Greetings, it is I. It seems like most of you didn't get a chance to read/review chapter 7, so go back, read it, review it (most important step!) and come back.

Fizza-65- thanks, even though this was not supposed to be an aww-inducing chapter, I thank you.

AutoXgirl- haha, it's OK, I'm already seeing somebody.

Shifty Tiffy- Yes, there will be a Manny chapter. Not sure about Emma though, they seemed to be opposites of the spectrum. Maybe, though, maybe… we'll see how this turns out.

PsYcHoJo- Of course you can't let it go. I love it. That was just a sketch about how they felt about each other, obviously what Ellie has to say will be different…. I'm developing ideas for her journal already (bad idea considering this one isn't done yet!) so that should be out…soon. I think I'm gonna end this one at 15 chapters, it will mean a lot more if I don't drag everything out…

I, too, love how they portray Ellie, but even the way she dealt with her cutting (Paige interrupting) made me think the producers and them are not going to develop her. Which totally sucks, I find her a ton more interesting than Ashley moaning about Craig and Paige having a crush on her driving instructor…

OK… moving on. Since I haven't given you an Ashley chapter since chapter 2, here's one.

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This sucks. Literally s-u-c-k-s. I lost my best friend to herself, and my boyfriend cheated on me. Not only that, he got another girl pregnant! And she's going to have the baby! I feel like screaming. And you know what the worst part is? They're naming the baby after her.

I can't take this anymore. I want to just forget about it, and make everything back to normal, but sometimes what you want most isn't what you get. I'm awake all night because I can't sleep. I'm never hungry. I can't function properly, and it's all her fault.

I can't help but think of Sean when I think of Ellie. I think that maybe she turned to him because of her lack of other friends. Although everybody knows that he's the one who's been stealing everything that's gone missing. He could have been a horrible influence on him. They should have been awful influences on each other. But it seems like even he's shocked, surprised, and, most of all, upset, just like everybody. He can be seen around the school muttering about how much he misses her.

One day we sat with him at lunch. It was just Sean Marco, Paige, and me. We sat and talked about her, and at one point looked at her spot and went, "Ell- I mean, Hello! How about letting me into the conversation!" He turned bright red after that and didn't want to talk anymore. I can't say I blame him.

The times I feel at most peaceful are when I'm listening to music. Ellie's CDs are really great. I feel so horrible but understand so much when I read Ellie's journals and notebooks. It's so sweet, there's so much about Sean in them….but at the same time stuff about me and how self-absorbed I am. Marco, she feels, had a justified reason for not paying attention to her, of course Dylan would be justified. I just looked back at that sentence. She feels, it should be "she felt". She felt! My friend is a was. A has-been, a thing of the past. My god I feel stuck here. Like I'm in a box.

Well, I'm going out of my mind. Be back soon.

Ashley