece of priceless art
She never cared that I was green
Knox's treachery I should have seen
I had heard Knox Sing
Why hadn't the truth come to ring?
Knox was guilty all along
How can we undo this wrong?
Angel thinks she'll be back
I hope he has a good plan of attack
As for me, I couldn't see
What help could I possibly be?
I wish I could believe
But sadly I can do no more than grieve
I had been to pray
But what good did it do to this terrible day?
I am no fighter
And certainly not a writer
Fred could answer any question
No matter what my profession
My failure makes me feel so low
For I had loved Fred so
Gunn
Fred kept me grounded
My feelings for her were well founded
I miss her sweet kiss
How could I have done this?
I had taken her life
Almost as if I had stabbed her with a knife
I didn't mean to
Fred I love you
She stood by me
Even when we didn't agree
She was so cute
And even liked my suit
I feel so lost
Because I had double crossed
I became like clay
And she was the one you had to pay
Fred, I would give my life for yours
And take on all your chores
But the damage is done
The end has begun
I have no reason to go on
I feel as though I am a pawn
Not only is she gone
But Wesley has become withdrawn
Fred's soul has been destroyed
Now there is a great big void
She was the best of us
I wish I didn't care so much
Fred I regret this so
I'm so sorry you had to go