Hey!! it's me again, I just want to say that I just started watching this show this season. I don't know what the beginning of Ellie and Ashley's friendship was like, so don't kill me if something's not right.

This, and continuing chapters, will basically be other characters' reactions to Ellie's death.

Please Read and Review, I only have 2 reviews so far!

Ellie;

When we first really got close you told me everything. Even the things I didn't want to know like what kind of hair dye you mom used, or what kind of wood was at the store you went to on the weekend. I told you almost everything, but didn't try to bore you. I wish you had always told me everything, from when your mom drank and even how you felt when Marco came out. I wish I would have been there.

Ellie, for some strange reason I'm so mad at you. You sent all of us into shock. I couldn't believe it.

Paige had just called me. I didn't know why, but she explained hurriedly explained that we needed to go see you. She told me later she was talking to Miss Suave that afternoon, and you weren't improving. Paige decided to tell me about your cutting.

So I'm walking to your house with Paige, and suddenly she started to cry. It was so weird; she said that something bad had just happened. She didn't know what it was, but it made her sad all the same.

Oh, Ellie. We rang the doorbell and knocked but nobody answered. So we walked right in. We were both calling your name, and we heard a moan from the bathroom. Rushing, we saw you, Ellie. You said my name. "Ash," you whispered. Then suddenly you were under, and your hair was floating around. Paige was sobbing, and suddenly it hit me.

You had killed yourself.

Why, Ellie? Why? Was it nothing that could have been prevented? I know your dad was dead and your mom was hardly home, but we were always there for you. You should have told us.

Oh, god. We both stood there, hugging each other and crying. Then we saw the note. It was more like a will, actually.

You left me YOUR NOTEBOOKS AND JOURNALS. You took your life but left with me a memory, and some notebooks. What the hell, Ellie?!? You're so selfish. Just because you're miserable doesn't mean that you had to take away yourself. Now look what you're putting us through.

Oh, Ellie. I don't mean it. I'm just upset. I love you (of course, not in a sexual way) and I miss you.

I don't know what I'm going to do. I want to see you, and hug you. I want to go back in time and pull you out of the bathtub. We could have saved you, right? How could have I just let you lay there, bleeding?

I'm a miserable person. No wonder you didn't want to spend time with me.

Yours Sincerely,

Ashley Kerwin