ok guys! sorry it took so long! I get really weird about my ff writting so, you guys know the plot! relax and read please
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After the tour of at County, carter and Heather found their way back to admit
"So any questions?" Carter asked
Heather shook her head.
"You sure? It can be hard on your first day..."
Heather rolled her eyes "I think I can handle this. So where do I start?"
Carter grabbed a paitent from the now piling rack and walked into Curtain Area Two. There were cases in curtain area three, sutering, rectals, a few sprained fingers but that's not where he wanted to be be right now, thats not where he wanted to be with her right now.
He walked took his time reading over the chart. And he found it stupid, but he was checking for any signs of meninjitis, any signs of metal illness, anything at all that would remind her of that night. That's what he told himself anyhow, what he was really worried about, it wasnt about her. She wasn't there that night, and she didn't feel the pain. Not only of that knife being jammed into her spine...but she didn't feel the helplessness as he crashed onto the floor, bleeding, yelling, and then as if it couldn't get any worse.. seeing his young thriving medical student worse off then he was...and not being able to help.
He opened the door for Heather and walked in behind her "Hi Mr Habib, I'm Dr. Carter and this...." his voice trailed off as he realized what he was about to say, "And this is Dr. Knight, what seems to be the problem?"
"Isn't that what the chart is for?!" Asked the pissed off paitent.
"Yes, it says you have been having problems with your meds..for hypertension."
"They keep making me dizzy" He responded.
"OK well we are going to run some tests and find out whats going on. I'm going to start you on a line first of all. Heather, watch closely"
"Oh please!" She sighed, she put the yellow band around Mr Habib's arm and took the gadge. "You're going to feel a slight pinch now" and with simple ease and carelessness, she placed the needle in and set it up. "Anything else Dr Carter?" she asked a little too cocky.
He narrowed his eyes at her.
"I'm a fourth year, not a first!"
Carter handed her the chart, "Get a nurse to draw a CBC, a chem-7 and a tox screen. Come find me in an hour." After saying this, he walked out and continued his day as normaly as possible. But he had that feeling in the back of his mind.....
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Heather was running through the halls, "Hey you!"
Abby turned around, "Ummm hi"
"Where is Dr. Carter?!"
"Sutures, why?" Abby asked, half wondering who the hell this was.
"My paitent is seizing!!" Said Heather and she ran through the hall and into Carter.
Carter walked out of the room just as Heather slammed into into his chest "Umm Heather are you okay?"
"No! Mr. Habib is seizing!!" She ran back into the room, hearing the consistant, beeping from the monitors.
"Oh damnit Heather!" He followed her running into the room. "What were his lab results?" He yelled trying to stablalize the paitent, yelling orders to Abby for meds.
"I didn't get the results back yet!" She responed holding the paitent's arm still.
"Heather it's been hours!!" He was pushing meds into the IV bag. As he face flushed with anger.
"I know! The nurses have been busy!" She couldn't help but yell back in the heat of the moment.
"If you can start an IV you sure as hell can draw some blood. I mean you are capable of that right?" The paitents seziuing finally stoped. As he took a deep breath.
"I'm was just following your directions" She protested, taking the blood preaure.
"Sometimes you have to think of the paitent when they have been laying here for hours, now do you understand?!" Carter asked, still yelling, keeping himself still from throwing something across the room.
Heather took a step back, remebering what Lucy had told her about Carter and now understanding it."Yes I think I can handle that"
"If you want to be a doctor you better start thinking for yourslef, take the blood and come find me with the results. Understand?"
Heather grabbed a needle and began to draw without saying anything.
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Hours later, Carter was sitting in a booth over at doc's, drinking coffee and slowly reaccounting the moments of today...of yesterday when things were so much less complicated, who would have thought that this would come back and haunt him. And of course, that night years ago.
Heather walked into the dinner and walked straight up to the counter and ordered a coffee. While waiting she looked behind her, and saw Carter. She paid for her coffee and walked over to the booth and after realizing Carter was way too deep in thought to notice her she cleared her throat and said, "Is this seat taken?"
Carter looked up and shook his head and nodded for her to sit.
She sat and gave Carter a small smile.
Carter looked at her, then back at his coffee and began to tap his fingers against the cup making a drumming noise. "I'm sorry for yelling today." He took his gaze off of his cup then looked up at Heather, "I lost my temper, it wasn't your fault it was the nurses."
Heather shook her head and took a sip of her coffee. Then she looked at Carter, this young thriving cheif resident who has been through so much, so much pain, and still after all these years still hasn't made peace. "Youv'e been here for a while, what's on your mind?" Right after saying that, she realized how stupid it was.
Carter's glance didn't change at all, continued staring at the busy street of Chicago. "It's been a while since I thought of her and I mean really thought about her. Like, not a day goes by when think of her, a meat packing plant, starting an IV, a storm, exam 6..." He couldn't help but smile thinking of that night. "Spinal taps, valentine's day....PE" He gulped that lump in his throat that has been stuck there all day. "But really thinking about her, about how much I miss her, about how not just this hospital lost her but other people did too. About what a good doctor she was going to be. About Lucy....." He sighed and glanced up into Heather's blue blue eyes for a second to somehow get the feeling of Lucy, then back down at the table, and again his coffee.
Heather let out a small laugh as if to break the uneasy silence that has somehow grown between them, "She was going to be amazing. She was going to reach the stars....I just never knew she wasn't going to be coming back." She looked at him before continuing to talk. "You havn't made peace yet have you?"
With his gaze still stolen by the coffee, he responding with a small quivering sound in his voice, "I didn't think I'd have to..." And his eyes finally turned up to Heather. And it occured to her why he he's been so infatuated with his coffee as a small tear made it's way from his cheek, to his chin, before Carter rubbed it away. "I didn't think I'd have to until you came along."
Heather gave a small smile, that's all she could do. Lucy was always telling Heather how much he hated her, and now seeing him care so much three years later. If she could see him now...
Carter cleared his throat and the topic of Lucy and making peace was ended. He stood up and took his coat, "So, do you remember which way the eL tracks are?"
Heather's face blused pink suddenly "Umm actually...no" She let out a small giggle.
"Well I'm going that way anyway, come on." He began to walk to the door.
Heather caught up to Carter and they walked to the eL, both making jokes about earlier today. For both of them, things we're definitly changed and weren't going to be normal for a while now.
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next chapter will be a song fic! and i can almost promise tears! Thanks to my selected few little critics! Please review!
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After the tour of at County, carter and Heather found their way back to admit
"So any questions?" Carter asked
Heather shook her head.
"You sure? It can be hard on your first day..."
Heather rolled her eyes "I think I can handle this. So where do I start?"
Carter grabbed a paitent from the now piling rack and walked into Curtain Area Two. There were cases in curtain area three, sutering, rectals, a few sprained fingers but that's not where he wanted to be be right now, thats not where he wanted to be with her right now.
He walked took his time reading over the chart. And he found it stupid, but he was checking for any signs of meninjitis, any signs of metal illness, anything at all that would remind her of that night. That's what he told himself anyhow, what he was really worried about, it wasnt about her. She wasn't there that night, and she didn't feel the pain. Not only of that knife being jammed into her spine...but she didn't feel the helplessness as he crashed onto the floor, bleeding, yelling, and then as if it couldn't get any worse.. seeing his young thriving medical student worse off then he was...and not being able to help.
He opened the door for Heather and walked in behind her "Hi Mr Habib, I'm Dr. Carter and this...." his voice trailed off as he realized what he was about to say, "And this is Dr. Knight, what seems to be the problem?"
"Isn't that what the chart is for?!" Asked the pissed off paitent.
"Yes, it says you have been having problems with your meds..for hypertension."
"They keep making me dizzy" He responded.
"OK well we are going to run some tests and find out whats going on. I'm going to start you on a line first of all. Heather, watch closely"
"Oh please!" She sighed, she put the yellow band around Mr Habib's arm and took the gadge. "You're going to feel a slight pinch now" and with simple ease and carelessness, she placed the needle in and set it up. "Anything else Dr Carter?" she asked a little too cocky.
He narrowed his eyes at her.
"I'm a fourth year, not a first!"
Carter handed her the chart, "Get a nurse to draw a CBC, a chem-7 and a tox screen. Come find me in an hour." After saying this, he walked out and continued his day as normaly as possible. But he had that feeling in the back of his mind.....
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Heather was running through the halls, "Hey you!"
Abby turned around, "Ummm hi"
"Where is Dr. Carter?!"
"Sutures, why?" Abby asked, half wondering who the hell this was.
"My paitent is seizing!!" Said Heather and she ran through the hall and into Carter.
Carter walked out of the room just as Heather slammed into into his chest "Umm Heather are you okay?"
"No! Mr. Habib is seizing!!" She ran back into the room, hearing the consistant, beeping from the monitors.
"Oh damnit Heather!" He followed her running into the room. "What were his lab results?" He yelled trying to stablalize the paitent, yelling orders to Abby for meds.
"I didn't get the results back yet!" She responed holding the paitent's arm still.
"Heather it's been hours!!" He was pushing meds into the IV bag. As he face flushed with anger.
"I know! The nurses have been busy!" She couldn't help but yell back in the heat of the moment.
"If you can start an IV you sure as hell can draw some blood. I mean you are capable of that right?" The paitents seziuing finally stoped. As he took a deep breath.
"I'm was just following your directions" She protested, taking the blood preaure.
"Sometimes you have to think of the paitent when they have been laying here for hours, now do you understand?!" Carter asked, still yelling, keeping himself still from throwing something across the room.
Heather took a step back, remebering what Lucy had told her about Carter and now understanding it."Yes I think I can handle that"
"If you want to be a doctor you better start thinking for yourslef, take the blood and come find me with the results. Understand?"
Heather grabbed a needle and began to draw without saying anything.
~*~*~*~*~*
Hours later, Carter was sitting in a booth over at doc's, drinking coffee and slowly reaccounting the moments of today...of yesterday when things were so much less complicated, who would have thought that this would come back and haunt him. And of course, that night years ago.
Heather walked into the dinner and walked straight up to the counter and ordered a coffee. While waiting she looked behind her, and saw Carter. She paid for her coffee and walked over to the booth and after realizing Carter was way too deep in thought to notice her she cleared her throat and said, "Is this seat taken?"
Carter looked up and shook his head and nodded for her to sit.
She sat and gave Carter a small smile.
Carter looked at her, then back at his coffee and began to tap his fingers against the cup making a drumming noise. "I'm sorry for yelling today." He took his gaze off of his cup then looked up at Heather, "I lost my temper, it wasn't your fault it was the nurses."
Heather shook her head and took a sip of her coffee. Then she looked at Carter, this young thriving cheif resident who has been through so much, so much pain, and still after all these years still hasn't made peace. "Youv'e been here for a while, what's on your mind?" Right after saying that, she realized how stupid it was.
Carter's glance didn't change at all, continued staring at the busy street of Chicago. "It's been a while since I thought of her and I mean really thought about her. Like, not a day goes by when think of her, a meat packing plant, starting an IV, a storm, exam 6..." He couldn't help but smile thinking of that night. "Spinal taps, valentine's day....PE" He gulped that lump in his throat that has been stuck there all day. "But really thinking about her, about how much I miss her, about how not just this hospital lost her but other people did too. About what a good doctor she was going to be. About Lucy....." He sighed and glanced up into Heather's blue blue eyes for a second to somehow get the feeling of Lucy, then back down at the table, and again his coffee.
Heather let out a small laugh as if to break the uneasy silence that has somehow grown between them, "She was going to be amazing. She was going to reach the stars....I just never knew she wasn't going to be coming back." She looked at him before continuing to talk. "You havn't made peace yet have you?"
With his gaze still stolen by the coffee, he responding with a small quivering sound in his voice, "I didn't think I'd have to..." And his eyes finally turned up to Heather. And it occured to her why he he's been so infatuated with his coffee as a small tear made it's way from his cheek, to his chin, before Carter rubbed it away. "I didn't think I'd have to until you came along."
Heather gave a small smile, that's all she could do. Lucy was always telling Heather how much he hated her, and now seeing him care so much three years later. If she could see him now...
Carter cleared his throat and the topic of Lucy and making peace was ended. He stood up and took his coat, "So, do you remember which way the eL tracks are?"
Heather's face blused pink suddenly "Umm actually...no" She let out a small giggle.
"Well I'm going that way anyway, come on." He began to walk to the door.
Heather caught up to Carter and they walked to the eL, both making jokes about earlier today. For both of them, things we're definitly changed and weren't going to be normal for a while now.
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next chapter will be a song fic! and i can almost promise tears! Thanks to my selected few little critics! Please review!