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"What's this?"
"A patients records" I reply just, give the damn photo.
"A patient" he replies his voice wavering "Okay tell me this...why the hell does it have your name at the top?"
Oh shit, I didn't notice that the machine prints it with your name!
"Because I was assisting" I try lamely
"Abby, don't give me that" He is still staring at the picture.
"Just give me the photo" I say snatching it off him, I walk in the direction of the lounge, he follows. Thank god there's no-one in here.
"Ab, I think there's some explaining to do." He says slamming the door behind him
"Explaining?! Maybe I should be asking you that,I come in and find you in the arms of that bitch Kirsty!" I yell
"I told you about that" He says too calmly
"That's not the point" I whisper opening my locker.
"You're pregnant?" He asks
I stare into my locker still holding onto the file
"Yes" I whisper again, my voice has dissapeared.
He remains silent, I know he's still there but I continue to stare at nothing.
"Who's the father?" he asks breaking the tension
I pause
"You" I have no idea if he hears this because I can hardly hear myself
I break my thoughts and shut my locker door. I turn around slowly staring at the floor and I see the door swinging silently. He's gone.
I quickly snap back to reality and rush out of the door myself.
"Carter?" I yell, Susan's at the desk filling out charts, she notices me,gives me a sympathetic look and points toward the elevator, I know where he's gone.
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"Carter?" I say, reaching the roof, a gust of cold wind catching me off guard whips my hair around my head.
I look around,all I can hear is the rush of the city below.
"When you mess things up, you wouldn't think they could get much more worse could you?" A voice to the left says quietly.
"Depends, on what gets worse." I say walking up to him and like him, looking out accross the city.
"Getting your ex-girlfriend pregnant"
"It's not a bad thing" I say stuffing my hands in my scrub pockets."Getting pregnant that is" I add
"Yea, but it being my child is?"
"No" I say wistfully
"No?" He asks looking at me
"I know what the worst thing is...not being with you, and having this child"
We both stay silent, both of us thinking over what I had just said. Do I really want us getting back together just for our child, or because we really love eachother?
"I didn't mean for any of this to happen" He whispers at the floor scuffing his heel
"Time" I say
"What?"
"If only we could rewind time"
"Yea" he smiles slightly
"Are you and...Kirsty...um...together?" I ask tentively
He sighs looking around as if to see if anyone was listening
"She wants us to be...I'm not so sure"
"Your not sure?"
"No"
"Why?" Why is this geting weirder by the second
"Because...Because" He screws his eyes up in frustration "Because of you okay"
"Me?"
"Yea..you.
The moment I walked away from you that night, I actaully hated myself, it was the stupidest thing i have ever done in my life, I got rid of the one special thing I had with you."
"Carter.." I say, I'm speechless
He looks at me his eyes pleading with me.
"I don't want us to get back together just because of this baby" I say confindently
...but..." I pause
"I want us to be friends and start all over again...and then see what happens"
"Yeah..."
"It might be easy, It might be hard, but I think we can do it" I say
Carter remains silent I look at him, He's looking still across the city,
"John?" I say turning to face him
He looks at me a small smile on his lips, I open my arms and go to hug him. We both stand wrapped up in each other, we sway gently, I bury my head in his jacket, trying to stop the tears that are forming in my eyes.
"We're gonna be okay" He whispers
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The rest of my shift, I was really happy, I didn't really know why,is not like we are together or anything. I guess it's just hope.
I can have some hope,right? I mean, there IS a possibility now, not everything's over, we COULD be fine...I just have to wait, and have a little faith.
Faith, that is something I have never been used to believe in.
But now I have to try, if I don't have faith and hope then I have nothing.
*****
Work has been pretty boring today, nothing very exciting, just minor patients. I'm just doing some paper work.
"Abby? Can you take a break now?" he asks quietly
"I'm actually off in five" he nods
"I...umm...I need to talk to you about something. Meet me in five at -"
"Dr Carter? Would you mind taking a look to this patient?"
Med students, the best part of being an attending around here,uh?.
"Sure,I'll be there in a second. Ok,I guess I'll meet you in ten then" he smiles "That new place across the street?"
I nod "Ok"
"Thanks"
I smile. What could it be?
He doesn't have another one of his little surprises to give me,does he?
******
He's late. I have been waiting here for ten minutes,I'm bored, where is he? With Kirsty,maybe?
Argh,stop it,Abby! Why do I do this to myself?
Look, here he is.
"What took you so long?"
"Sorry" he says as he sits down "Med students are so...argh" he shakes his head and I laugh.
See? Nothing to worry about,I'm just paranoid about this whole Kirsty thing.
"So..."
"So?"
"Carter..." I say looking at him
"Right,right, sorry...I just,I just needed to...I didn't have the chance to tell you what I thought about this whole" he points at me. He looks so nervous. Cute.
"Me being pregnant issue?"
"Yeah...and I'm just I'm happy, Abby, really. I'm thrilled...I'm, you're having a baby, my baby, it's just..."
"I know" I say smiling and he reaches for my hand
"Thank you" he says, I smile at him and he smiles back sweetly
I guess I won't have to make any big effort about that faith and hope thing. They're coming naturally.
Anyway I hope you all enjoy this chapter, and you should expect the next chappie up a little sooner than last! Enjoy!
P.S You know at the end...just what to do.....REVIEW!
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"What's this?"
"A patients records" I reply just, give the damn photo.
"A patient" he replies his voice wavering "Okay tell me this...why the hell does it have your name at the top?"
Oh shit, I didn't notice that the machine prints it with your name!
"Because I was assisting" I try lamely
"Abby, don't give me that" He is still staring at the picture.
"Just give me the photo" I say snatching it off him, I walk in the direction of the lounge, he follows. Thank god there's no-one in here.
"Ab, I think there's some explaining to do." He says slamming the door behind him
"Explaining?! Maybe I should be asking you that,I come in and find you in the arms of that bitch Kirsty!" I yell
"I told you about that" He says too calmly
"That's not the point" I whisper opening my locker.
"You're pregnant?" He asks
I stare into my locker still holding onto the file
"Yes" I whisper again, my voice has dissapeared.
He remains silent, I know he's still there but I continue to stare at nothing.
"Who's the father?" he asks breaking the tension
I pause
"You" I have no idea if he hears this because I can hardly hear myself
I break my thoughts and shut my locker door. I turn around slowly staring at the floor and I see the door swinging silently. He's gone.
I quickly snap back to reality and rush out of the door myself.
"Carter?" I yell, Susan's at the desk filling out charts, she notices me,gives me a sympathetic look and points toward the elevator, I know where he's gone.
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"Carter?" I say, reaching the roof, a gust of cold wind catching me off guard whips my hair around my head.
I look around,all I can hear is the rush of the city below.
"When you mess things up, you wouldn't think they could get much more worse could you?" A voice to the left says quietly.
"Depends, on what gets worse." I say walking up to him and like him, looking out accross the city.
"Getting your ex-girlfriend pregnant"
"It's not a bad thing" I say stuffing my hands in my scrub pockets."Getting pregnant that is" I add
"Yea, but it being my child is?"
"No" I say wistfully
"No?" He asks looking at me
"I know what the worst thing is...not being with you, and having this child"
We both stay silent, both of us thinking over what I had just said. Do I really want us getting back together just for our child, or because we really love eachother?
"I didn't mean for any of this to happen" He whispers at the floor scuffing his heel
"Time" I say
"What?"
"If only we could rewind time"
"Yea" he smiles slightly
"Are you and...Kirsty...um...together?" I ask tentively
He sighs looking around as if to see if anyone was listening
"She wants us to be...I'm not so sure"
"Your not sure?"
"No"
"Why?" Why is this geting weirder by the second
"Because...Because" He screws his eyes up in frustration "Because of you okay"
"Me?"
"Yea..you.
The moment I walked away from you that night, I actaully hated myself, it was the stupidest thing i have ever done in my life, I got rid of the one special thing I had with you."
"Carter.." I say, I'm speechless
He looks at me his eyes pleading with me.
"I don't want us to get back together just because of this baby" I say confindently
...but..." I pause
"I want us to be friends and start all over again...and then see what happens"
"Yeah..."
"It might be easy, It might be hard, but I think we can do it" I say
Carter remains silent I look at him, He's looking still across the city,
"John?" I say turning to face him
He looks at me a small smile on his lips, I open my arms and go to hug him. We both stand wrapped up in each other, we sway gently, I bury my head in his jacket, trying to stop the tears that are forming in my eyes.
"We're gonna be okay" He whispers
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The rest of my shift, I was really happy, I didn't really know why,is not like we are together or anything. I guess it's just hope.
I can have some hope,right? I mean, there IS a possibility now, not everything's over, we COULD be fine...I just have to wait, and have a little faith.
Faith, that is something I have never been used to believe in.
But now I have to try, if I don't have faith and hope then I have nothing.
*****
Work has been pretty boring today, nothing very exciting, just minor patients. I'm just doing some paper work.
"Abby? Can you take a break now?" he asks quietly
"I'm actually off in five" he nods
"I...umm...I need to talk to you about something. Meet me in five at -"
"Dr Carter? Would you mind taking a look to this patient?"
Med students, the best part of being an attending around here,uh?.
"Sure,I'll be there in a second. Ok,I guess I'll meet you in ten then" he smiles "That new place across the street?"
I nod "Ok"
"Thanks"
I smile. What could it be?
He doesn't have another one of his little surprises to give me,does he?
******
He's late. I have been waiting here for ten minutes,I'm bored, where is he? With Kirsty,maybe?
Argh,stop it,Abby! Why do I do this to myself?
Look, here he is.
"What took you so long?"
"Sorry" he says as he sits down "Med students are so...argh" he shakes his head and I laugh.
See? Nothing to worry about,I'm just paranoid about this whole Kirsty thing.
"So..."
"So?"
"Carter..." I say looking at him
"Right,right, sorry...I just,I just needed to...I didn't have the chance to tell you what I thought about this whole" he points at me. He looks so nervous. Cute.
"Me being pregnant issue?"
"Yeah...and I'm just I'm happy, Abby, really. I'm thrilled...I'm, you're having a baby, my baby, it's just..."
"I know" I say smiling and he reaches for my hand
"Thank you" he says, I smile at him and he smiles back sweetly
I guess I won't have to make any big effort about that faith and hope thing. They're coming naturally.