Created for a Lyric Wheel thingy at narutoyaoi.

OrichamaruXDosu or DosuOrichamaru.

I don't own Naruto. I also don't own the song "I get lost" by Bouncing Souls, and I sure as hell don't own the great Naruto.

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Sometimes, I hate you. I really do. You expect me to do exactly what you want. Be exactly who you want. Sometimes I can't. Sometimes, doing what you want is exactly the opposite of what I want.

My CD player's on now. One of my favorite CDs. One of my favorite songs. I guess it's my favorite, because well, it reminds me so much of you. So much of me. So much of us.

A lot of stuff makes me feel empty.

Most of what you ask me makes me feel that way. I can't go against what you say, though. You go against everything I believe in, but I can't go against you. You could kill me in an instance.

You are my master.

I am your servant, your minion. I have to follow out all of your operations without question. Even though you betray me – betray us –, even though you throw in little obstacles without telling us, I can't go against you.

Every time I try, every time I chase, something I want from you.

It's weird, because, I know that I could ask you to send someone else out. You probably would too. Our town isn't that big, but there are other people besides Kin, Zaku and I, who would eagerly serve you. Who would eagerly take on the dirty work that you ask us to do.

You haven't said it yet, but I know that much. Yet, there is something that draws me to do your missions. Something that makes me accept them before anyone else, despite how much they kill me inside. Despite how much Kin and Zaku glare at me once I've accepted them.

It might have something to do with the first mission you sent me on. The first time I said that I could do that – that I didn't want to do that.

I get lost in my mind. I get lost in that lie. I get lost with the idea I have something to lose.

All I have to do is make my way. Make the best of whatever comes my way. Whatever comes my way.

I still remember how your tongue felt in my mouth. How your hands felt on my body. I long for that to happen again. I long to feel you again.

I keep thinking, that if I do a good enough job for you, than maybe, I'll be able to. Maybe, if I try hard enough, and complete all my missions to the best of my ability, maybe, just maybe, you'll reward me.

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