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Ok, this one is going to be the hardest one yet. This one isn't written in the style of a letter "to" Ellie, this is a diary entry. OK? Ok.
I hate her. I hate her, I hate her, I hate her. She lied to me. I hate it when people lie to me. And all I wanted to do was help her, make her happy.
I didn't actually want to be her savior, but someone had to do it. And since I was there, I figured I could do it just as well as her best friends could. I mean, I got though what happened last year. I'm OK now. Sean's parents drink as well, he's OK. I've talked to people. I know how their minds work. It's not like I had never been through a tragedy before. She claimed the most I could to was paint her nails black and leave me alone, but I tried.
I think I tried too hard. Dylan always tells me I give an impression of being fake. I don't try to be fake; I try to look on the bright side of things and be there for people in times of need. I guess, though, all she needed was space.
It was my fault. I was giving the impression to everyone, in school, that I still hated her. Spin and I made jokes about the Vampire wearing long sleeves and no cape. She wasn't like Manny, who could pull though and convince her parents to let her have the baby. She couldn't convince her mom to stop drinking.
2004, what a tragic year for the Nashes. Paul, her father, moved to be a peace keeper and got killed. Ellie was totally stressed and killed herself, and her mom, ordered to stop drinking by her doctor, lost her whole family, and lived though it, lost hope and decided to take the route Ell did.
Off topic, moving on. I think what I've learned most though this is that the most I can do is offer a helping hand to people. I tried to change her, rotate her 180 degrees and make her the happy girl she was at first, but that isn't going to work.
Wasn't going to work. It's too late now. Too late!! And it's all my fault. All my fault, all my fault.
I see it in my nightmares, cry with Ash in my dreams. This is definitely a year I am going to remember, maybe not all for good things.
Well, Spin just called and we're going to a movie with Marco and Dylan, so I better go do my hair and pretend to smile.
Love,
*~*Paige*~*
OK! Now, it's your turn to review. And answer this:
In chapter one, Ellie mentions "bruises from him."
(also remember this: I'm writing a story that takes place before this, and almost all the chapters will be Ellie's journal entries)
Anyway! Should I explain that part in the next letter, put it into Ellie's journal, or put it into both? Need answer review soon!
Thanks a lot,
rhian