It was raining again, it rained a lot in this city. Trinity say on the twin sized bed and looked out at the falling rain, teardrops welling in her eyes. It was Wednesday...Darren had died on a Wednesday. She looked down at her own hands. She could still see the blood from the wound on them, even now as she looked over the soft white skin, riddled with burn scars. She could still feel the blood pouring from the wound as he looked up into her eyes. His breath was fast, ragged, and sometimes gurglely as blood seeped from the side of his mouth. Tears had coursed freely down her cheeks, as they did now, and fell onto his face. He grinned at her and had whipped at one of her cheeks.
"I love you" She whispered to herself. She hadn't understood those words when he had spoke them and she still didn't understand them. What was love? What was it supposed to be and why was it so important that Darren had said he loved her as his last words? She didn't understand. But wasn't that part of her though? Hadn't she been wondering through this city now for more than a year now without knowing much of anything? She bent her head down, resting her forehead on her knees as she began to sob, her body shaking with the force of them. Why was she being tortured like this? She was sure having these memories while knowing who one was was painful enough but to not know who you are, to wonder without any memories whatsoever for so long, then remember something as painful as this....She'd rather take whiplashes to her back. And she had, the scars on her back proved it...
She rose her head to look about the room she had rented with the stolen money. She had been forced into this existence. Forced to stalk around the back alleyways and steal just so she wouldn't starve. She was forced to sit now in this room and cry over something she should have been through with crying many years ago. She was forced to be pathetic...
Slowly she rose from her seat on the bed and walked out the room. Perhaps a walk would help her mood.
*~*
I've been living a lie,
Theres nothing inside
*~*
The pool was basically empty as Schreber limped into the building. He looked around at the familiar walls with a slight grin on his lips. It had been the only place he had been allowed a moments peace before, one of his very few, if not only, places of refuge when he had to think. It still served for the same purpose although not as much anymore. Sighing Schreber undressed, leaving a white undershirt to cover the scars across his chest, slipped into his swimming trunks and went to the pool. Slowly he eased himself into the water and sighed, leaning his head back. He had forgotten how nice it felt, the water, and the feeling of almost floating. Outside the falling rain could be heard beating against the roof of the building, a gentle breeze and every now and then a thunderbolt. Slowly Schreber felt himself loosing consciousness. He wondered half mindedly if he should sleep or not. It seemed whenever he slept lately he had a nightmare...Or had a dream about Trinity. Whichever, both was resulting in him loosing sleep.
A footstep.
Schreber was quickly stirred from his lulled state and sat upright in the pool. He always expected to see a tall pale man in a black trench coat and flat rimmed hat to be standing at the edge of the pool with a sour look on his face to this day. But, to his great relief, it was not. No one was in the main area of the pool so it must have been someone in another part of the building. The domed effect of the roof always carried noises. Settling back down in the water he heard more footsteps. A sharp 'click' like something hard being pressed to the tile floor. A woman's high heel or a boot. The sound circled around the area he was in, stopped and turned to walk straight towards him. He could hear breathing now. Slightly strangled and slow, as though whoever it that was here was trying not to cry. Schreber's brow furrowed as he saw something ahead that looked like silver hair.
Trinity walked about the street outside the hotel for a small while, not caring that she was soaking wet in the rain or that she could catch a cold. Perhaps it she got frozen enough some of these feelings would go away. Maybe there was truth that if a person was cold inside they could barely ever get hurt....Who had said that? Her? She didn't know. It was a random quote of a memory that had flashed into her mind some time ago. At first she thought that was a very heartless saying but now more and more she was believing it was true.
She didn't bother to look ahead as she walked towards the pool house. Her feet knew every corner of this city and they took her to wherever would make her feel better automatically. She didn't notice the familiar black Ford car in the parking lot as she entered the building. She looked around the lobby and was relieved to see no one was there. True, the fact she had just been in the rain covered her tears, even the ones that was still flowing, but her eyes was very red. Slowly she walked towards the main pool, her boots making a sharp 'clicking' sound against the tile floor. She usually came here when she was upset. Something about the water calmed her even if she didn't swim very much. She couldn't bare the sight of her scared body in a bathing suit so she just sat at the edge of the pool with her legs submerged in the water.
'Oh shut up' She thought to herself as she sniffled. Hadn't she cried enough lately? For the love of God she even cried in front of Schreber. And while she was sure he was used to that sort of emotion from a woman, it was not like her to cry...At least she thought so. She couldn't speak for the person she had -been-.
In her thoughts she didn't pay attention to where she was going and she took a left turn, leading her into a hallway that circled around the main pool.
Finally realizing she was taking herself to the back exit she sighed and turned around and started walking towards the pool again. Her hair flopped loose and wet around her shoulders. Then, distinctively she heard a small sound, like the lapping of water. Someone must be in the pool after all. Well, whatever. Maybe the company of another human being would help her, even though she shied away from humans as much as possible. It was embarrassing when someone asked "Where do you come from?" and you couldn't really answer them truthfully.
She looked up as she passed a pillar and froze in her tracks and felt as though she had stopped breathing. In the water, was the last person she had expected to run into.
'Daniel'
Schreber's eyes widened as he saw Trinity come from behind the back door which led to the alleyway exit. Her head was bowed down and she had her arms wrapped around one another across her chest. She was soaking wet, again, and sniffled several times. Water streaked down her face...Or was those teardrops?
For a instant he considered getting out of the pool and leaving. He had no idea how to act around her anymore. She confused him and stirred things in him that made him want to jump out a window and sing all at the same time. But, on the other hand, she looked like she didn't need to be alone. He knew how she could get at times and he knew that the memory of Darren dyeing in her arms was still fresh in her mind.
She looked up and their eyes locked. His breath caught in his throat and he felt as though his heart had stopped. Her mouth went slightly slack and her eyes widened, he was sure his own did the same, and they stayed like that for an eternity or so it seemed. Again his stomach did flip-flops.
"Hi" She finally muttered, fitting a half grin onto her frozen looking lips. Oh she must have been cold.
"Hello" Schreber replied, mirroring the action of placing a grin on his lips.
"Sorry, I didn't think anyone would be here" Trinity spoke, starting to turn.
"Don't be. It is a - public - place after - all" Schreber said quickly. Suddenly he didn't want her to go. Trinity shrugged as though to agree with him and walked to the edge of the pool, avoiding his eyes again.
"Would it be OK if I-"
"Joined me?". Trinity for some reason bent her head so that he could barely see her cheeks. From what he could see they was flaming red.
"No. I don't swim...Just soak My feet in the water" She said. Schreber chuckled although it was a forced act. It was becoming harder for him to act normal around her. Why had he sounded so eager when he had asked if she wanted to join him? He scolded himself. He probably offended her.
"Be - My guest" Schreber smiled. Trinity nodded, balancing herself with great ease on one foot a she took her boots off and sat at the edge. Her right foot retracted slightly as she felt the water then dipped in.
"Didn't expect - to see you - until - Friday"
"Nor I you" She said, still looking into the water. Schreber noted a croaky sound in her voice. Silence fell over the room so that the only sound in the room was the falling rain against the building roof and the lapping of water if one of them moved. Schreber saw her chest jump and heard a sharp intake of breath. A sniffle. A empty feeling filled his chest.
"Are you - OK?"
"Fine" She answered quickly, to quickly. Schreber looked at her sadly as he saw several more teardrops fall down her cheeks. Slowly he swam towards her and tugged at one of her submerged toes. She looked up at him, a silver eyebrow raised, with red rimmed pail green eyes. Yes, she had been crying long before she had came here.
"No your - not" He said, stating the obvious, looking up into her eyes. She turned her head to the side, again the scar that went across her ear showing, and she made another sniffling sound.
"I don't wanna burden you today-"
"Nonsense. We - didn't bump into - each other by - accident". He blinked at his own statement for it was right. Fate had sent her here today he sensed but he had no idea why. Trinity closed her eyes and shook her head. Then nodded.
"I've just been thinking".
"About Darren?". A nod as her chest froze. She was trying to fight back tears and failed slightly. Schreber tugged at the toe again and she looked at him, her bottom lip caught between her teeth.
"It does not - do to - dwell - on memories, Trinity. Especially bad - ones". Trinity gave him a look that said "What do you know" and he felt like sighing. He knew all to well. He knew the pain they could inflict in you, the torment they reminded you with, he knew how they turned your life into a living hell. He knew the problems they made and would not let die.
"I - know this is - hard for - you - Trinity. Do believe me I - know. But I - do not think - he would - want - you to cry over - him a second time if he - cared - for you...I wouldn't". Schreber's eyes widened at his words. Why had he said that? Trinity's right eyebrow rose slightly as she locked eyes with him. Silence passed, another moment that felt like a Earth Age, his skin freezing in the warm water. Then her lips curled upwards the slightest bit and she took a breath, tears still rolling down her cheeks.
"Give me My toe back". Schreber blinked and realized he was still holding onto her big toe. He grinned and looked back up at her.
"No". Trinity blinked two times in quick secession and tried to pull her foot from the water. Schreber tightened his grip on her toe and refused to let it go. Trinity growled, and although her voice was still croaky from her crying, she sounded humored. Good.
"Let me go, Doctor Schreber!" She stated, trying to pull her foot away. Schreber complied this time...But grabbed her ankle a second latter.
"What are you--ACK!" She exclaimed as he pulled her down into the water, a loud 'Splash!" sounding as water lapped up onto the edge. For a second Schreber thought she was struggling because she couldn't swim, that her arms was flinging about because she was trying to grab onto something solid.
And then her hand caught him right across the face, not to hard but enough to get the point across. Trinity's face came from the water and spit some water out of her mouth. Schreber grinned widely at her and this time it was not forced.
"I thought - you said you - couldn't swim?"
"I didn't say 'couldn't' I said 'Don't'" She said and a second later Schreber was caught by a large splash. Schreber laughed and returned the favor, making sure not to move his arm to quickly less he hurt himself. Trinity squealed and went to splash back but her wrist was caught by Schreber. She tried with her other hand but he had already grabbed that wrist as well. He had her pinned against the pool wall, very close to her, his good leg pinning one of hers underwater against the wall as well.
"So - you can - laugh". Trinity grinned in a cocky manner and shrugged as best she could with her arms immoveable. He grinned himself, thinking how beautiful she looked with her lips curled upwards as she looked him in the eye. They stayed like that for several seconds and he thought about pulling away before someone came in and caught them like this. He hardly thought that the sight of a man in a tank-top and red swimming trunks pinning a girl dressed in jeans and a T-shirt in the water up against the wall would look right. But...What did he care? What did someone else's opinion matter? As long as he could stay close to her.
Again his stomach did a flip-flop. Why had he thought that? What did it mean to him to be close to her like he was right now?
Everything
Trinity chuckled a little as she felt her clothes clinging to her under the water.
"So - you can - laugh" Schreber spoke, his voice so beautiful. She grinned, it felt such a natural response, and he echoed her action. They stayed like that for several moments until she realized how wonderful his skin felt against hers. How warm his hands felt on her wrists and the contact of his leg against hers underwater, even if she was wearing jeans. How delightful it felt to be such a short distance from his body. And how absolutely beautiful his eyes was. She had always thought they was nice but up close they looked absolutely stunning. Searing. Seeing.
Suddenly she wondered if she should allow this to go any further, she had no way of knowing he was thinking the same thing as he, like her, began to become flooded with these odd feelings again. She didn't want to loose control, who knew what would happen. All these feelings she had been feeling lately being let loose. All her desirers...She didn't know what would happen.
Did she care?
No
*~*
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
*~*
Schreber blinked, she repeated the action, but no other movement was made. He was to lost in his thoughts, in the feel of her skin against his hands, in the smell of her, in the sound of her breathing. What would happen if he acted on his desires right now? What would happen if he closed that small distance between them and pressed his lips to hers? Was he sure that would settle these feelings? No...Was he sure he wanted them to be settled?
No
Trinity couldn't break her eyes away from his, she couldn't move her arms to indicate he should let her go, she couldn't do anything but float there in the water and fall victim to the feelings she had been trying to fight for the past few months, fall pray to what she didn't understand it. Every sense she had 'woke up' and began her new life she had tried and had succeeded in not doing anything she didn't understand. She had strove to act on wit, not impulse, and not do anything without thinking very hard about it. Even when she pick pocketed she thought on it. Took everything into aspect. How wealthy the person seemed, if they could live without what they had in their pocket. If they couldn't she'd find someone else, if they could she would pick them. She always acted on reason. And then the wind floated her a card to this man who blew all that away. Now she was here, pinned against a wall by him, unable to think. All her reason blew out the window. Did she miss it? Did she need it?
Not right now
Did she need him?
Yes
What was he doing? The very thing he had been trying to prevent himself from doing for the past few months, acting exactly the opposite of what he had been trying to be. He was also falling victim to these emotions he had analyzed time and time again and was stumped by. If he acted on his impulses, defy his own reason and fulfilled his desires he had no idea of where came from what would happen? He had no idea. But he knew that if he let her go he would never get this chance again. Could he live with knowing that his desires could never be filled? That he had done what he considered right and allow himself to let her go. Could he live without her?
No.
*~*
Frozen inside without your touch without your love darling
Only you are the life among the dead
*~*
Slowly Daniel Schreber eased his face towards Trinity Butler's, both throwing all their reason out the window and locking it. They both had no knowledge of what they was stepping into nor did they care. All they knew was that they couldn't live without one another. They didn't understand the feeling inside them that had sparked the first time they ever lay eyes on each other, that had been building ever sense, that they had fought against because neither of them knew what it was, that now was driving them to this fate, was love.
They loved one another.
*~*
Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life
*~*
"I love you" She whispered to herself. She hadn't understood those words when he had spoke them and she still didn't understand them. What was love? What was it supposed to be and why was it so important that Darren had said he loved her as his last words? She didn't understand. But wasn't that part of her though? Hadn't she been wondering through this city now for more than a year now without knowing much of anything? She bent her head down, resting her forehead on her knees as she began to sob, her body shaking with the force of them. Why was she being tortured like this? She was sure having these memories while knowing who one was was painful enough but to not know who you are, to wonder without any memories whatsoever for so long, then remember something as painful as this....She'd rather take whiplashes to her back. And she had, the scars on her back proved it...
She rose her head to look about the room she had rented with the stolen money. She had been forced into this existence. Forced to stalk around the back alleyways and steal just so she wouldn't starve. She was forced to sit now in this room and cry over something she should have been through with crying many years ago. She was forced to be pathetic...
Slowly she rose from her seat on the bed and walked out the room. Perhaps a walk would help her mood.
*~*
I've been living a lie,
Theres nothing inside
*~*
The pool was basically empty as Schreber limped into the building. He looked around at the familiar walls with a slight grin on his lips. It had been the only place he had been allowed a moments peace before, one of his very few, if not only, places of refuge when he had to think. It still served for the same purpose although not as much anymore. Sighing Schreber undressed, leaving a white undershirt to cover the scars across his chest, slipped into his swimming trunks and went to the pool. Slowly he eased himself into the water and sighed, leaning his head back. He had forgotten how nice it felt, the water, and the feeling of almost floating. Outside the falling rain could be heard beating against the roof of the building, a gentle breeze and every now and then a thunderbolt. Slowly Schreber felt himself loosing consciousness. He wondered half mindedly if he should sleep or not. It seemed whenever he slept lately he had a nightmare...Or had a dream about Trinity. Whichever, both was resulting in him loosing sleep.
A footstep.
Schreber was quickly stirred from his lulled state and sat upright in the pool. He always expected to see a tall pale man in a black trench coat and flat rimmed hat to be standing at the edge of the pool with a sour look on his face to this day. But, to his great relief, it was not. No one was in the main area of the pool so it must have been someone in another part of the building. The domed effect of the roof always carried noises. Settling back down in the water he heard more footsteps. A sharp 'click' like something hard being pressed to the tile floor. A woman's high heel or a boot. The sound circled around the area he was in, stopped and turned to walk straight towards him. He could hear breathing now. Slightly strangled and slow, as though whoever it that was here was trying not to cry. Schreber's brow furrowed as he saw something ahead that looked like silver hair.
Trinity walked about the street outside the hotel for a small while, not caring that she was soaking wet in the rain or that she could catch a cold. Perhaps it she got frozen enough some of these feelings would go away. Maybe there was truth that if a person was cold inside they could barely ever get hurt....Who had said that? Her? She didn't know. It was a random quote of a memory that had flashed into her mind some time ago. At first she thought that was a very heartless saying but now more and more she was believing it was true.
She didn't bother to look ahead as she walked towards the pool house. Her feet knew every corner of this city and they took her to wherever would make her feel better automatically. She didn't notice the familiar black Ford car in the parking lot as she entered the building. She looked around the lobby and was relieved to see no one was there. True, the fact she had just been in the rain covered her tears, even the ones that was still flowing, but her eyes was very red. Slowly she walked towards the main pool, her boots making a sharp 'clicking' sound against the tile floor. She usually came here when she was upset. Something about the water calmed her even if she didn't swim very much. She couldn't bare the sight of her scared body in a bathing suit so she just sat at the edge of the pool with her legs submerged in the water.
'Oh shut up' She thought to herself as she sniffled. Hadn't she cried enough lately? For the love of God she even cried in front of Schreber. And while she was sure he was used to that sort of emotion from a woman, it was not like her to cry...At least she thought so. She couldn't speak for the person she had -been-.
In her thoughts she didn't pay attention to where she was going and she took a left turn, leading her into a hallway that circled around the main pool.
Finally realizing she was taking herself to the back exit she sighed and turned around and started walking towards the pool again. Her hair flopped loose and wet around her shoulders. Then, distinctively she heard a small sound, like the lapping of water. Someone must be in the pool after all. Well, whatever. Maybe the company of another human being would help her, even though she shied away from humans as much as possible. It was embarrassing when someone asked "Where do you come from?" and you couldn't really answer them truthfully.
She looked up as she passed a pillar and froze in her tracks and felt as though she had stopped breathing. In the water, was the last person she had expected to run into.
'Daniel'
Schreber's eyes widened as he saw Trinity come from behind the back door which led to the alleyway exit. Her head was bowed down and she had her arms wrapped around one another across her chest. She was soaking wet, again, and sniffled several times. Water streaked down her face...Or was those teardrops?
For a instant he considered getting out of the pool and leaving. He had no idea how to act around her anymore. She confused him and stirred things in him that made him want to jump out a window and sing all at the same time. But, on the other hand, she looked like she didn't need to be alone. He knew how she could get at times and he knew that the memory of Darren dyeing in her arms was still fresh in her mind.
She looked up and their eyes locked. His breath caught in his throat and he felt as though his heart had stopped. Her mouth went slightly slack and her eyes widened, he was sure his own did the same, and they stayed like that for an eternity or so it seemed. Again his stomach did flip-flops.
"Hi" She finally muttered, fitting a half grin onto her frozen looking lips. Oh she must have been cold.
"Hello" Schreber replied, mirroring the action of placing a grin on his lips.
"Sorry, I didn't think anyone would be here" Trinity spoke, starting to turn.
"Don't be. It is a - public - place after - all" Schreber said quickly. Suddenly he didn't want her to go. Trinity shrugged as though to agree with him and walked to the edge of the pool, avoiding his eyes again.
"Would it be OK if I-"
"Joined me?". Trinity for some reason bent her head so that he could barely see her cheeks. From what he could see they was flaming red.
"No. I don't swim...Just soak My feet in the water" She said. Schreber chuckled although it was a forced act. It was becoming harder for him to act normal around her. Why had he sounded so eager when he had asked if she wanted to join him? He scolded himself. He probably offended her.
"Be - My guest" Schreber smiled. Trinity nodded, balancing herself with great ease on one foot a she took her boots off and sat at the edge. Her right foot retracted slightly as she felt the water then dipped in.
"Didn't expect - to see you - until - Friday"
"Nor I you" She said, still looking into the water. Schreber noted a croaky sound in her voice. Silence fell over the room so that the only sound in the room was the falling rain against the building roof and the lapping of water if one of them moved. Schreber saw her chest jump and heard a sharp intake of breath. A sniffle. A empty feeling filled his chest.
"Are you - OK?"
"Fine" She answered quickly, to quickly. Schreber looked at her sadly as he saw several more teardrops fall down her cheeks. Slowly he swam towards her and tugged at one of her submerged toes. She looked up at him, a silver eyebrow raised, with red rimmed pail green eyes. Yes, she had been crying long before she had came here.
"No your - not" He said, stating the obvious, looking up into her eyes. She turned her head to the side, again the scar that went across her ear showing, and she made another sniffling sound.
"I don't wanna burden you today-"
"Nonsense. We - didn't bump into - each other by - accident". He blinked at his own statement for it was right. Fate had sent her here today he sensed but he had no idea why. Trinity closed her eyes and shook her head. Then nodded.
"I've just been thinking".
"About Darren?". A nod as her chest froze. She was trying to fight back tears and failed slightly. Schreber tugged at the toe again and she looked at him, her bottom lip caught between her teeth.
"It does not - do to - dwell - on memories, Trinity. Especially bad - ones". Trinity gave him a look that said "What do you know" and he felt like sighing. He knew all to well. He knew the pain they could inflict in you, the torment they reminded you with, he knew how they turned your life into a living hell. He knew the problems they made and would not let die.
"I - know this is - hard for - you - Trinity. Do believe me I - know. But I - do not think - he would - want - you to cry over - him a second time if he - cared - for you...I wouldn't". Schreber's eyes widened at his words. Why had he said that? Trinity's right eyebrow rose slightly as she locked eyes with him. Silence passed, another moment that felt like a Earth Age, his skin freezing in the warm water. Then her lips curled upwards the slightest bit and she took a breath, tears still rolling down her cheeks.
"Give me My toe back". Schreber blinked and realized he was still holding onto her big toe. He grinned and looked back up at her.
"No". Trinity blinked two times in quick secession and tried to pull her foot from the water. Schreber tightened his grip on her toe and refused to let it go. Trinity growled, and although her voice was still croaky from her crying, she sounded humored. Good.
"Let me go, Doctor Schreber!" She stated, trying to pull her foot away. Schreber complied this time...But grabbed her ankle a second latter.
"What are you--ACK!" She exclaimed as he pulled her down into the water, a loud 'Splash!" sounding as water lapped up onto the edge. For a second Schreber thought she was struggling because she couldn't swim, that her arms was flinging about because she was trying to grab onto something solid.
And then her hand caught him right across the face, not to hard but enough to get the point across. Trinity's face came from the water and spit some water out of her mouth. Schreber grinned widely at her and this time it was not forced.
"I thought - you said you - couldn't swim?"
"I didn't say 'couldn't' I said 'Don't'" She said and a second later Schreber was caught by a large splash. Schreber laughed and returned the favor, making sure not to move his arm to quickly less he hurt himself. Trinity squealed and went to splash back but her wrist was caught by Schreber. She tried with her other hand but he had already grabbed that wrist as well. He had her pinned against the pool wall, very close to her, his good leg pinning one of hers underwater against the wall as well.
"So - you can - laugh". Trinity grinned in a cocky manner and shrugged as best she could with her arms immoveable. He grinned himself, thinking how beautiful she looked with her lips curled upwards as she looked him in the eye. They stayed like that for several seconds and he thought about pulling away before someone came in and caught them like this. He hardly thought that the sight of a man in a tank-top and red swimming trunks pinning a girl dressed in jeans and a T-shirt in the water up against the wall would look right. But...What did he care? What did someone else's opinion matter? As long as he could stay close to her.
Again his stomach did a flip-flop. Why had he thought that? What did it mean to him to be close to her like he was right now?
Everything
Trinity chuckled a little as she felt her clothes clinging to her under the water.
"So - you can - laugh" Schreber spoke, his voice so beautiful. She grinned, it felt such a natural response, and he echoed her action. They stayed like that for several moments until she realized how wonderful his skin felt against hers. How warm his hands felt on her wrists and the contact of his leg against hers underwater, even if she was wearing jeans. How delightful it felt to be such a short distance from his body. And how absolutely beautiful his eyes was. She had always thought they was nice but up close they looked absolutely stunning. Searing. Seeing.
Suddenly she wondered if she should allow this to go any further, she had no way of knowing he was thinking the same thing as he, like her, began to become flooded with these odd feelings again. She didn't want to loose control, who knew what would happen. All these feelings she had been feeling lately being let loose. All her desirers...She didn't know what would happen.
Did she care?
No
*~*
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
*~*
Schreber blinked, she repeated the action, but no other movement was made. He was to lost in his thoughts, in the feel of her skin against his hands, in the smell of her, in the sound of her breathing. What would happen if he acted on his desires right now? What would happen if he closed that small distance between them and pressed his lips to hers? Was he sure that would settle these feelings? No...Was he sure he wanted them to be settled?
No
Trinity couldn't break her eyes away from his, she couldn't move her arms to indicate he should let her go, she couldn't do anything but float there in the water and fall victim to the feelings she had been trying to fight for the past few months, fall pray to what she didn't understand it. Every sense she had 'woke up' and began her new life she had tried and had succeeded in not doing anything she didn't understand. She had strove to act on wit, not impulse, and not do anything without thinking very hard about it. Even when she pick pocketed she thought on it. Took everything into aspect. How wealthy the person seemed, if they could live without what they had in their pocket. If they couldn't she'd find someone else, if they could she would pick them. She always acted on reason. And then the wind floated her a card to this man who blew all that away. Now she was here, pinned against a wall by him, unable to think. All her reason blew out the window. Did she miss it? Did she need it?
Not right now
Did she need him?
Yes
What was he doing? The very thing he had been trying to prevent himself from doing for the past few months, acting exactly the opposite of what he had been trying to be. He was also falling victim to these emotions he had analyzed time and time again and was stumped by. If he acted on his impulses, defy his own reason and fulfilled his desires he had no idea of where came from what would happen? He had no idea. But he knew that if he let her go he would never get this chance again. Could he live with knowing that his desires could never be filled? That he had done what he considered right and allow himself to let her go. Could he live without her?
No.
*~*
Frozen inside without your touch without your love darling
Only you are the life among the dead
*~*
Slowly Daniel Schreber eased his face towards Trinity Butler's, both throwing all their reason out the window and locking it. They both had no knowledge of what they was stepping into nor did they care. All they knew was that they couldn't live without one another. They didn't understand the feeling inside them that had sparked the first time they ever lay eyes on each other, that had been building ever sense, that they had fought against because neither of them knew what it was, that now was driving them to this fate, was love.
They loved one another.
*~*
Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life
*~*