Hey, I'm so sorry you've had to wait SO long for this chapter. I imagine you will all be dying soon of lack of this story. Look for a new story by me called "Yours sincerely, Ellie Nash". That will be her journal that I've promised you since, like, chapter 2 or 3.

Deadly-Secret- nope, seems like you've got the wrong person.

PsYcHoJo- Wow. This is the shortest review I've ever gotten from you! Well, this is what you get for not putting down who you wanted… hope it's OK! Yeah go us replying in our review responses!

JamiesAngel2008- This makes you sad to read this? This even makes me sad writing this.

Poppyseed- Well, I suppose we're even because I just started watching at season three. (my sister, who's a model, was an extra, so we decided to watch it) So I haven't seen the old episodes, and you haven't seen the new ones…. When do you get to see the new ones?

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Ellie Nash, 10th grader. Friend referred her after seeing blood on shirt and forcing her to show her, her arm. Was cutting herself. Dad died in war, mom was an alcoholic. Works at Caitlin Ryan's TV show as a co-op. Committed suicide. Two friends found her lying, bleeding, drowned in her bathtub. Overall the school suffered a traumatic loss.

As a professional, I find Ellie's case nothing out of the ordinary. Not to say that S-I and suicide are typical things, but with an alcoholic mother and nobody to really call a parent, and what with stressing out for school and to remain working at her co-op job, I can't say that's an unlikely reaction.

When Ellie came to me the first few times, she didn't talk to me. I would ask her a question, and she would stay quiet and stare at me. After she got comfortable with me rambling on and bringing another girl in who had been in a similar situation to talk, Ellie would talk to me. But she was only really good at telling me about events instead of feelings. After I asked her to keep one, she had this journal, and could be seen everywhere with it. Scribbling everything in it.

Paige told me she was worried about her. I guess I could understand her worry, her curiosity, but when I'd talk to Ellie she would tell me Paige was being too over-protective, that Paige was following her and demanding to see her arms. Ellie said she didn't mind having one counselor, but having Paige protect her was unreasonable.

Ellie never told anybody that she was thinking about suicide. In her journals I know she wrote everything down. After Ashley, who was her best friend, reads them, I know I'll get too.

When I would comment about how she didn't look very happy, she would laugh at me and say, "No kidding Suave, I slit my wrists for fun!" She had such a dry sense of humor, and nobody ever noticed. Nobody ever noticed her. I'm not saying that's the way it was, but that was the way the other students made her feel. Can you imagine walking down a hall in high school with nobody? That would be hard for even me, a faculty member. I mean, if you put it in simplest terms, Ellie really only was a little girl. A young girl, who felt lost and alone in the cow herd called high school.

The only reason I never called in a professional psychiatrist was because she was so good at putting up her façade that she was OK. Everyone but Paige and I were able to close their eyes to her problems. And Sean. But he had enough problems of his own. Ellie and Sean were the strangest couple in Degrassi; they were so contrasting…

Would you look at that; I've spent the whole hour writing about a girl in the past. Day 4, 2nd period, she should be in here now. We should be having a nice talk about her parents, and Sean, and her friends. But now there's Marco outside, looking like he's about to cry.

And that's when we realize that we're still here.

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OK how was that for a last chapter? There will be an epilogue, and a thanks and all that good stuff. Remember to review!

-rhian